World By Design

The Cinder Sheet

Run Man Run

Call In Sick / Reflection

Reflection

BEGINNING

Dust

5.DUST

"Stay" is a deeply emotional and poignant song that touches the heart with its raw honesty and vulnerability. This soul-stirring track navigates the complex journey of grief and longing, following the loss of a loved one. With a blend of melancholic melodies and heartfelt lyrics, "Stay" resonates with anyone who has experienced the pain of separation. The song masterfully captures the essence of wanting more time with someone who has departed too soon. Its lyrics, "Oh, away, away, Today you flew away," and "I know you were in pain, so much pain every day," reflect a profound understanding of loss and the human condition. The chorus, "I wanted you to stay, to stay," echoes the universal desire to hold onto those we love. "Stay" is not just a song but a therapeutic embrace for those in mourning, offering a sense of solace and understanding in times of sorrow. The song's introspective nature and the authentic expression make it a remarkable piece that's likely to leave a lasting impact on its listeners.

Stay

** Discussing the Menu ** 

Discussing the menu will never nourish our bodies. 
Shall we stop talking for a while?
Just point your finger to show me where the meal is,
and I'll go and feed myself. 

Yes, I know...
Pointing fingers can be rude.
But that's collateral damage of a basic cognitive activity.
For many words we use, pointing precedes meaning. 
We can point at the sea and say: "Look! The sea!" 
And thus we can assign names to the beasts, the trees and the stars. 
That's the miracle of pointing. 
Somehow we understand that we are naming a thousand  things, 
not giving a thousand names to the stupid pointing finger.

And thus, as we understand each other, 
we are both edified while rejoicing together.
Joy is the secret prize of sharing,
a prize beyond words or the ringing sound of bells.
A wordless no bell prize.   

And there's so much more to understand
than the things we can perceive 
with our feeble ears and naked eyes...
Did you know?
Gobi camels shed tears
when they are sung 
ancient Mongolian lullabies.

Discussing The Menu (Based on Yann Kifer's Bella track)

The Baby Seals - Mild Misogynist

Use headphones for much better listening experience!

Kaltevat Marenkisillat

An elegiac song about lost love, death, resentment, remorse & regret.

“My grief lies all within,
And these external manners of lament
Are merely shadows to the unseen grief
That swells with silence in the tortured soul.”
― William Shakespeare: from Richard II

“His love for her was so deeply woven with resentment that he could not untangle the two.”
― Kim Edwards, The Memory Keeper's Daughter

“I’m unsure which pain is worse– the shock of what happened or the ache for what never will.”
– Unknown

Lyrics
"Of all the sad words of tongue or pen, the saddest are these, 'It might have been'."

All of us, we make mistakes
Act a little too late
I’ve done my fair share of all that and more
Many messages yesterday
Saying you’d passed away
Fired up bittersweet memories that cut me to my core

Way back when we were involved
I hurt your feelings, all unresolved
Next time we met, your voice, it froze my heart
You left me crying at the station
My love in vain, so blue and lonesome
I never thought that’d be the way we’d part

I never saw you again
We never talked through your pain
And the anger it seems you couldn’t put away
Did you ever ask after me?
You know, we kept the same company
Like that threesome with your so-called fiancé/fiancée

But you didn’t stop smoking
And boozing and joking
Put on weight and rolled like a drunken sailor's bum
Okay, I did the same
I’m not trying to pin blame
I just think you marched to the wrong beat of your drum

Seems you wasted away
Quite why, they didn’t say
Lousy habits, bad health? How should I know?
I hadn’t seen you in years
But I’ll surely shed tears
For what was lost and now lies in deep sorrow
And the part of me that'll always be . . . hollow

Quote above by John Greenleaf Whittier: American Quaker poet and advocate of the abolition of slavery in the United States.

From One Singer Left to Mourn, track released December 19, 2023
Music: Michael Sellers; Sergio Aguilar
Lyrics: Michael Sellers
Vocals: Michael Sellers
Guitars & bass, keyboards, & musical arrangement: Sergio Aguilar
Drums: Rodrigo Uribe
Sound engineering & production: Sergio Aguilar; Edgr Ibarra
Album Cover photo: Image by Jorge Barahona from Pixabay
Cover design: Michael Sellers; Loretta Sellers Fortuny

One singer Left To Mourn

Lament

Buy at Bandcamp

Lament (UK Songwriting Contest: Star Rating: 5 Commended Entry)

Broken Illussion (For four guitars)

I decided to give this song a shot. I hope you like it.

Now And Then - The Beatles (RON SNYDER - COVER)

Thanks to my friend and bro Kris for jamming on this.

Vocals guitars mastered Kristopher Bolin
Combstead arrangement mix

That Southern Girl - Kristopher Bolin

The Long Way Home

Third part of my father trilogy.
The father trilogy ends with my naïve and youthful attempt, at the age of 23, to break away from my father, who seemed overpowering at the time, and stand on my own two feet: 
To move as far away as possible from my provincial hometown, to throw myself into a Berlin that was completely foreign to me at the time and completely overwhelming. 
My saviour at the time was my oldest friend, who had already been living in Berlin for a few years and took me under his wing like a big brother.     
But even with his help, I soon had to realise that the attempt at a radical inner "patricide" could not succeed in any way. The early imprints he had left on me, the demons I had 'inherited' from him, were all still there. No matter how much I turned my outer life upside down, there was no escape from the central patterns and beliefs that I had learnt from my father in the first 10 years of my life.
In this respect, the song title "The Singular Man" is a "Mission Impossible". It was only three years later, and especially after his early death, that I realised more and more that a lifelong confrontation with my inner father images could lead to a closely linked dialectic:
An ever deeper and visibly more reconciliatory bond with my father and, at the same time, an ever-increasing self-realisation    
 
The Singular Man  (Lyrics in English)

Run through streets crooked and skewed 
The bridges criss-cross

All around me the stink of the city
An army of people everywhere

Turn in somewhere now
Fall in at your door

You are alone
Your corridor infinitely long
Your walls high and wide 
Your front door broad and welcoming

You push me through the corridor now 
At the windows the siren-
song

I get scared and bang 
Am I still
Your catch of fish
Your silhouette
That only plays at being free

And yet I have escaped you 
Escaped!

I take off all hinges
Hang out the windows
Make me a magic wand
Grey Berlin becomes a colourful bouquet for me 

Ride on a peacock wheel
Take a foam spring bath in the Spree

All light 
Time thrown into the air

Pain-free in a glittering dress
An ecstatic feeling of life

But something pushes back
Under the carpet lies the hanging rope
The spider's web is
Still there
The old danger

I only know about her now 
Keep me out of her more 

Oh man, the singular man
Man Oh man, the singular man
Man Oh man, the singular man
Man Oh man, the singular man


Der Singuläre Mann (Deutscher Originaltext)

Lauf’ durch Straßen krumm und schief, 
Die Brücken kreuz und quer

Um mich herum der Großstadtmief
Überall ein Menschen-Heer

Bieg' irgendwo jetzt ein
Fall’ bei Dir zur Tür herein

Du bist allein
Dein  Flur unendlich lang
Deine Wände hoch und weit 
Deine Eingangstür willkommens-breit

Schiebst mich jetzt durch den Gang 
An den Fenstern der Sirenen-
Gesang

Mir wird Angst und Bang 
Bin ich immer noch
Dein Fischfang
Dein Schattenbild
Das das Freisein nur spielt

Und doch bin ich Dir entflohen 
Entflohen!

Lege alle Scharniere ab
Häng' die Fenster aus
Bastle mir einen Zauberstab
Grau-Berlin wird mir zum bunten Strauß 

Fahr auf nem‘ Pfauenrad
Nehm‘ in der Spree ein Schaum-Frühlingsbad

Alles leicht 
In die Luft geworfene Zeit

Schmerzbefreit im Glitzerkleid
Ein rauschhaftes Lebensgefühl

Doch etwas drängt zurück
Unterm Teppich liegt der Häng‘-Dich-Strick
Das Spinnennetz ist
Immer noch da
Die alte Gefahr

Kenn‘ mich jetzt nur mit ihr aus 
Halt mich mehr aus ihr raus 

Oh Mann, der Singuläre Mann
Mann Oh Mann, der Singuläre Mann
Mann Oh Mann, der Singuläre Mann
Mann Oh Mann, der Singuläre Mann

Der Singulare Mann (The Singular Man)

Der Singuläre Mann (The Singular Man)

SONG LYRICS ⬇️

Yes I tried but I failed you
Gave you all of my heart
You told me you wouldn't leave 
But it was all just a lie

Even if I walk, I still live in your shadow
Girl I'm so intoxicated, and I'm lost without you, baby
For your love, I'd trade my soul, coz your love drove me so crazy
Girl, I'm scared deep down to lose you, but I guess this is the end

Nanana I still love you
Nanana I still miss you
For you girl, I would sin

Coz you said
If I jump, you would jump. 
Were I go, you would go. 
If I fall, you would catch me
Was it all just a lie?

Even if I walk, I still live in your shadow
Girl I'm so intoxicated, and I'm lost without you, baby
For your love, I'd trade my soul (ohh, I truly adore you)
Coz your love drove me so crazy (girl you drove me so crazy)
Girl, I'm scared deep down to lose you (this love has got me intoxicated)
But I guess this is the end (Ohh is this really the END)

Nanana I still love you
Nanana I still miss you
For you girl, I would sin

Coz you said
If I jump, you would jump. 
Were I go, you would go. 
If I fall, you would catch me
Was it all just a lie?

========================

The song describes the painful aftermath of a broken promise. You poured your heart out and trusted someone who swore they wouldn't leave, but they did.

Now, you're haunted by their absence, feeling lost and intoxicated by their memory. Even walking away doesn't free you from their shadow. You'd do anything to get them back, even trade your soul, but you fear the love was an illusion, a cruel lie.

The chorus captures the heart-wrenching feeling: "I still love you, I still miss you, for you girl, I would sin." It's a song about betrayal, heartbreak, and the desperate longing for love lost.

Intoxicated!

Vocal / Composer / Lyricist: Richard A Perna
Vocal Engineer: Nixin VanDough

Outta My Misery

some parts of this tune go back to 2017. in january 2024 I finally recorded some additional electric guitars and decided to upload the song exclusively on soundcloud. the artwork is an illustration from the age of enlightment...

Earth Patriot - Claws of Rage

guns and ammunition talk
happy new year nothing will change
you claim real change was out of range

but a different world
is still possible

don´t fear their claws of rage

(are) all bridges burned
are all bridges burned ?

World By Design

Opium for Ghost