“I FORGIVE THE PERSON WHO SHOT ME”

4 years ago Gordon was shot 3 times in the back and technically died twice, part of his involvement in the drug world. Fast forward to 2025 and he is doing great in recovery, loves sobriety, is getting reunited with his children and is already giving back. In this edition of Odyssey House Journals you will be amazed to hear about his new lease on life. Watch or listen and hopefully subscribe (free) to the 30 minute podcast on the following platforms with the following links: 
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180 Odyssey House Journals - Gordon

IDontNeedYouAnymore

In "Wish You Could See Me Now," Anval reflects on his transformation and pays tribute to his father and brother. Blending gratitude with longing, this track celebrates his growth while wishing his loved ones could see the life he’s built for his family.

Wish You Could See Me Now

Haunting and introspective, "Watford House" sets a somber tone as Anval revisits the place where his addiction began. This track explores the themes of shame, loss, and the crushing weight of his choices, drawing listeners deeper into his personal story.

Watford House

"Breaking Point" dives into the moment everything fell apart—losing Sarah and Stasia, moving in with Johnny, and waking up to find him gone. I stayed sober for his funeral, but when the dust settled, I spiraled into a month-long binge that almost took me out for good. It wasn’t until I saw the pain in my mom’s eyes—the same pain from losing Johnny—that I realized I was next. That’s when I called detox and took the first real step toward sobriety.

This is the sound of hitting my breaking point and choosing change.

Breaking Point

"One More Round" delves into the heart of relapse, portraying the inner dialogue between Anval and his addiction. This track reveals the seductive whispers and devastating consequences of giving in to temptation, highlighting the cyclical nature of the disease.

One More Round

Raw and emotional, "Losing Everything" chronicles the moments when life became unbearable. Anval reflects on losing his father and struggling to hold on as addiction consumed him, delivering a powerful and deeply personal account of pain and loss.

Losing Everything

"I Was Forged" is the triumphant conclusion to Anval’s journey. Reflecting on the trials that shaped him, this track celebrates his transformation and declares his unbreakable identity as someone forged by life’s challenges.

I Was Forged

With a relentless beat and emotionally charged lyrics, "Fighting With Myself" opens "Forged in Fire" by laying bare Anval's inner demons. This raw and gripping track captures the desperate fight for control and the beginning of a journey toward recovery.

Fight With Myself

"13 Years Lost" is a somber and introspective track that explores the haunting consequences of addiction. Anval's raw lyrics capture the pain of lost time and the chilling realization of life passing by, leaving listeners with a powerful sense of regret and a call to reclaim what's left.

13 Years Lost

In "New Heights," Anval reflects on his move to Colorado, a turning point in his journey of recovery. This track celebrates the strength of family and the hope found in starting over, symbolized by the mountains he now calls home.

New Heights

Uplifting yet raw, "The Climb" captures the emotional roller-coaster of early sobriety. Anval's honest lyrics explore the pain, fear, and hope that define the journey toward recovery, celebrating each small victory along the way.

The Climb

Dad called me selfish when I was lost,
Drowning in the bottle, paying the cost.
Every mirror showed my crooked grin,
Couldn’t face the weight of what I’d been.

I poured my pride into every glass,
Chasing shadows, running too fast.
But I dropped the mask and dried my veins,
Still wondering if I’ve really changed.

Am I better now, or just better at hiding?
Do I give enough, or keep on dividing?
Is it healing, or just another thrill?
I’m sober now, but is the mirror still?

Now every morning, clear-eyed and calm,
I build a life with steady palms.
But kindness shouldn’t be rehearsed,
I wonder if I still come first.

I count my steps, I check my tone,
But is it real when I’m alone?
Does my giving come from grace or guilt?
What’s the truth beneath what I’ve rebuilt?

Am I better now, or just better at hiding?
Do I give enough, or keep on dividing?
Is it healing, or just another thrill?
I’m sober now, but is the mirror still?

Some say time will set you free,
But time won’t answer what’s in me.
I try to serve, I try to stay,
But old ghosts never fade away.

I’ve let go of the drink and the highs,
But can you ever leave your past behind?
I do my best, I pay my dues,
But is it for them, or to silence the truth?

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Mirror Still (Thr Feb 13)

SAINT

Plenty of local news/notes w/ commentary and it's now been 2 years in recovery, et al.

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A combination of feeling good for positive growth and  sobriety  combined with an apology

happier being clean

sad small town

This song is about the journey from addiction to sobriety

War Cries From The Outside

Anval is a hip-hop artist who transforms personal pain into powerful anthems of resilience. Forged in the fire of addiction, loss, and recovery, Anval's raw honesty and introspective lyrics resonate with anyone who's faced adversity. His debut album, "Forged in Fire," is a testament to the strength of the human spirit and a beacon of hope for those on their own journey to redemption.

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