prod by stezzyxl
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lyrics:
do you think of me at night
cuz i think of you sometimes
and whenever i cant fall asleep
i imagine you right next to me

ur not fucking different 
from everybody else
and i don’t need to mention
all of the pain i dealt
ur full ignorance 
u don’t want any help
lie to therapist 
“oh he’s a narcissist”
oh i pray for the ones that are next in line
no matter what she fucking does, please do not make her cry
never challenge up to her, with her narcissistic mind
cause no matter what she does, she always thinks she’s right.

regret is rolling in 
can you hear me calling your name
regret is rolling in
can you hear me calling your name

do you hear my calls
your mask is falling off
i think you need a new one
the one you have is done
done 
done
done

𝘳𝘦𝘨𝘳𝘦𝘵 𝘪𝘴 𝘳𝘰𝘭𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘪𝘯 
𝘤𝘢𝘯 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘳 𝘮𝘦 𝘤𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘯𝘢𝘮𝘦?
j̸̧͍͖͚̮͈̳̯̆̈́̈́̚͜

narcissist

prod, caves
Rip sleep… miss you brother

married in hell // cover

prod. me (dawsin)
composed by (dawsin)

lyrics:
look that pawn in his eyes
as you continue
to sacrifice
i can listen to the ghosts in my head
my head

I'm burning alive in this room
so hot in here i vision the fumes
left by everyone, i guess this my doom
then i formally invite my ex's to my tomb
to my tomb
so you see my body dismembered and skewed
i saw you by that grace, white cloak pretty face, you've never been
more rude

i left my body at home
and my mind is so weak
I'm traveling for miles
and the people don't speak
i tried for awhile
but no words was fled
i hate all their smiles
like why are they happy?
it doesn't make sense
it's not meant to be
maybe I'm dead or maybe I'm freed
I'm hoping for peace
I'm hoping for peace

I'M NOT DONE TALKING
(I AM THE NEW)
LOOK AT ME
(ORDER)
AM I JUST AN OBJECT TO YOU?

(LOUDER)
(LOUDER)
(LOUDER)

"the park on the lake,
we spent the whole day there
just the two of us, staring at the water"

I'm buried alive
i feel the nerves and they go
she always flirting with me
but me i watch my tone
why am i at this party?
why do i even go?
ill just sit here an think abt it and head home
i can't even go to bed when i want
hear the voices and the taunts
ouu the taunts

please don't leave
this ain't my full potential
please don't go
I'm not done talking
to you
to you
turn around
look at me
am i just an object to you

pawn

prod. me (dawsin)
written by dawsin & lycora

lyrics :
I got a letter, the name on the envelope said Mary.
my wife's name
It's ridiculous
couldn't possibly be true
Mary died of that damned disease three years ago
so then why am i looking for her?

@dawsin
say i hate myself but i know that I'm always bluffin'
why am i always talking big when i know that I'm nothin'?
when i go to war i swear it'll be me that I'm shootin'
maybe this is the end for me but I'm just so clueless.

she's so persistent she gon' end up figuring out why
why i drank a gallon of bleach and sum peroxide
this is not suicide, I'm doing it for her sacrifice
cause i know I'm better off dead then being half alive

listen to me speak, can't see or breathe
"I'll be here for you"
.. but i don't see her anywhere
why the hell you gone?
need a minute to spare
im running from her and she acts
like she knows my despair

t-tired of l-living a lie
d-don't you dare c-cry
i-i-i n-need you in my a-arms
t-tonight
turn o-off t-the l-lights

@lycoraaa
Middle of the crowd i feel things i felt for her
i know that its wrong
think about her till shes gone
I've been tainted and ruined by one girl
cant get the taste out my mouth (mouth)

You continue to haunt me
and ruin my days
i said i would i wait for you
LOOK AT YOUR MISTAKE
i know now youll realize
you lost me, but wait
its permanent yeah ive locked you away

@dawsin
too many times i needa let go
of this grudge can't carry this weight home
it's a real shame, tryna waste my name
risk your life tryna fight all the false pain

NOT WORTH THE TIME
NOT WORTH THE EFFORT
BEEN LOOKIN MORE DEFINED
AFTER YOU GOT "PLEASURED"
BARELY GIVE A SHIT
LET THE 'RETTA BURST BITCH
THREE ROUNDS TO YOUR EYELIDS
WATCH THE BLOOD MEND

PLAY MY HEART STRINGS LIKE A VIOLIN
NEED TO BE DIALED IN
CAUSE IF I'M NOT
SHE GON' THINK SHE'S THE HEROINE
AND BABE I'VE BEEN DOIN THIS FOR THE HELL OF IT
BEEN COLD EVER SINCE YOU'VE BEEN NEGLIGENT

peroxide w/ lycora

produced by: ilyl1ght 
lyrics:
why do i do this to myself?
i swear that  im building a hell for us 
just you don’t want anyone else 
i try but it feels like im not enough 
and oh it eats slowly at me oh
if only you saw what i see oh 

𝙞𝙩𝙨 𝙣𝙤𝙩 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙞 𝙙𝙤𝙣'𝙩 𝙬𝙖𝙣𝙩 𝙩𝙤 𝙘𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙛𝙤𝙧 𝙨𝙤𝙢𝙚𝙤𝙣𝙚 𝙤𝙧 𝙝𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙨𝙤𝙢𝙚𝙤𝙣𝙚 𝙘𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙛𝙤𝙧 𝙢𝙚 
𝙞𝙩𝙨 𝙟𝙪𝙨𝙩, 𝙞 𝙜𝙚𝙩 𝙨𝙘𝙖𝙧𝙚𝙙 
𝙛𝙖𝙘𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙛𝙚𝙖𝙧𝙨 
𝙞 𝙡𝙤𝙫𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪

i feels like i’ve nowhere to go
your not here and im trying to cope 
that look in your eyes feels like home 
home, home 
ohh 
with you it feels like i belong 
with you i don’t feel im alone 
ohhh

why do i do this to myself?
i swear that  im building a hell for us 
just you don’t want anyone else 
i try but it feels like im not enough 
and oh it eats slowly at me oh
if only you saw what i see ohh

you, i wont cope in a world without you
i wont live in a world without you 

<3

comfort

prod. me  (dawsin)
written by me (dawsin)

lyrics:
its been years since i saw you, you don't know me
like you know you do
your a cheat and the fault lies on you
if i could leave you know i would.
ouuu
yeah you know i would
ouuu
yeah maybe i should
maybe i will
why do i have to feel so damn arrogant?
i should've known that yr a fucking menace
and i'm crying here on the bed where we slept
i should've never gave u my best

first time was a lie and i know it
just play dumb and make excuses
third time I was disappointed
this girl really thinks i am stupid

I'm lying here dirt an grime all on my face
she set me up, should've known from all of the space
all i did was match her energy and the slow pace
i grabbed the flowers i bought her and ripped it out the vase
maybe it was you i should have replaced
but the first time i met you, you made my heart race
so i assumed on a dumb whim that you might feel the same
so I sat here and sat there an you never came

you make me feel stuck in the middle
this place to me is sentimental
it feels foggy, just like my mental
to me ur touch never felt gentle
never felt gentle
no
no oh

hmph you don't like how i treated you?
so you went and fucked another man?
this was my last mistake
you did the one thing
I DIDNT WANT AND IN MY OWN HOME
NOW IM BANGING AT DEATH'S DOOR
LETTING HIM KNOW
STOP JAMMING MY PISTOL
IM TRYNA LET GO
oh
im tryna let go
man im just trying to let go

gentle

rot 
i can’t deal with all of it 
i’m starting to feel nauseous 
would you want to talk? 
but please don’t mind the silence 
my brain just isn’t kind to me 

stay alive 
say a lie
wish that i could speak my mind 
but i’ve got so much to lose 
that i’d rather keep my pride  
say its fine
then we die 
it all feels like wasted time 
say are you wasting my time?

yeah i should stay my distance
promise that’s just how i know to be
i like it much better
when nobody seems to notice me 
stay and listen?
but i've been bored of all the fucking grief
no one seems to comprehend 
yet they have the songs on repeat 

i’m pleading my silence
no reason for violence 
i’m not gonna take this outside 
i’ve been subconsciously cautious 
of inhaling your toxins 
but seems that i let them inside 
there’s no way to find what’s wrong now 
cause i moved on so why the comedown

untitled freestyle [prodsecre x sorrow bringer]

prod me

𝘛𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘯𝘰 𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘸𝘢𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘭𝘥 𝘩𝘢𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦 𝘧𝘪𝘹𝘦𝘥.
𝘢 𝘱𝘶𝘳𝘱𝘰𝘴𝘦 𝘎𝘐𝘝𝘌𝘕 𝘛𝘖 𝘔𝘌.
𝘖𝘯𝘭𝘺 𝘐 𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘥𝘰 𝘪𝘵.
𝘞𝘏𝘖 𝘌𝘓𝘚𝘌 𝘊𝘖𝘜𝘓𝘋 𝘏𝘈𝘝𝘌 𝘋𝘖𝘕𝘌 𝘐𝘛
𝘈𝘕𝘋 𝘊𝘖𝘔𝘌 𝘛𝘏𝘐𝘚 𝘍𝘈𝘙!
𝘞𝘖𝘜𝘓𝘋 𝘛𝘏𝘌𝘠 𝘏𝘈𝘝𝘌 𝘒𝘌𝘗𝘛 𝘎𝘖𝘐𝘕𝘎?
𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘰𝘯𝘭𝘺 𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘸𝘩𝘰 𝘤𝘢𝘯 𝘤𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘵𝘦 𝘢 𝘯𝘦𝘸 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘭𝘥. 𝘐𝘴 𝘮𝘦.

I BUILT THIS KINGDOM FROM THE GROUND UP
DON'T EVEN KNOW YOU WHERE'D YOU COME FROM
I THOUGHT I TOLD YOU YOU SHOULD RUN
RUN, RUN, RUN
THOUGHT THINGS WERE DIFFERENT
BUT I GUESS THAT I WAS WRONG
YEAH ICON
THE WAY I MOVE IS DIFFERENT
WHO THE FUCK YOU ARE?
PROLLY BEST YOU MOVE DON'T GET STEPPED ON
TALK ABOUT THE PAST
I DON'T GIVE A FUCK WE CAN DO THAT

why you beggin for a ft like a dog with no leash?
why you beggin for attention like my ex?
your a leech
yeah, latch onto me
yeah, the fuck do you need?

I DON'T NEED OLD MUSIC
WAY TOO GOOD REDO IT
I DON'T NEED NO NEW FRIENDS
IM CUTTING TIES DONT GIVE A SHIT
YEAH, LATCH ONTO ME
YEAH, THE FUCK DO YOU NEED?
I THOUGHT I TOLD YOU YOU SHOULD RUN
RUN, RUN, RUN

walk slowly, why you talkin whatchu say?
you don't know me, so pathetic in my way yeah
old news, its a little sad nobody even know you
oh ohh, oh ohh
i guess you feel important
waste my time ill just ignore it
the day still passes by and i dont fuck with the lies

I DONT (x4)

took out time for this
im busy locked and focused
looks like im back it took some time for you to notice
and i repeat myself because god your like the slowest

WALK SLOWLY
YOU DONT KNOW ME

leech

something a lil sleep token/ brakencey/ sinxi/ deadfishy inspired
obviously


i hear a little whisper between silence on the phone
you say you really miss me, god i hope you really dont
the feelings shattered across somewhere, between the ash and gold
i feel a bit uncomfortable, pretend i really dont

radio silence, now nothing is active
ill hold my misfortune and judge all your actions
i find you unworthy of every practise
and sentence a life without no interaction

i hear a little breath between the distance of our call
maybe im just paranoid, can tell youre getting bored
ive been consumed by everything, the feelings getting cold
a half drunk glass of tea on the windowsil of our home

radio silence, now nothing is active
ill hold my misfortune and judge all your actions
i find you unworthy of every practise
and sentence a life without no interaction


im sure youve heard this song before in every genre
always ranting about something and nobodys bothered
i could try be clever write a double entendre
just for you to listen and not read the lyrics
or maybe i’ll produce something spend ages working on it

-------------just to be compared to every artist that you know ----------------             
                     ===================================
or maybe it’s your fault for listening to everyone and nobody at all
i guess i could be wrong
i guess ill never know
everything’s generic so im reaping what they sow

radio silence, now nothing is active
ill hold my misfortune and judge all your actions
i find you unworthy of every practise
and sentence a life without no interaction

radio silence, now nothing is active
ill hold my misfortune and judge all your actions
i find you unworthy of every practise
and sentence a life without no interaction

i hear a little breath between the distance of our call
maybe im just paranoid, can tell youre getting bored
ive been consumed by everything, the feelings getting cold
a half drunk glass of tea on the windowsil of our home

radio silence

pekarot
@sleepywater

she lacking empathy she gone tomorrow
see what is left of me, me and my sorrows
cause you might be dead to me, you left me a bottle
and a blue pill that I don't wanna swallow

body's got a fleeting feeling and I got all my sorrows
how do I stop this feeling of feeling real hollow
know you love me but you tell me that I'm acting hostile
i might crash this car cause I'm going full throttle

stop drinking your life away your grasping at a bottle
i think I might hide away and talk to you tomorrow
i know its not healthy but I'm full of sorrows
i bet you wouldn't help me if I left tomorrow

oahhh
oahhh
oahhh
oahhh

paint me a picture that's hard not to swallow
when your with him I feel like being hostile
i like the idea of moving to a castle
let's build some high walls, fuck I'm an asshole

your growing in mold, the more that you hassle
do what your told, before that I let go

oahhh
oahhh
oahhh
oahhh

she lacking empathy she gone tommorow
see what is left of me, me and my sorrows
cause you might be dead to me, you left me a bottle
and a blue pill that I don't wanna swallow

body's got a fleeting feeling and I got all my sorrows
how do I stop this feeling of feeling real hollow
know you love me but you tell me that I'm acting hostile
i might crash this car cause I'm going full throttle

tomorrow - sleepwater (cover)

prod by stezzyxl
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lyrics:

my stomach keeps on turning 
i cannot stop this burning
sensation in my body
its concerning, it’s concerning 
the rain just keeps on pouring
and thunder keeps on roaring
it getting cold this is my final warning
final warning

what else u want from me?
oh god just tell me please
i keep on wondering
why
why
why
why
this always happens to me
my heart is falling asleep
i never get closure i need so just tell me
why 
why
i don’t want nothing to do with you
gather my berrings and my loose screws 
i want a life for me that i can choose 
i don’t want nothing to do with you
gather my berrings and my loose screws 
i want a life for me that i can choose 

loosing my mind in the dead of the night
wishing ur face would get out of my sight
can’t even cry, so i put up a fight
broken again, but i say im alright 
run from the truth just to sit in the lie
couldn’t face facts so i let myself hide
played all the games and i still don’t know why
chasing a ghost that won’t hear my cries
love was a cage and i wanted to fly
clipped my own wings just to stay in ur life
gave u my soul and u left it to die
said that u cared while u twisted the knife
stuck in the dark with no tears to cry
light dosent shine where there’s no will to try 
it getting cold this is my final warning
final warning

what else u want from me?
oh god just tell me please
i keep on wondering
why
why
why
why
this always happens to me
my heart is falling asleep
i never get closure i need so just tell me
why 
why
i don’t want nothing to do with you
gather my berrings and my loose screws 
i want a life for me that i can choose 
i don’t want nothing to do with you
gather my berrings and my loose screws 
i want a life for me that i can choose

why

Stezzyxl