lifeline is a track eva and i made in 2021. i made the instrumental in around august-september time, as a part of a larger project. i sent the track to eva around the same time, we then continuously worked on it until around early 2022. its a track we're both super proud of and one that means a lot to us. i hope ya dig <3

from Evangeline: 

"Lifeline is about my experience with coming out as trans to my extended family, and being myself in a country town full of small-minded people. It's super hard to tell something to someone who you know won't understand, and may never want to talk to you again, but I have to give it a shot, because there's no way I'll live with never having said it"

Lyrics:

Look at me sideways like you don’t understand
I hated the thought of ever telling you
Do you get what I’m saying? Should I say it again?
Cause I’m not sure which one of us is more confused

I’m not the person that you used to know
So, stop calling me by his name now
I’m not the person you knew long ago
If you’re doing this on purpose then I wanna go home

Tried to tell you then I realised it was all a game
I knew it for so long, but didn’t try to pass the blame
Guess someone had to be the first to take it all away
And I don’t blame you, I don’t blame you
I was asking for your help and still nobody came
The song we wrote together will never sound quite the same
Now you look at me like I’m just another stranger’s face
And I don’t blame you, but I want to


You were my lifeline
For so long
And I just realised the monitor shut off

I scream and cry at night
For so long
Because all I’m familiar will soon be gone

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Follow Evangeline:
Twitter: https://twitter.com/evangelinestuff
Soundcloud: https://soundcloud.com/eva-nge-line

Follow makina (me, teehee)
Twitter: https://twitter.com/makmakmakina
Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/makmakmakina/

Stream lifeline
Spotify:
Bandcamp: https://machinaone.bandcamp.com/track/lifeline-ft-evangeline
Apple Music: https://music.apple.com/gb/album/lifeline-feat-evangeline-single/1615177243

Download

makina - lifeline ft. Evangeline

grace

aquoferne:
@aquoferne
twitter.com/aquoferne
www.youtube.com/channel/UCuLrV8V8uxHZImKgx28hnDA

Lyrics:
should i ignore the knock on my door
leave a message right after the tone
it feels like something's pulling me out

why are my eyes still way too wide open
last night's conversation was broken
breathing less when i'm inside
why do i run and hide

a step away from the nearest store
one long jump from the next long shore
sharing a love
i'd love to go beyond

i was broken
i was focused
on leaving it all behind

needed notion
of a moment
to help me coincide
with the pace we've been going
i need to catch up on how things have been

(so tell me how it's going)
(you don't need to say it out
you don't need to say it loud
i feel it too)

do you know where to go?
it's not like i would know
you seen the world we've made?
maybe in my mistakes

should i leave or wait and see?
is there someone out there

a step away from the nearest store
one long jump from the next long shore
sharing a love
i'd love to go beyond

(so tell me how it's going)
(you don't need to say it out
you don't need to say it loud
i feel it too)

a step away from the nearest store
one long jump from the next long shore
sharing a love
i'd love to go beyond

Paper cup telephone (ft. aquoferne)

lets start :3c

Suroki, halfTrue, EyesAndArrows, maringen

Lyrics

----VERSE 1----

[WHAT'S THIS ?]

They say your body loves you so unconditionally (That's right !)
But when i break mine i hope i'm forgiven (Of course :D)
I used to think together we could be anything

But i'm not an idiot, yeh

Keep getting closer to some people i'll never meet
But still won't talk to those i've known since like 17
I'm feeling nauseous when somebody is nice to me

I must be an idiot

ARE YOU ?

----CHOR----

YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT ARE YOU ?
YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT ARE YOU ?
YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT ARE YOU ?
YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT

WHAT'S THIS ?

----VERSE 2----

Someone said they want my hands for themselves
I couldn't comprehend the things that they felt
It's not that i don't like the way that they're held , I think i'd like
It more, as somebody else

[AAAH]

Can't fake the feeling that you'll never be home again
Ashamed to say but i've forgotten just what it meant
You're nothing now, and we know who it should've been

Cos i'm just an idiot

ARE YOU ?

----CHOR----

YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT ARE YOU ?
YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT ARE YOU ?
YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT ARE YOU ?
YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT 
ARE YOU ?

YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT ARE YOU ?
YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT ARE YOU ?
YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT ARE YOU ?
YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT

[OH NO !]

----POSTCHOR----

I never change
I'll never change
I can't decide
I'll think about it
It's always been
just like you said

You wanna live ? then start !

I wanna to change
I wanna to change
Can't be this way
forever but I
Don't wanna be
Don't wanna be
(Somebody else)

----PRECHOR----

She's got nowhere to go
He didn't even notice
I thought we'd be prettier
We must not be ready yet

ARE YOU ?

----CHORBUILD----

YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT
YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT
YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT
YOU'RE NOT AN IDI - 
[OH NO !]

ARE YOU ?

----FINAL CHOR----

YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT
YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT
YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT

I WANNA LIVE

[WHAT'S THIS ?]

AND I CAN'T LET THIS GO ON     
PROMISE YOU DON'T HAVE TO WAIT
WHEN WE CAN'T BE WHAT YOU WANT
I'll STILL LOVE YOU ANYWAY

I WANNA LIVE

let's start. 




IDIOTTT

IT'S ALWAYS MY FAULT !!! x3c

Was originally an anv9 song I made with my friends so it is a bit ott and also there are a million credits

CREDITZ (in no particular order)
Suroki - lyrics vox prod mix master whatever man idc
DanielXo - prod
mistmurk - prod+additional vox
Machi - guitar+additional vox
EyesAndArrows - composition+piano
Flood - prod
Maringennnn - guitar

Art by me with guidance from me friend !!!

LYRICS !!!! <3

-------------------------

Fetch ! :D

ITS ALWAYS MY FAULT !
ITS ALWAYS MY FAULT !
ITS ALWAYS MY FAULT !
ITS ALWAYS MY FAULT !

I spend my life on basic
Tasks so I don't have to change it
You don't know what you want at all
[YOU GOTTA GET IT GO !!!]
My friends invite me places
They think this time I'll make it
SO WE FEED THIS CYCLE
[WAS IT ALWAYS MY FAULT ?]

----- CHORUS -----

I think i get it !

Find a little lie
Wear it for a while I

Burn it down to the wire

I can't forget it

Break your sullen smile
Tell me take your time I

Can't keep doing this
Fetchquest

----- Post-Chor -----

ITS ALWAYS MY FAULT !
ITS ALWAYS MY FAULT !
ITS ALWAYS MY FAULT !
ITS ALWAYS MY FAULT !

I'll get what you want

I know it's not enough

I'll get what you want

I know it's not ...

----- Bridge -----

I'mma
Make a whole new track
Then i'll change it
Face it, 
why do I bother anyway ?

Pick it up
Drop it off
Look around
Find another
Pick it up
Drop it off
Look around
FUCK,

Gotta
Try out brute force motivation
You went and drew your heart out
Don't erase it

Pick it up
Drop it off
Look around
Find another
Pick it up
Pick ip up
Pick it up

----- CHORUS 2-----

I think i get it

Find a little lie
Wear it for a while I

Burn it down to the wire

I can't forget it

[YOU GOTTA GET IT GO !!!]

Break your sullen smile
Tell me take your time I

Can't keep doing this ...

I think i get it

ITS ALWAYS MY FAULT !

Find a little lie
Wear it for a while I

ITS ALWAYS MY FAULT !

Burn it down to the wire

I can't forget it

ITS ALWAYS MY FAULT !

Break your sullen smile
Tell me take your time I

ITS ALWAYS MY FAULT !

Can't keep doing this

ITS ALWAYS

Fetchquest

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Thanks to all my friends 4 cheering me on this year, sorry for always making things so difficult.



FETCHQUEST >!<

IT MUST BE GETTING WORSE !!!!

EDIT: Soz like 2 things were pissing me off so some small changes are in there now mb !

Thanks so much to mistmurk without them this song would not exist 

Credits - Uh me like everything I did everything really honestly
mistmurk with the addl prod thoooooughhhhh 

THANKS 2 EVERY1 FOR LISTENINGGGGGG sorry back to scheduled garage spam after this no more fun !!!

-----INTRO-----

[You know how to watch video ?]
[mhm]
[Do you wanna go watch video ?]

-----VERSE 1-----

You're talking to yourself
Again
You really made a habit of it
It must be getting worse
Again
The way I speak to my friends

So do you love me, like me ?
Tell me so yourself
And you want me ? 
Boring
You're just like all the rest
Before you think
My heart, still bleeds
It doesn't mean anything

-----CHORUS 1-----

I dont want to feel you
Touch you
I can't wait to hear you
love you
I don't think they know you
Like I do
I don't want to feel you

-----VERSE 2-----

Stop talking to yourself
OK :/
You can't even cry about it
You wanna change so -
I guess
You could try flirting with your friends ?

But then you might feel
Something
Im getting kinda scared
Of you talking
Surely
Theres nothing wrong with that
Should it feel, so bad
When I see you writing back
Ah


YOU AH
WATCH YOU
YOU EE OW
YOU AH
WATCH YOU
YOU EE OW

-----CHORUS 2-----

I dont want to feel you
Touch you
I can't wait to hear you
love you
I don't think they know you
Like I do
I don't want to feel you
I think i'd like
To be you

-----FINAL CHOR-----

I CANT TOUCH YOU
I DONT FEEL LIKE YOU
I HOPE I DONT HURT YOU
BUT I CANT BE LIKE YOU

STOP TALKING TO YOURSELF !

it's official! ^^
❯❯ check it out on other platforms here:
https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/prettypatterns/ffffff-feat-paxen-imzi-paxen-imzi-remix

❯❯ check out the visualizer:
https://youtu.be/iIubeFVCm_M?si=wSbZwXpoEBdGNsqa


❯❯ check out the original!
https://soundcloud.com/prettypatternsdiego/ffffff-ft-vallyexe

❯❯ og track created by:
@prettypatternsdiego - https://bento.me/prettypatterns
@vallyexe - https://vallyutaite.carrd.co/

❯❯ additional vocals provided by:
@xiapng - https://xiapng.carrd.co/

also technically this is a "A Glimpse of the Abyss" remix so og credits to patterns & xia for that lol


❯❯ find me here!
https://www.paxenimzi.com/

FFFFFF [paxen imzi remix]

THERE'S STILL TIME !!!

Thanks so much to halfTrue for putting up with me and trusting me with this instrumental this shit is so cool.

CREDITS !!!
VOX/WRITING AND WHATNOT - MEEEEEE
PROD / MIX / MASTER ETC - halfTrue, (I helped a little bit but not much)
ART - ME WHIPPEE

LYRICS !!!

Everybody
loves ! You as ! You are !
It's why they're always
here ! when you ! get on !
But still I'm screaming
Oh my god ...
Is this really all I've done

Why'd I always keep, on giving up
Everything, that gives me love
They're telling me that time moves on, oh

Time ~! moves ~! on ~!

---VERSE---

Speak my age like a curse !
Couldn't bear it
We all try our best to dispel it
It's why you always talk too much
Cos it makes u feel more young

My parents feel bad for me
I'm not 17
And I haven't been ...
For a while now

Would it bother me
If we treated time more sweetly

---CHOR 1---

Everybody
loves ! You as ! You are !
It's why they're always
here ! when you ! get on !
But still I'm screaming
Oh my god ...
Is this really all I've done ... :(

Why'd I always keep, on giving up
Everything, that gives me love
They're telling me that time moves on, but

IM NOT DONE

YOU GOTTA GET UP !!!

---Bridge---

I really thought I'd like getting old
But no one seems to think so
How many years are left for my own
Chances left to feel whole

Lost to the daydream
There was a place my dad used to take me
Did he waste his time ? For a feeling I'm
Sure that I'll forget

GET UP !

--SOLO CHOR---

Have you written all you wanted ? GET UP !
Time to face your life, GET UP !
Yeah we really wont wait, get up !
And I could never live enough

---Final Chor---

Everybody
loves ! You as ! You are !
It's why they're always
here ! when you ! get on !
But still I'm screaming
OOH MY GOOOOOD
Is this really all I've done :/

Why'd I always keep, on giving up
Everything, that gives me love
They're telling me that time moves on, but

I'M ! NOT ! DONE !

GET UPPP !

Written by: Doda, N33T, Static
Vocals by: N33T
Produced by: Doda, Static
Mix/Master: Doda

Artwork by: Cherry
x.com/aletiune

Soundcloud
@dodado1
@user_n33t
@static_official

Twitter
x.com/dodado23
x.com/n33tmusic
x.com/imstatic_



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Fallback ft. N33T

[originally wasn't going to finish this as it didnt sound like most of volume 4 but my friends changed my mind so i worked on it more. 

here's the result of combining 4 different arcrep scraps to get this, much better than leaving those unused if you ask me]

[defectionpatchwork]

Take 2

Not so super.

Finishing songs era ! Finishing songs ! haha ! I am posting songs !