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“Grandfather” is a cry to the divine: a song of devotion, surrender and awakening.

In Hindu philosophy, the Ganga river is seen as both mother and purifier, and its flow inspired the imagery of this song.

The voices of the ego… my restless, numbing self… always try to keep me asleep. But the voice of the grandfather cuts through: awake, steady and true. This song is about hearing that voice, even in the chaos, and letting it bring you back to who you really are.

At its heart, “Grandfather” is about reincarnation as the soul’s true origin; the cycle we return to not as punishment, but as another chance to walk with the divine. It’s a love song to God, to Krishna, to the eternal truth that never leaves.

Musically, this is one of my favorite songs on ‘Indigo’. With layered screams, heavy guitars and surging rhythms, the production mirrors the tug-of-war between ego and surrender. But underneath the distortion, the song holds stillness. The stillness of a voice that never fades.

“Grandfather” is streaming everywhere now. Listen on your favorite platform.

CREDITS
Songwriter: Aasheesh Paliwal
Producer: ShiShi

Grandfather

"Loser" is for the ones who never fit in… and finally stopped trying to.

I grew up in three countries and always felt like an outsider in every room. I was the weird kid in class, the quiet first chair in orchestra and the hopelessly awkward kid with girls. There was no box that would accept me or check all the realities I had lived through. When I moved to America, I didn’t quite fit in with the Indian kids or the white kids.

When you feel like a misfit for so long, eventually you just have to learn to lead yourself. My love for making music, putting my inner child first and expanding my sense of self through meditation, all helped me become the person I am today, defined by self-belonging and authenticity. Now, I invite you to join me.

This chapter is not about giving up. It’s about opting out of the carnival ride of others’ labels and expectations and setting your own pace.

Welcome to the club. Losers only.

Musically, Loser blends raw, guitar-driven rock with synths, storytelling and anthemic hooks. It's emotionally charged and built to move. The production leans into distortion and warmth, giving misfits what I hope is a sound to scream along to.

“Loser” is streaming everywhere now. 

LOSER: CREDITS

Songwriter: Aasheesh Paliwal
Producer: ShiShi

Loser

Take Me Away – Song Insight
🔻 Song Insight

“Take Me Away” is a visceral anthem for anyone clawing their way out of the darkness left by betrayal and heartbreak. Set to a backdrop of 90s alt-rock grit and cinematic angst, the song channels the suffocating feeling of loving someone who drains the air from your lungs and turns every hope to ash. Through searing guitars and unflinching lyrics, it wrestles with the urge to escape—a desperate longing for rebirth in a world untouched by old wounds. “Take Me Away” is both a funeral for what’s been lost and a rallying cry for anyone who’s ever needed to break free just to breathe again. The journey isn’t clean or gentle; it’s raw, real, and achingly honest, echoing in the heart of every listener who’s been there.

🔻 Lyrics

[Verse 1]
You sabotage air I breathe
Cut the vitals to my lungs
Squeeze a heart that bleeds

[Pre-Chorus]
This is what I become
Fire-torn flesh scorn
I watch this decay

[Chorus]
I wanna be born again
a world you didn't win
a place evil and sin
take me away
Take me away
take me away

[Verse 2]
arms go numb when you're close
remembering the loss I found
Looking down at my host
figuring out who I hate most

Nothing stops pain, just time
it's never the one on my side
I rip and pull at these strings
This inside I no longer see

[Chorus]
I wanna be born again
a world you didn't win
a place evil and sin
take me away
Take me away
take me away

[Bridge]
no right to breathe
Nothing to shine
no light to see
Into darkness they fall
Your words are gone
There's nothing at all

[Outro]
Nothing left of our past
Just ashes of the dead
You're not welcome here
Just pass us by, you already have

🔻 Personal Reflection

This song is a piece of my shadow—written in the aftermath of loving someone who left scars instead of memories. “Take Me Away” was born in the late hours when every breath felt heavier, and every memory stung like salt. I poured out the feeling of waking up numb, trying to remember who I was before pain became my default. There’s no sugarcoating heartbreak; the ache is relentless, and the only way out is through. These lyrics were my lifeline—my attempt to name the pain, scream it into the void, and finally let it go. The line between hating them and hating myself blurred so many times, but writing this song helped me pull myself back, one note at a time. It’s not about erasing the past; it’s about finding the strength to walk away from it, even if all you have left is ash.

🔻 4Me2BeFree

With “Take Me Away,” 4Me2BeFree continues to carve out a space where real emotion becomes cinematic storytelling. Every song is a chapter in the larger journey—transforming raw wounds into something listeners can feel, share, and heal alongside. This track is a testament to the power of music as survival: our way of saying, “I was here, I felt this, and I made it through.” For everyone carrying their own invisible weight, this music is your mirror—and your escape hatch. We make pain beautiful, not so you can relive it, but so you can let it go.

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Take Me Away

Late night honesty poured over ice. This song is about waiting, wanting, and the courage it takes to speak your truth.

Make Your Move Girl

About six months ago, when my dog Rico was ill – mostly due to old age – I spent two and a half months devoted entirely to his care, from morning until night. During that time, I hardly even changed my clothes. Some nights, while Rico was peacefully asleep, I worked on this piece with a heavy heart.

When Rico passed away, I was so exhausted and broken with grief that I completely forgot about the music. One day, I accidentally found the file on my desktop and pressed play. At that moment, all the pain came rushing back. This composition was for him – my dearest and kindest friend, my beloved Rico.

Although it was not fully finished, I chose to leave it exactly as it was. For me, it stands as a memorial, a testament to the love and companionship that can never be replaced.

He was my goodbye

🔻 Song Insight
“Holding Off Tomorrow” dives deep into the ache of emotional aftermath—the war zone that love sometimes leaves behind. The song’s core is about carrying someone else’s weight, trying to rise together but landing in hell, and finally realizing that some wounds only open wider when you refuse to let go. With raw lyrics and grunge-laced alt rock energy, this track paints the stormy process of breaking free from patterns that hurt, and the reluctant hope of surviving another day.

🔻 Lyrics
Verse 1:  
Just another project of regret  
It's your shit you hang on me  
I'm not your bitch, don't forget  
Yeah, we spun up to heaven  
But we landed in hell

Pre-Chorus:  
Set sail on broken parts  
Every fiber of my heart  
Thought this could be whole  
It was, a whole new level of hell, with you

Chorus:  
We fought the war on love  
You’re stuck in a past, lost blood  
Trifling things you can't change  
It's raining down sorrow  
holding off tomorrow  
But when the day start to end  
In hell it all begins  
In hell it all begins

Bridge:  
Burned-out hopes in a flood of blame  
I’m done playing this losing game  
No light left, just this pain  
We circle the drain, circle the drain

Chorus:  
(repeat)


🔻 Personal Reflection
Sometimes, the only way out of hell is to name it. “Holding Off Tomorrow” is about what it feels like to carry someone else’s pain and finally admit that it’s breaking you down. This track was written in the shadow of endings—holding on too long, blaming myself, until it became clear that some love stories are really just lessons. It’s a confession, a letting go, and a survival anthem rolled into one.

🔻 4Me2BeFree
For 4Me2BeFree, every song is a living memory—raw, unfiltered, cinematic. “Holding Off Tomorrow” stands as another chapter in turning lived trauma into relatable art, mixing the grit of 90s alt rock with confessional lyrics that pull no punches. Our mission is to transform true emotion into something that resonates across time and identity, letting listeners know that their struggles are seen, heard, and shared. Real pain, real release, real music.

🔻 Copyright Notice
"All lyrics and content featured in this post are protected under copyright (© 2025) and have been securely time-locked and validated through a crypto-based verification system to ensure originality and ownership. Unauthorized reproduction or distribution of any part of these works without explicit consent is strictly prohibited."



Holding Off Tomorrow

Song Insight
This track is a brutal exorcism of betrayal and false love, where pain is turned into fire and darkness is confronted head-on. “How in the fuck are you still alive” isn’t just a chorus—it’s a raw scream against someone who thrives on manipulation, hollow devotion, and the destruction of others. The lyrics carve through anger, grief, and defiance, transforming vulnerability into cinematic rage. This is not a love song. It’s a funeral dirge for illusions and a battle cry of survival.

Lyrics
Pre-Intro: Spoken, English accent:
 Pray attend—
 Fate is fickle,
 and should I go before you,
 know this:
 my shadow will follow.
Intro:
 It was the way you made me feel,
 I never wanted to trust.
 Your words wrapped me in desire,
 Made me feel like I was the one.
Verse 1:
 You painted me to make me the villain
 You thought I would give in
 You thought I would be the key
 Again the victim you would be
 My gut had it right—never giving in
Chorus:
 How in the fuck are you still alive,
 With all that darkness inside?
 You're a lonely bastard, hollow heart,
 A sick, twisted fuck, tearing me apart.
Verse 2:
 I learned to trust, thought it was ours,
 No longer an outsider, you were my guard.
 Believed in your lies, your fake devotion,
 But my fairytale turned into a dark explosion.
Bridge:
 If we get to death and there is nothing left
 Be patient while I conjure the will within
 To build a hell for you to live
 I will never forgive you for what you did
 Until we are dead and meet again
Pre-Chorus:
 Ooooohhhhhhh ooooooohhhhhhh never knowing why
 Find peace in unknowing, logic doesn’t fit with the insanity
 Ooooohhhhhhh ooooooohhhhhhh
Chorus:
 How in the fuck are you still alive,
 With all that darkness inside?
 You're a lonely bastard, hollow heart,
 A sick, twisted fuck, tearing me apart.
Bridge 2:
 Gave up my life, thought you cared,
 Offered my home, blood, but you never shared.
 Now I see how shallow you are,
 No values, no love, just a pathetic scar.
Verse 3:
 You're off with your little friend
 The darkest thoughts come over me
 A place where you belong
 To see it through new eyes
Breakdown
 You're a fucking prick without a heart
 No emotion
 No soul
 And one day—you’ll be exactly where you belong
 Alone
Chorus:
 How in the fuck are you still alive,
 With all that darkness inside?
 You're a lonely bastard, hollow heart,
 A sick, twisted fuck, tearing me apart.
Outro:
 At the end of this fucked-up road,
 What a fucked-up show.
 Better to learn now than stay,
 In your fucked-up way.

Personal Reflection
"This song is me burning the bridge once and for all. It’s about facing someone who stole trust, twisted love, and turned everything sacred into control. Writing it was painful but necessary—every line bleeds truth. I didn’t want to sugarcoat it. I wanted the fury, the scars, and the release to live inside the song the way they live inside me."

4Me2BeFree
For 4ME2BEFREE, this track is another chapter in the ongoing mission: to take the rawest edges of life and transform them into cinematic storytelling. The music is a mirror of survival, where scars become art and darkness becomes sound. Every lyric is carved from lived experience, every chorus is a scream of release. That’s what makes it more than just music—it’s truth put to rhythm.

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WAITING BY THE END

🔻 Song Insight Post
Song Insight
“In The Rain” is a cinematic reflection on memory, youth, and the search for meaning in love and art. It begins with nostalgia, drifts into longing, and finds power in small cinematic moments—standing under storm clouds, camera rolling, heart open. It’s both vulnerable and resilient, weaving together the innocence of old dreams with the messy beauty of lived experience. A love story, a film scene, a life reel—all told with rain as both curtain and spotlight.

Lyrics 

Intro:
 Just me and these stars–
 Thinking how little I've gone so far—

Verse 1:
 I used to think I’d always be kind—

spoken:
 “and you know, rewind”

sung:
 Maybe headline in some killer movie script—
 To think we knew it all— back when before life hits—

It’s funny,— I still feel the same— no matter the age—
 Waiting for my scene — the one to start—
 Camera lifts up— and I'm standing in the rain—
 The power in knowing just what to say—

Verse 2:
 It was the girl back then,
 But the heart still beats the same kind of way
 Chasing passion like yesterday—

Pre-Chorus:
 life makes you want to forfeit—
 and there's some days
 you just want to walk away
 have a stand-in waiting —
 Just to say– it all be okay—

Chorus:
 White picket fences lived on backlots—
 Every day felt like some new cliche–
 I know that spark is somewhere—
 I wanted it to ignite some kind of way—
 But maybe it's just not my day

Bridge:
 And these thoughts get rapped like webs
 In my head and then a man I don't understand
 his lips—, his hands—, his eyes— his kiss—,
“Did I mention his lips”
 warm voice that wakes me
 The magic, the power,
 A dream worth believing in

Outro:
 So here I am, queued up, speaking to this camera— because it’s you—-
 Rain running down my face as it pulls away
 Looking up, I smile and say—
with every drop that falls
 let it feed this love
 and for the days I have
 and everything I’ll be
 I'll never stop singing— even in the rain

Personal Reflection
"This song is about how dreams and reality blur. How the scenes we once imagined as kids—the stardom, the scripts, the love stories—still live in us no matter how much time passes. Standing in the rain becomes symbolic: messy, imperfect, but also cinematic and alive. It’s about learning to still believe, even when life doesn’t match the script."

4Me2BeFree
For 4ME2BEFREE, “In The Rain” embodies the cinematic quality that defines the project: turning everyday moments into film scenes, where music captures both the fragility and resilience of being human. This track reflects the band’s core—merging memory, storytelling, and emotion into a performance that feels like watching your own life on screen.

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IN THE RAIN

Deutsch:
„Dieser Song ist mir unglaublich wichtig. Er ist ein Tribut an meine Tochter, die viel zu früh gehen musste, und gleichzeitig ein Tanz durch Schmerz und Hoffnung. Musik ist für mich ein Weg, Erinnerungen lebendig zu halten und Gefühle zu teilen, die oft keine Worte finden.
Wenn du diesen Song hörst, wünsche ich dir, dass er dich berührt – vielleicht Trost spendet, vielleicht Hoffnung schenkt oder einfach zeigt: du bist mit deinen Gefühlen niemals allein.“

English:
„This song means the world to me. It is a tribute to my daughter who had to leave far too soon, and at the same time a dance through pain and hope. For me, music is a way to keep memories alive and to share emotions that often cannot be expressed in words.
If you listen to this track, I hope it touches you – maybe gives you comfort, maybe hope, or simply reminds you: you are never alone with your feelings.“

sofia - Du bist für immer bei mir

🎵 The Day the Thunder Fell
by 4Me2BeFree

🔻 Song Insight
This song is a quiet collapse—one that doesn’t scream, but sinks. The Day the Thunder Fell captures the stillness after a devastating moment, when life shifts and you’re left holding something that was never given the chance to be. It’s about loss at its most personal level, wrapped in echo, memory, and unspoken grief.

🔻 Lyrics
[Intro]
rain
The thunder rolled
It was after the show
No lights came down
Just another soul

[Verse 1]
Hope lingered
And then we were told
The ending held back
A life we couldn't grow

Trouble broke this silent ground
Union cracked with iron sound
Loops no longer held
Just truths were found
With stillness
An echo rang
We bowed out
Of what we couldn’t bring

[Pre-Chorus]
We stared at the screen
It no longer moved
Where our future lived
Now only stillness proved

[Chorus]
Leaving us
Together, alone
Each with a knowing
Of what was gone
Eyes streamed pain
You could see
This ending
Built inside our chests

[Verse 2]
Pacing floors
Worn and torn at the seams
Under falling skies
I fought through guilt—not dreams
Slammed doors
Fired screams
Desperate sounds
From collapsing beams

[Pre-Chorus]
Static love, resting underground
Confusion rising
From the walls all around

[Chorus]
Leaving us
Together, alone
Each with a knowing
Of what was gone
Eyes streamed pain
You could see
This ending
Built inside our chests

[Bridge]
Walking away with one less
A hollowness we can’t suppress
This loss became our home
We each carried the stone

Putting weight on backs that break
A heart that held all we could take
His life
Her earth
Now both are gone
A mother, father
Brother, son
This place inside
Now undone

[Verse 3]
A darkness falls in every drop
Tears from a broken lott
Black and shamed
Alone, we sleep
Mouthing a name
That didn’t get to be

[Pre-Chorus]
Cold walls, falling ceilings
In this bed we try
To forgive what peace once was
And say goodbye

[Chorus – Final Refrain]
Leaving us
Together, alone
With memories carved
Into bone
What never lived
Still made its mark
A silent child
In a world gone dark

[Outro]
rain
As we drift
To a place
That never will exist

🔻 Personal Reflection
There’s not much I want to say beyond what the song already does. This was a day that never left me. A choice. A hope. A silence. And a goodbye that didn’t come with words. I don’t share this to be understood—I share it because it’s mine. And maybe it belongs to someone else out there too. If you’ve ever carried grief that had no beginning or end, you’ll know what I mean.

🔻 4Me2BeFree
This track represents what 4Me2BeFree is about—telling stories that are too heavy for everyday words. The project exists to turn emotional truth into music that feels lived-in, not polished. This isn’t pop for playlists. This is sound for the soul, shaped by real pain, real love, and real memory.

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The Day the Thunder Fell - Fractures: Reimagined by 4ME2BEFREE

"If it didn’t matter, it wouldn’t hurt. Pain is the gift of knowing you’re alive."

4Me2BeFree is more than music—it’s my story, my scars, and my survival. Every song is a piece of me, a raw melody of love, heartbreak, and resilience. I blend AI-generated vocals and instruments with real emotions, turning my experiences—especially from an LGBTQ+ perspective—into something that speaks to anyone who's ever felt lost, broken, or just searching for something real.

Breakup songs? Yeah, they hit different. Music carries us through the worst of it, and every generation finds their own anthems of love, loss, and getting back up. Heartache doesn’t care about age, gender, or where you come from—music connects us all.

I make music because I’ve been there. The pain, the anger, the hope—it's all in these songs. If something here hits home for you, let it. If you feel something, let me know. That’s the connection that keeps this alive.

Hi, thanks for listening.

King Chico is a visionary songwriter, and multi-genre artist whose music defies boundaries. From sultry R&B and chart-ready pop to cinematic soundscapes, jazz, hip-hop, EDM, and lo-fi, every track is a world of its own. Each song tells a story; sometimes yours, sometimes his, always unforgettable. Listen and experience the sound of a one-of-one

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With over 30 years of experience in composition and two decades dedicated to research, I specialize in exploring the history of Iranian music while re-evaluating historical sources with a fresh perspective. My work bridges Eastern and Western traditions, aiming to create modern, cross-cultural compositions that remain rooted in heritage yet speak to a global audience.

I have written extensively on the evolution of Iranian music, challenging conventional narratives by consulting both Persian and Western sources. Alongside this, I am active in composition, arrangement, and performance using modern digital tools (FL Studio, VST libraries, etc.), where I integrate Iranian modes with contemporary forms such as hip-hop, cinematic, and experimental music.

Currently, I am open to collaborative research projects, cross-cultural music initiatives, and international partnerships. My goal is to contribute to broader conversations on music history, identity, and creativity, while offering a unique perspective shaped by decades of hands-on practice and research.

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