another lil throwback/unreleased track from 2020
never got around to finishing this one
but i thought i'd drop what i had

@prodbartes

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fought my way through half of november
i was sick & then i got better
you came back to start a new chapter
i was scared for what would come after
the lights went off cold nights in december
held you tight our hearts burn like ember
called your cab & left you my sweater
all these things i wish you'd remember

all these things i wish you'd remember (prod. bartes)

Diamante

wanna drive slow in a black benz/
got my eyes closed i don’t have friends/
i don’t wanna make it home tonight/
i don’t wanna make it out alive/
everybody see me through a mac lense/
fuck em tho i spray em with a mac 10/
pour another 4 inside my sprite/
now I’m dripping purple on my off-white/
yeah i had gun to my head last night/
everybody said that’d be alright/
they lied, they lied/
i don’t think ill see another daylight/
yea i had a bitch now my shit aint right/
can’t get out of bed i been missing my life…yeah/
so breathe in the white while i reach for the knife, aye, damn/
never asked you to understand where i come from babe/
you get mad cuz i don’t play your games/
take it back and ill make my name alone if i have to/
yeah i had a gun to my head last night/
sitting In my bed sipping tec fuck life/
can’t get out my head what you said aint right/
kiss me when I’m dead cuz i really wanna die/
fucking up a check and my tears stay ice/
bitches always bad when the money stay right/
everybody laughed cuz they not that nice/
she aint coming back cuz her wrist stayed sliced/
they don’t know the half cuz it’s not my vice/
i been in the back with my clique all night/
smoking on the pack with a bitch/ 
and ill take my life alone if i have to/

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GunToMyHead (prod. fats'e)

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//私の声が聞こえますか//

i'm gonna take a short week and a half break from everything to sort my mental health issues out and focus on myself. i'm sorry. i hope you guys understand. i love you

i don't wanna feel like this

9TAILS - Ill Try To Explain

thanks so much to everyone for the love and support through making this. more coming soon. shout out to Brody for the beats, Andy for the heat, and Arlaina for the cover art.

180 degrees (prod. brody)

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show my mans some luv @tothegood

lyrics
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your love can't save me now i'm broken
lost and was never found i'm hopeless
your love can't save me now i'm broken
i'll never come around you know this
i'm broken (x8)
i'm tired of loving someone
who don't care bout enough
so i take my drugs and i
numb the fuck up love

your love can't save me now i'm broken
lost and was never found i'm hopeless
your love can't save me now i'm broken
i'll never come around you know this

this was a curse from the get-go
my head is a trip and i feel like i'll let go
of everything that i care about
and if i wanna leave then i'll get the fuck out
and i'll pack up my shit and i'll go
run with the feeling of feeling alone
missin' your touch when i know that you don't
i just want love but i find it in drugs in my coat

and i hide inside
and i cry every night i'm alive
cause the flesh in my chest is a lie
when i smoke and i look to the sky
this'll be the end of everything we know
i can't really think about the future and i won't
waste another day inside just scrollin' on my phone
stitch my broken heart and then you wrap it with a bow

your love can't save me now (x4)

follow tothegood

pyramids (prod. by tothegood)

sick of overthinking every night

made this one in like a day
sometimes it be like that
another production by the amazing @harvest

spotify

make this work (prod. harvest)

bipolar freestyle (prod. GHXST & Dj Pain)

a lil' flip of give me something by seafret that i did a few years ago
i was gonna add vocals but didn't think i could do it justice
<3

give me something

Support Venus: https://www.youtube.com/c/venusboy

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Lyrics:
missing all the late nights snuggled tight
Had one glimpse upon that face, I know the feelings right
I cannot forget the taste of your tongue
I'm so drunken in love
I think I might know the meaning now
~ (ohhhh)
can't you just feel it now
it's been a year since you apeared a head above the crowd
you're something special
you are simply picture perfect
and I'm sure your embrace will be worth it
to fight through all the sleepless nights
and I remember last december you entered my life
you brought me hope again
and filled me from within
brought love to my life, shine bright girl
~
and I think every single night
I apprciate ya
sorry if i'm distant
you and music are my mediators
so I thought I'd put together a few songs so I can just show
how much I really love you, come together and we just soak
~
In the sunlight
love shine so bright
I'm outta words right now
you're my partner in crime
you're my world, lie down
with you're on my chest
calm my nerves right down
(down)
(down)
(calm my nerves right down)
(down)
(down)
(calm my nerves right down)
In the sunlight
love shine so bright
I'm outta words right now
you're my partner in crime
you're my world, lie down
with you're on my chest
calm my nerves right down
(down)
(down)
(calm my nerves right down)
(down)
(down)
(calm my nerves right down)

5 AM [prod. venus]

existing is exhausting, but im happy youre here

make this work (prod. harvest)

thebreathingbackwards