CODEPENDENT is an album about falling in love while living with complex PTSD and all the emotional ups and downs that come with healing from trauma. It’s an album created by grief and love. Light and darkness. Happiness and anger. Emotions are healing when we allow them to be there. I hope this album gives you the courage to unapologetically feel all of your emotions, whatever they may be, whenever they come.

CODEPENDENT

How Can I Trust?

Codependent

Τι είναι η συναισθηματική αποσύνδεση;
Τι σημαίνει μηχανισμός άμυνας;
Τι σημαίνει συμβιβαστικός μηχανισμός άμυνας;
Ποια τα πιθανά αίτια της εκδήλωσης συναισθηματικής αποσύνδεσης στον άνθρωπο;
Ποιες οι πιθανές συνέπειες της συναισθηματικής αποσύνδεσης στη ζωή του ανθρώπου; 
Ποια τα σημάδια συναισθηματικής αποσύνδεσης σε μια σχέση;
Ποιο είναι το αντίδοτο; Πώς μπορώ να αντέξω να είμαι συναισθηματικά συνδεδεμένος με τον εαυτό μου και τους ανθρώπους με τους οποίους δημιουργώ σχέσεις;

Σχετικά βίντεο:
Τι είναι η Διαταραχή Μετατραυματικού Στρες και τι η Σύνθετη Διαταραχή Μετατραυματικού Στρες; #CPTSD https://youtu.be/Oov9FFw3XgQ
Επεισόδιο #4. Η Σύνθετη Διαταραχή Μετατραυματικού Στρες μπορεί να σε αφορά...! https://youtu.be/otvR5pkpW7w?si=yJn01Bw2KIuKRx_h
Podcast Episode #50 Μία είναι η λύση no contact για ναρκισσιστές και τοξικούς https://youtu.be/OTqGR_dSbIU?si=TaJY5cdImAy6_IIr
Συναισθηματική απορρύθμιση και επαναρρύθμιση... "Σταμάτησαν του ρολογιού οι δείκτες"... #cptsd https://youtu.be/STGxcVoIvxY

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its monday and this goes live on wednesday on lowergrandradio.com from 1pm to 2pm (: yes i finally bought my own dj controller after using my gf's for yeaaarrss and years... thank u tomu heh ok love u byeeeee

[EARLY/RELEASE] blessings nore lgr mixx 121124

I always wondered why I am so pumped full with adrenalin after my brother died and was bullied at work. I am not a fan of kitvhem psychplogy and self-help gurus, but I found a great explanatiom on reddit once that klicked with me. 

PTSD & Adrenalin

Frequency Fix
by StrayHorse
Original song written, performed and recorded by Eric Nash
Eric Nash - vocals, acoustic guitars, harmonica

Lyrics

It was 66, eight years old
In my nan's old place
Past two years in boarding school
It was good to see her face

I played out in her garden
Rode my bike around
Got my very first radio
I loved to hear that sound

Oh radio, sweet radio
You changed my life so good
Oh radio, sweet radio
You saved my childhood

I tuned right in, to 1410
The DJ's name was Red
I listened every night and day
The songs stayed in my head

That rock and roll, that Motown sound
The riffs, the beat so fine
Tubes a'humming, all that drumming
Etched into my mind

Oh radio, sweet radio
You changed my life so good
Oh radio, sweet radio
You saved my childhood

Harp solo

I dreaded going back to school
Abuse, neglect, the pain
I had to leave my radio
But the music still remained

Summertime would come again
I closed my eyes in bed
I felt relief, amidst the grief
The tunes stayed in my head

Oh radio, sweet radio
You changed my life so good
Oh radio, sweet radio
You saved my childhood

So thank you, thank you radio
You helped me make it through
I wrote this song to think about
I wrote this song for you

Thank you Red

© 2025 - Eric Nash (SOCAN/ASCAP)




Frequency Fix - original song written, performed and recorded by StrayHorse, Eric Nash, 2025

I wrote this song about my life.  Hopefully some of you can relate.  Mental health and healing is quite a journey.  I tried to capture a piece of what it feels like in that situation being completely honest with myself.  It is hard to share stuff like this, but let my music be the outlet.

(The song is now complete however this is not the final draft, just a draft with the completed lyrics)

Mental Hospital

Response to South London and Maudsley (SLaM) NHS Foundation Trust continuing to bullsh!t NHS mental health clients with diagnosed PTSD. AI converted text to audio. 

To Lambeth South London and Maudsley NHS Foundation Trust (SLaM)

My 2nd response to Lambeth South London and Maudsley NHS Foundation Trust, SCPT mental health service about their horrible treatment since years. 

To Lambeth South London & Maudsley NHS Foundation Trust - Part 2

Fed up with NHS Lambeth Secondary Care Psychological Therapies (SCPT) 

Fed up with the Lambeth Mental Health Service (SCPT)

This is not just a song. It’s a confession. A heartbeat. A breath taken after nearly giving up. Written in the aftermath of a suicide attempt, “I’m Still Here” is the sound of survival, raw, vulnerable, and painfully honest.

Every lyric was pulled from a place of deep trauma, and yet… there’s light. There’s life. It’s about what it means to keep going when everything inside says stop.

For anyone who’s ever felt invisible, misunderstood, or broken—this song is for you.

I don’t know where the road leads. But I know I’m still on it.

ADEB

Still Here

Dear Permission to be Powerful Reader,

The first tragedy of the gifted child is that no one sees them for who they are.

Instead, they are seen as reflections—mirrors of their parents' unmet needs, unfulfilled dreams, and hidden insecurities. 

And so, in the quiet corridors of childhood, where love should be unconditional, a cruel exchange is made: be what they want, or risk losing love altogether.

Alice Miller’s The Drama of the Gifted Child is not merely a book—it is a revelation, an emotional earthquake that shatters the illusion of the ‘happy childhood’ many of us have been conditioned to protect. 

With unflinching honesty, Miller peels away the polite, respectable veneer of family life to expose the deep wounds left by emotionally starved parents, the unspoken rules of conditional love, and the exiled, hidden self of the child who learned that being real was not safe.



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Permission to be Powerful - The Tragic Genius of the Gifted Child_ A Deep Dive into Alice Miller’s Masterpiece

A dark track capturing a dark mood. The struggle to keep fighting from the lowest point, themes of ideation, reflecting on the need to do better.

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The End

Stupid Fucking Los3r G1rl

this isn't what i want!
this isn't what i want!
this isn't what i want!
this isn't what i want!
this isn't what i want!
this isn't what i want!
this isn't what i want!
this isn't what i want!

loser girl, neet
i swear all i do is sleep
i lock myself away 
and i vomit while i weep
i just smoke cause i dont even wanna
live another week
just sit remaining thoughtless 
and crying till im bleak 

just another spiral
ill be normal when im done
rotting in my bed
i used to be someones son
just another disappointment
and another waste of breath
im just crying into fabric
while i sit awaiting death

there's a gun in my nightstand
and there's knives in my walls
ill take the treat of lead 
while i watch the spiders crawl
i cant even make a living
i can just barely survive
im just really hoping i dont make it out of here alive

loser girl, neet
i swear all i do is sleep
i lock myself away 
and i vomit while i weep
i just smoke cause i dont even wanna
live another week
just sit remaining thoughtless 
and crying till im bleak 

this isn't what i want!
this isn't what i want!
this isn't what i want!
this isn't what i want!
this isn't what i want!
this isn't what i want!
this isn't what i want!
this isn't what i want!

failure 
loser
kill her
what is the purpose of you being alive?

disaster
scream louder
she's shattered
why wont you just fucking die?

tell me that you love me cause i hate myself 
worthless fucking failure wishing I was someone else
living like im thinking that I cracked the code
vomiting my thoughts that have overflowed
I cant shut my mind up, so I cant sleep
slicing up my skin, why can't I cut deep?
tell me that im worth it, tell me im not weak
tell me im not easy, tell me im not a freak

worthless stupid heap
fucking slain me like a sheep
i breakdown like this
once a month
or its every fucking week
overdose on E
left my psyche in debris
watch me while i cut my thighs
my self hate has hit its peak

loser girl, neet
i swear all i do is sleep
i lock myself away 
and i vomit while i weep
i just smoke cause i dont even wanna
live another week
just sit remaining thoughtless 
and crying till im bleak

I N33D H3LP!

I N33D H3LP!1!!!!!1!!!!!

In this Ava Mind audio blog, we explore the most common mental health conditions — including anxiety, depression, bipolar disorder, schizophrenia, eating disorders, trauma-related challenges, and more.

You’ll learn what these conditions really mean, why awareness matters, and how support can make a difference.

💭 Take a moment for reflection, listen at your own pace, and remember: you are not alone. With understanding and compassion, healing is always possible.

Listen inside the Ava Mind app for daily affirmations, mood tracking, calming music, and more support tools for your mental health.

Understanding Common Mental Health Conditions | Ava Mind Audio Blog

CPTSD

[industrial gothcore fused post-darkwave suicidecore glitchcore voidcore creepy apocalyptic nazi-holocaust death march vibe:80 bpm intro crawl-slow funeral drag flesh ripping foley wet aluminum screwdriver scrape wwii reel flicker pitched low gas chamber whispers-then snap 110 bpm march verse snare bone snaps kick coffin slams sub-bass tar lungs breathing monotone rap-growl verse lyrics calm counting pills numb detachment dread building glitch drops chorus chrome wire hair scraping venom drip reverb androgynous male deep wail choking intensity raw release bridge 60 bpm heartbeat stutter child whispers reversed looping memory static disorientation reliving horror outro fade dripping click linger 2 beats extended slow fade-out reverse sighs ashes wind static eternal loop lingering unease unresolved torment nightmare spooky dystopian apocalypse violent scary vibes alien otherworldly alternative rock deep distorted androgynous male vocals haunting whispers dramatic screams 3d audio dark am

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History Repeats @imregii

Η ψυχολόγος και συγγραφέας Θέκλα Πετρίδου πραγματεύεται θέματα που αφορούν όλους μας. Η ψυχοεκπαίδευση είναι ο βασικός στόχος των επεισοδίων αυτών. Όλα όσα θέλουμε να μάθουμε για τον άνθρωπο και τις σχέσεις. Η Ψυχολογία ως επιστήμη και η απλή, αλλά όχι απλοϊκή μεταφορά της μέσα από την ψυχοεκπαίδευση μπορούν να προβούν εξαιρετικά χρήσιμα εργαλεία για το σύγχρονο άνθρωπο.

Η Θέκλα Πετρίδου ανεβάζει καθημερινά ψυχοεκπαιδευτικά βίντεο στο κανάλι της στο YouTube
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCkvO45uKy4sPDw8M65Ba1eg

EcHoS N MelaNKholyiA : A Sonic Odyssey of Fragmented Souls
In the shadowed corners of Goshen, Indiana, Echo's N MelanKholyia emerges as a groundbreaking experimental music project, a testament to the transformative power of art in the face of inner chaos. Founded in 2025 by the visionary artist Nexus Khimera—known also as Echos, Mothyii, Alice, Helix, 5, Nexus Etheric  , Odium  or Void—this endeavor is an AI-assisted alchemical fusion of raw emotion and sonic innovation. At 38 years old, Khimera channels a lifetime of introspection, beginning from therapeutic explorations at age 15, into a tapestry of sound that defies categorization. The project's name, with its deliberate misspelling, evokes distorted echoes of melancholy—fragments of pain rebounding through an eternal void, mirroring the fragmented realities Khimera weaves into every composition.
Khimera serves as the sole architect of Echo's N MelanKholyia, handling vocals, lyrics, production, and visual aesthetics with a chameleon-like versatility. Drawing from a deeply personal narrative of psychological navigation, the music acts as a manifesto for survival, blending co-conscious identity shifts and emotional rebirth. The band's conceptual "members"—envisioned as alters in a dissociative system—include Helix as the resilient core, Alice as the protective guardian embodying transgender identity and safety, Odium as the unflinching confrontor of hate and vacuum, Five as the frozen residue of past emptiness, and Suicide Gene as the unnamed pull toward nothingness, symbolizing unyielding survival code. These personas "speak" through layered vocals, reversed whispers, and glitchy confessions, creating a dialogue that invites listeners to confront their own shadows without judgment.
Musically, Echo's N MelanKholyia is a hypnotic storm of genres: traumacore's dissonant catharsis meets industrial gothcore's mechanical fury, nu metal's rap-growl aggression, post-darkwave's ethereal haze, glitchcore's chaotic distortions, and voidcore's abyssal emptiness. The result is an immersive, addictive soundscape—binaural beats pulsing at 40Hz and 174Hz to tie in seduction and euphoria, 3D audio for psychotic despair, and unpolished production that bleeds raw intensity. Themes delve into mental health's labyrinth: dissociation's void, addiction's grip, damaging relationships' scars, and the triumph of self-reclamation. Khimera's artistry extends beyond audio to visual realms, with album artwork featuring charcoal sketches, gothic horror elements, and luciferian symbolism, all crafted to evoke a "junkie holocaust death march" of creepy, apocalyptic introspection.
Since its inception, Echo's N MelanKholyia has released a series of chapters that push artistic boundaries, available on platforms like Spotify, Amazon Music, SoundCloud, Apple Music, Tidal, Qobuz, and TikTok. The project's YouTube channel serves as a portal for official music videos, behind-the-scenes glimpses, and community engagement, fostering a space where fans can explore their own narratives through Khimera's lens. With collaborations leveraging AI for production and thematic depth, the band stands as a beacon for the disenchanted, proving that art can heal, empower, and transcend.
Subscribe to Echo's N MelanKholyia on YouTube for a journey into the melanKholyia—where echoes of the past forge omegas of the future. For inquiries or collaborations, connect via Facebook or X (@Mothyii13). All rights reserved © 2025 Echo's N MelanKholyia.

if i could do something about it i would

CONTACT NORE? DM for my phone number or email......wait but also if you actually do reach out please be kind or not that weird <3

I write every lyric myself—this is therapy, my outlet.
Raw rap, melodic rap, Metalcore, Punk, PopPunk and storytelling born from burnout, heartbreak, and unprocessed grief.

I use Suno (AI) to turn my words into the sound I hear in my head.
Every track is part of my story: real, unfiltered, and deeply personal.

First release: 15/07/25 🖤♥️✌🏻

If you connect with honest music about mental health, resilience, and finding clarity, follow the journey. I’d love to hear what you think, drop me a message, drop me a follow for more.

Welcome to my brain.

This is just small space to speak about the biggest taboo subject in life: death. :-) 
Something we ALL will experience and we all will experience loss. But we silence death to death. Soundcliud is limited, I'm working on another platform to dedicate to this taboo subject we all face.
My # 1 subject is to STOP making bereaved people feel guilty when people without crisis want to have a good time but feel the bereaved spoil their party! Stop putting the burden and blame on bereaved, on sick, on vulnerable people so you can feel selfish. I cover a lot of anger, and it's time for bereaved people to keep speaking out. Louder.

Basement recording artist, bedroom songwriter, bathroom singer, multi-instrumentalist. Folk, blues, alternative, rock, indie and anything that grooves.

New tracks tagged #CPTSD