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mixed, mastered, written and recorded by me

LYRICS:
Don’t go without me
But you left, so suddenly
Control freak
Is all you see in me 

But I’m more
Just give me more
Let me show you
Just what I can do
Before you go

Replace
The memories I had of you, with someone else
Erase 
Every thought of you that I held
Can’t just let you waste inside my mind 
And I ain’t staying in tonight
Wash away the sins inside
Cover up what I try to hide
What’s the point of this shitty life
(Oh-oh)
Why do I still try to fight 
(No-oh)
Myself I’ll never find

(We haven’t talked and I think we should)

And I know it’s time to get my life in check
Get back to the way I once was before 
But I’m scared of what comes next
Staying clear of the edge, I’m afraid I might fall
And I know that you won’t catch me
You say you will, but you lie, ain’t there when I call

Control freak
(Freak, freak, freak)
Is all you see in me

But I’m more
Just give me more
Let me show you
Just what I can do
Before you go

Second to last song for the year, its been an awesome one thanks so much. have a good rest of 2023 loveu <#

control freak

produced by sinxi

Oh
What's the problem, baby?
Oh
Am i not like your fantasy?
Oh
What's the problem, baby?
Oh
Am i not like your fantasy?

Oh no
How the fuck could you just leave me alone?
You saw the way i gave you my all
You want me there then tomorrow you don't
I'm getting sick of you so give me a call
It ain't the drugs this time i promise i'll talk
The perfect ending to our mess of a world
Making up and in a blink we'll be gone
'Cos i didn't wanna die being your enemy

I know maybe i don't understand
But i just want you to be alright
And i know that it takes some time

Baby lately i don't know
Feel a little heavy in a shattered soul
Try to be consistent but it never goes
The way i really want and i guess it's shown

And i don't mind if you look inside my mind
'Cos when i reminisce, you say that i tried
We both know you can't stay
Leave me to decay
Leave me to burn
Break my heart
Turn me to stone
The less that we know
Take my time
Take my heart

Oh
Am i not like your fantasy?
Oh
What's the problem, baby?
Oh
Am i not like your fantasy?

enemy

i seen your eyes turn to water
you must be so ahead idk what u wanna hear
from me, now im older
glass feels colder
inside looking out
what if this how they view me from the outside
ur looking down on me
ur looking down now
this blasphemy 
it all comes round 
you were bad for me
im so fucked now

i could take a knife out
put it through my wrist
let you grab it with your hand just so you can twist
i wont tell nobody
youd never hurt a soul
dont try to complicate it
ur doing it wrong
you can try and stop me however you want
ill put a hole through ur head
and then ill spin it off
im sick of being vulnerable
no one listens now
youll never get ahead of me 
ill just rip you down

ur splitting personalities 
i swear nobody gives a shit
walk right over me, ur never nice oh no one bit
i must be such a disgrace, im holding you back
covering my ears oh i love when you laugh
but its bad
i see ur faces walking round like you have
other family you throw me on my ass
never mine and its honestly sad

wrist

msitreated, misplaced
scars on my face
smoking so much lately
my teeth got yellow stains

no feelings, erased
hate how people change
bloody knuckles hit the wall
but life's still the same 

over you in my head
in my heart u still there
my body's a mess
feel u eating at my flesh 


feeding off of me
ur drinking what i bleed
acting like you love me 
then use me like a leach

how ain't u ashamed of ur-self~
keep on acting like ur the-best
i think u should just let me-rest
stop trynna find where my body-at

deep down, covered in dirt
x marks the spot i got hurt
under a tree, where the sun won't burn
is where i wrote this song

mistreated, misplaced
scars on my face
smoking so much lately
my teeth got yellow stains

no feelings, erased
hate how people change
bloody knuckles hit the wall
but life's still the same (2x)

mistreated, misplaced (caves)

prod by stezzyxl
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oh i hate you
(i wish i could)
oh i love you
(well, that’s not good)
oh i miss you
(oh i knew i would)
oh come home
(please)

oh no no no
i can never catch up
oh down down down a bottle
till ur fucked up
oh no no no
i can never let you go
i’ll run run run just like
somebody i know

are u satisfied?
leaving me for another guy
i’m not a nobody u can push aside
need treatment, antibiotics, for a parasite 
in my head
my heart rate starts to diminish
shes coming back, she ain’t finish
she leaves my head for her supper
that what u call parasitic
she begs her parents  for more
so she keeps searching in stores
she finds a victim in sight
another guy she can lure

i cannot imagine a life without you
and i don’t wanna think about it all
we rode until the end till we fell
we’re not in love

(not again)

u ego has a clever way to infiltrate ur mind
it likes to hide itself in selfishness and stupid lies
i hope one day u wake up and realize what you've done
so start preparing, pack ur bags, cuz there no way to run

i cletch my fist, when i walk past
i hear ur friends, as they start to laugh
little do u know there on my side
they know the truth now, u parasite

parasite

prod @prod-oc

// lyrics 
leave me with what to prove
you speak all but the truth
and betray
such a rude display
aha

they crowd around like sheep
but i don’t really sleep
it’s for the weak
and i don’t really care
it’s not that deep no
leave her with a scare
in the wrong season

look me in the face
what’s left to say love
i’ll give them some credit
they should’ve stand down
seems like everybody’s
acting like a fan now
sorta funny
no one cared now they got bandz out

uh
i don’t fuck with your friends
i’d put that bitch in the grave love
um
keep sticking pins in your hand
you can’t go a day without drugs yuh
say your man’s in a band
i get more streams than he could understand
he doesn’t know what you do with your hands
wrap around me like a rubberband

bring the flame
set the fire
let it burn
i love pain
i love to hurt
baby kick me in the dirt now
say my name
with a passion
i’m the worst
make it heard
by the whole world
let them know
i’m out for blood now

i can feel the tension
cutting tendons up until he dies
i can fill the room up with the bodies
frame a suicide
i can be the geist that haunts your bloodline
every day and night
i can see through your disguise
all the fear inside your eyes

get your money up
get my name out of your mouth
bitch
it’s sorta funny now
all your groupies fuck with my shit
act all buddy love
bet you’re wishing that i had quit
it’s really funny now
you’re on your knees sucking my dick

blood on my hands
wiped on my pants
reload the gun and we’re ready
it’s all in the plan
stay in demand
going up we’re steady
seems like everybody’s
acting a fan now
sorta funny
no one cared now they got bandz out

scarecrows scattered across the fields
i move swift, i never yield
cover up where my arms bleed
you wont smell the blood on me

so you’ve got perfect aim
but cannot hit me i’m a phantom
promise i’m not worried
bro you’re just a fucking random
i might need my medicine cause i keep throwing tantrums
you’ve heard all my cyphers but now we’re calling this the anthem

step out of my way
i swear i’ll turn you to an atom
and no i am not worried
guess you haven’t seen my fandom
i might need my medicine cause i keep throwing tantrums
you’ve heard all my cyphers but now we’re calling this the anthem

phantom

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phantom [oc]

[lyrics]

NOAH THOMAS
aw yeah cypher song, take one breath i know you’re breathing me in, when I’m a thousand miles away how could you still think of him?, you’re on the train home thinking about what y’all could’ve been, when i was right here all along, just kept making amends

SPOOKYBANDS
baby hang on, i’ve been good as far as you know, we don’t need to make problems, i cant love you right now girl, yeah i can fix up that front door that you complain about, you say you can feel a draft still, i dont need you getting colder

SACE6
and I’m still holding on, for it to be the same, if i’m still going on, don’t ask me to stay, i’m so sick of writing paragraphs, no need to cry it wouldn’t last, anyways, anyways

HAMILTON
and i’m so sick of feeling like this, woke up and my body feeling lifeless, i’m at the bottom of the bottle can you pick me up, i’m so sick of feeling this stuck in my head, every single day, memories of you start to fade away and turn gray, as i turn a new page, i’m just another dog trying to break my cage 

KENNY ORLANDO
and if i said that i moved on then you know i’d be lying, how do i put something i love so damn much behind me, i’m stuck in hiding, but let it find me, how do you move on? you do it blindly

KILLMESUMDAY
this time you can lose my number, i don’t know why this happens to me, time flies she still wears my sweater, thats the closest that she’ll get to me, my heart hurts cause i still remember all the lies that you fed to me, we can’t talk you’re always pulling me under, i can’t let you get the best of me

EZRA
you’re far away and i hate you, you won’t find another me i hope it breaks you up, was it a mistake to let you live a dream i hope life f***ing wakes you up, I-95 i’m driving all alone and i’m driving drunk, just stay alive, i’m trying, your heartless words don’t help me much

LOVE JAI
if i'm a piece of your puzzle i just won't ever fit, i feel like some people hate me and they just won't admit, i live up to your expectations i'm a piece of s**t, i got a target on my head and it's hit or miss, don't pay no mind heart intertwined and my hands are tied, i can feel the pressure from all angles I’m not switching sides congratulations your wish is true don’t act so surprised, wont say a word about it and i don’t even know why 

KENNEDYXOXO
it’s like i want what i cant have, i’m so self destructive i suggest that you stand back and you’ll be okay, tough love isn’t that bad, is that sad, now that this is over i wonder who got the last laugh, and its over with i told you i was never okay, you told me to get over it like “oh you don’t say”, i’d be colder and emotionless i dug my own grave, now it’s time for you to leave me here before its too late

JOMIE
when will you care cause i doubt you ever did, yeah we close to the finale hope you had fun cause i did, i feel like robin since my pretty b***h look  to go shopping, anything for her by any means, so run your pockets, vroom vroom got one speed i’m zooming, told her if she got another option she should choose it, why you looking At my face you think that funny s**t amusing, you stay at your momma’s place then make fun of my music, what the f**k you doing, its getting harder to be the bigger person, it’s only a loss if you find you didn’t leaRn s**t, i know i’ve won when i write my name in cursive on your girlfriends lips she says that i’ve earned it

aw yeah cypher song ft. spookybands, hamilton, Love Jai, Ezra, & Jomie

prod by stezzyxl
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lyrics:
(𝘤𝘢𝘯 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘴𝘰𝘯𝘨 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘸𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘺𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘥𝘢𝘺?)

(𝘪 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘴𝘰𝘯𝘨)
(𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘥𝘰?)

𝘸𝘩𝘺 𝘸𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘶 𝘳𝘶𝘯 𝘣𝘢𝘤𝘬 𝘵𝘰 𝘩𝘪𝘮
𝘫
𝘫
𝘫
𝘫

[𝐯𝐨𝐢𝐜𝐞 𝐦𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐚𝐠𝐞 𝐬𝐡𝐞 𝐧𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐜𝐚𝐫𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐧 𝐥𝐨𝐥]

we used to dream
about the house that we will buy
needs room for 3
we used to speak all night 
about our family
hoping we can speak it into reality
we used to dream
about the kid that we will have
will come with stress
about the clothes that we will buy
and how they’ll dress
and start to fight on whether i’m cleaning their mess

(why can’t u let me go?) 

we used to dream
about the times that 
we would wake them up for school
about how much we would want our kids 
to think we’re cool
“always be there, and just love them” 
was our rule

now she’s fine
left 3 years behind
for another guy
and i wonder why

i used to lay down on ur chest
while u play with my hair
now when i’m sad, no one can hold me
you don’t fucking care
no ounce of sympathy or guilt 
what’s wrong inside ur mind?
i tried to kill my self recently
are u fucking blind?

and now when i speak to you
you sit there all stunned and paused
so i tell you about how much it hurts
you’re super shocked 
and i don’t think that you’re aware
about the things you caused
you never heard me out
that’s why i make my fucking songs.

[𝐯𝐨𝐢𝐜𝐞 𝐦𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐚𝐠𝐞 𝐬𝐡𝐞 𝐧𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐜𝐚𝐫𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐧 𝐥𝐨𝐥]

i should’ve known better
i should’ve kept my sweaters
i should’ve seen the signs 
so i could adapt to the weather
i have no to place to go
no place to call my home
i lived my whole life in this city
but sometimes it feels unknown

sometimes i like to think
about the life we always dreamed 
about the life we planned and set
and how our house needs room for 3
does that ever cross ur mind?
the love u left behind
my stuff inside of ur closet
building dust until it dies.

3 Years ll

all instrumental rights belong to @idealismus
(completely non-profit)


legs shaking
sitting down's not enough, still vacant
just erase me
head down when i walk, they gazing
why talk when you know not a word getting through now
i don't wanna
but still gotta
be not a brain rotter

souls may tie
turn cries to weeps
don't try to be so kind to me
be my relief, so kill me now

make it my fault
just enough for the guilt to be wiped off
don't really care what they lied for

three down, feeling tipsed, no staging
falling used to feel amazing
my voice stay shaking
i'm sorry for the drinking

by the morning i mourn some more
throat burnt, puke all on the floor
i swore i used to be more than this
borderless, now i'm losing time
no love could be enough
but you said, "don't close in"
you were meant for me, "stay open"
thought clouds clear up real nice
but it's only for the night (3x)

respite [prod. idealism]

prod by stezzyxl
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lyrics:

whenever you sleep
can you picture urself right next to me?
whenever you breathe
does my scent give u a sense of relief?

or maybe i’m wrong
or please tell me i’m right
or maybe i’m wrong
or maybe i’m stupid for making this song
about loosing

my love
she broke my trust
and now i can’t feel
nothing feels real
i’m growing numb
why did i choose you
oh if i knew
that you would’ve left
i would’ve held u one last time again

my mind just likes to imagine
if we stayed together tell what would happened?
cuz i’m not too sure
if we would’ve worked
maybe our love is disguised as a curse 
maybe it was all just doomed from the start
she loves me
she loves me not
loves me 
she loves me not
picking the pedals is all i have got
under the moon with no people involved

or maybe i’m wrong
or please tell me i’m right
or maybe i’m wrong
or maybe i’m stupid for making this song
about loosing


my love
she broke my trust
and now i can’t feel
nothing feels real
i’m growing numb
why did i choose you
oh if i knew
that you would’ve left
i would’ve held u one last time again

scars

Voici une chanson que j'ai pensée comme un film en hommage au peuple irlandais. Elle évoque la vie avec sa dureté et ses joies
(traduit plus bas)

-----
Hardships. Drenced Street
The shadows of the past compete

Me and her. Whispers
Young years are heartbreakers

Fields of light around
Are swept away 
By a windy day
The shield of time erase the wounds
But my friend, 
the toil will never end

Ancestors. The great lores
Of the endless wars
In Ireland, the ghosts claim
The last dance that remains

Fields of light around
Are swept away 
By a windy day
The shield of time erase the wounds
But my friend, 
the toil will never end

I reach the pub
And taste the bub
And head for dancing

When the fiddles call, the bodhráns start to pound,
Around the hearth our spirits bound
Feet are tapping and our hearts are leaping,
In the trance we start to sing
The jig is our solace, our troubles find their peace
The harder we dance, the harder we breathe 
In every step we take, an ancient spell, 
In every tune, a glory tale
Through laughter and through the tears 
Our spirits here will never fail, will never fear
May the music carry us on a gentle breeze
In rhythm and joy our souls find ease

The music is over  
Wake up, stand up
It's time to go home

----
Les épreuves. Rue détrempée
Les ombres du passé s'affrontent

Moi et elle. Chuchotements
Les jeunes années sont des briseurs de coeur

Les champs de lumière autour sont balayés 
Par un jour de vent
Le bouclier du temps efface les blessures
Mais mon ami, 
le labeur ne s'arrêtera jamais

Les ancêtres. Les grands récits
De guerres sans fin
En Irlande, les fantômes réclament
La dernière danse qui reste

Les champs de lumière autour sont balayés 
Par un jour de vent
Le bouclier du temps efface les blessures
Mais mon ami, 
le labeur ne s'arrêtera jamais

J'arrive au pub
Et goûte la bière
Et je vais danser

Quand les violons appellent, les bodhráns commencent à battre,
Autour de l'âtre, nos esprits s'unissent
Nos pieds tapent et nos cœurs bondissent,
En transe, nous commençons à chanter
La gigue est notre réconfort, nos problèmes trouvent la paix
Plus nous dansons fort, plus nous respirons fort 
Dans chaque pas que nous faisons, un sort ancien, 
Dans chaque air, un conte de gloire
A travers les rires et les larmes 
Nos esprits ici ne faibliront jamais, n'auront jamais peur
Que la musique nous porte sur une douce brise
Dans le rythme et la joie, nos âmes trouvent l'apaisement

La musique est terminée  
Réveilles toi, debout
Il est temps de rentrer

scars

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