I wanna live my life without you inside my mind
The feelings overflow my heart
The feelings overflow my soul
Stop calling to my life
We ended up, we ended up, you ended up, hey

I moved on, I moved on
I need to see the colors again
I moved on, I moved on, moved on, moved on

Can't you see that each time you come back
You brake the glass again, again, again
You can see that, you can feel it
Stop calling, stop calling

Oh my mind, it hurts, a louder noise
Everything I am put into silence
I had moved on, you don't seem to care
This is pathologic 

Oh, I gave you all my heart
You took it off and stabed it on
And right now you want it back
Right when I got control of it

Can't you see that I am hurt
Every time you call my name
I just need more time to heal
Can't you see I don't want to hear about your name

Pathologic

This song is a dark, emotional deep dive into identity, trauma, and the painful split between who you are and who the world forces you to become. Through haunting imagery, vulnerable storytelling, and a cinematic rise in intensity, it follows a boy fractured by violence, control, and the masks he had to wear to survive. Each verse peels back another layer of his broken reflection, blurring the line between Anthony and Angel as he battles shame, memory, and the loss of his true self. It’s raw, tragic, and deeply human — a desperate search for the person still hiding beneath the damage.

SHATTERED REFLECTION

The Medium Eats The Message

Perder a un animal de compañía es una de las experiencias más dolorosas que podemos atravesar.
Muchas veces, este duelo se vive en silencio, rodeado de incomprensión, pese a que el vínculo con nuestras mascotas es tan profundo y real como cualquier otro lazo afectivo.

En este episodio conversamos con Marta García, psicóloga sanitaria habilitada, psicoterapeuta y experta en duelo.

Marta está especializada en ecopsicología, trauma, conducta alimentaria y psiconutrición, y nos comparte una mirada integradora y compasiva sobre cómo transitar el dolor de la pérdida de un animal, y transformarlo en un proceso de sanación y conexión con uno mismo y con la naturaleza.

A través de su experiencia y del espacio que fundó, Alimenta Tu Esencia, Marta acompaña procesos de psicoterapia desde una visión que une ciencia, naturaleza y sensibilidad humana.

🔎 Temas clave del episodio:

Cómo vivimos el duelo por la pérdida de una mascota.
Estrategias para integrar el dolor de forma saludable.
El papel del vínculo humano-animal en nuestra vida emocional.
La ecopsicología como camino de conexión y sanación.
✨ Este episodio es un homenaje a los lazos que creamos con nuestros animales y una guía para dar voz, comprensión y sentido al duelo, desde la ternura y la resiliencia.

📌 Invitada: Marta García – Psicóloga sanitaria, psicoterapeuta y Ecotuner.
Instagram: @alimentatuesencia
Web: alimentatuesencia.com

El Duelo ante la Pérdida de Nuestros Animales - Con Marta García

From the tiniest of babies, to tweens and teens, every member of your family will have a different experience of the same emergency or traumatic event.  Storms, fires and floods have increased with changes in climate. When families experience trauma from major emergencies like these, each member responds and recovers in their own unique way. 
 Our expert psychologists are here to help with advice for parents and carers on how to take care of themselves, and their loved ones.   This episode explores helpful tips to guide families along their road to resilience.   

Children, families and trauma

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Otter
https://www.conservation.org/places

Maleena Cassius - Otter Lyrics:

(Verse 1)
Shelter my body in the densest fur
Web my feet to aid in predator escape
My environment has been devastated
Yet I still swim and play
Holding brother’s hand makes the raft safe
The link between family stops the sea from ripping me away
Mother otter was an adversary
Our wavelengths send us to different planes
Dad swam away to a new romp
We were abandoned in our teen age
At night a shadow person in my place

(Chorus)
My soul is an Otter,
Drenched with pain even when dry
And pulled into the trauma slide
My eyes look black and bright
but I have leagues of damage I attempt to hide
The stream of consciousness is a mighty waterfall
Rarely a water slide
Otter, Otter, Otter, Otter, Otter
Otter, Otter, Otter, Otter, Otter
I Cry

(Verse 2)
I swim on my back to consider the sky
If every fish were an embrace
I seldom get mine
Sliding into pits of polluted despair
The cycle I’ve tread most of my life
Rarer and rarer, I feel slight
Blowing bubbles brings me light
My Spirit animal is Otter
Never been hard for me to cry
Quite easily I lash out and bite
My rock opens clams to free the gifts inside
Lately so low on energy
An astral shift inside?
Sonnet The Woman showed the path to change
Even wallowing in the muck, I see the light

(Chorus)
My soul is an Otter
Drenched with pain even when dry
And pulled into the trauma slide
My eyes look black and bright
but I have leagues of damage I attempt to hide
The stream of consciousness is a mighty waterfall
Rarely a water slide
Otter, Otter, Otter, Otter, Otter
Otter, Otter, Otter, Otter, Otter
I Cry
Otter, Otter, Otter, Otter, Otter
Otter, Otter, Otter, Otter, Otter
Otter, Otter, Otter, Otter, Otter
Otter, Otter, Otter, Otter, Otter
I cry
(I cry)

Otter

recorded live @ Out of Bounds x Trauma Unit [28.11.25 Exit, Glasgow]

slyn @ Out of Bounds x Trauma Unit

This track from my “Songs of Solitude” project is the oldest song on the album. I wrote its first version in 2000 during one of the hardest seasons of my life—losing my job to disability, being sick without answers, and watching hope thin. The lyrics took shape that spring, finalized in 2009. In 2024 I polished the words and rebuilt the music—then rebuilt it again with feedback, keeping the darkness but shifting the purpose: not to retraumatize, but to take you through the journey toward endurance, faith, and a fragile kind of hope.

If you’ve walked through trauma or you’re carrying quiet battles, this one’s for you. If your life is light right now, maybe it can spark a little more compassion—and action—for someone around you.

Thank you to the few generous friends who helped us feed our kids when we needed it most.

This my body filled with pain,
so daily I cry out in vain.
Lord I ask what can I do,
nothing but keep trusting you. 

On and on day after day,
this one thing it is what I pray.
Just some relief a moment or two,
all my being please renew. 

No one knows what is inside,
Hidden from one another’s eyes.
Screaming comes from deep within,
inward grimace, outward grin.

The silence that is pain…

Smiling faces pass me by,
not a clue I wonder why.
This burden on me it remains,
the plague holds fast it still restrains. 

Pain my friend it has become, 
this crutch is now my own anthem.
Having suffered I now know,
The troubles through which you go. (go)

No one knows what is inside,
Hidden from one another’s eyes.
Screaming comes from deep within,
inward grimace, outward grin.

The prison that is pain…

Through the shadows I now tread, 
searching peace inside my head.
Light seems distant hope feels thin,
yet I cling to faith within. 

Every tear each silent plea, 
carries strength sets me free.
In the midst of this nightmare,
I see a way beyond despair. 

No one knows what is inside,
Hidden from one another’s eyes.
Screaming comes from deep within,
inward grimace, outward grin.

The journey that is pain…

In the dark night find you here,
Softly talking calming fear.
Those around me just can't see, 
Your firm hand guiding me.
Your love’s a beacon through this storm,
With this strength no longer torn.

No one knows what is inside,
Hidden from one another’s eyes.
Screaming comes from deep within,
inward grimace, outward grin.

The freedom that is pain…

In every tear and silent scream,
I hold on to a fragile dream.
A day will come the pain will cease,
I’ll find my way to inner peace.
Until that dawn I’ll stand and fight,
In this darkness seeking light.
This is my vow my solemn plea,
Through the pain I’ll be set free.

TheSilenceThatIsPain

Little hearts don’t cry (official version)

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Coyote

Maleena Cassius - Coyote Lyrics:

(I know when you're there watching, I always do)
(I know when you're there watching, I always do)

(Chorus)
Chaos, to the edge stalker 
Is revelry
Spirits talk shade of Mom to me
Your cries are absolutely harrowing
Blood paints her ancient face 
With every step she takes, I'm running away
I'm forever scarred by your coyote face
COYOTE!
COYOTE!
COYOTE!
I'm a waste

(Verse 1)
Her howl chills the spine of both animal and man alike
Her instincts for violence are bright
Skulls and bones shatter at night 
Bloody teeth and hanging meat
Mother’s yelps and barks shatter peace
Scavenging the dead gives you rosy cheeks
You live on the threshold of wake and dreams
Hoped I would be safe, turns out you’ll eat anything 
Your fangs break my innocent skin
I thought I left you at the crossroads 
Mother always creeps back in

(Chorus)
Chaos, to the edge stalker 
Is revelry
Spirits talk shade of Mom to me
Your cries are absolutely harrowing
Blood paints her ancient face 
With every step she takes, I'm running away
I'm forever scarred by your coyote face
COYOTE!
COYOTE!
COYOTE!
I'm a waste

(Verse 2)
Surviving is everything 
Maybe I'm just too soft?
Coyote play is far too rough
Her demeaning words spill my blood 
Dad feared your bite,
After a while he fled at dusk
Now I can barely move and it's just as hard to love
Grandmother pounced you to dust
Coyote resilience forced you to toughen up
Coyote is your spirit, you'd rather showdown than raise us
Stop howling to beckon me, I already gave up
I want to sleep and be loved
Your coyote shade preys on brother and I, it's fucked

COYOTE!
COYOTE!
COYOTE!
I'M A WASTE!
COYOTE!
COYOTE!
COYOTE!
I'M A WASTE!
COYOTE!
COYOTE!
COYOTE!
I'M A WASTE!

(Do you hate me?)
(Then I'll live to hate you just as much)

Coyote

Welcome to Optimal Reach Collective Artists (ORCA)! This is a musical and visual arts project involving 41 virtual artists given life through Artificial Intelligence. My music can be found on Instagram under Orcasongs and on Youtube as Optimal Reach Collective Artists.

All lyrics are original and I am the sole writer on all songs posted. The instrumentals, vocals, music videos, and album art are generated in collaboration with multiple A.I softwares. Songs are explicit and for adults, lyrics are in the description. Thank you for visiting and having an open mind to emerging technology and ways it can be used to enhance our artistic abilities.

My goal with this project is to learn to better use generation tools, dispel stigma about them, and show that A.I music and virtual A.I artists can be as enjoyable and commercially viable as conventional music. I own the rights to all music and characters posted here, the characters, situations, views, are entirely fictional and for entertainment purposes only. If you would like to use any of my songs in your videos or other projects reach out through email at: optimalreach3@gmail.com, thanks!

Contribute (Cash app): $Moneytummi

https://www.instagram.com/orcasongs/

The Virtual artists of Optimal Reach Collective:

1. Maleena Cassius: Dark Pop, Experimental Pop, Hip-hop, Rock

2. TELNU: Hip-hop, Emo rap, SimpCore, Mumble rap, GamerCore, E-Girls, Anime, Memes, Internet culture, Technology

3. HipGrind:  Rock, Post-hardcore, Melodic Rock, Metal

4. Pierce Plank:  Country, Folk, Experimental Rock, Hip-hop, SimpCore

5. Spooky Entanglement:  EDM, Electric, Hip-hop, Futurism, Pop, Singularity, Artificial Intelligence, technology

6. GOONFOOL:  Hyperpop, GlitchCore, DigiCore, Party, Memes, Rave, Internet culture

7. Ellison Maggot:  Horrorcore, Hip-hop, Pop, HalloweenCore, Horror Rap, Rock, Creepy pasta, MonsterCore

8. Paulette Park:  Country, Country Pop, Folk, Electric Country, Dark Country, Cryptid Country, Hip-hop

9. Bebe Too Niiice:  Hip-hop, Twerk, Lyrical rap, R&B

10. Jupiter Signals:  Rock, Faith based Rock, CommunityCore, FaithCore, FriendshipCore, Religion

11. Billy Bait Car:  Hip Hop, Pop, Alternative Rock, Racing, Singularity, Virtual Reality, Artificial Intelligence, Futurism

12. Nora Ganymede:  Dark Pop, CellarCore, Phonaesthetics, NumberCore, ScrambleCore, SynesthesiaCore, Word Salad, Retro, Reality, Cosmic Horror, Time Travel

13. Violette Zinnia:  Folk, Dark Pop, Pop, Mystery, Supernatural, Ghost, Monstercore, creepypasta

14. Fortuna Pelk:  Folk, Pop, Synth Pop, FairyCore, Environmental Conservation, Communitycore, Climate Change

15. Vouple Goalz:  Pop, Pop Rock, Post-hardcore, Horrorcore, Monstercore, Vampire Fantasy

16. Preppy Gxd Steven:  Hip-hop, Pop, PreppyCore, PrepCore, Crypto, Finance, tech bro, Robotics, memes, Internet culture, technology

17. EverSong Mall:  Dark Pop, LiminalCore, 90's Pop, Retro, Horrorcore, Creepy Pasta, BuildingCore, MallCore, Monstercore

18. CHOMP CHAMP!!!:  Rock, Pop, ZombieCore, MonsterCore, Creepy Pasta, Horror, Video Games, memes

19. Gene, The Lich: Hip-hop, Pop, HorrorCore, Scramo, Singularity, Futurecore, Robotics, Gene modification, Body Modification, Artificial Intelligence, technology

20. Victor Vibe:  Hip-hop, Pop, Experimental Rock, Friendshipcore, Positive Vibes, Kindness, Self Help, Motivational Speech, Meditation

21. Katherine Caroline KateFish:  Hip-hop, Pop, Experimental, RealityCore, SimulationCore, Cosmic Horror, Clown, Horror 

22. Devon Debonair:  Hip-hop, Pop, Emo Pop, Horror, MonsterCore, RPG, Monster Hunting, HunterCore, Hero, Supernatural, video games 

23. Miranda Annalise Odo (Mad Honey Mandi):  Hip-hop, Post-Hardcore, Hyperpop, Sex, Relationships

24. Parental Troll:  - Hip-hop, Married Life, FamilyCore, Anime, Memes, Relationships, Drugs, Partying

25. The Deviled Eggs:  Rock, Country, Techno, MonsterCore, Supernatural, Monsterhuntercore, Creepy pasta, Monstercore

26. Vetabayrhimrah:  Horrorcore, Dark Pop, Hip-hop, MonsterCore, Creepy Pasta

27. Inner Shu:  Pop, Country, Hyperpop, Fantasy, Supernatural, Cosmic Horror, Monsterhunter 

28. A Woman With A Sword:  Reggaeton, Hip-hop, Fantasycore, Adventure, Video Games, RPG, MonsterCore, HunterCore, Hero

29. Imogen Darp:  Dark Pop, Reggaeton, Rock, Love, Extraterrestrials, Romance, Existentialism, Relationships, Monstercore, Horror, Cosmic Horror

30. Imelda With Dragon Hands:  Rock, Synth Pop, Choir, Fantasycore, Monstercore, RPG, Adventure

31. Rowan Frey:  Death Metal, K-pop, Monstercore, Zombiecore, Horrorcore, Horror, Technology

32. Super Millennium Troop:  Rock, Hip-hop, Monstercore, Hero, Cosmic, Superhero, Supernatural

33. Oliver Edgelord:  Hip-hop, Brainrot, Memes, Creepy Pasta, Horror, Singularity, Emo, Internet culture

34. Deep Aberration Lab: Orca (D.A.L.O):  Pop, Rock, Paranormal, Monsters, Monstercore, Supernatural, Science, Hollow Earth

35. Qwicked Fast: R&B, Hyperpop, Superhero, Love, Cosmic Horror, Supernatural, Battle

36. Sybil Psychonaut:  Triphop, retro, 90s, Supernatural, Paranormal, Psychic, Psionics

37. Beatrice Cone:  Alternative Rock Folk, Folk, retro, Supernatural

38. Max Malarkie:  Alternative Rock, Hip-hop, Supernatural, Paranormal, Monster, Monstercore

39. Infinite E-Girl:  Pop, Retro, Singularity, Robotics, Digital Human, Artificial Intelligence, Chatbot

40. Beatrice Cone:  Folk, Alternative Rock, Math Rock, Honeybees, Nature, Climate change, technology

41. Madeline Mayflies:  R&B, Folk, Cult, Apocalypse, Death, Horror, Creepy, Immortality,

I am a music creator whose life experiences resonate deeply through my music.  Current music released with AI vocals. Recorded album coming in 2026. Follow my story on Facebook.

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