afraid

I see red shifting,
black and blue.
Long past broken,
point of view.
Back blast tears open,
fatal wounds.
Ground floor shaking,
fix resumed.

Yeahhh,
Come undone.

I see me shaking,
frail and crude.
One voice laughing,
rest are groomed.
Act fast no wasting,
time or food.
Fall back thinking,
pain removed.

Yeahhh,
Come undone.

Ohh,
One more run.

Close your eyes now.
Pearl your mother's view.

Close your eyes now.
Crush your father's hope for you.

La la la

Absent Light

THE DEATH OF PEACE OF MIND

Blood & Dust delivers five relentless tracks forged in red clay and raised on pain. Driven by swamp-blues riffing, deep-pocket grooves, and a fusion of jazz-rock chaos with Southern defiance, this EP is the raw nerve of The Blackwood Chronicles. Welding grit, grief, and grit again, it’s the sound of standing alone — knife in the stump, blood on the strings, and dust in your lungs. No mercy. No polish. Just truth.



I'm the Price that Pain has Paid

Lead vocals: Felicia

Lyrics:
My life, this unfortunate life
Waiting for freedom
I hope it will come soon

My heart, this unbreakable heart
Remains locked alone
How long, there’s no clue

Will I live eternal life ? 
Is it worth to stay that long ? 
If I stay here all alone
I might not get through

They injected me that stuff
Some new chemical
They said it would make me tough
Invincible

Solution to cure the world
Of that deadly virus

It’s in my blood
I cannot die
Since antibodies grew
I’m facing the eternal life
Fearing this nightmare comes true

Since then i don’t sleep at night
My blood is boiling
Keeping on fighting something
Invisible

 
Now there is no turning back
Condemned to live forever

It’s in my blood
I cannot die
Since antibodies grew
I’m facing the eternal life
Fearing this nightmare

If I stay waiting freedom forever (forever, forever…)
I will soon turn into devil's daughter

It’s in my blood
I cannot die
Since antibodies grew
I’m facing the eternal life
Fearing this nightmare

It’s in my blood
I cannot die (cannot die)
Since antibodies grew
I’m facing the eternal life (cannot die)
Fearing this nightmare comes true

The Ultimate Cure (2025 version)

Egos on fire
Despots for hire
The temptation to look and listen
The arrogance that glistens
The illusional friction
A society in competition
Shadowing the majority’s position
Abolition
Of the compassion
Presenting a false superstition

DESPOTS FOR HIRE

VIDEO:
https://youtu.be/Fn5utiT9Jrs?si=7GGG0ZbOaH9A7nx_

LYRICS:
Don't fall,
and fade away.

Don't fall,
and fade away.

Light fading,
view blurry,
grip loosens,
all surreal.

Bones aching,
forced breathing,
drift backward,
Ooo.

The more we taste, igniting 
fear dense as coal.
The more we reign, aligning 
failure with control.

Carve your name in the dying sky,
Ahh,
Ohh

Build your wings with prayers that cannot fly,
Ahh,
Ohh

Don't fall,
and fade away.

Don't fall,
and fade away.

Eyes hollow,
veins burning.
Hopes fractured,
truth concealed.

Dreams swallowed,
will fleeting.
Fall back and
spin the wheel.

The more we take, we're signing 
notes chained to souls.
The more we gain, strip mining 
what remains post war.

Carve your name in the dying sky,
Ahh,
Ohh

Build your wings with prayers that cannot fly,
Ahh,
Ohh

Don't fall,
and fade away.

Don't fall,
and fade away.

Just fall,
and fade away.

Just fall,
and fade away.

Legacy

Dedicated to our granddaughter, Brooklyn, who passed in November 2020. With deepest love and gratitude to her parents—our daughter, Alexis, and son-in-law, Jeremy—whose unwavering courage, advocacy, and love carried her—and all of us—through every season.

Within sterile walls, they whispered love, 
Their fragile daughter, a gift from above. 
Her tiny heart, a flickering flame, 
Bound by tubes and wires yet love sustained.

The sun remained, a distant dream, 
Spring flowing faster, like a stream. 
In their eyes, a fierce resolve, 
Cherished moments, however small.

Seasons change our love remains, 
Through the sunshine and the rain.
During the autumn leaves a tear falls free, 
From the branches of our family tree.

Summer sunbeams, warmed your face,
Hospital walls kept you in a distant place.
They watched her fight through every test,    
Their love a shelter from life's unrest.

They watched the seasons change outside, 
As summer blooms faded circumstance defied. 
And in their presence she found solace sweet, 
A fragile thread connecting life’s heartbeat.

Seasons change our love remains, 
Through the sunshine and the rain. 
During the autumn leaves a tear falls free,
From the branches of our family tree.

Summertime lingered with its warm embrace, 
But shadows grew much longer in that sterile place. 
Little angel fighting through each day, 
Held in their arms as the light began to fade.

Winter's snow now covers the ground,
But in our hearts love forever bound.     
And when spring flowers again in the trees, 
Your memory’s strong in the blooms we see.

Seasons change our love remains, 
Through the sunshine and the rain. 
During the autumn leaves a tear falls free, 
From the branches of our family tree.

In warmth of summer and through long fall nights.
Each breath a battle each day a fight,
They prayed for miracles in the hospital’s glow,
But as the leaves turned they had to let her go.

Seasons change but our love remains, 
Through the sunshine and the rain.
During the autumn leaves a tear falls free, 
From the branches of our family tree.

And when the final leaf let go, 
Their daughter danced where angels know. 
Sorrow overwhelming in grief’s embrace,
Your sweet memory, never be replaced.

Seasons (Brooklyn’sSong)

This track from my “Songs of Solitude” project is the oldest song on the album. I wrote its first version in 2000 during one of the hardest seasons of my life—losing my job to disability, being sick without answers, and watching hope thin. The lyrics took shape that spring, finalized in 2009. In 2024 I polished the words and rebuilt the music—then rebuilt it again with feedback, keeping the darkness but shifting the purpose: not to retraumatize, but to take you through the journey toward endurance, faith, and a fragile kind of hope.

If you’ve walked through trauma or you’re carrying quiet battles, this one’s for you. If your life is light right now, maybe it can spark a little more compassion—and action—for someone around you.

Thank you to the few generous friends who helped us feed our kids when we needed it most.

This my body filled with pain,
so daily I cry out in vain.
Lord I ask what can I do,
nothing but keep trusting you. 

On and on day after day,
this one thing it is what I pray.
Just some relief a moment or two,
all my being please renew. 

No one knows what is inside,
Hidden from one another’s eyes.
Screaming comes from deep within,
inward grimace, outward grin.

The silence that is pain…

Smiling faces pass me by,
not a clue I wonder why.
This burden on me it remains,
the plague holds fast it still restrains. 

Pain my friend it has become, 
this crutch is now my own anthem.
Having suffered I now know,
The troubles through which you go. (go)

No one knows what is inside,
Hidden from one another’s eyes.
Screaming comes from deep within,
inward grimace, outward grin.

The prison that is pain…

Through the shadows I now tread, 
searching peace inside my head.
Light seems distant hope feels thin,
yet I cling to faith within. 

Every tear each silent plea, 
carries strength sets me free.
In the midst of this nightmare,
I see a way beyond despair. 

No one knows what is inside,
Hidden from one another’s eyes.
Screaming comes from deep within,
inward grimace, outward grin.

The journey that is pain…

In the dark night find you here,
Softly talking calming fear.
Those around me just can't see, 
Your firm hand guiding me.
Your love’s a beacon through this storm,
With this strength no longer torn.

No one knows what is inside,
Hidden from one another’s eyes.
Screaming comes from deep within,
inward grimace, outward grin.

The freedom that is pain…

In every tear and silent scream,
I hold on to a fragile dream.
A day will come the pain will cease,
I’ll find my way to inner peace.
Until that dawn I’ll stand and fight,
In this darkness seeking light.
This is my vow my solemn plea,
Through the pain I’ll be set free.

TheSilenceThatIsPain

I am a music creator whose life experiences resonate deeply through my music.  Current music released with AI vocals. Recorded album coming in 2026. Follow my story on Facebook.

TheSilenceThatIsPain

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