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sadmannnzzzzz bannnguuurs 6

end of probation feelings

Hansum - Million

My Remix of the Naruto soundtrack "Sadness and Sorrow"

Sadness And Sorrow

Go follow my man <3
https://soundcloud.com/fuckhamz

Hammy:
I just wanna know
do you still think of me?
when you're all alone
i hope you still remember me
i don't wanna go
my heart is on your driveway
sitting all alone
they never care what i say x2

never care what i say
driving on the highway
driving on the freeway
you can have it your way
i don't really care girl
look at me and stare girl
i just wanna die now
smokin till i die now
diving on the highway
driving on the freeway
i just wanna see you
hope you want me too
i can't ever think straight
tell em that i feel great
even though i'm lyin
always fucking lying
remember what we had
now i can't stop crying
i just popped an oxy
now i think i'm flying
i just hit the ground
now i'm really dying

Yung Van:
I still have your number in my phone
Sometimes I drive by your home
I think of all the good times
I think we had some good times
I miss waking up to texts
I hate calling you my ex
I should have known this would happen
I should have known this would happen 

I've been driving all night
I'm just tryna feel right
When I think of you though
I don't want to die alone
Thinking bout you all the time
Wish that you weren't getting high
I don't think I'm feeling fine x2
Ive been driving all day
I'm just tryna feel okay
I know I can't run away
Girl you meant the world to me
Think of what we used to be
Wish it was just you and me
Guess we just weren't meant to be
I thought we were meant to be
I just wanna die now
I just wanna cry
I thought you were mine babe
I thought we were fine
Called you every night girl
Cause I thought you cared
Called you every night girl
I was always there
I wish I could walk away from all this pain
I feel like I was cut
I thought you were the one

Wish i was enough x4

FOLLOW HAMMY

i'm not depressed, i just miss you w/Hammy (Prod. Tec)

producer. @lightbodyent
guitar written by @Tylerburkhart
https://soundcloud.com/tylerburkhart/i-want-to-drown-in-snow

i don’t mind a thing
hold me close
i know your suffering
i hear it in the way you
say my name
don’t hold back
you know i feel your pain
inside
i don’t want to live
but ill stay alive
i don’t want to leave
so ill make time
you don’t tell the truth
so you make lies
i cried
i cried again
last night flowers in my bed
last night i lost my best friend 
last nights flowers torn to shreds
last night our love wound up dead
i don’t mind a thing
hold me close
i know your suffering
inside
our love subsides i don’t feel right
pin me down you eat my insides
like a spider pull me in
kiss my neck make my blood thin
i don’t mind a thing
hold me close
i know your suffering
i hear it in the way you
say my name
don’t hold back
you know i feel your pain
your pain inside

FREE DOWNLOAD

Last Nights Flowers - (prod. lightbody)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3qHrOCRDA9I&feature=youtu.be

I feel like Haruguchi on the regular.

https://genius.com/Andre86-feel-like-haraguchi-lyrics

FEEL LIKE HARUGUCHI | Prod. By Oddwin | OFFICIAL VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION

@qawikamri
@guardinmusic
Sample from: https://soundcloud.com/guardinmusic/sunshine

LYRICS:-
Guardin 
baby where you lately
i think im going fucking crazy
baby where you lately
i think im going fucking crazy

Qawi Kamri
tell me what is right or wrong
you've been gone for too long
ive been feeling so alone
when was the last time you sang my song? 

i fell with the tears on my face
lately ive been feeling so out of place
call out and i scream your name
baby can you please just stay

is it too late to save me
is it too late to heal me
is it too late, is it too late?

Guardin & Qawi
baby where you lately
i think im going fucking crazy
baby where you lately
i think im going fucking crazy

Qawi
is it too late to save me
is it too late to heal me
is it too late, is it too late?

I Don't Know Who I Am (w guardin)

produced by loopy

can we start over? [prod. loopy]

shoutout to https://soundcloud.com/bornhero for the amazing beat <3

lyrics:
where i belong 
i do not know
stuck in my room
crying at home
watching the parties from my distant phone
everyone always just leaves me alone
i do not know
how to fit in
smoking me out
ripping a spliff  
everyone loves me when i go and dip
everyone loves me when i go and dip

everyone leaves me on read
everyone leaves me for dead
stuck in my bed once again
writing the same lines in pen
everyone leaves me on read
everyone leaves me for dead
stuck in my bed once again
writing the same lines in pen
i'm stuck here 
writing simple songs
hope to take the pain away
when my eyes turn to gray
i know 
that my secrets buried deep below the bong
will release
every thought i'm feeling making me do wrong

where i belong
i will not know
every weekend i'm feeling so low
no where to go 
staying at home
staring at walls scrolling twitter alone
hit up my phone
leave you on read
people around treating me like i'm dead
feel like a ghost
no one will post
sit in my bed think about you again   

no one invites me to parties
sit in a car acting sorry
girls playing me like atari
soon i'll blow up like i'm carti
no one invites me to parties
sit in a car acting sorry
girls playing me like atari
soon i'll blow up like i'm carti

i take control of the whip in my mind
driving me places that i can't define
exploring the road, taking my time
lie to my friends when i say i'm alright
where have i gone
i do not know 
hop in the car and i'm driving alone
phone is on silent not trusting these tones
i feel the weight all the way to my bone

where i belong 
i do not know
stuck in my room
crying at home
watching the parties from my distant phone
everyone always just leaves me alone
i take control of the whip 
going straight 90 i dip
exploring the vessel of me
tell me about what you see

where i belong (prod. born hero)

mixed/mastered by instagram.com/deadphenex

Relapse (prod. Yago) **all platforms**

@curtainss @taxpurposes

you were on the phone
and i was in the back seat
gettin rly stoned
thinkin bout my last week
how i was alone
sleepin on my friends couch
tryna move along
when i know this isnt lasting
somethings wrong with me
i wont give it up, not easily
take my hand
just breathe
i wont give u up, so easily

gimme a way out or give me a sign
every word you rehearsed
remembered all of the lines
bullshittin me ab love every night
and im better off without you in hind sight
i wasted so much time
playin all these games
puttin up a fight
hopes a dangerous thing
when its all u got
just leave me be

just leave me be
im better off without u
hangin out to dry
while someones in ur bedroom
covered in the sheets
that hid me just last week
funny how it works
youre so quick to forget me

you were on the phone
and i was in the back seat
gettin rly stoned
thinkin bout my last week
how i was alone
sleepin on my friends couch
tryna move along
when i know this isnt lasting
somethings wrong with me
i wont give it up, not easily
take my hand
just breathe
i wont give u up, so easily

i know how it goes
one day im ur everything
and the next im just some dead weight
we just started and u fold
ik ur still in love with ur ex and o’s
and i deserve so much more
so u can see urself out thru that door
then ill drink so much that ill hit the floor
and do it all again
dont know what for

you were on the phone
and i was in the back seat
gettin rly stoned
thinkin bout my last week
how i was alone
sleepin on my friends couch
tryna move along
when i know this isnt lasting
somethings wrong with me
i wont give it up, not easily
take my hand
just breathe
i wont give u up, so easily

somethings wrong with me
i wont give it up, not easily
take my hand
just breathe
i wont give u up, so easily

Follow me <3

BREATHE (prod. curtains x taxpurposes)

Rip Jonathan Meristil, I love you bro <3

Mix & Mastered by: yung van
Cover art: JJ Meri x yung van

I fucking died the day I watched you go (Prod. nathanspeiser)

Prod - Kado


https://soundcloud.com/kadowav

Losing it 

Losing It - Kado

I hope you like this new song Minivans <3

@spacemanzack
@lovlok

Sunshine Hotel w/ SpaceMan Zack

Sunshine Hotel w/ SpaceMan Zack (Prod. Lovlok)

SPOTFIY

iseefire

lyrics


everyday i wake up, drink my morning coffee 
then i write some songs and I start to feel exhausted
I think about the seasons and how they keep on changing
I just want some love swear I don’t wanna be famous

I don’t wanna call when you need me
yea baby I don’t want to
yea baby I don’t want to
yea baby I don’t want to

yea Chevrolet bitch with a new tattoo
i don’t wanna call you 
I don’t wanna cut through 
every time I talk to you I start feeling kinda nauseous

do I love you, do I hate you
hate myself for tryna always change you
hate myself cause I always fucking blame you
hate myself cause i’ll be the one that breaks you

you don’t deserve this at all
I’m a little bit fucked up your drug 

you don’t deserve this at all
I’m a little bit fucked up your drug 

you don’t deserve this at all 
you don’t deserve this at all


everyday i wake up, drink my morning coffee 
then i write some songs and I start to feel exhausted
I think about the seasons and how they keep on changing
I just want some love swear I don’t wanna be famous

I don’t wanna call when you need me
yea baby I don’t want to
yea baby I don’t want to
yea baby I don’t want to

I don't wanna call u anymore (p. Jolst)

LYRICS:-
i would risk my heart
just to love you
i would risk it all
just to fall for you

baby don't cry,
i know that you're trying
baby don't lie,
i know that you're hurting
is it too much? is too much 
for you
maybe it's time? maybe it's time 
for you
to feel what i feel
to see what i see
to know that my love is real
i would never lie to you
you know that i'll die for you
so rest your head on me
you can put your trust in me
i can treat you like a queen
so just put your love on me

it's 2AM, i wish you'd call

produced by heylog

lyrics:
can u keep a secret don't tell anyone
these butterflies around me resting on my thumb
i think they're a sign that i've made it from numb
dodging my own hatred but i fail to duck
we've tried but its so hard
i'm just another kid reaching for ur arms
like i said can we try again
i swear to u ill make it up
but this is probably the end

into light
hold my hand
for the fight
wars ahead
file line
hold the stance
here, the monsters like to dance
viruses vs pesticides
i'm hoping ill sleep through the night
hold my hand as we go high
do not look down just close your eyes

so if u keep this secret will u go n tell
cause if that's the case i'll keep it to myself
but u can tell me yours i wont tell anyone
this stays between us and no one else
i miss talking with our eyes it hurt like hell
so are u doing fine cause i'm wishing well
i have ur turtle neck but it lost your smell
i think of you too much ur killing my brain cells
when i was a child i had everyone
now i'm older and i don't feel like growing up
i've changed since i've hidden for a couple months
and they still been the same try it for yourself
the war is on its way, can u hear them run
they're raging but they laugh when the job is done
and the boy who's in his gut sobbing cus he lost
cus everything he did had no purpose and not even a cause

into light
hold my hand
for the fight
wars ahead
file line
hold the stance
here the monsters like to dance
viruses vs pesticides
i'm hoping ill sleep through the night
hold my hand as we go high
do not look down just close your eyes

the war
is done
set fire
to them all
silence
peaceful
finally
you've escaped
ur so lucky
you've run from me

spotify

the war

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SPOTIFY: https://open.spotify.com/track/4eACLjZUXdXNndvlBaqoaT?si=oivpWXY5R_in9PGyBfyavw

BITEKI: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_FrbalrV0U0

ty to blue rxse for the cute lil vocal chop @ 2:06 hehe 

i see through the dim lights, oh my 
every time you confide, its alright 
its alright, its alright, its alright 
getting harder to sleep all by myself now 
sorry i won’t catch you when you fall down 
i can’t stand it anymore i won’t come around 
reassuring every instance when i make a sound

chorus:
ima break away 
yeah ima break away 
ima start to fade
yeah ima start to fade 
gotchu in my sights now i see you run away

climbing mountain tops just to try and talk to you
now im at the top and you’re still out of view 
coming down i see the stars start to dim out 
i see the city start to die im on the wrong route
its getting dark 
no end in sight 
will i be lost with tired eyes? 
i start to cry there goes my light 
i think its time to stop the fight

break away (prod. paroxysm)

[chorus:]
i cant help but think bout callin u
i dont know where i went wrong with u
dont know why i follow U
cuz when i see your face yeah my heart breaks
and u know what to say just when i cave

verse:
maybe i should find a new bitch
or i could fall right inside your trap like im stupid
fucking useless, i dont wanna do this
i knew all along he was your man
i still act clueless when im fucking u
tell me is he loving u?
i just want the best 4 u
but othertimes i hope u feel my pain
so baby tell me if this is a game

hook:

outro:
i cant help but think bout callin u
i dont know why i still bother u 
now im up on top of you
you grabbin on my waist
im not easy to replace

calling you (prod. thersx)

i already tried my best, so why try again

prod: https://soundcloud.com/iofmusic

wake up
i can see my breath
cold hands
i can't feel my skin
shaking, body aching
pull me closer
breaking
i can't take anymore
this isn't the life that i wanna live
i already tried my best 
so why try again
is it over yet?
can i call it quits?
it's
seasonal depression
sick of everyone telling me it's a lesson
i should make more of my life 
cause "it's a blessing"
"and you'll be fine once you stop with all the stressing"
nobody understands
i can't get out my bed
i hate the helping hands
i've lost my fucking mind so don't you get it man?
they know nothing about me 
"he's just having a bad week"
it's lovely 

hide my problems in the alcohol 
drink myself away till i can't even feel a thing at all
i'm becoming just like you
it scares me to death,
i don't wanna but i have to

seasonal depression (prod. iof)

Eradication of the mind
Beginning of the end