ill release real music sometime i promise

stop ! let me grab my backpack

i don’t wanna be late to my class again

honors been waiting since last november 

when we had to quarantine for a term 

had to keep the doors clean. in return

we would spend 14 days alone

only seeing four teens if were 

lucky enough to see a friend 

up in morning we would spend 

our time right online 

doing assignments 

RUN IT BACK !!!!!11

let me digress 

to when we were young, not scared of anyone 

don’t know where the time went

took a nap now it’s 2021

one more day

one more day

until i gotta say

“ooh, moma OOOOOH ! 

do you like my cap and gown?

ooh mama, OOOOOOH

are you proud???” x2

he said with a mask on

he can’t believe he’s already at the finish line

but before he packs up

he’s gotta pass one more class

i don’t wanna go

i don’t wanna go act like i’m happy 

about a cap thrown in the air 

don’t know if i’ll last long in the

real i world

fear the world x2

practice my penmanship 

while my pity’s pending in a

pretty small penny sized penitentiary 

that i call my brain. i don’t plan to plead 

for a plodding pace in life 

i just wanna say

i just wanna say 

one more day

one more day

until i gotta say

“ooh, moma OOOOOH ! 

do you like my cap and gown?

ooh mama, OOOOOOH

are you proud???” x2

class of 2021

4 https://soundcloud.com/underscores & https://soundcloud.com/pincode8485

i gave up on mixing this

nowhere to be, ever (a remix for underscores x 8485)

with https://soundcloud.com/hanirl :)

then I sit down

put away my cellphone

do it for my health

then I'm gonna tell nobody 

the way I've felt

tell tales

tell everybody that I'm doing well

I'm not

okay, still sitting down

open up my laptop

can't talk now

is what I tell my friends 

because I'm writing about 

everything, every thought,

every scene, every now

and then

I write about how

my thoughts pull me down

why are they so loud?

Why are they so mean?

Fierce and hostile, I fear I've lost sight 

Cause years of my life

I'd feel the gaslights

Kept wasting my time,

my friends would ask why

my tears won't pass now

I block it all out

just shut myself down

It's so much more than what I wrote

what I wrote isn't all empirical at all

I'm gonna get out of my head

soak up the sunlight

and fall in love with life again

it's so much more than what I wrote

So you read what I wrote from

most of the week where I hoped for

nobody to pose if I'm honest about

what's on my mental

I won't pretend to

act like I don't dread 

the palpable potential

that I will only end up

like what I've tried to end but

if I tried and I failed

would you probably feel

like I've fallen to my own virtues

this isn't a goodbye, it's far from that

I don't want you to worry, time won't hurt you

it's so much more than what I wrote

what I wrote isn't all empirical at all

I'm gonna get out of my head

soak up the sunlight

and fall in love with life again

fall in love

and fall in love with life again

fall in love

it's so much more than what I wrote

playwright w/ han.irl<3

@whyawe
@real-mestie
@thisisanthesis
@linkedwinters
@cutewavelets
@miviasmusic
@the-big-blind

Mivias:
Stuck, tracing all your steps again
Turning all daylight into amends
You'll get tired some day
At least that's they say

So you try to stand
Try to reach your hand
Though from far you strayed
You'll have time to find your way

The Big Blind:
Stuck, with this never ending quest
When to push and when to rest?
Paradoxical clews in your chest
So you must not pass the test

But you try to stand
Even though you don’t understand
Because of low demand
The old secrets have been locked

Stuck

sorry for the lack of releases i don't get inspired when i'm not suffering
*(edit: turns out not suffering was not the reason)

stream on here i need numbers :(
https://open.spotify.com/track/0z2sVaLkghAhkcqZQ0PoSt?si=3c8861534cc549a2

support me
https://twitter.com/whosoru
https://discord.gg/QWJbFsNfBb

+Entropy+

And you wanted it to stop
I couldn't give you up
I wanna run off out
But I couldn't even walk
At all

And you ask why-
And you ask me-

And you ask why-
And you ask me why-
And you ask why-
And you ask me why-
And you ask why-
And you ask me why-

And you wanted it to stop
I couldn't give you up
I wanna run off out
But I couldn't even walk

And you ask why-
And you ask me why-

Think you should feel fine
I can tell when you lie
Cause you just can't find
Maybe it's in your blood?

It's in your blood
Yearning for the other side
Of a fence that you built up
Up with all your might

And you wanted it to stop
I couldn't give you up
I wanna run off out
But I couldn't even walk

And you ask why-
And you ask me why-

Entropy

Download

bonus track i made for funzies

my remix of "as I hang up a picture" by dobi

time is finite (remix of dobi)

lets start :3c

Suroki, halfTrue, EyesAndArrows, maringen

Lyrics

----VERSE 1----

[WHAT'S THIS ?]

They say your body loves you so unconditionally (That's right !)
But when i break mine i hope i'm forgiven (Of course :D)
I used to think together we could be anything

But i'm not an idiot, yeh

Keep getting closer to some people i'll never meet
But still won't talk to those i've known since like 17
I'm feeling nauseous when somebody is nice to me

I must be an idiot

ARE YOU ?

----CHOR----

YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT ARE YOU ?
YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT ARE YOU ?
YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT ARE YOU ?
YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT

WHAT'S THIS ?

----VERSE 2----

Someone said they want my hands for themselves
I couldn't comprehend the things that they felt
It's not that i don't like the way that they're held , I think i'd like
It more, as somebody else

[AAAH]

Can't fake the feeling that you'll never be home again
Ashamed to say but i've forgotten just what it meant
You're nothing now, and we know who it should've been

Cos i'm just an idiot

ARE YOU ?

----CHOR----

YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT ARE YOU ?
YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT ARE YOU ?
YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT ARE YOU ?
YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT 
ARE YOU ?

YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT ARE YOU ?
YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT ARE YOU ?
YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT ARE YOU ?
YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT

[OH NO !]

----POSTCHOR----

I never change
I'll never change
I can't decide
I'll think about it
It's always been
just like you said

You wanna live ? then start !

I wanna to change
I wanna to change
Can't be this way
forever but I
Don't wanna be
Don't wanna be
(Somebody else)

----PRECHOR----

She's got nowhere to go
He didn't even notice
I thought we'd be prettier
We must not be ready yet

ARE YOU ?

----CHORBUILD----

YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT
YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT
YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT
YOU'RE NOT AN IDI - 
[OH NO !]

ARE YOU ?

----FINAL CHOR----

YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT
YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT
YOU'RE NOT AN IDIOT

I WANNA LIVE

[WHAT'S THIS ?]

AND I CAN'T LET THIS GO ON     
PROMISE YOU DON'T HAVE TO WAIT
WHEN WE CAN'T BE WHAT YOU WANT
I'll STILL LOVE YOU ANYWAY

I WANNA LIVE

let's start. 




IDIOTTT

Sometimes.. why does it feel like *I'M* not making progress..?



Original Audio: 
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nBdcQGPLejkpp=ygULbW9vbiBkb2dnaWU%3D

Thank you to moon doggie for sending me this and helping animate the teaser.

Progress ft. Moon Doggie

How was your 2024
This is remix of some of the songs I’ve listened to the most in 2024

original artists : @dobimusic @sanholobeats @oyeme-thomas @moorekismet @brakence @porter-robinson @shameless_wav @viznode

Never ready to leave 2024 [A remix of ... my playlist?]

original credits
https://soundcloud.com/miocenememorialgarden/just-for-now?si=02c11921823f4ba78b90186f574cf8f2&utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing
@miocenememorialgarden

waffled between posting this short cover here or on my acoustic alt but i decided to be brave and post it here! i love this song so much!!!!!

miocene memorial garden - JUST FOR NOW (xia ver.)

Echoes

Not so super.

Finishing songs era ! Finishing songs ! haha ! I am posting songs !