On March 15 2023, our nephew was killed in an industrial accident. "Eighteen" is an outcry of grief, despair and clinging to faith, hope and love. In memory of our beloved nephew, Ryan (3/15/2023).

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Eighteen (for Ryan)

A track with a powerful and touching story, ‘Flipped On Its Head (Again)’ is about a 1990 Toyota Hiace with a rich past. In 2020, George’s best friend (and closest musical collaborator) Ed died in a tragic accident whilst travelling Australia, having saved up to buy a van which had been converted into a camper. Following this devastating loss, Ed’s family made the decision to ship the van back to the UK and subsequently gifted it to his best friend George, to keep exploring in his memory.

 Years later, whilst on a road trip around Portugal, George found a logo inside the van that led him to track down its original owner—a Belgian chef who’d converted it decades earlier.

George explains: ‘Every time I drive this van I catch myself grinning ear to ear. I feel weirdly close to Ed when I drive it – it really represents his curious and adventurous nature, allowing me to remember years of memories at the same time as I create new ones out on the road. When I found the logo that allowed me to track down the original owner of the van, it unlocked a new perspective that reframed my whole relationship to it. I already knew how much it meant to me, and how important it has been to help me grieve in an active way. But suddenly I zoomed out a bit, and was imagining all the other people who had travelled in this characterful 36-year-old van, having the time of their lives up and down the east coast of Oz. I imagined Ed doing the same, achieving the dream that he worked so hard to achieve. I imagined the trip that we should have had in it together, if it weren’t for Covid grounding my flight. It throws up mixed feelings but ultimately it’s exciting to think about. As the lyrics ask:“how many times have these keys changed hands on the east coast? How many friends had the time of their lives out on the road?’

Flipped on its Head (again)

Kai talks about childhood neglect, inner-child work, loving parent workbook and self-parenting.

Kai ACA

Lyric video: https://youtu.be/CgAEqTvT8eo?si=S8vwpSj0pG22GwDm 

A powerhouse indie-alt anthem about the raw truth of healing. Where It Hurts dives deep into the emotional conflict between what’s easy and what’s right capturing the pain of personal growth when the old ways no longer serve. With soaring vocals, haunting piano lines, and an unforgettable chorus, this is the song you scream when you're finally ready to face the fire. It doesn’t blame. It owns. And it echoes long after it ends.

Where it Hurts

i do often still think most days of my life about how different it could've been if it hadn't turned out exactly the way it did and part of me will always be angry and confused but more than anything i think i'm often gripped with such a violent sense of desiderium because i know it will never be that way again. the pain of absence is much too sharp and i would give anything to not know it. perhaps in another life we're still dancing together.

for all the love in my heart with nowhere left to go

Summer 2025

Eyes and lips sail through memory
Like cumulus clouds on time-lapse loop
Holograms served
With Gaussian blur
Warm to touch
But always out of reach

Why does the ground shiver and bleed?
Why must we wail in proxy?
How can we learn to share our pain?

Lay me down gently
With kisses in my ears
Let sunrise shake the mind killer
And dry these tears from frightful vision
Retrace our steps and try again
Always climbing the inevitable trajectory

Tracklist

1. Asceptic Stir - Year of Detachment
2. Hildur Gu∂nadóttir - 12 Hours Before
3. Elisa Vargas Fernandez - Cura Mente
4. fatalism - grief architecture
5. AGF - Das Letzte
6. Shell Company - Voicenote1
7. Mika Oki - loveàfaire
8. Toby Lurie - Climb On
9. Perila - The Air Outside is Crazy Right Now
10. Wagner Ödegård - Stiernornas Borg Och Wilorum
11. Wire - 5/10 (Live at Electric Ballroom)
12. Moin - Elsie
13. Anthony Child - Mr Naturals
14. J A featuring Donato Dozzy - Eclisse indolente
15. Heinali & Andriana-Yaroslava Saienko - O Ignis Spiritus
16. fatalism - catastrophic forgetting
17. Leilehua Lanzilotti - Koʻu Inoa

This Mercurial Plane

boys dont cry

GLORIA (feat. Clara Luz) (Prod. By N.K Music)

“The Interlude” is a stripped-down ballad that moves like a memory — tender, haunting, and quietly defiant. Built on sparse piano, layered vocal textures, and ambient echoes, it captures the emotional weight of transition: the space after betrayal, before becoming.

Lyrically, the song unfolds like a journal left open. It explores fractured friendships, broken trust, and the quiet rebuild that follows a public fall. The hook doesn’t shout — it hums. With falsetto breaks, whispered refrains, and slow-burning verses, the track leans into vulnerability without needing to resolve it.

This isn’t a revenge song — it’s what happens after. “The Interlude” holds space for grief, growth, and the soft power of moving on without needing permission.

The Interlude

Walls of Protection, a poem born in 2021 from the loss of my mother, friends and the damage that Covid Restrictions did to me.  

Walls of Protection

grandfather died - dirt buyer

Dieses Lied ist meinem besten Freund Basti gewidmet.
Es erzählt von Freundschaft, Verlust, Schmerz – und davon, dass manche Level im Leben nur zu zweit zu schaffen sind.

„Bis zum letzten Level“ ist keine Metapher – es war unser Weg, unsere Verbindung, unser Abschied.

Ich habe dich nicht mehr gefunden, Alter. Du warst schon weg.
Aber ich bleib – bis zum letzten Level, für dich.

Für Basti.

Bis zum letzten Level

Grief has no timeline.
My mind replays the past
in vivid sentimental segments.
Thoughts race to an alien future -
a world forever changed
by all the junctures you will miss.
And then a rewinding, to the reality of now.
This punctured present moment 
passing quietly, without you
 

Written and read by Helen J. Aitken ©2025
www.instagram.com/hjd_poems/

For Mum. 

Thinking of You

Matt Balfe - Farewell (2025)

⚠️ Trigger Warning: This song deals with themes of mental health, emotional neglect, and implied suicide. Please listen with care.

“I Didn’t Know I Was Breaking” is a track about the quiet damage we don’t notice until it’s too late. It’s not loud, but it hurts. If you’re in a fragile place, skip it for now.

You matter more than the story this song tells. ⚠️

Lyrics:

You made tea, didn’t drink it
Said the silence helped you think
I joked about the weather
You smiled like you might sink

You said, “Do you ever feel like you're still 13?”
I said, “Yeah… but I’m better at pretending now.”
You laughed too hard
Then looked down

I saw the mess behind your eyes
But I didn’t ask
Didn’t know how
Didn’t know I was allowed

Were you screaming in a language
I forgot how to hear?
Were you dying while I stood there
Just trying to disappear?
I thought I was holding space
But I was making you small
I didn’t know I was breaking you
By not breaking your fall

Found your note in the bathroom drawer
Folded like a prayer you never meant to send
You wrote:
“I’m not sure what hurts more
being seen, or being pretend.”

I kept the sweater you bled on
The song you said you’d die to
The toothbrush you left
Still waits like I do

Were you screaming in a silence
That I dressed up as peace?
Were you begging me for rescue
In your quietest release?
I thought I was giving love
But I just built up the wall
I didn’t know I was breaking you
Until you couldn’t call

…I didn’t know I was breaking
I didn’t know
You were already
Gone

I Didn't Know I Was Breaking

A Son’s Requiem is a deeply emotional ambient piece I composed, shaped by grief, memory, and the ache of things unsaid.
Built around slow-moving textures, blurred piano, soft guitar, and distant flute, it drifts through moments of reflection, sorrow, and quiet tribute.
It’s music for anyone who’s ever tried to find peace in loss, not to forget, but to remember kindly.

Written, produced, and mastered by me, TAWSO.

Much love from Aotearoa.

A Son's Requiem

Grief and the ocean, a song about healing grief that was written in 2023 by Julie Jules Smoot. You can read this poem in my book, Journey into the Sacred that is available on Amazon and at other fine book retailers.

Grief and the Ocean

A gentle, heartfelt ballad about the enduring presence of love beyond loss. “Carry Me Home” weaves memories and hope through echoes of laughter, the hush of dawn, and the warmth of a love that always guides us back — even in life’s loneliest hours. A song for anyone who’s ever longed for home, and found it in the heart of another.

Carry Me Home

Scribbler of poems, narrator of words. Author of guinea pig tales.

Producer/Songwriter and DJ

"Music gives a soul to the universe, wings to the mind, flight to the imagination, and life to everything."


TAWSO is a self-taught music producer, Producing music out of his caravan in the far north of New Zealand, He thrives behind the Decks and knows when it's time to pull out the thunderous basslines, he will truly get the dancefloor begging for more.


Mixcloud - https://www.mixcloud.com/DjUnchillz/

Spotify -
https://spotify.link/aZrrkOC8WCb

Facebook -
https://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=61567201941264&mibextid=ZbWKwL

A songwriting and music production team infusing elements of folk, ambient and blues into music composition for television, film and advertising sync placement. Original music from Jeremy Jongejan and Cory Kent.

Cyber Chord is an AI-generated music project that pushes the boundaries of creativity. Our lyrics are meticulously crafted using a combination of AI programs with human input, ensuring a unique blend of artificial intelligence and human touch. The music is then composed and refined using Suno, resulting in polished final pieces.

Cyber Chord enjoys experimenting with various genres, with a primary focus on country, rock, and Christian pop. Their music explores a wide range of topics, showcasing the versatility and adaptability of their AI-driven creative process.

Thanks for listening!

Cleo Antaeus is an independent songwriter, singer, and producer based in Honolulu, Hawaiʻi, whose music drifts between cinematic pop, soulful indie, bossa nova flips, and raw, sync-ready confessions that feel like secrets whispered at 2 a.m.

In just seven months, Cleo has written over 160 original songs, each one shaped by their poetic storytelling and fearless experimentation. Since April alone, their self-released tracks have pulled in 25,000+ organic streams worldwide, with multiple songs crossing 1K–2K+ plays on SoundCloud — proof that Cleo’s garden is alive and echoing.

At the heart of this work are Cleo’s alter artists, Nova Rue and Sunni — soulful, cinematic branches of their voice that bring each story to life in new shades and textures.

Cleo’s songs are 100% original, self-owned, fully cleared, and crafted for TV, film, and brand syncs — perfect for supervisors, artists, and listeners seeking music with real depth and a timeless global soul.

Good songs rise — and so do I.

Genres: Cinematic Pop, Indie Folk, Neo-Soul, R&B, Bossa Nova, Alt-Pop
Based: Honolulu, Hawaiʻi
Sync/Publishing/Collabs: cleonytus@gmail.com

🪩 wrote “Do You Even Disco” for your man
🎤 she danced, he hesitated. I didn’t
🚫 can’t keep rhythm, can’t keep her
🥂 I disco. He doesn’t. She knows.

Stories of recovery from the effects of growing up in an alcoholic or otherwise dysfunctional home. Recorded at the ACA Tuesday Toolbox meeting of ACA (Adult Children of Alcoholics) in Cobble Hill, Brooklyn. Email us at TuesdayToolboxACA(at)Gmail.com.

25
For what may come.


bandcamp: imsrydave
instagram: mason_fries

I started writing songs in the moments I couldn’t explain, when thoughts tangled, when everything shifted, when silence said too much.

Now, I bring those lyrics to life with AI, blending human emotion with machine-made sound to create something new: part real, part unreal but always honest.

From indie folk and alternative rock to house and cinematic soundscapes, my music lives where genres blur and transformation begins.
It’s for anyone who’s ever felt in-between. Who’s let go, started over, or stood at the edge of something uncertain.

This is music for when words weren’t enough and sound had to take over.

Discover the transformative power of sound with Julie Jules Smoot's latest album, "Warriors of Light." As a Navy Veteran, author, and dedicated Sound Alchemist, Julie has woven her personal journey of healing into a rich auditory experience that empowers and uplifts. This album delves into the therapeutic sounds of gongs, designed to resonate deeply with listeners seeking solace and tranquility. Each track serves as a beacon of hope, guiding you through a meditative landscape that encourages healing and self-empowerment. Julie's unique blend of soothing sounds and poetic narratives creates a sanctuary for those navigating their own challenges, making this album an essential addition to your wellness toolkit.

With an impressive portfolio that includes 13 published books and over 1,300 videos, Julie has established herself as a multifaceted creator committed to promoting mental well-being through the arts. Her previous work, "Inhale Peace, Exhale Anxiety," has already touched countless lives, and "Warriors of Light" continues this mission by offering a profound auditory experience that fosters inner peace and resilience. Each meticulously crafted track invites listeners to let go of stress and embrace a state of calm, reflecting Julie's own healing journey while serving as a powerful tool for others on their path to recovery.

Available on 30 platforms, Julie's music transcends traditional boundaries, making it accessible to a diverse audience. You can explore her extensive body of work, including her insightful blog that covers topics such as healing, self-empowerment, and transformation, on her website at https://www.juliejulessmootsoundalchemist.com. Immerse yourself in the healing sounds of "Warriors of Light" and experience the profound impact of sound therapy as you step into your own power and embrace a journey of healing and self-discovery.

Smile! it's new fashion galore!

Music Enquiries: mattbalfe@live.com

GEORGE BLOOMFIELD is an artist and film composed based in Leeds, who possesses the intriguingly rare gift of being able to perfectly capture a feeling with nothing more than a few microphones and the musical tools laid around him. 

George draws inspiration from a wide variety of genres including Jazz, Indie, Funk & Psych. Influenced by artists such as Skinshape, KOKOROKO, and Khurangbin, he combines soulful horn and string arrangements with a classic indie band setup in a fusion of styles that is all about textural contrast. 

His upcoming second EP 'Space Between' will released with Nice Guys records, and promoted with a run of gigs with his 7 piece band, inviting special guests to perform songs such as 'Intertwined', to make up the vocal section for the harmonies. There will also be a number of music video's, and a BBC Introducing live session and interview.

His upcoming second EP 'Space Between' will released with Nice Guys records, and promoted with a run of gigs with his 7 piece band, inviting special guests to perform songs such as 'Intertwined', to make up the vocal section for the harmonies. There will also be a number of music video's, and a BBC Introducing live session and interview.

“that tune is just breath-taking isn’t it? Big fan of that!” – Emily Pilbeam (BBC Introducing)

“Musicianship and sensitivity of this nature is what I strive to promote” - Bedroom Frequencies 

"wonderfully arranged pieces of melancholic dripped indie-jazz-funk." - Jazz Revelations

unaffiliated

all of my stuff is free to use just give credit

100,000 plays – and every single one means the world.

Thank you. Truly.
Not for likes. Not for fame. But for feeling my music.
For crying with me. For breathing with me. For surviving with me.

What you hear in my songs is not just sound – it's me.
My scars. My past. My fire. My silence. My truth.

I never asked for followers. I never wanted to go viral.
I just hoped someone out there would say:
"I feel this."

And you did. All over the world – Cairo, Hanoi, Berlin, Ho Chi Minh City.
You heard me. And I swear, right now… I'm crying tears of joy.

These 100,000 plays aren’t numbers. They’re moments of connection.
Proof that real music still matters. That raw emotion still cuts through.

Thank you for walking this path with me.
Thank you for listening.
Thank you for seeing me.

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