i try really hard, baby girl im a tryhard
been walkin on glass for you like its die hard
u dont give a fuck when i hold u in my arms
woke up with a horse head, i feel like a time bomb
if u dont have the time for me then i feel like its pointless
u dont give a fuck when im there, just sit making noises
i try to be heard, i try to make hard choices
but u just dismiss it, you act like you’re hearing voices

call me griffin how i feel like the invisible woman
did i fall in the hat, am i not ur moomin
i feel like she used me up for a moment
i feel like she needed me, now she doesn’t
treat me like a puppet, thought you were above it
dont fuck with the way that she gave up loving
i told her im hurting, i said its not working
looked me in the eye n she said its not worth it
u believed in me but we werent ready
i hope u know that i still believe in u
we’ll finish that song when u are ready
i know that ill always be ur friend
you saved my life and ill never forget that
i would die fighting back to back with u
the stars didnt align for us on this dark night
if it was meant to be it will be so

tarsier (prod. knotchej & jkjmetasco)

oh my god
i think that i turned overnight
i'm a different girl alright
i was caging myself in
shit it took so long to see
now i'm free from expectations i can do anything
that i want to

and tonight girl im looking at you
i'm hoping that you might make a move
i'll do anything that you wanna do
anything together it's true

i could be your pokemon 
i could follow you around
i could be your parasite 
eat you from the inside out
i could be there by your side 
when you're nodding off
i could be your overdose 
i could knock you out
if that's what you want from me then 
girl give the word
got my finger on the trigger
i done told you i'm disturbed
i can't think for myself 
but you've got me in a trance
so if you play the right cards
then i'll play into your hands

i'll be wtvr u want me 2 be (prod. strkz)

@xxkintsugi @tgwog

@joysick64
i dont feel sober when i wake up
tell me when its over gimme a hug
swore it off next day its the same stuff
i dont do real shit when im on drugs
i dont need therapists cause they suck
+ someday growing up will save us
ill get thru this shit cause im tough
i dont need help can stop when i want
starlight shine in my eyes
its 2 fucking bright
i feel like everybody sees right thru me
i cant tell if im still whole
i cant tell if its true though
tryin not to stare into the glow
fake life trapped in a snowglobe
question everything, am i on the truman show??

@xvon
ima keep to myself, yeah im 1 of 1
don’t feel the same so why would I run
ima be me yeah i’ve already won
im so feeling pretty, put a charm on my gun
chilling with joy like lets have some fun
look into the sky and bask in the sun
asking for a feat, I don’t owe you none
only gonna leave when it’s all said and done
gripping on this metal, wanna put it in my body
i dont wanna go if there’s snags at the party
wake up in the morning then im sipping on my coffee
hanging with the team, but u just wanna copy
i don’t really know whatchu want
the peroxide eats right through me
id rather see you rot
i don’t really think you know me

t e l l   m e   w h e n   i t ‘ s   o v e r  [PROD. KINTSUGI & TGWOG]

i dont see the glass half full i see it frosty
i bet u wish that u never came across me
i know u once had faith but u lost me
and i know that its cheap but im sorry
when i said u saved my life girl i meant it
and i know that we got codependent
we agreed it was best that we end it
but i still can dream of our friendship
neptunes rings on my wrist
but it means nothing without u close to me
blue paint nails at the func but ur not there
im not where im sposed to be
seashell clip in my hair but i feel empty
without her laugh in my ear
and when u need me
wish upon a moon’s tear
yeah
and ill be right here, ooh

gently row upstream, water from starlight
passing off to a dream, over now, twilight
time is gone off in sunbeams and thats alright
so do i, u proceed, here is to new life
gentle waves carry me up unto light shores
from the depths where i fell, let me live to fight more
take me from bluest hell, shed no more ichor
give me strength, diamond eyes, let us now right wrongs
gently row upstream, water from starlight
passing off to a dream, over now, twilight
time is gone off in sunbeams and thats alright
so do i, u proceed, here is to new life

ichor (prod. irby & jolst)

@sxckerfish
my divine lights been severed
i'd do anything to feel centered
feels a part of me is dissected
think it's probably time that i said this:

floating i'm a ghost im so hollow
no identity to hold on to
i spit up blood every morning
i might disappear with no warning

lets play hidenseek come & find me
silent but i'm so sick of hiding
wish i was the girl that i buried
fallen from the weight that she carried

dig her up & shes still unconscious
big surprise u got what u wanted
she's alive but lost in the darkness
less a girl and more a host haunted

i feel so embedded in my head
i don't think anyone can see it
i know that it's cliched as shit
but i really fucking mean it

i dont even know how im still around
i feel like im already in the fucking ground
wish i had control wish i had a route
i feel so unsteady im so full of doubt

mentally i'm sick yeah i know it now
stuck inside my head ya im breaking out
falling deeper in that i can't allow
tryna cry for heellllp  i don't even know how

empty personality i barely hold down
fill it up with shit i stole from everybody else
if the shoe fits then im wearing it around
how i got a complex n don't even know myself?

hide&seek

why'd u go n tell my secret?
now everybody looks at me different
even if you don't feel it
ur my enemy now better believe it
said u only did what u needed
but all u had to do was conceal it
u could take it back? why?
just so i could waste my time?
u could take it back? why?
just so i could waste my -
this ain't the first time 
im cutting off
somebody im close to
not at all
think im taking ur fall
don't start
i can't give a fuck im breaking ur heart
cause u weren't my real friend
did u ever notice?
u were taking jabs every second i was open
now im cold stare dead inside emotions
come & find my body when i throw it in the ocean
im cold and soulless now

secret (prod vona)

yeah
i'm still dreaming bout that night where i sat 
on your lap 
and let our eyes connect

infrared
only you inside my head
only you inside my head
infrared
infrared

yeah
i been feeling so uptight
i been such a nervous wreck
and still you don't object

infrared
only you inside my head 
only you inside my head
infrared 
infrared
infrared


you've got beautiful hands 
put em right on my waist
n you've got beautiful lips
put em right on my face
you know i love u a lot
i even love what u hate
i love the way that u look 
and love the way that u taste

i wanna see u tonight
and i dont wanna wait
i want the love that u got
n i don't care if it's fake
send me some music tonight i love the songs that u make
send me some pictures today
i love the ones that u take

infrared (prod. strkz)

i'm fixing for a change 
why i gotta be the one that has to change it?
i know that if i ask for help
its only going so far
i got myself stuck
they don't want me anymore

cause i'm up all night
i'm up all night im looking for a reset
i know that if you pull me out
im gonna dig another hole
n the next one'll deeper


when you gon leave me on my own?
you can leave me i deserve it
why u calling me ur home
if you leave me it'd be worth it

you can teach me your lesson a hundred thousand times
you can teach it but i'm never gonna learn it

no i'm never gonna learn it 

on my own

reset (prod. aless k x flesh)

huh
i got some anger issues baby i be throwing fits
ya
n even tho the numbers low i still look hard as shit
im dancing in the street throwing hips throwing hips
n these bots mad jealous you know how it is
how it is
i wont letu check my cred bitch just check my wrist
u all addicted shit
i dont need a fix
i just pop out w the energy n add u to the list
you don't wanna catch the smoke that im always coming with
im going crazy bitch ya i been on fyeee
when i come around ya u better stay inside
cuz im about it i'm about it bitch i feel alive
im throwing shit bitch ya im pissed ill make u cryy
huh
i got some anger issues baby i be throwing fits
ya
n even tho the numbers low i still look hard as shit
im dancing in the street throwing hips throwing hips
n these bots mad jealous you know how it is
how it is
im really hustling making my wallet thick
that shit mad heavy feeling like a ton of fucking bricks
i cant sleep a single minute time is money i cant miss
watch out watch out bitch i cant miss u know im aiming at ur six
i got motion now and you can bet on motion when im rich
got my face in every city but i came up from the sticks
i'm a good girl but don't press me don't know who ur messing with
i'm a good girl but don't press me
you're messing with (sxckerfish)

hips (prod. jettahs)

shoutout bestie Rylee for her verse @Compaqgirl <3 u bestie, photo circa Fall 2024

anxiety w/ compaqgirl (prod. strkz)

i want new track pants 🫟🫟
@blue_hell
email me: sxckerfish@gmail.com

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