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.VRIL is the 294th guest of our original Hate Podcast series.

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Tracklist:
01 .VRIL - Intro
02 .VRIL & Ræyn - Komatron
02 .VRIL - Jesus Dropping a Nuke
03 .VRIL & Ræyn - Undiagnosed
04 .VRIL - Android Maria
05 His Master's Voice - Golo The Demon
06 Adderall - Adderalph
07 .VRIL - Bonus Beat
08 His Master's Voice - Circles
09 Adderall - Clusterfuck
10 DAUC & .VRIL - Hanomag/Nightdrive
11 .VRIL - High Level Trash
12 Adderall - Ullis Brain Killed
13 .VRIL - I Pay Because You Do
14 .VRIL - Errorist
15 .VRIL - Zaubereidechse 97 (produced it in the year 1997 and accidentally found on an old tape yet)
16 .VRIL - Outro

Adderall are .VRIL & His Master's Voice

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.VRIL - HATE Podcast 294

Rhubarb Orc. 19.53 Rev

LYRICS:

I wish I was high,
high enough to see the greener grass over the white picket fence,
so high that clouds are made of water..
and my exhale is white - from the temperature.
And maybe,
if I can get high enough,
I can find out where
and why,
the drugs took my best friends.. 
but not me…
maybe space would still be dark,
and lonely,
but I would be so high..
that solitude,
once again,
feels like bliss.

It’s gotta get better than this

I Wish I Was High

water beetles - recorded with 2 JrF d-series hydrophones

Water beetles - recorded with JrF d-series hydrophones

I look back and see how much time has past and I get scared. I lost more than I gained and if I could have done things in my life differently, I would've but who's to say. This collection of songs was born out of that darkness I was in. I lost the first iteration in an old hard drive that kept 12 years worth of work and I had to restart it all. Then after a year of trying to recreate the emotions and feelings that I had initially, there was still a lot missing. I just didn't have the drive, the hunger that I used to. I took a long break and then after another moment, I started again. A few short months and many sleepless nights, we are here.

A long reflection of the person I am today, the pain, the loss, the struggle to keep within the line. This is all I got, and this is all I am ever gonna amount to in the end.

I want to give a huge shout out to several people who helped along the way in the making of this record. To Lauren Wattenberg, the photographer behind all the visuals. This project could not have come to life without your aid and inspiration, love you forever. To DuckTape Orchestra, even though our last phone conversation was brief, you were able to deliver an outstanding part to one of the songs in one day. Thank you for always believing in the process and pushing me to be a better artist. To my family and friends for keeping up with the journey. You all keep supporting my every move and inspire me to reinvent myself through the paths I take. And to you who is reading this, thank you from the bottom of my heart, thank you. You are who this project is for and I am honored to be here delivering it to you.

Thank you for listening.
Bow Standingrock 

Without Form & Void

STNDNGRCK