Ghxst Collective - May 2023

It still hurts the same..

Good4nothing w/

produced by kassgocrazy
mixed and mastered by kassgocrazy
vocals performed by sewerperson

COVERART BY @UNNANOUNCED ON INSTAGRAM

i want you to suffer (feat. sewerperson)

slumpdd ! + teddyboi

its ur mess
figure it out

produced by neverforever 

completely non profit

lyrics

I been tryna live life wrong 
I can feel it now
tell me when I write my songs
what u feelin' out?
lemme rip apart my soul
let me deal it out
I just live inside my head
I won't let me out

walk around like an apartment complex
scenes of loss n abandoned objects
mental blocks feel like shallow tar pits
I got the keys but forgot where the car is
here's a song for the truly sharded
fucked around n got broken hearted
itchy arms when asked where the scar is
who u r is not at all important

I been tryna live life wrong 
I can feel it now
tell me when I write my songs
what u feelin' out?
lemme rip apart my soul
let me deal it out
I ain't really got much else
so I'ma give it out

even when I'm down count on me I got it
lemme write this down then tomorrow drop it
name another coming up that can match
I'll top it
I get on the beat n watch the heads start boppin 
I don't wanna sing on the same old topic
while I'm on the flow lemme shoutout tropic 
running low on time so it's hard to lock in
I go to work in the morning exhausted

still the cold air of the mountain somehow always catches up to me
I could feel the past go up in flames as smoke rolls over me
I will never get that back, yet still, has such a hold on me
there's nothing, I'm just fucked n u can't save me from my -

I been tryna live life wrong 
I can feel it now
tell me when I write my songs
what u feelin' out?
lemme rip apart my soul
let me deal it out
why u listen to me whine
u should kick me out



mountain dweller (neverforever)

Good4nothing w/ drewisdead

drained of color (24/7) [prod. wisssery]

Big thanks to teddy for the guess verse <3

This track is an insight into the greed, selfishness and entitlement, and hopelessness the upper-class citizens of gab3 re:l can endulge in without the hardships of a real-world life.

Not having any real social experience or consequences can turn regular people into heartless, cruel, incell misogynists. this is an example of that.

lyrics:

I fortify my castle walls
anything to do, just crawl
on the floor, every night
i see that look of suicide
that's the shit that's on my mind
every minute, every night
it's like a mental exercise
all my feelings in decline

it's getting harder just to fight you
and all the stupid shit that you do to me
I'm basically just asking you to leave me be
I wish I wasn't lonely, thats the irony

take it back to the start and everybody wishes they could go home
try to find my way in life, but I'm so alone
it's kinda funny, 'cause these bitches always blow up my phone
i run around in circles, saboy, Post Malone
You're the voice in my head, tells me "go for the reigns"
nobody ever wants to think about the words that we say
I'm gone tomorrow, I'm just throwing shit in fires today
staring at my fingers as the voices in my head try to say

What did I tell you boys?
These bitches don't listen
You, get down on your knees and give my ass a kissin'
Ay, they just don't listen
I sold my soul at twelve, and yeah, it's still missing
yeah, these bitches don't listen
Get down on to your knees, and give my ass a kissin'
got the Titanfall drip, bitch, we only play atrition
I could never give you my heart, because my soul is missing.

They Don't Listen (Feat. Teddyboi)

3 AM IN HELL PROD SUZUKKI X GOSHA

Up It (HITEMBLOCK)

featuring:
https://soundcloud.com/dylaanlotus
https://open.spotify.com/artist/1OjHBfRdd96XGNlhwQ3EAo

Graveyard Ft Dylanlotus x Djandrew

[opening track for "haze"]

Loss of need
Fills your mind
Bottom feed
Weighs your bones

Hang on, wait up
Hold on, don’t go

Remind you
Where we are
This ecstacy
I’m tripping through

Hang on, wait up
Hold on, don’t go

higher tide [+ grayskies]

(prod. malloy x jkei)
feat @notaheroo

early morning
hear the birds sing
in bed stalling 
its so cold outside x2

staring at my ceiling
6am dawn is coming
i was awake all night
fighting my demons on sight
codeine got me tripping
i remember this feeling
addictive to the sedatives
in pain so i need this 

early morning
hear the birds sing
in bed stalling 
its so cold outside x2

im not used to being sober
was fed my pills
i was drinking till the sun up
i didnt know whats real
but now its over
i didnt know my love
its all my fault coz
its my own grave i dig

early morning
hear the birds sing
in bed stalling 
its so cold outside x2

(notahero)
just warm me up cuz ur my heater
n i don’t got nothing except the music from my speakers
this fireball burning i need something little sweeter
would u keep me alive or will u turn me to a tweaker
diamonds in her eyes just like the ones i put on my belt
i pray that you’ll still love my heart after all the ice melts
i fucked up way to much to put the blame on someone else
but this shit made me tho
she said i’m acting like a child said u crazy hoe
there’s nothing child-like bout me pushing up digits hoe
i swear to God that when i’m dead 
that’s the only time i’ll be able to get fuckin rest
maybe i should go to bed
i think imma work instead
pressure breaking down
feel like needles in my fucking head
i just wanna have a good time n u know this
i feel the energy just disturbing my solace

sedatives (feat. notahero)

@xipz_sad
prod. tiedforsilver & flesh
Stream "Performer" on all plats:
https://open.spotify.com/album/3AMIDa7SH70D23GK9nUpQB?si=3WTktjOQRSqpuwY2NTJQbg

Around The World (ft. xipz) prod. tiedforsilver & flesh

(prod by noxiousnights)

don't ask me bout my life
i already used up all the lies
all this misery called my demise
all i had came with a price

got no reflection in the face of death
hate their speeches with no depth
pain flows i can't control the words
there's no break i can't escape the hurt

shut down my brain
i'm turning insane
i dont show my face
all this life's a mess

i'm not scared of the pressure
off this poison i'm feeling fresher
got no smile : feel no pleasure
give up the grind i could never

i'm not scared of the pressure
off this poison i'm feeling fresher
got no smile : feel no pleasure
give up the grind i could never

i stopped looking for hope there's no mending
fuck crawling down i'm already infected
they talk about freedom i don't get it
giving up on life is so tempting

think of any other place my only wish is to go
i have dreams where i don't see this shit no more

shut down my brain
i'm turning insane
i dont show my face
all this life's a mess

i'm not scared of the pressure
off this poison i'm feeling fresher
got no smile : feel no pleasure
give up the grind i could never

i'm not scared of the pressure
off this poison i'm feeling fresher
got no smile : feel no pleasure
give up the grind i could never

off this poison i'm feeling fresher
give up the grind i could never

off this poison i'm feeling fresher
give up the grind i could never

off this poison

suffocate in my sheets

SPOTIFY

Choked Up Feat. Sewerperson (Prod. SPLASHGVNG)

https://soundcloud.com/guardinmusic
https://soundcloud.com/tothegood
<3 

lyrics:
(noah2000)
she got the spookygang sweats,
with the black doc martins,
i swear to god that i love it,
when the blunt gets me exhausted 
i wont ever sleep 
until i feel proud of my day,
so ive been standing still for weeks
just hoping something comes my way 
and if you wanted too i’d stumbled down the yellow brick road
so you can tell me all the secrets that you want me to know,
my wicked witch of all the east is rlly changing up my style
when i get home i’ll roll a fatty cuz i love when you smile

(guardin)
that's just how it goes
yeah that's how i roll
seven gram blunt & she's taking off my clothes
kissin on my tattoos leave me feelin froze
got my pistol in her grip cock it back & watch it blow 
i can't fall asleep so i've been staring at my phone
read a couple tweets until i leave that shit alone
noah sent the open all the way from buffalo
i'm just waiting for the green light hit the gas & go

(noah2000)
she got the spookygang sweats,
with the black doc martins,
i swear to god that i love it,
when the blunt gets me exhausted 
i wont ever sleep 
until i feel proud of my day,
so ive been standing still for weeks
just hoping something comes my way 
and if you wanted too i’d stumbled down the yellow brick road
so you can tell me all the secrets that you want me to know,
my wicked witch of all the east is rlly changing up my style
when i get home i’ll roll a fatty cuz i love when you smile

if you’re a bills a fan then lemme hear ya shout,
cuz i’ve got plenty other problems that i’d rather scream about,
like how ive been good for a minute now i’m not,
i talk about my feelings way too much instead of smoking pot,
so i’m screaming that i love you but
i hate that i’m so brutally honest
i know this world could be much better if i stop being on it,
i’m just never in the places i hoped,
who say do i need to be?
i’m doing everything that i can what else you want with me

(guardin)
lost in my head all the time
i'm not alright
i guess it's fine

Spotify <3

wicked w/ guardin (prod. tothegood)

NO LONGER POSTING ON SOUNDCLOUD
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https://linktr.ee/strivesad


1998 baby
sorta sad, sorta happy
https://soundcloud.com/cozycollective
https://soundcloud.com/timeless-archive

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Graveyard Ft Dylanlotus x Djandrew

strivesad./striveau archive