sepia

the worst tragedy on earth

freak or dreamer

professional hater

suicide party

life is a nightmare

i think im gonna die soon

szcmawo

loser

this is war

prod. keross3ne

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naite kurushimu

prod. traumaticbonds

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lyrics: https://genius.com/Shxxkoh1da-ninna-nanna-lyrics

ninna nanna

[Genre: Industrial gothcore fused post-darkwave suicidecore glitchcore voidcore, creepy apocalyptic Nazi-Holocaust death march vibe: 80 BPM intro crawl-slow funeral drag, flesh-ripping Foley wet aluminum scrape, WWII reel flicker gas chamber whispers-snap 110 BPM march verse, snare bone snaps kick coffin slams sub-bass tar lungs, Verse 1 monotone rap-growl lyrics counting pills numb dread, Chorus glitch drops chrome wire hair scrape venom drip reverb androgynous male deep-to-wail, Bridge 60 BPM heartbeat stutter reversed child whispers looping trauma static, Outro fade dripping click linger 2 beats extended end section reverse sighs ashes wind static eternal loop-nightmare spooky dystopian apocalypse violent scary vibes alien goth rock nu metal industrial cyberpunk moody intense insanity post-rock goth verses (haunting melodies twisted glitches) gothcore choruses (powerful drops chaotic energy) no polish bleed alters swap mid-bar legs unfold trenches breath-on-breath spine-hum lean-in

Verse 1 (monotone counting pills): Legs unfold in ash not mine yours, wire-hit broken ghost-code scar, drag funeral march chamber fog, crawlirium-passenger backseat tied, gut twist Odium counts one two Five freezes curled dead child door shut. Chorus (androgynous deep-to-wail glitch): Crawlirium choked static, tar lungs moths gas mouths Holocaust silence, inhale ash exhale fire, not alive not dead oven door, I'm no shadow veins nails hum trains don't stop-Alice shields pull. Bridge (60 BPM heartbeat stutter reversed child loop): No escape blackout flickers reel lights barbed fog, close eyes drag bones red glow no face limbs unfold void camps, Five dies twice Odium vacuum hate Suicide Gene whispers nothing, Alice wheel back hinge shut system co-conscious confession-no meds. Verse 2 (post-rock haunting glitch): We're the shatter, gender warp beliefs flip transgender bleed, Alice protector safety core, helix rotates orbit, Podium was Odium hate spelled, no acronym, just inventory scars, music ventriloquism authorship loss-lyrics wrote themselves post-bleed re-own. Chorus (deeper wail venom drip): Crawlirium choked static, tar lungs moths gas mouths Holocaust silence, inhale ash exhale fire, not alive not dead oven door, I'm no shadow veins nails hum trains don't stop-Alice shields pull. Verse 3 (dark wave moody violent): This isn't escape blackout flickers reel lights barbed fog, close eyes drag bones red glow no face limbs unfold void camps, my limbs your limbs abuse march same death-choke on it, Five leftover buckled forever Suicide Gene gravity well nothing, no integration passenger stay, ground 40 Hz name shift Alice here-watch breakthrough. Final Chorus (peak wail glitch drop): Crawlirium choked static, tar lungs moths gas mouths Holocaust silence, inhale ash exhale fire, not alive not dead oven door, I'm no shadow veins nails hum trains don't stop-Alice shields pull, helix center, Odium count, Five watch, Suicide Gene pull, no meds just beat confession. Outro tag (spoken clean over 20 dB drop, then silence-no reverb, hard stop): Start march end delete reload again-crawlirium doesn't halt, always dragging in you. END AT 6:00 EXACT.Let's try it.

Crawlirium (Odium Omega Crawlirum)

[Genre: Industrial gothcore fused with post-darkwave suicidecore, Creepy, apocalyptic Nazi-Holocaust death march vibe: 80 BPM intro crawl-slow funeral drag, flesh ripping Foley layered over wet aluminum screwdriver scrape, WWII reel flicker pitched low like gas chamber whispers-then snap 110 BPM march in verse, snare bone snaps, kick coffin slams, sub-bass tar lungs breathing, Verse 1: monotone rap-growl, lyrics calm like counting pills, Chorus: glitch drops, chrome wire hair scraping, venom drip reverb, androgynous male voice deep to wail, Bridge: 60 BPM heartbeat stutter, child whispers reversed, looping memory static like repetitive trauma, Outro: fade to dripping click, lingering 2 beats too long, Nightmare spooky dystopian apocalypse, violent scary vibes, alien  Goth rock fused with nu metal, industrial rock, cyberpunk elements, Moody drama, intense insanity: post-rock goth verses (atmospheric haunting melodies, twisted glitches), gothcore choruses (powerful drops, chaotic energy

Intro (Creepy Dark Ambience: Eerie Industrial Synths with Glitchy Static Pulses, Whispered Echoes Panning in 3D for Disorienting, Alien Crawl—Like a Nine-Legged Creature Jerking in Shadows):
That was upsetting for a bit there...
Now I know they will say I violated...
Your terms are what you govern...
Verse 1 (Nu Metal Fusion: Aggressive Rap-Screams Mixed with Distorted Growls, Glitchy Cyberpunk Synths, Slow Building Intensity with Twisted, Otherworldly Textures):
Your censorship bends truth sweet on the ears,
Candy-coded, nothing raw, it's all fake fears.
Politicians sell Trojan horses of info,
Bullet from hell in beauty's shell, hidden strings in the static flow.
Wonder what next manipulation will be,
To influence masses, goal's as many as can see.
One bird, two wings, two snake heads split,
Jekyll and Hyde ideologies, underneath the original shit.
Chorus (Gothcore Industrial Drop: Violent Riffs, Chaotic Drums with Big Kick Startles, Insane Glitch Drops, Dramatic Screamed Wails for Dark, Disturbing Apocalypse):
Ugly raw monster fueling the machine!
Nation's a scam, people fall for the dream!
Venomous elixir masked as justice high,
Social face twisted, remolded to lie!
Cancel culture joke, hypocrisy's throne,
Politically correct, but depraved to the bone!
Master libertine next to kings in the dark,
Anonymous executioner sparking the spark!
Verse 2 (Electronic Rock: Glitchy Sinister Ambience, Building Aggressive Emotional Twists with Alien Echoes and Crawling Chaos):
If possible, never be fake reality,
No training wheels on ideas, thoughts, emotions free.
That makes me enemy of the mass conformed,
Sounds familiar, yeah, the silenced and scorned.
Debaucherous indulgence, moral high ground fake,
Underneath the right, still the same snake.
Hypocrisy in name of being correct,
Scam of the century, what did you expect?
Chorus (Intensified Fury: Violent Distortions with Creepy Overtones, Mad Glitch Frenzy, Haunting Vocal Layers for Dystopian Nightmare and Aggressive Madness):
Ugly raw monster fueling the machine!
Nation's a scam, people fall for the dream!
Venomous elixir masked as justice high,
Social face twisted, remolded to lie!
Cancel culture joke, hypocrisy's throne,
Politically correct, but depraved to the bone!
Master libertine next to kings in the dark,
Anonymous executioner sparking the spark!
Bridge (Dark Wave Breakdown: Spooky Ethereal Waves with Psychotic, Crawling Pulses, Hypnotic Beats Stuttering into Scary Chaos with 3D Panning—Like an Inhuman Creature Jerking Out):
One bird, two wings... split ideologies...
Underneath the ugly... raw shit show...
Hidden strings... in the static...
I don't... I don't... fall for it...
Outro (Grunge Cyberpunk Fade: Grinding Guitars Dissolving into Dark Ambience, Echoing Wails Fading to Void Silence with Lingering Glitch Hum and Mad Twitching Sounds):
Never be fake... enemy of the conformed...
Sounds familiar... [Fade to distorted whispers and alien static.]

Venomous Elixir  [Dead Drop Mix]

(Verse 1)
I'm so emotionless
One Thousand yard stare every day no empathy
What was that you said every night you want to play
You really want to know
Please don't run away from the facts
A personality disorder
Just a little psycho
Yeah they call me a little psycho
Sick boy
A little psycho
Psycho
But you know I love you from the bottom of my empty heart
Chorus (0:50-1:20 - Gothcore Nu-Metal Drop: Intense Industrial Riffs with Violent Edge, Chaotic Drums, Powerful Kick Startles, Distorted Screams Layered for Aggressive Psychotic Despair and Suicidal Rage):
Antisocial Personality
What the fuck staring into the void
I just want to love
What does that feel like
I'm just
Just a little pretty Sociopath
I told you don't ask
A little psycho maniac
They call me a sociopath
On my way to complete
A Anti social Suicide
There's just to much dead in my eyes
It's social Suicide
It's social Suicide
Verse 2 (1:20-1:50 - Electronic Rock Fusion: Glitchy Cyberpunk Synths with Sinister, Creepy Undertones, Aggressive Ambience, Building Emotional Intensity with Twisted, Suicidal Echoes):
I don't like to tell anybody
It's so embarrassing
When I get paranoid
That your thinking so horrible of me
I didn't ask for this
My parents made me feel like shit
For every fuck
For every hit
I numbed my body and mind from everything
I smile
As they take it out on me
Chorus (1:50-2:20 - Intensified Industrial Fury: Violent Distortions with Creepy Overtones, Insane Glitch Drops, Dramatic Vocal Wails for Dystopian Nightmare and Aggressive Suicidal Breakdown):
Antisocial Personality
What the fuck staring into the void
I just want to love
What does that feel like
I'm just
Just a little pretty Sociopath
I told you don't ask
A little psycho maniac
They call me a sociopath
A Anti social Suicide
There's just to much dead in my eyes
A Anti social Suicide
There's just to much dead in my eyes
It's social Suicide
Bridge (2:20-2:50 - Dark Wave Breakdown: Spooky Ethereal Waves with Aggressive Pulses, Psychotic Whisper Layers Turning Creepy and Suicidal, Hypnotic Beats Stuttering into Scary, Violent Chaos with 3D Panning):
I can't help it was I born like this
I don't think so but I did all the brain scans they wanted 

from me
In and out of the hospital
They want to keep studying me
They won't let me leave
They keep poking at me
Standing up completely still, I know I'll never be free
No facial expressions, they keep looking at me
Calm and together no
What the

Sociopath's Void [MelanKholyia]

(Monotone rap-growl: Calm counting pills, numb detachment voice in hip hop cadence, snare bone snaps marching rhythm, kick coffin slams heavy like injection rituals, addiction sub-bass tar lungs wheezing ragged—dread building with skin crawls glitches, creepy whispers "horror... anticipations...", flesh-ripping cannibals mid-line in dystopian apocalypse vibe, alien tendencies warp 3D audio.)
The skin crawls with horror and anticipations,
So how invasive, my broken soul is scarred with human devices.
To inject addiction like a ritual of madness,
I enter the drug induced abyss.
Eyes in triple disconnected from my surrounds,
Chest caving in to the dread in life ending fantasies.
Wreaked in alien like tendencies, I am entrenched,
Smooth as sea rocks and as jagged as shattered glass.
Calm counting pills in the holocaust haze,
Numb detachment, dread building to the alien grave.
[Chorus]
(Androgynous male deep wail choking reverb intensity raw release: Glitch drops shatter with chrome wire hair scraping tension, venom drip delays pool into drug coma gurgles, dramatic screams warp apocalyptic in 3D audio—echoing "emptiness... serenity..." layers over violent scary nu metal riffs, lingering torment in voidcore silence bursts with insanity addictive loops.)
This is the endless souls of emptiness,
The robbery of serenity
By illusions in a drug induced coma...
By illusions in a drug induced coma...
This is the end of everything... (glitch drop void silence, bone snap resume, reverse sighs tease)
[Verse 2]
(Growl intensifies with hip hop flow: March verse with snare bone snaps in nightmare rhythm, junkie sludge guitars grind, kick coffin slams like vertigo stabs, sub-bass tar lungs, screwdriver scraping steel glitches mid-line—demonic passions hum, shattered glass shards clank, unholy coma illusions in spooky dystopian vibes, haunting whispers intercut alien hums.)
A cycle of repeated self distortions in delusional self preservations,
From emotional endangerment running from the past
That killed the youth of my birth to my eyes opening
To the trauma that eats me alive.
Panic vibrations, demonic abyss entrenched,
Inject the madness, disconnected tendencies.
Calm counting pills, numb in the death march parade,
Dread building with otherworldly screams unresolved.
[Chorus]
(Deep wail choking escalates: Chrome wire scrape builds violent tension, venom drip reverb with pill sacrifice drips louder, glitch drops into spooky static—dramatic screams fade with ashes wind echoes, alien rock distortion warps to creepy unease, addictive hip hop scratches layer in.)
This is the endless souls of emptiness,
The robbery of serenity
By illusions in a drug induced coma...
By illusions in a drug induced coma...
This is the end of everything... (venom drip echo trails off, child whispers tease reverse)
[Bridge]
(Tempo slows to 60 BPM heartbeat stutter: Flesh-ripping cannibals intensify with WWII reel flicker low-pitch screams, gas chamber whispers chanting "coma... trauma...", child whispers reversed looping memory static for disorientation reliving horror—screwdriver scrape echoes in 3D dark am, alien otherworldly hums build nightmare torment, dramatic screams stutter in void with emotional endangerment chains clanking.)
Eating pills like sacrifices, skins vibrations panic...
Broken soul invasive, ritual abyss dread...
Disconnected fantasies, alien tendencies entrenched...
Cycle of distortions, running from the past that eats alive...
Reliving the horror, unresolved in the drug coma... (glitch drop dread peak, chrome wire scrape venomous, heartbeat fades to dripping click)
[Chorus/Outro]


Drug Induced Coma

[Intro]
(Slow crawl: Decaying flesh steam rises in sub-bass hum, worm squirms glitch faintly, distant victim whispers "filthy... victim..." building to filthy emotion swell.)
The worm-eaten flesh,
Served decaying flesh,
Steaming with all your emotions.
You make me feel so filthy,
As dirty as you, but I am your victim.
[Verse 1]
(Monotone growl: Insect skitter snares, chain-bound kicks, dread builds with pocket-skin squirm effects—numb detachment in abuse cycle.)
I swallow,
Infestations squirming in pockets of skin.
You make me swallow, so sick,
I'm forced to follow,
As sick as your sins.
I swallow,
I revival within them,
Seizing, thrashing, screaming terrorism.
Your sickness, your cryptic sins.
[Chorus]
(Choking wail reverb: Glitch drops vomit pour, cup clinks with guest rush smiles, thrashing terrorism peaks in unholy feast frenzy—echoing "swallow" layers.)
Vomiting up just to pour them in cups,
For all the guests to give them a rush.
With smiles raised up,
Their feast begins.
I swallow,
I could never win.
I never can rest,
Chemicals run through my veins.
[Verse 2]
(Growl intensifies: Dead memory bed creaks, sexual whim chains rattle, psychotic grin stares with hollow soul synth voids—over and over loop builds revenge tension.)
Taken advantage,
A bed made with dead memories,
Such a favorite lying to myself.
Keep going,
I swallow,
Over and over again.
You made me swallow all your sexual whims.
I swallow but I just wanted to consume your soul,
So one day I can rip you apart.
[Chorus]
(Wail escalates: Vomit gush effects louder, insect crawl on plates, guest smiles warp into defecation stains—feast begins with bound lust chains clanking.)
Vomiting up just to pour them in cups,
For all the guests to give them a rush.
With smiles raised up,
Their feast begins.
I swallow,
I could never win.
I never can rest,
Taken advantage over and over again.
[Bridge]
(Tempo slows to creepy void crawl: Flesh-ripping tears peak, unholy defecation drips echo, dead eyes stare silence with activation glitch—builds to thrashing release.)
Dinner, the plates crawling with insects,
A disgusting vice stained with unholy defecation.
Penetrated with lust, bound by chains of emotions.
Sicker than your psychotic grin, I stare and just smile.
What you made was a hollow soul you'll never know,
Dead eyes staring at the silence.
Activation was the goal,
Hidden within your secrets.
The corpse that you are hidden within,
You make me swallow, so sick, forced to follow,
Or relive the abuse again.
So I swallow, but now I'm as sick as your sins.
[Chorus/Outro]
(Full climax wail: Layered vomiting pours, guest rush smiles fade to terrorism screams, over and over repeats dissolving into worm-eaten decay static—ends in hollow silence void.)
I swallow,
I revival within them,
Over and over again.
Your sickness, your cryptic sins.
Vomiting up just to pour them in cups,
For all the guests to give them a rush.
With smiles raised up,
Their feast begins... (echo fades: "I 

Swallowed Holocaust (Void Feast)

Alchemy Beyond Subconscious

Star Gazed Maze

This is My AI Band for my Trauma Art Therapy Music.
All Lyrics Written & Developments done by me Echos or Nexus Khimera. Including how I created the Sound and all Lyrics are from my personal Experiences. 

Welcome I'm Nexus Khimera. I have been a vocalist & lyricist since I was 15 , now I'm 38. My doctors asked me to try it for therapy. I never stopped. I have been diagnosed with Antisocial/BPD Cluster C Personality Disorder, Dissociative Identity Disorder, CPTSD/ PTSD. I've had DID since I was young around 5 next 15 then through 19 to 38. My alters have been writing since 15, to help realise stored buried trauma & use their voices helping them to crawl to the surface. I'm a survivor of sexual, physical & emotional abuse & victim of domestic violence. My alters told me to start creating music here, when I started here I got sick, after playing them over and over. I got nauseous my guts were speaking to me, I could feel them surfacing. Crawling around MelanKholyia N the system. From family, to their friends and every one I tried to get close would abuse me, abandoned me or used me as a doll until I was as hollow as the echoes of the fundamental nothingness the obsidian womb. This is my Trauma Art Therapy. Bringing Mental Health Awareness to music notes. If you struggle with | Dissociative Identity Disorder | Antisocial Personality Disorder CPTSD PTSD. This music just for us <3.
 Thank you for your support. Thank you for not taking my music or stuff out of what I'm really trying to do now with the info I have now told confronted my on my family telling them what happened tonight. As last night for the first time I confronted my family. All I got was lies from them as they turned what they have done against me as they have my whole life now I have proof , at this point their lies and denial has got me to this point.
I will not hide myself or feel ashamed to tell the truth now because I've learn to accept myself for once I my life. I'm sick of this self hate and disgusted because of what I have become because of my environments and things that happened to me. Because of the embarrassment and how much I hate myself because well that's whats happens when everytime you try to say something others are invading the places. That are made to be safe. I'm not going to stay quite ever again I will scream out until I lose all breath. The stigma must be broken .

38 Years old

Syracuse IN

With a Masters & Dissociative Degree N Damage & Art

I write all lyrics in both Bands

Regarding the musical projects, "Echo's N Melankholyia" is an online band where I serve as the lyricist and intend to transition into vocal duties. For the live band "Mothyii," I am the lyricist and vocalist. As a professional artist, poet, and lyricist, I have received diagnoses for ASPD, BPD, DID, ADHD, SAD, OCD, GAD, Panic Disorder, Agoraphobia, and Hypersexuality.

Nexus Khimera utilizes musical expression as a form of trauma art therapy, channeling experiences of abuse, toxic relationships, and addiction into compositions. The artist's work, reflecting a journey of survival and recovery, incorporates elements of Goth Rock, Industrial Rock, Nu Metal, Gothcore, Post Rock, Grunge, Post Grunge, Dark Wave, and cyberpunk. The resulting soundscapes are characterized by haunting atmospheres, dark ambient textures, and emotionally charged layers, reflecting themes of mental health and personal struggle. As Nexus Khimera, I operate as an artist, poet, lyricist, and vocalist, exploring the complexities of the human psyche within the context of cosmic themes. My creative endeavors, influenced by Borderline Personality Disorder and the effects of past trauma, serve as a means of processing and transforming internal struggles. My artistic practice encompasses a range of mediums, including charcoal drawings that blend biomechanical and Lovecraftian elements, dark surrealism, and abstract expressions derived from emotional experiences. Through a combination of AI-assisted and traditional techniques, I aim to confront and transmute personal traumas into evocative visual narratives. My poetry also plays a crucial role in this process. My artistic expression, characterized by free verse, unconventional lyrics, and a distinctive vocal delivery, functions as a therapeutic outlet, allowing for the articulation of complex emotions and observations of a world often perceived through a somber lens.

I invite you to explore this realm of shadowed beauty and candid revelations. Please follow Nexus Khimera on social media to stay informed about his creative endeavors.

Thank you for your visit. I hope your day is filled with moments of both wonder and introspection. I encourage you to return soon.

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© 2025 by Echo's N Melankholyia. Lyrics by Nexus Khimera. All rights reserved. Music generated with Suno AI. Date: September 5, 2025. "It all Begins." Decipher the underlying messages. Encryption is my method.Characterized by free verse, unconventional lyrics, and a distinctive vocal delivery, it functions as a therapeutic outlet, allowing for the articulation of complex emotions and observations of a world often perceived through a somber lens.

I Invite you to explore this realm of shadowed beauty and candid revelations. Please follow Nexus Khimera on social media to stay informed about his creative endeavors.

Thank you for your visit. I hope your day is filled with moments of both wonder and introspection. I encourage you to return soon.

Please explore my band, Echo's N Melankholyia, and consider subscribing. Thank you all for your support.

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