a song about intrusive thoughts, shout out trent reznor. kinda lost it in the second half, sorry lol

lyrics:
you're getting on my nerves
so fucking irritating 
why don't you just leave me the fuck alone?
i don't know what you want
i don't know what you need
i don't know what you want from me
you fucking mocking me?
i don't wanna see
i just wanna see you burn alive
i don't wanna see you smiling
i just wanna see you drop dead

i cant stand you and it's killing me
shut the fuck up, you take my energy
i don't know what you want from me
oh oh oh oh

say i'm a parasocial weirdo
yet you're the one who start it first
call me pathetic and embarrassing
and make my heart hurt
call me manipulative
for using proper punctuation
got my mind going in circles
you got my heart racing

i don't mean no disrespect
i just wanna see you dead
i'm talking about myself
yeah
i feel so fucking scared
i feel so in danger
your words pierce like a knife
i feel so much fright, yeah

i just wanna be dead!
i just wanna be dead!
i just wanna be dead!
i just wanna be...

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FAR TOO GONE

Side A:Y Did u Cum Bach?
Track List:
1.daxinem
2.Nose wide open
3.16 hotel rooms
4.The reason she's so nice
5.A special drum solo (interlude)
6.awful mambo No. 6
7.Cowbro nudes (its not gay)
8.Thunderous wolve puppets
9.Deil man
10.Thick lines closer to Jesus
11.Why Bother with GPHP?
12.We are never ever getting percs and strippers
13.scorch the system
14.Miku swag
15.Because I Can (outro)

Side B:Because i can
Track List:
16.Nympho in the Earth
17.Platypus Tv
18.Good faith
19.Helpless white boy
20.A special reaction to a special drum solo (interlude)
21.Use the bartender's fists and mouth
22.Rock your body closer to Jesus
23.Perfect dream
24.Mr.Fe!n
25.One night in December 1963
26.Faithful Seals
27.Someday No Estas
28.Village kids
29.Fair running Stu
30.Crank That (Soulja boy) 3

Side C:And there's nothing
Track List:
31.0 for 30
32.Never go far kid
33.Backseat chameleon
34.Pumped up in LA
35.She failed
36.Kiss my way
37. There's nothing holding me back from falling down
38.I gotta lose it
39.Give me paradise/She's a dog
40.The way i body snatch
41.Angry Fan boys and chum chums
42.Garfeild ocean

Side D: That you can do 2 stop me
Track List:
43.Family don't change
44.Get Marioed
45.Another day in the Pink Pony Club
46.Isn't she walking?
47.Inside intern
48.Shots story
49.Far from victorious
50.Heartless gay fish
51.Since I have a psycho killer
52.Waters of Kong




Cumplete cumplaiton

Albums/Eps used:
Mashups to make your ears bleed
Y Did u Cum Bach?
Because i can
And there's nothing
That you can do 2 stop me

Track List:
1.Weird Weezy/Arpeggi parties
2.Spazzing titties
3.Call me American.....maybe
4.The reason she's so nice
5.Awful mambo No. 6
6.Cow bro nudes (its not gay)
7.We are never ever getting percs and strippers
8.Platypus Tv
9.Good faith
10.Rock your body closer to Jesus
11.Never go far kid
12.Backseat chameleon
13.Kiss my way
14.Family don't change
15.Another day in the Pink Pony Club
16.Shots story
17.Since I have a psycho killer
18.Waters of Kong


Banger!!! Banger!!! Banger!!! volume 9

1) Hrvatski – Paint it Black
2) Ou – Dark
3) Maddie Ashman – Dark   
4) Three – Black
5) Johann Johannson – Black Skulls 
6) Nine Inch Nails – Black Noise
7) The Soft Pink Truth – Black Metal
8] Wolf Eyes – Black Vomit
9) Zappa – Black Napkins 
10) David Hudson – Black Mountain 
11) Venetian Snares – Black Sabbath 
12) Golden Ashes – Black Mouths Murmur Black Prayers
13) John Oswald – Black
14) Clipping – All Black
15) Buttress O’Kneel – Darkness
16) The Night Specter – Eternal Dark Splendour
17) Ni Zheng – A Litany of Shadows
18) Cloak of Altering – I Have Missed the Light So Much


Radio Earthling 14-07-2025 𝐁𝐥𝐚𝐜𝐤, 𝐀𝐥𝐥 𝐁𝐥𝐚𝐜𝐤


She’s rhyming reasons why
No clouds up in the sky
Feels better when it rains
Washes her tears away 

The starlings dance and sing
But she can’t feel a thing
Dreams without wings can’t fly
Hearts without dreams,
Hearts without dreams can die

She fogs the windowpane
Then draws a smiling face
Puts herself in its place
Then she DRAWS the window shade
I’d rather take your fall
Then watch you walk away from it all 
If the rain is where you hide
I’ll be waiting outside

Eden seems so far away

Reached out to touch the sun
On fire, burning wings are gone
Fall burning just to be
Between the sky and sea

Some cast in molds cracked and broke
While others tempered and gold
Some lost in a gaze
While others burn and fade

She fogs the windowpane
Then draws a smiling face
Puts herself in its place
Then she draws the window shade
I’d rather take your fall
Than watch you walk away from it all
If the rain is where you hide
I’ll be waiting outside


When it Rains

a reinterpretation of "me, im not" by nine inch nails, from the album year zero

nine inch nails - me, im not (dead air space remix)

FUCK IT, FRAGILE DEVIATIONS X LET GOD SORT EM OUT

NIN X CLIPSE - CAN I STAY HERE/CHAINS & WHIPS.logicx

CLIPSE X NIN -  CLAUSTROPHOBIA MACHINE (RAW)/ ALL THINGS CONSIDERED

CLIPSE X NIN - THE BIG COME DOWN/BIRDS DON'T SING

This isn't just a song. It's a rebellion. Fusing the dark, atmospheric melodies of Gothic Rock with the raw, aggressive power of Thrash Metal, "Depressed Dreams" is a cinematic anthem for anyone who has had to fight their way out of the darkness. This is the sound of resilience, a cathartic explosion of sound and emotion designed to be played at maximum volume. A testament to female power that pushes boundaries, breaks rules, and kicks ass.
For fans of Evanescence, Nine Inch Nails, and the genre-bending power of Spiritbox. Keira Boff's "Depressed Dreams" is a journey into the eye of the storm. The track blends soulful, intimate verses with an explosive chorus, all driven by a powerful Goth/Thrash metal fusion. Featuring a show-stopping rock vocal performance over a backdrop of haunting synths and heavy guitars, this is a song that defies easy categorization and demands to be heard.
Written By: Keira Boff and Russell Nomer Produced by: Russell Nomer Music

Lyrics:

[Verse 1] 
Divine feline in the fading light Black leather future, a past life fight 
Did I fall from somewhere as an angel? This life feels like a fable, and it's painful 
At the green light, I have to turn right.  But I'm driving blind through the thick of the night.

[Pre-Chorus] 
Am I already dead and in purgatory?  Out here, my time feels expiratory 
A warning sign flashes in my head: "Don't lucid dream too far ahead..."

[Chorus] 
These depressed dreams, I'm bringing them to life 
A beautiful dark spirit princess in the strife 
Hoping I don’t wanna die, still hoping I’ll be alright 
A twisted prince in my head, and we're bringing each other light 
Yeah, we're bringing each other back to life.

[Verse 2] 
I'm a mom and pops, just minus the pops 
I've seen all the dead ends and all the stops 
A blank envelope, another one-way sign 
Too many speed bumps for a triumph like mine 
My life, yeah, it's still tight, even when I'm off 
Still gotta be the boss, even when I'm lost.

[Pre-Chorus] 
Am I already dead and in purgatory? 
I know my own lore, I'm writing my own story 
A warning sign flashes in my head: 
"Don't lucid dream too far ahead..." 

[Chorus] 
These depressed dreams, I'm bringing them to life 
A beautiful dark spirit princess in the strife 
Hoping I don’t wanna die, still hoping I’ll be alright 
A twisted prince in my head, and we're bringing each other light 
Yeah, we're bringing each other back to life.

[Bridge] 
Driving on the W bridge, singing Amazing Grace 
I got a voice and I gotta protect this space 
Stressed from the fadeaways, but I know my own health 
My soul's the only real commonwealth 
My soul's the only real commonwealth 
The speed limit's infinite for me and me alone... 
And God, please, one day, just bring me home.

[Outro] 
Just bring me home... 
From these depressed dreams... 
Daydreaming... 
Yeah, I'm scheming... 
Bringing myself back to life.
[End] 


Depressed Dreams

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