9.4.2021
im about as see through as plastic on a good day

mixed by https://soundcloud.com/tixwmmy
prod https://soundcloud.com/ninewaters

Lyrics:

[Intro]
i tried to write a song
tried to do the right thing tried to be the one that eveyrone wants

[Hook]
call me when you need me
only love me when your down 
when ur up i guess im nothing to you

every single waking second wanna kill myself
but i guess that im worthless to you

everytime that im feeling in the worst way
she dont wanna talk say
"right now im busy okay"

but when it rolls around to the next day
then she wanna cry away
i think that im going insane

[Verse]
if im being honest i think that i wanna die
i dont really have a single thing live for 
if im being honest then today i grabbed a knife
drew a line felt the best i ever have glad i sinned for 

sinned for the pain
swear agony it makes my day
watch the blood drip down on my hilt

i have lust for adrenaline
i dont wanna breathe
so ill pierce my lungs
snort an ady so ill get the job done

[Bridge]
call my line ask if im all right
got a blade in my thigh
and im thinking suicide
i dont wanna make you cry
so i guess i have to lie
gotta live another day
just to give you peace of mind

swear that every other day i have a crisis
"i dont let it on" so i put it in my songs then
why am i the one they always come to
"tix i wanna die"
ill pretend im not the same
ill just lie and im say im fine

[Hook]

Fin

agony (ninewaters)

oh my bad
guess its my fault again
i been tripping over myself
i just needed a friend
you weren't that
its just me in the end
separate my thoughts
pick it apart again
break my trust i know im not tripping
burnt that bridge its down in the ditches
fuck me up and got me real bad
you went and gone behind my back

(muffled screams)

cause you know i took my chances
and left what i earned
left i all behind not a thing that concerns me
dont rush me now cause im not in a hurry
keep treating me like this i do not deserve it
i fell to the ground yea i crash on the pavement
worlds falling down not a thing that could save this
i stepped too far its too much i cant take this
im falling down screaming into an abyss

no worries (p. blvnkface)

prod me.

got me moving backwards!

lyrics:
i've been feeling low now baby
not as much as i used to lately
90 on the dash and we're flying
i love you too much stop crying
(x2)

stop crying
i know you're lying
you know there's nothing that surprises me now these days
feel like i'm dying
and stopped trying
feel like i'm stuck in the same place

if you knew the way you made me feel
you knew what we had it was real
call me up on the phone last night
we never even talk, we only just fight and
i haven't been feeling alright
bottle it up and keep it air tight
you are the one who wanted this
you are the one who wanted this

go ahead and spend it
just like all your friends did
wish it never ended
(x4)

i've been feeling low now baby
not as much as i used to lately
90 on the dash and we're flying
i love you too much stop crying
(x2)

you are the one who wanted this
you are the one who wanted this

im used to getting disappointed
cuz the effort i put in doesnt add up to something
im so fuckin used to disappointment
my friends are out lovin but ive got nothing

(so), fuck everyone and shout im done
look into my eyes and see that im numb 
tasted her lipstick scent filled up my lungs
feel her heartbeat on my chest like drums

all this time i just wanna be someone
insecure thinking that im not enough
standing here in your face but ill hold my tongue
so i dont say words thatll screw it up

in the crowd, i dont stand out
how the fuck do i make my voice sound loud
try to scream your name but i cant breathe
dust in your eyes so you cant see me

jealousy, knockin at my front door
losing sleep, yeah my eyes are real sore
cant you see, ive been by ur side for a while
im in your shadow but i feel a mile,

away, from your heart im soarin,
dismay, im trapped in this torment
run away, our conversations are boring
vision blurry from the blood thats pourin

all this time i just wanna be someone
insecure thinking that im not enough
standing here in your face but ill hold my tongue
so i dont say words thatll screw it up

in the crowd, i dont stand out
how the fuck do i make my voice sound loud
try to scream your name but i cant breathe
dust in your eyes so you cant see me

Jealousy

produced by @deadyami x @jauntsen

lyrics:
i fear i'm not enough again
my friends all feed me oxygen
but i'm at a point where they can not help me anymore
had another breakdown and move on with my day
it felt like something i could not escape
they said it's my fault cuz i'm tired and lazy
centipedes in my mind they all start the invading
i don't know why i was waiting
but i know that i was patient
i tell myself that it was worth it

i remember watching bands perform in that basement
holding onto u cuz there could never be replacements
when i first put my hand out never thought that u would take it
i swear that it was the best thing that i've felt in a while
my happiness was based around your smile
and it faded so fast

worth it (dead yami x jauntsen)

heartache w/ JoshuaSageArt (prod. s0ru x ev333)

★fall in love★ w/ pinky (prod. number48) [demo]

[LYRICS]
evilmiku:
my life’s a rodeo
drifting in tokyo
girl i’m no romeo 
she said te odio 
keep looking down on me 
they think i’m sound asleep
i’m biting off my leash 
mind if i take the lead

@nokerbforever : 
burning these bridges
i look at these stitches
baby u threw me in that pit
and left me bleeding
looking around me 
but there's nobody with me
i cannot see anyone
cause they all think im crazy
everybody around me
they're so toxic
think i should've left
before it got this bad
i cannot ever understand 
the way how people thinking
think im going crazy
why am i left here?

@oragammi : 
So deadlyyy (x2)
Iissaa in the stu you know we coming thru 
NOKERB got the pounds
Miku got the sound 
Dont ask for me bich i aint coming round 
Took to many shots now im bout to hit the ground 
Feeling like im gonna drownnn
Bullets they goin give you hell
Bitch so wish me well
I will never fail
Gotta tell the truth bitch i gotta be for real

evilmiku:
i’m so overwhelmed 
i don’t know myself 
i’m screaming crying for help
everyone’s giving me hell
fuck you i’m not gonna stop 
until i’m taking ur spot 
i’ll fight my way to the top 
move bitch i’m taking my shot
i wanna tear y’all apart 
my teeth are ready and sharp 
i used to wanna restart 
but i set flames to my heart 

@01iissaa :
i try my best but i don’t know where to go from here
tell me why everything’s gone but i still don’t want disappear 
is it all the same 
don’t know what to say 
tell you one thing 
i won’t go away 
left me to decay 
and go the other way
everything changed 
but i’m goin’ remain 
going way too fast for you 
it’s not gonna last wit you
tell me what’s in the past for you 
this time i had enough

DEADLY w/ NOKERB +JROLLI +iissaa [prod. by Aki]

rip
https://soundcloud.com/nokerbforever/die-w-nyuk?si=52a13608d24943d491875c21245d7f04&utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing

die slowed *sadder*

there might be a music vid for this soon....
prod. saint mike

LYRICZ+++++
I dont need you, but you cancelled anyways
I guess that means we’ll never actually date
I was starting to get to know you, but i guess its fine
Another one who didnt want me thats just life
Thats okay i keep on moving, moving slowly
Just kidding i lied im blasting through on full speed
Its a bad habit i know, i need to calm down and start going slow

I dont why i always seem to rush right in
Im sorry that i fell for you so quick
Im falling im speeding, im crashing, i see you
Im calling, im pleading, im dashing, i need you

Early i said that i dont need you, but i guess i do
Your words are stuck in my brain, i swear they glue
I dont understand, why i put my trust in you
I regret my actions, cause id never lie to you
Youd rip my heart out, even if you followed through
But here we fall out, and we just end up hollow
Why’d you cancel when you were excited?
I was looking for love, but babe your not even in the slightest

fell for you [prod. saint mike]

Lyrics:

Stuck on a path I wish I wasn't
Life's such a blur but it doesn't
Lead me in the right direction
That's what I get for getting no affection

I can't seem to see straight lines
Impulsive thoughts through my mind
Lead me in the right direction
Heart beat racing, resurrection

You weren't there for me and it's obvious why
I needed comfort and you weren't by my side
I let you sink all your teeth in my innocent skin
Impressions deeply engraved solely within my mind

Sink these teeth into your mind
marks will fade just give it time
Things will fade, storms brew together
Rolling low fly stormy weather

No matter where you run, no matter where youll hide
Youll run back in due time
You may not think so now, but you'll always be mine

Can I, ever, really let go?
Will I, ever, find myself solo?

Stuck on a path I wish I wasn't
Life's such a blur but it doesn't
Lead me in the right direction
That's what i get for getting no affection

You weren't there for me and it's obvious why
I needed comfort and you weren't by my side
I let you sink all your teeth in my innocent skin
Impressions deeply engraved solely within my mind

And you're not gonna be there
For my last breath dear
used to make me feel helpless
But I don't feel the same fear
And you're not gonna be there
For my last breath dear
used to make me feel helpless
But I don't feel the same fear

Jealousy

Tainted

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