“WITHOUT U” is one of the realest records I’ve ever made.
It came from a place of sitting with emotions I never said out loud, the moments after everything goes quiet, when you’re replaying memories you can’t let go of.

It’s a deep, emotional house track that carries the energy of those late-night drives where you feel everything at once. I blended my Indo roots with a hypnotic electronic groove, soft textures, and a haunting vocal motif that kept looping in my head until I had to turn it into music.

The track lives between tension and release, the kind of feeling you get when you’re trying to move forward but a part of you is still holding on. Warm bass, dreamy synths, and cinematic atmosphere guide the entire story.

It’s for anyone who’s loved deeply, lost something real, or lived in that space between letting go and holding on.
Whether you hear it in headphones, a club, or at 3AM on a drive, I hope it hits you the way it hit me.

— ELLEVN

Without U - ELLEVN

every thing I did want for christmas” is a letter to the past self who kept asking for the wrong gifts.
Not presents—patterns.
The high instead of the healing.
The almost-love instead of the real thing.
The chaos that felt like attention, instead of the quiet that felt like safety.
In the world of Black Ice Ballads, this track lands after the impact—when the glass has already shattered, the hospital lights have already burned your retinas, and all that’s left is a brutally honest inventory:
every drink you wished would erase a memory
every body you used to dodge a feeling
every argument you secretly started just to feel alive
The title breaks “everything” into “every thing” because each choice mattered. Each little “thing” you wished for stacked into a Christmas you barely survived.
The song turns that realization into a confessional carol: soft, punchy, and quietly ruthless with itself. It’s not begging for a miracle; it’s promising that if it gets another December, the wish list is going to look very different.

Black Ice Ballads

Everything I Didn't Want for Christmas

Everything I didn’t Want For Christmas

Black Ice Ballads is  a dark christmas  concept album from rocxann -a holiday record for anyone who's ever spun out on black ice in traffic and in love. these songs live where cheap tinsel car crashes, bathhouse confessionals ER beeps and quiet living room all blue into one long winter night

Mr.X

Ornament

Clause for Concern

Jack In The Mask

Winter Ventriloquist

Lonely on the Christmas Tree

Is He Real or Not?

Christmas Crinkled Nose” is the slow-motion montage inside Black Ice Ballads. After black ice, sirens, and hospital beeps, Rocxann’s mind leaves the room and lands in a cheaper, happier December: plastic reindeer on the lawn, crooked string lights, and someone across the couch laughing so hard their nose wrinkles in that way only you’ve ever seen.
The song isn’t about Christmas as a holiday; it’s about Christmas as a feeling you can’t get back. It zooms in on one tiny detail—the crinkled nose—and lets it carry the entire weight of love, loss, and “I thought we’d have more time than this.” Warm chords, cold memories, and a quiet confession: in the end, it’s never the big moments that save you, it’s the small ones that won’t let you go

Christmas Crinkled Nose

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IV Bags Of Hope

07 American Wake

chill lofi beat. In collaboration w/ The City at Night :)

memory loop

memory loop (Slowed + Reverb)

Wash away the old. Make room for the new. The cycle repeats.

Snowy Evening

imagine you and me...

grandma's room

Song Description (English US)"The Flame You'll Never Hold" is a hauntingly beautiful soft pop ballad wrapped in warm country undertones. Set to a gentle waltz rhythm, the song tells the story of an eternal, untouchable presence—a soul that has witnessed the rise and fall of countless hearts. With intimate fingerpicked guitar, delicate piano swells, and sweeping strings, the track builds from whispered vulnerability to emotional crescendo. The lyrics weave metaphors of fire, shadows, and ancient secrets, exploring themes of unattainable love, timeless wisdom, and the bittersweet truth that some flames are meant to illuminate—but never to be held.

The Flame You'll Never Hold

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Vollgas.de

Audiosinner weaves ambient reflections from diverse scenes: rusted towers, fog-soaked rail lines, dusty reels of forgotten film—where sound becomes memory and every note feels like something lost returning quietly.

A collection of my melodic dreams composed in FL Studio.
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Persönlichkeitsstörung zwischen Industrial und Trance :)

New tracks tagged #Nostalgic