since elementary school, I’ve seen you around.
 this person with green eyes like mine curly hair that was beautiful but then one day she was nowhere to be found. 
This about like 1st and 2nd grade and you always sat a row infront of me. I always had a crush on you but I thought you never knew me.
I felt like I knew way to much at a young age and I did. 
I knew what my feelings were and my mind felt like I was not a kid.
I remember seeing you as kids at parties around 6 or 8years old for some reason your eyes were locked in my soul,   
Years go by as we are teenagers and I was 15 when  I had a random thought of a girl I kept seeing in my dreams, green eye’s curly hair! 
Who can this be but I remember your name and always thought how or what happened to you and prayed about this person that I remember so vividly.  
I remember asking god about you when I was in a hospital when I was very sick and at that point of time like I said we grew up and I haven’t seen you in like 8 years .
Than out of know where u came into my life again cause I randomly added a person that had your name (lesly) on Snapchat but didn’t think nothing of it while I was in the hospital 
and than it was you, what are the odds 
We talked and I was in shock……  you said you always knew of me and seen me a lot but never ever talked and than we both found out we go to  same high school all along 
but I was always hiding and never in the halls,   we dated and hanged out in-front of the elementary school we went to talking about are past and how we viewed the world and we were so similar. My first love and I was so clingy cause I didn’t wanna mess up you that I called my (world)  since you went away and left I felt lost in this world I was in. Cause your all I knew and loved your world was better than mine oh I miss it but besides that after we caught up……
We met …..and since than my life has never been the Same !  I’m here now 19 years old almost 20 and I haven’t seen your face.   A lot has happened and ion even wanna talk about it. i know the devil and god was real and the devil had my in chains trust me cause I knew and I knew there is something more than laying there giving up in this world and Jesus saved me from my self and this hell when I tried it all   Jesus saved me and I can’t stress that enough more! He is the way, the truth, and life cause I know how it is to suffer but imagine what he went through for me… for us 
we are human and these feelings are always there but 
I learned to let go of you long ago but still have thoughts about it.! how r u doing ? will you ever see this.

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