an audio diary of my life last year
special thanks to everyone that likes what i do

Sound Waves Are Killing Me And I Love It

You’ll be inside my mind
Until it hits the ground 
Drink this pesticide 
As I’m deep in the ground

Remember this remember it
Disgusting arrangement x4

You’ll be inside my 
Inside my mind 

You’ll be there forever 
Within this
Disgusting arrangement

Disgusting Arrangement

I saw the grey smoke rise out of your fingertips
The familiar candle scent engages in brute force ecstasis 
Like dissolved closed caskets partaking in brutal exodus
You’ll find the beautiful body torture & something brighter than your skyline
The skin of a soul attached to a clothesline 
Grieve your contempt and breath in the confusing alchemy 
Just don’t attach yourself 

Why so frail?
Did you love the crash?
Why so frail? 
The gold was chosen
Why so frail?
Did your sides fall?
Why so frail? 
The pain so strong

The bright screeching whispers torture me x2

Bright Screeching Whispers

I’ve been in this jaw all my life 
But they say bastard you know nothing
They say to clench your fist and shake it at the sky
But you really should do nothing 
You’ll be stuck in a prison for hours each day
Fighting for your freedom to suffer
I would kick the legs out from under their throne
But I’m x4

Trapped in a tooth 
And there’s no way out 

You complain about the torture you’re given
But you just can’t find out the source
So you blame it on something random
Your self hatred still hasn’t ran it’s course
I’ve seen what that infantile mindset does to people
But you really couldn’t give a damn 
A part of Hitler lodged deep inside you
Ready to blame your fellow man
I would be in the street burning this empire down 
But you know I’m, know I’m x8

Trapped in a tooth 
And there’s no way out 
I know what must be done
But I’m afraid to say 

There needs to be something new, a better way 
I’ll break this jaw to break you free x3

Trapped In A Tooth

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Left alone with arrhythmia of your delta waves
Trapped in cages, I know you’re history you’re hollow
Disconnected side glance what your eyes follow 
Stop talking I know it’s not natural

What it feels like, it’s just like quicksand 
So quick to dig your teeth into my hands
Burning blood of a casket it’s in my home
Right now it’s time to count to zero
Six feet under my tunnel vision it’s near
Though your time is nil it’s so penetrable 
Snow angel dragon dancing found us face down
Negative nothing it’s time now 

Why do you desire to feel small like me?
Hubris crushed by the weight of defeat
Burning buildings as far as you can see
Angel ravaged by man’s eye clearly

I can’t speak
It’s so unnatural 
Why let me breathe 
Please god unfold (x2)

Feel this light i feel your eyes
Locked in skintight I know it’s right
I do this so my life gets controlled 
Extend a glance then do drumrolls

Hard to speak but it’s even harder to give a fuck
Can’t articulate my way out of the serpents gut
Torn to shreds a glass eye is left standing
I’ll die before I get branded
Visions blur my eyes until it’s blinding
Decapitated to be released from this binding
My blood in the sand writes a message in your prose
I think now it’s time to count to zero 

Why do you desire to feel small like me?
Hubris crushed by the weight of defeat
Burning buildings as far as you can see
Angel ravaged by man’s eye clearly

I can’t speak
It’s so unnatural 
Why let me breathe 
Please god unfold (x2)

Counting To Zero

Watching you limp
Like a half dead stray
It was simple
Why did you change it

Choke on this knife and realize
This name you knew was begotten 
In an open fire that rages 
Longer than our lives 
You circle around my marrow
And hope for more time

What was meant 
Inside
I tie you
In power lines 
Dead wrists 
We’re suspects
Embalmed sons
In helpless minds

Scars in iron eyes bewitch 
My solar flare soaked belly
The dust that covers the earth
Gets washed out by your amber 
I carry this torch 
And replace its name with mine

Crawl
Fucking crawl (x8)

Warped dead skin like a leather scalpel
Forked tongues circle around me
A heart of gold could never beat
Grey smoke burns me at the stake
There’s no connection to what you know
A tether has shattered down the road 
The bridge you made I jumped from
And from those depths I rise above

You prayed I failed 
So you could control
There’s nothing left for me to give
I’ll let you write my epitaph 
Born to drown 
Spineless & suited
The story’s done
Chance my epilogue

Epilogue

alkypink x ther8r - i feel sickly w temporary mix holder (alky)

@https://soundcloud.com/w-eeps-lvl-2
@https://soundcloud.com/sterlingbidler

alky 

I've told countless times my voice don't fit my face 
They can tell im a fag jus by looking at my face
They dont wanna hear so i shove it in they face 
U know that u fucked up By up the look up on my face

Ya I know I'm emo I don't fuck w 3 days grace
Every drug that i take from my body gets Replaced 
What's ur favorite  class alkypink is my main 
I can nevwr die ill b in Eternal Flames

w.eeps

Pyramids Of Giza 
I’m stacking to ibiza 
Gems on my side 
i Feel like Saint Peter
King of the hills 
And I’m packing up a speaker
4 zips Zip tight 
It’ll fucking reach ya

Smoking ammonia 
And ethanol 
If imma go out 
Ima roll far

Zone ya 
Till the tower falls
On podzol 

Eskimo 
In my castle
Feel like paul wall

both

she say I’m stupid 
With my blue strips
See a new thing
And I gotta cop it
4 bags they all full
4 hags they all dull

alky

Vacant hole on my chest it's  null
Girls who like other gurls who i Pull
Feeling better with the smoke in my Hull
Daemon horns on my head like a bull

Like sabeleye i b swimmin in Jewels 
I drink ur  blood and I use it as fuel 
Cryptic wears im a bit like im Choose goose 
Cursed crystals on my neck what im Used to 

Real kajjit see me Sippin Skooma
When i stop always feel imma Do it again 
All alone im Making songs in my room ya 
Out in public kinda dress like a Hooligan

Blow a cloud like I'm smoking a Hookah 
Used to choke but until I got Used to them
Cant lie i always feel like im Stupid 
Drown the thoughts cuz I'm breathing in fumes again

I can't even lie I been missing the green
I come from the forest where i was living in trees
I kinda bugs me rhyming so obviously 
City life gets to me, I gotta say how it b

both

she say I’m stupid 
With my blue strips
See a new thing
And I gotta cop it
4 bags they all full
4 hags they all dull

alky x w.eeps - she say im stupid :/ (sterling bidler)

alkypink x ther8r - mystic creatures (r8r)

prod me and ther8r
@https://soundcloud.com/ther8er

huge ass platforms on my feet
miss me on the back of my Jeans
wear my necklaceses in threes
feelin so fresh and so clean 

killin this feature for free
r8r n I brewing heat
creep thru the woods smoking trees
these lames so gross I go green 

always by myself so I'm downing all these potions 
ears are always ringing like I'm listening ocean
I'm rotting on the floor cause I dont stay in motion
toke after toke so I dont deal with emotions 

remember my responsibilities like oh shit
alky why u dropping all this heat so goated 
alking how I always look so clean its stolen
i know that I'm such a fucking feen but I'm glowing 

too tired to ponder over dreams they get puzzling
predetermined visions tied up on a time string
sutured up outside, open heart is meddling
fine-tuning, to tread into the next gen
all the flame is applied, we done with cryogen
to see beyond this facade, hallucination
pull the pieces apart and put them back again

recording in the shed ash pile by me grows 
fit all black hair red like  shadow 
hair block my eyes u can only see my nose
cant trust me w ur heart itll end up on my stove 

drop a song that nobody knows 
u like damn this rly some gold
rly strange how my touch is so cold
sleep w me bite your neck if I'm close 

I dont fuck w their music it blows 
follow trends shit soundin so old
no effort, selling out ,and It shows 
2 witches posted up we some crows 


baby cant tell that she into a fag
she say that I'm cool and I got insect swag 
I make her nervous but that makes me glad
cause then I'm not alone in the feelings  I have

too tired to ponder over dreams they get puzzling
predetermined visions tied up on a time string
sutured up outside, open heart is meddling
fine-tuning, to tread into the next gen
all the flame is applied, we done with cryogen
to see beyond this facade, hallucination
pull the pieces apart and put them back again

live through so so many years being patient
pick up all these secrets, sneaking like an agent
putting on the ritz, fiending for a way to present
sunscreen tapestry, mastering to prevent
done with all the fake shit trauma that we underwent
living in pajamas, fuck rules, we too spent
wave files and commas defining the ascent

dreamgate w ther8r

alkypink x ther8r - out of order (alky)

@https://soundcloud.com/psythoness

Sock over the mic, block the s sounds
U know dat alkypink get da best sounds
Music fans only people i wont Let down
No car so i teleport to Get around 

I see 2024 as the Next round 
Imma chill by my lone while i blow clouds
I guess the songs wieird but i Get down
Spellbook and a blade in my load out

Im runnin out i weed gotta Hold out 
Psythoness on the beat blow your lobes out
Put my teeth in ur neck take ur soul out
I think kinda like when it's Cold out 

Snowing outside winter posse season 
Me n my twin walk out when it's freezing 
2024 leave ur ears bleeding
2024 brand new season 

If i make big i wont Sell out
Give love to my friends  that feel left out 
Life Sucks  gotta evolve like a Bellsprout
Ill show up if u gice me the Whereabouts 

I luv my friends more than I luv myself
If I make it big then I'm sharing my wealth
Yall give me so much I could never repay u 
But I'll make some songs I prolly wont name u

Get high together and black out 
On the shrooms like my brains gonna lag out 
Work on a song till I pass out
Money looking funny like it had gout 

hope my songs aren't to weird for my friends to enjoy 
I know it sounds strange that i pitch uo my Voice
But I think I'm sounding better than I used to Be
All my friend used say the best part was the beats 

Randos bother me N always leave me annoyed 
People asking me if I'm a girl or a boy 
I guess in a way, that rly is my whole point 
Baby call me a gurl its like a Slip of the Freud

Never fit in I was beamed to this earth
Never fit in I was beamed to this earth
Never fit in I was beamed to this earth
Never fit in I was beamed to this earth

beamed 2 dis earf pt 2 *evolve* (psythoness)

made w sasha at da crib

Growing up mom said that im Emo
Lungs black cuz I smoked a whole kilo 
And I stay in the air just like I'm spearow
Pet spider people say that im a Weirdo 

It's ur life ur own story ur the hero
I like blood a bit too much like a mosquito
Shes done im numb, i'm like neato 
I just try to b nice while y'all all mean tho 

Did it hit yet
Did it hit yet
Didn't hit yet
Didn't think so
I luv my friends 
Cut off the split ends 
Never miss them 
Gone w my soul 

Only my bae has a ringtone
Take all my pics on a flipphone
3 witches w sasha and flipphone 
Wearing enchanted Magic robes 

Making beats dropping songs w my  Kin folk
When im w u Only time that my Lips closed
Brain dont work but cute like a bimbo
I dont choke Blow the smoke out the window 

Snow outside winter time it's my birthday
Aim to fuck w me today it'll end in the worst way
It's 4 am so i won't waking  early
Tommy jeans and the sweater says Hurley 
Evryone i been w says im Purty
Ill prove to u that im good n that im Worthy
She like an emo witch and im Nerdy
She think I'm cute tho I'm bad at flirting. 




Growing up mom said that im Emo
Lung from black cuz I smoked the whole kilo 
And I stay up in the air just like I'm spearow
Pet spider people say that im a Weirdo 

It's ur life ur own story ur the hero
I like blood a bit too much like a mosquitoe
Shes done im numb, so I'm like neato 
I just try to b nice while y'all all mean tho

alkypink - weirdo (alky x aja)

shut up!!
lil liarr
ur b!tch
i waz bad ~.~
gimme some (control)
2 disappear
my divine escape
silent pleas3

PAIN IS THE NEW POP VOL @

production, vocals, guitar, mixing by me
cover art by vivian fleur

 i know u want this body but u cant have it

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EE38edVMTII&ab_channel=brenty4110

Knife JUICE

I FEEL FANTASTIC
MY GIRL THE BADEST
(its rs2 bitch) ON ME RELAXING
IM SO DRAMATIC (hahah)

I-I-I-IM OFF THE LETUCE
ROLL UP THE MATRESS
RACKS UP IM MAXING
BALLOUT GO SPASTIC

LAST RIOT FUCK THE PRAYER
WRIST WET FAUCET FAILURE
ON NUBANK I BRING THE PAPER
CUZ I COOK MY SHIT WITH FLAVOR
MY BITCH MAKING YOU SO JELOUS
THAT PURPLE SYRUP IMMA SAVOUR
SEND THAT BOY TO HIS MAKER
BLOODY MONEY THRU A STRAINER
FUCK THEM BENZOS GOT ME VACANT
SMELL MY FRAGENCE, GET ME PAYMENT
SHOUT FLAMER, CHILL WORLD MAYOR
HES A PLAYER, BEAT SLAYER
LITTLE RUSTY BUT NO MATER
STRIPE ON ME LIKE T CREATOR
PRAY TO cCc LIKE SAVIOR

I FEEL FANTASTIC
MY GIRL THE BADEST
ON ME RELAXING
IM SO DRAMATIC

I-I-I-IM OFF THE LETUCE
ROLL UP THE MATRESS
RACKS UP IM MAXING
BALLOUT GO SPASTIC

TELL ME WHAT YOU ON ABOUT
SHE GOT ME ON SPEED DIAL
BRAVE AS, A NOUN
SSD PACKED SOUND
AND IM SMOKING ON THIS LOUD
...BY THE POUND
I GOT COTTON MOUF
GLOCK LAND ON LOST AND FOUND
GOT MY BOYS OUT ON THE PROWL
WE DONT NEED NO FUCKING CLOUT
BOY WE GON STAND OUT FROM THE CROWD
BACKWOODS SMELLING FOUL
NO CROWN, KEVIN MACLEOD
I PUT THIS K ALL ON YOUR SNOUT
NEW ROCKS GOT THE GOUT
IM ON THIS CLOUD I WONT COME DOWN

I FEEL FANTASTIC
MY GIRL THE BADEST
ON ME RELAXING
IM SO DRAMATIC

I-I-I-IM OFF THE LETUCE
ROLL UP THE MATRESS
RACKS UP IM MAXING
BALLOUT GO SPASTIC

RUDiMENTARY SPELLS 2

feel fantastic

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FEEL FANTASTiK!   *prod @me*

Experimental musician operating out of Iowa creating the things my brain tells me to play. @pretend-recordings

Bright Screeching Whispers

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