i wish u could understand
how hard it is to be a man
wish you could but ik u cant
guess ill shut up u dont wanna hear me rant

i know how it is 
so sick of this shit
i know how it ends
dont wanna pretend


its so fucking hard to be around you
my heart beats fast idk what to do
cause im so shy
whenever i talk to you
i dont wanna cry
and lose you too

always freaking out
always leave me out
just wanna shout
just wanna gouge (my eyes out)

cant believe what happened today
broke my heart and left me in pain
walked away felt so ashamed
fucked up thought inside my brain

i know how it is 
so sick of this shit
i know how it ends
dont wanna pretend

its so fucking hard to be around you
my heart beats fast idk what to do
cause im so shy
whenever i talk to you
i dont wanna cry
and lose you too

always freaking out
always leave me out
just wanna shout
just wanna gouge (my eyes out)

its so fucking hard to be around you
my heart beats fast idk what to do
cause im so shy
whenever i talk to you
i dont wanna cry
and lose you too

freaking out

beta orbiter! (xo_willow cover)

i did it again

ᵍⁱᶠᵗ ᶠʳᵒᵐ ʰᵉˡˡ

prod by. me

Spotfiy: https://open.spotify.com/album/1DKEhwJClgILBD4x7oEtGl?si=3jwpqo25R4eZCW4_B4Ftvw

Did we ever go out?
No, nothing ever clicked
You wrote it off like I'm not shit
And threw it all away

But that's ok 
I never wanted you anyway
Now they all just make fun of me
Are they joking they gotta be
So shit faced, what did I do wrong?
Did I look in you're eyes for way too long?

You want it, you got it ,they go away
You want it, you got it ,they go away
You want it, you got it ,they go away


Did you ever make a move?
Or did you always expect others to do it for you
A heartbreaker all because of you
No I never even had a clue

But that's ok 
I never wanted you anyway
Now they all just make fun of me
Are they joking they gotta be
So shit faced, what did I do wrong?
Did I look in you're eyes for way too long?

Heartbreaker </3

heartache [+redize]

dead by 23 @deathsuppressant

diss on https://soundcloud.com/user-489865654 (neptune)
cover of xo willow's day of retribution
instrumental by jj
vocals by jj
lyrics by cash and jj

lyrics:
neptunes retribution

im a cuck
im a furry
i wish that
kael would notice me 

and i feel gross
i need to clean
i thought i was close
but it came shooting
 
woke up with it in my pants and
i thought i would take a chance with
that goth girl in my dreams who
was going around and killing  

im not bi
im in a phase 
im not a furry
its just a phase
----CONTEXT: NEPTUNE wants this dude from texas named "opium twink" its weird gay ya
opium twink
doesnt like you
your a pussy
and you know it 2

forced voice from texas u like him
just a bad stage in your life and
one day we know youll realise that
ur straight and avoiding the truth

im a poser
im in denial
24 hours
in discord

i watch futa
im the difference
im neptuna
im pestiferous

neptune's retribution (day of retribution cover)

u just dont understand @deathsuppressant *all plats

deo mar (@anotherfakecel) reupload

Lyrics:
I wanna be famous
Before I turn 29
It's too bad
I've wasted my life on computer time
And all the friends I could have had if I tried
But I'm so freaking shy
Hope that I'll start to try

It's not your fault
It's not your fault
If only you could see
I like the things that you do with your hair
Maybe you'd still be by my side
I pray for your dead body

I wanna be famous
Before I turn 29
It's too bad
I've wasted my life on computer time
And all the friends I could have had if I tried
But I'm so freaking shy
I hope that I'll start to try

computer shy (xo_willow cover)

prod @bloodsekai

i dont think i can believe a single word that u say
n it hurts me so much with every passing day
yea its all for ur love
yea its all for a hug
i jus wanna hear u say
that im enough
x2

im nauseous
i got a sickening feeling in my bones 
ill be honest
the power that i hold 
is out of my control
give me ur hand to hold
ill reach further into ur soul
i thought that ud want it but do uuuu?
i wrote u a sonnet toooo
i thought that ud want it but do uuuu?
i wrote u a sonnet toooo

i dont think i can believe a single word that u say
n it hurts me so much with every passing day
yea its all for ur love
yea its all for a hug
i jus wanna hear u say
that im enough

am i enough?

Another Bianca Devins cover which I couldn't find anywhere. Thank this guy for archiving it (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=svLoP5gw58s&t=345s)

XC_gamer (@coolgamer360) reupload

Lyrics:
All I want
Is a happy day again
It's getting harder
Driving my car again

'Cause all I want to do
Is tell the world it's true
But I have a life to live
And I'm scared about it

Only if
I had a choice in it
Your ghost
Is haunting all of it

I slit your throat
You've got to choke
Cock in it too
I can't stand you
Your instagram
I don't understand
Why can't you see
I'm the best for you

Saturday night
Alone again
Why can't you
Just be my friend
I'm getting cold
When you're around
Ghostly spirit
Bring me down

Bianca Devins



lyrics: 

I guess we'll never meet each other
but it's okay, I'll go to another state of mind

I know what you want from me
Dig the hole deep bury me slow
Let the worms teach me what I don’t know
I see you in my dreams
But they always end

I hope I never meet you, but it's okay cause I'm I'm pain 
I guess this is the end, and everything changes

have you ever heard the truth?
tell me what's good and what's bad

never meet u (prod. evacry)

sorry if im not enough
i try my best but i still suck
am i made to be a mistake?
im so useless

standing around looking for clues
cause i dont know what to do
im so stupid im missing screws
i messed it up its nothing new

life feels like a mission
and i dont wanna finish it
i live inside loops
because i cant learn nothing new
why am i such a mistake
wish i wasnt this way
even when i try my hardest
nothing ever turns out great

life supposed to be amazing
but i feel like suffocating
im so stuck just like glue
i suck at everything i do

its every time ive failed so many times
i give up i dont wanna try

am i made to be a mistake?

beta orbiter xo_willow cover

sticks and stones wont break my bones
but words will hurt more than you know
cryptic pass just holds me back
all the laughs i miss so bad

its gone in a blink
i was at my friends house every week
and now were all grown and were busy
and then they moved away
i sat and cried

now i struggle with my own life
when i got lost my friends stuck by my side
im still the same kid with the little blue bike
i wish that i could go back one more time

i wish that i could go back one more time

feat @bloodsekai prod @1zakuro

[@bloodsekai]
hands off your scarlet wrist
it hurts to live like this
your blood comes out your neck
red's cheap when you're desperate
it's so quiet in here
all the desks are stacked near
i'm still shedding my tears
my tongue drops in my mouth

[@imsorryhori]
she's a vampire
at night she's never tired
if i said she wasn't cool id be a liar
to be like her, is what i desire
how do i fall in love?
i've tried so hard but i've got no luck
i guess ill find out when she sucks my blood
i really hope i fall in love

[@bloodsekai]
hands off your scarlet wrist
it hurts to live like this
your blood comes out your neck
red's cheap when you're desperate
it's so quiet in here
all the desks are stacked near
i'm still shedding my tears
my tongue drops in my mouth
my teeth are red

scarlet wrists (w/ bloodsekai)

diss on my friend hunty heres his roblox: https://www.roblox.com/users/171050426/profile

everything by jayjay

perspective of hunty's brother

lyrics: 
i hate my fa* brother!!! lyrics

found a dildo in his closet
i rlly wish he didnt exist but they tell to just deal with it

he dresses as a femboy online
i wish my parents didnt fuck in 1989

(verse)
-faaa**gottttttt melodic over lyrics
fuk u hunty
fuk u hunty
fuk u hunty
fuk u hunty 
ur a f**got
ur a f**got
ur a f**got
ur a f**got
go hunty 
go hunty
go hunty
go hunty
fuckin f**got
fuckin f**got
fuckin f**got
fuckin f**got


he works at fuckin starbucks
i just want a brother that i can love
i have such bad, bad luck
i really hate this shit man fuck!

2k hours on rust
his keyboards full of crust
when im near him i feel crushed
i hate you hunter rust!

(verse)
-faaa**gottttttt melodic over lyrics n another melody
fuk u hunty
fuk u hunty
fuk u hunty
fuk u hunty 
ur a f**got
ur a f**got
ur a f**got
ur a f**got
go hunty
go hunty
go hunty
go hunty
fuckin f**got
fuckin f**got
fuckin f**got
fuckin f**got


huntyyyyyyyy went to the party
huntyyyyyyyyy went to the party
huntyyyyyyyyyyy went to the party
huntyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy i hate you hunty

i hate my f**got brother!!!

feat + produced by @1zakuro

lyrics :

[@1zakuro]
cross my heart
n i hope to fkn die
i stay up thinking
of u n everyone
that fkd my life
i swear its hard
4 me to even 
want 2 try
cos youre cold
to me
n without u
i cant survive

[@imsorryhori]
i hate myself
i need some help
i know that im not doing well

you make me out of my mind
you said you need some time
your prolly seeing other dudes
while im sitting online

ill say goodbye
(say goodbye)
to my life
(to my life)
i will die
(i will die)
engulfed inside of your lies

[@1zakuro]
cross my heart
n i hope to fkn die
i stay up thinking
of u n everyone
that fkd my life
i swear its hard
4 me to even 
want 2 try
cos youre cold
to me
n without u
i cant survive

cross my heart and hope to die (w/ zakuro)

this is when you say hi molly
tt & ig - 0vermolly

I reupload songs daily on Youtube now (mostly incelcore)

webcam2000
I produce all my shit
disc: webcamcursesss if u wanna collab

on hiatus cuz i got grounded till im 18??? 😭 -jayjay

account ran by https://soundcloud.com/foxybirdyman (jayjay) and https://soundcloud.com/big-loopah (cash)
song creds in song bio
https://www.tiktok.com/@betaorbiter?lang=en

ngl i lov techno and dubstep 
uhgg, u call this pizza??!1!1!!1?

rock and roller on the interwebss.

I prod most my stuff.

New tracks tagged #XO_willow