Since U Been Gone

Since U Been Gone (Cover)

Lyrics:
and i still feel my hands on your thighs
and i still see the look in your eyes
and i remember when you wanted to die
well i did too but we learned to get by

stay close cause i miss you on your smoke break
they know that im crushin but i wont say
lay low holding secrets make my throat ache
i hope you know just how i feel because i wont break

i cant connect, open my mouth, i try to speak but no words come out
i cant connect
thoughts in my head, wish i were dead, im zoning out into the ceiling again
i cant connect

i dont blame you if you ended up not liking me
im a bore and im a menace to society
every day lost in my mind im tryna find some peace
im a ghost and im a shell of what i used to be

always keep you close you know i just cant connect
girl i kept you by my side i had my lips on your neck
if i could only use my words to tell you that im a wreck
and that i need you next to me so i feel safe in this bed

i got some real dark secrets that im hiding away
im tryna keep mental sanity and lock it in place
you know im tryna do my best to make it feel like im sane
i got a fucking parasite i keep it deep in my brain

and you know i might explode, like a land mine
and im sorry if i panic at a bad time
i know you prolly wanna fuck but i flatlined
im just sorry im a wreck im tryna get by

Can't Connect

cant connect

prod. https://youtube.com/channel/UC0oGcZfAZaOby4FVubPcrFQ

combat boots (prod. skellington)

captive like the tide waves to the moon

featuring @paperrosehaiku
produced by @morgnbates
cover art by n.m. pane

thank you for listening
i love you all <3

STREAMING

cherry tree (ft. paper rose haiku) [p. homesick]

Remedy

Remedy w/ sewerperson, Weepings (Curated By: JollyWrlld)

❣6 missed calls (ft. noah2000 and lil skele) (prod. nevrfall)❣

first single off the EP with grayfox and beecher

i always get a headrush w/ sendflowrs & beecher

spinning off the deep end tonight </3

✨Polar ✨
💎 @polar333 💎
💎 instagram.com/ihatepolar/ 💎
💎 twitter.com/ihatepolar/ 💎

✨Suisai ✨
💎 @sushisai 💎
💎 instagram.com/sushisigh/ 💎
💎 twitter.com/sushisigh 💎

✨Blade901 ✨
💎 @blade_901 💎
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💎 twitter.com/blade901 💎

stream ❄️

deep end w/ suisai (prod. blade901)

i know i'm a mess
you say that you're depressed
but you haven't met me yet
im as hopeless as they get

my mind is over run by enzymes 
hope that ill die soon
hope that you wont cry to, or lie to,
me or my friends cuz u know what u did 
oh my god 
im so fucked
i just wanna feel in love

so nonchalant as you 
watch me break before your eyes 
falling apart will you
meet me on the other side
look past the flaws
can’t you see i just was traumatized 
i can’t blame the drugs 
but i wasn’t myself at the times

when we got together again
i got as low as it gets 
influenced her to seek change 
and live like me on the edge 

she got away but 
the damage been done 
i lost some loved ones 
over my own problems

i posses a modicum of skill it makes me depressed
i just wanna feel something cutting through my fucking chest
baby let me bleed on the floor
ive fucking done this before
you just judge me at my core
i got no fucking support

i still have the photos of you
in my room
in my head
cant fade out 
wont go home
ill get stoned 
on my own

cuz i hate u now more than evrrr
cuz i hate u now more than evrrr
cuz i hate u now more than evrrr

i still have the photos of you
in my room
in my head
cant fade out 
wont go home
ill get stoned 
on my own

i know i'm a mess
you say that you're depressed
but you haven't met me yet
im as hopeless as they get

spotify

hopeless (ft. j-sin)

LYRICS:
Please don't leave me waiting 
Got thoughts in my head and they never fading
Please don't leave me waiting 
Got thoughts in my head and they never fading  
Okay break it up I want the balance
No way that you think you acting valid
Challenge every time we go through this
All ballads how I tell her let's risk
It please don't leave me waiting 
Got thoughts in my head and they never fading
And our playlist of songs they  just keep replaying 
I wanna make this clear I'm always staying 

Give me every little bit of your emotion 
Know when it comes to love you're loaded 
I don't wanna run I think you know it 
I told the stars and I think they'll show it

Okay break it up I want the balance
No way that you think you acting valid
Challenge every time we go through this
All ballads how I tell her let's risk
It please don't leave me waiting 
Got thoughts in my head and they never fading
And our playlist of songs they  just keep replaying 
I wanna make this clear I'm always staying  

Yeah please just hear me out 
I wanna know the things that you think about 
Please please just hear me out 
Run away then back to me I'll be around  
And if wanna walk under city lights 
So close with your hand just next to mine 
Hit me up I know backways even to your heart 
Wanna start again that way
Give me every little bit of your emotion 
Know when it comes to love you're loaded 
I don't wanna run I think you know it 
I told the stars and I think they'll show it

Okay break it up I want the balance
No way that you think you acting valid
Challenge every time we go through this
All ballads how I tell her let's risk
It please don't leave me waiting 
Got thoughts in my head and they never fading
And our playlist of songs they  just keep replaying 
I wanna make this clear I'm always staying 
Please don't leave me waiting 
Got thoughts in my head and they never fading
Please don't leave me waiting 
Got thoughts in my head and they never fading

leave me waiting (prod. IOF x King Theta)

trying something a little different
tysm for 500 followers & 100k total plays
i love y'all thank u for supporting me

produced by @hellahaunted and @jolst <3

lyrics:
bottles on my desk so i don’t look back
think i got the symptoms of a heart attack
fuckin up my system so i write that
put all of my pieces in a notepad

i can’t see the road everything is gray
i can feel my heart drop, how the times change
memories in my pocket feel like our remains
i thought i was good now, what a shame
tell me you love me, then leave on the daily
im fuckin exhausted, im swimming in saline
what is the difference, if you fuckin hate me
between what is lost and whats goin to save me

im losing it
i melt into your touch and then im bruised and it hurts
im scared of fucking up cuz then i’ll be at my worst
i’ll fade into the grass and let u keep all my shirts
cuz i know you still care
and i know you’ll be tattered
i cant fucking leave
but my mind has been scattered
im all over the place now
just wait for the breakdown
not scared to be face down
i’ve been there before 
i’ve been there before 

bottles on my desk so i don’t look back
think i got the symptoms of a heart attack
fuckin up my system so i write that
put all of my pieces in a notepad

i can’t see the road everything is gray
i can feel my heart drop, how the times change
memories in my pocket feel like our remains
i thought i was good now, what a shame
tell me you love me, then leave on the daily
im fuckin exhausted, im swimming in saline
what is the difference, if you fuckin hate me
between what is lost and whats goin to save me

saline [p. caspr x jolst]

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saline [caves x jolst]

existing is exhausting, but im happy youre here

cherry tree (ft. paper rose haiku) [p. homesick]

thebreathingbackwards

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