i'm not the person i thought I'd be

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lyrics:

[intro]
it doesn’t make a difference
'cause even when I fucked it up you’d fix it
and ever since you left I thought you’d miss this
guess that’s not true
well maybe I was too persistent
but something ‘bout your laugh had me addicted
just make sure when my story’s told it begins with
and ends with you

[verse 1]
tried to keep what’s wrong ‘bout me left unknown
i was scared if they knew me, then I’d truly be left alone
just wanna give you everything, but my repressing kept me from growth
so I won’t hold it against you
if you detest my bones
just hope you grieve at the thought of me

[chorus 1]
it doesn’t make a difference
'cause even when I fucked it up you’d fix it
and ever since you left I thought you’d miss this
guess that’s not true
(and i don't wanna die, but maybe it's easier)
well maybe I was too persistent
but something ‘bout your laugh had me addicted
just make sure when my story’s told it begins with
and ends with you
(i pushed and they folded, my body was molded wrong)

[bridge]
just wish we had more time
but my body’s turned to rust
weakened spine; you regard me with disgust
you’re not mine, broken down from my mistrust
you were right
i’m not the person i thought I’d be
i’m not fine
tried to pretend that i was
i took pride, thought i was helping but i fucked
your whole life, was misguided by my lust
for your eyes
i’m not the person you wanna see

[chorus 2]
it doesn’t make a difference
'cause even when I fucked it up you’d fix it
and ever since you left I thought you’d miss this
guess that’s not true
well maybe I was too persistent
but something ‘bout your laugh had me addicted
just make sure when my story’s told it begins with
and ends with you

credits

i don't wanna hurt ur feelings but i'm best all alone

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lyrics:

[intro]
the voices; they never leave
talk down to me endlessly
i’m trying my best to breathe
let it be

[verse 1]
this darkness inside my head
has purposefully misled
all of my closest friends
from ever getting close to me
‘cause i don’t wanna hurt your feelings but i’m best all alone
yeah i just know i’m unappealing when i’m left vulnerable
and i have problems with my eating, mind's at rest when i don’t
i admit it
i let the other guy take control
i hate my skin
so i’ll just tear it off
and lay my bones out on the tabletop
there are those that find perfection within
so i guess that i’d do anything to get to it
and i don’t wanna die but maybe it’s easier
roll tide; he got crushed by a meteor
i’ll leave behind my ungodly exterior
i pushed and they folded
my body was molded wrong

[spoken]
what are you doing?
get back here
you are nothing
you need us

[chorus 1]
i hate you
you cut all my slack, drove a knife in my back
thinking i won’t face you?
soul is under attack, brush it off like it’s plaque
homie i pre-date you
and i can re-create you
gonna rip the beast from the art
so i can tear him apart
discarded
i hate you
got me feeling insane, parasite in my brain
tryna find a way to
cut it out from my veins, keep the venom contained
had to see the pain through
we were told a fake truth
gonna stab the beast through the heart
for all the lies he’d impart
discarded

[verse 2]
lies, greed, misery
that should tell you everything
your eyes breed sympathy
object of antipathy
i fuck things up
and then i wonder why strings get cut
just grind me down ‘till i’m dust
i’m disgusting
go on discuss me
go on discuss me
i’d die for this shit bro trust me
don’t lie when you say you want me
i try but i still can’t breathe
said you rescued me
made it look so easy
deceit don’t please me
it never will

[chorus 2]
i hate you
you cut all my slack, drove a knife in my back
thinking i won’t face you?
soul is under attack, brush it off like it’s plaque
homie i pre-date you
and i can re-create you
gonna rip the beast from the art
so i can tear him apart
discarded
i hate you
got me feeling insane, parasite in my brain
tryna find a way to
cut it out from my veins, keep the venom contained
had to see the pain through
we were told a fake truth
gonna stab the beast through the heart
for all the lies he’d impart
discarded

[chorus 3]
they hate you
you cut all of my slack, now i’m taking it back
maybe i can’t blame you
i was under attack, introspection i lack
thought that i’d create you
someone they’d relate to
but they saw the beast as the art
it’s time to tear him apart
discarded
they hate you
made me fucking insane, motivational drain
tried to find a way to
keep the numbers sustained, but that shit was in vain
had to see the shame through
you were told my fake truth
wanna stab the beast through the heart
for all the lies he’d impart
discarded

[outro]
fake
clone
liar
they hate you
die

discarded

to reminisce reveals the signs

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lyrics:

[intro]
doesn't make a difference
i fucked it up, you'd fix it
you left, thought you would miss this
no lie

[verse 1]
were you just a figment of imagination?
i can’t tell if this is legit
ruminate on whether there was indication
tell myself I’ll never forget
i was going left, you were cutting right
play pretend
and shut down feigning peace of mind
and now we’re tryna fill the silence
i never guessed, but i coulda, right?
what’s to worry 'bout now?
got shit redefined
when they took your life away
no i don’t wanna waste more time
at twenty-two losing you made my state of mind
something i’d hide inside
embody strength for the ones who’ve cried
so i don’t think i ever wanna waste more time
‘cause now i’m through tryna prove i’m not fake sometimes
guess i outgrew needing to feel your eyes
under my guise of truth conveyed

[chorus 1]
now i know
to reminisce reveals the signs
(i couldn't see 'em
go, go on reveal 'em, come on)
oh god it hurts to feel sometimes
(eyes on the ceiling
conflict with no meaning at all)
just couldn’t read between your lines
(i couldn't read it
fuck, it's so misleading; appalled)
why’d i believe your “i’ll be fine”’s?
(i don't believe it
no, i don't believe in the fall)

[verse 2]
got mites in my skin
can’t fight from within
despise who i’ve been
can’t lie just to win
your life was akin to
light, lacking sin
took flight from the wind
held tight, lost my grip
cut ties from the script
lost sight, start to slip
guard eyes with a sip
keep tryna forget
can’t cry, hold it in
get high and eclipse
goodbyes for a bit
defy, don’t admit
ask why, throw a fit
(I fall to my knees)
deny, take a hit
(my hear rate's jumping)
reply to assist
(300 degrees)
july came and went
(the blood starts pumping)
no time to exist
(wait what do you mean?)
i’m fine, I insist
(this can't be where it ends)
combine what i missed
write rhymes in the midst
(no I just can't comprehend)
design don’t resist
(they're looking at me)
(get up, sit up)
i whine; pessimist
(my mouth hangs open)
(can't live slowly)
no spine, just a cyst
(keep trying to speak)
(give up; you don't even know me)
my mind starts to twist
(my voice stays broken)
(put trust in us)
inclined to assist
(I'm falling between)
(can't control me)
inside, fucking pissed
(regret for words unsaid)
(shut up)
i tighten my fist
(and disbelief inside my head)
(enough allegories)
got eyes full of mist

[chorus 2]
to reminisce reveals the signs
oh god it hurts to feel sometimes
(don't go)
just couldn’t read between your lines
(i couldn't read it
fuck, it's so misleading; appalled)
why’d i believe your “i’ll be fine”’s?
(i don't believe it
no, i don't believe in the fall)

[outro]
doesn't make a difference
(to reminisce reveals the signs)
i fucked it up, you'd fix it
you left, thought you would miss this
(oh god it hurts to feel sometimes)
no lie
this no lie

reminiscence

1 James Place – Move In Blue
2 Lowfish – Thaw
3 Endrew – Blossom
4 Endrew, Cranya – Piston09
5 Impurity – A Hole In The Sky
6 Endrew – 002
7 INGI – Fade 
8 ZULI – Trigger Finger
9 Djrum – Induction
10 C.R.K. – Altiverb = Puissance
11 Kessler – Lunar
12 Impurity – A Hole In The Sky (Aquarian Remix)
13 Pugilist & Tamen – Synesthesia
14 Out Of Place Artefacts – Nimbus MM
15 Damian Concrete & Manon Alla – Ecran Noir
16 Cliff Martinez – Maybe You’re My Puppet
17 Special Request – Quiet Storm
18 Damian’s Ghost – On The Mist 
19 Sully – Swandive
20 Tommy 2000 – T-2000

Division du temps-03

far off memories; scattered dreams

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lyrics:

[intro]
stay awake to watch you sleep
stomach aches as knees go weak
far off memories scattered dreams
did i make a promise i can’t keep?

[verse 1]
got your hopes up just to watch me let you down
a better shot you’d have if i’m not around, my love
i tried to be your hero
but I’m too cold for you now
so i’ll keep my all from you
until i’m dead in the ground
risen up from hell
kiss and never tell
broken as i fell
a happy story sells
living as a shell
killed my former self
no way you could help
so baby try not to dwell

[chorus 1]
stay awake to watch you sleep
stomach aches as knees go weak
far off memories scattered dreams
did i make a promise i can’t keep?

[verse 2]
day in
day out
spending my life tryna break out
was focused too much on the payout
lost faith now
ain’t no doubt
left all of the homies on read
not getting sleep cause i’m working instead
working to make sure my family’s fed
if i can’t protect her i’d rather be dead
so
took a risk and now i’m paying with my life
it’s kinda funny making money off of lies
i try my best but even then, will it suffice?
in keeping everyone that’s close to me alive and well
guess time will tell
my minds confined and tied to hell
i’m sorry
i want you to eat, so i’ll stay starving
i’d much rather bleed than leave you falling
than leave you falling apart
make no mistakes where i’m going, i should have known from the start
it takes a break down to know who you are
it’s time to
to wake now i’m marked to restart again

[chorus 2]
stay awake to watch you sleep
stomach aches as knees go weak
far off memories scattered dreams
did i make a promise i can’t keep?

[outro]
stay awake to watch you
stomach aches as knees go weak

watch u sleep

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i swear i thought i knew

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lyrics:

[intro]
Spent my whole life deciding
On what I wanna do
So why am I feeling like this
I swear I thought I knew

[verse 1]
My eggs are in the basket
My chips spilled on the floor
I tried to bribe the dealer
But he won't give me no more
I stole some from the others
And booked it for the door
They took me down
And and spit me out
To where I was before
It was a stupid reason
To let it hold me back
I know it hurts your feelings
To hear me talk like that
Not here to make excuses
For what it is I lack
Just tired of feeling useless
Fuck, I'm so good at that

[chorus 1]
Spent my whole life deciding
On what I wanna do
So why am I feeling like this
Like I can barely move?
Try suffering in silence
The weight would bury you
Trust me I'm tryna like it
I swear I thought I knew

[verse 2]
I'm not one for power trips
But I know I'd trade it all for this
I was blind to have faith in roads I picked
Now I'm dying to see the end
And I tried to be the one you needed
I was trying to be something rare
Tell me how to make you feel like he did
God, it hurts to be so unaware
It was a miscalculation
An unfit generation
In a shit situation
With our lives all fueled by big corporations
To give means for creation
That demands innovation
Guess I had no chance from the start
Got stabbed through the heart
They ripped me apart
By spending my youth telling me I was smart
Dissuading my art
In favor of charts and graphs
And corporate plaques
No regard

[bridge]
I do not follow the path
Watch me say no to the cash
You give it and I'll give it back
Can't beat me in soul that you lack, yeah
This shit is a lot to unpack
The odds will forever be stacked
Don't tell me the code can't be cracked
'Cause this shit is all that I have

I do not follow the path (and I tried to be the one you needed)
Watch me say no to the cash
You give it and I'll give it back (I was trying to be something rare)
Can't beat me in soul that you lack, yeah
This shit is a lot to unpack (tell me how to make you feel like he did)
The odds will forever be stacked
Don't tell me the code can't be cracked (God, it hurts to be so unaware)
'Cause this shit is all that I have

I do not follow the path (and I tried to be the one you needed)
Watch me say no to the cash (spent my whole life deciding)
You give it and I'll give it back (I was trying to be something rare)
Can't beat me in soul that you lack, yeah (on what I wanna do)
This shit is a lot to unpack (tell me how to make you feel like he did)
The odds will forever be stacked (so why am I feeling like this?)
Don't tell me the code can't be cracked (God, it hurts to be so unaware)
'Cause this shit is all that I have (like I can barely move)

I do not follow the path (and I tried to be the one you needed)
Watch me say no to the cash (try suffering in silence)
You give it and I'll give it back (I was trying to be something rare)
Can't beat me in soul that you lack, yeah (the weight would bury you)
This shit is a lot to unpack (tell me how to make you feel like he did)
The odds will forever be stacked (trust me I'm trying to like it)
Don't tell me the code can't be cracked (God, it hurts to be so unaware)
'Cause this shit is all that I have (I swear I thought I knew)

[chorus 2]
Spent my whole life deciding
On what I wanna do
So why am I feeling like this
Like I can barely move?
Try suffering in silence
The weight would bury you
Trust me I'm tryna like it
I swear I thought I knew

purpose

why am i so unsteady?

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lyrics:

[intro]
I wanna die
No not literally, fuck
Just wanna cry
‘Cause I hate the way I look
I’ll realign my spine and hide inside the bassline
Anything I can do to feel unalive

[verse 1]
‘Cause i’m a robot
With human skin
And try as I might
I can’t overwrite the code within
I’m just a robot
I don’t exist
Extinguished the light
I gave up the fight
For views and clicks
But somehow I still break down every time you call
I’m just a fake now, not supposed to feel at all
So why am I so unsteady
Fused with so much pain already
Yeah I wish I could just start again
No pretend
But everyday I look inside with discontent
Shit doesn’t relent

[chorus 1]
I wanna die
No not literally, fuck
Just wanna cry
‘Cause I hate the way I look
I’ll realign my spine and hide inside the bassline
Find the shrine confined within, embrace mine
You can’t contrive
To remove me from the book
Blood intertwined
Art, virality mistook
I’ll realign my spine and hide inside the bassline
Anything I can do to feel unalive

[verse 2]
They make this shit look easy
Hijack their eyes to feed me
He’ll reach inside of their souls’ convince them that they need me
But what’s the meaning
I’m bleeding
I feel my life force depleting
So what’s the point of succeeding
If it’s not for myself?
It’s just for everyone else
Couldn’t help but put my pride on the shelf
I guess I’m going to hell
We’re all frauds, ain’t no contest
I’m no god, just a complex
I don’t get it
How they hid it
So well
(And I don't wanna die but maybe it's easier)
It’s no fun, to be broken
Burning sun, I’m unchosen
They don’t get it
How I did it
Don’t tell
(I pushed and they folded, my body was molded wrong)

[bridge]
I tried to bottle it up
But you threw salt in the cut
My body’s turning to rust
I guess I’ll wallow in it
They said it wasn’t enough
So now I’m calling their bluff
Not who they think that I was
I strive to keep it hidden

[chorus 3]
I wanna die
No not literally, fuck
Just wanna cry
‘Cause I hate the way I look
I’ll realign my spine and hide inside the bassline
Find the shrine confined within, embrace mine
You can’t contrive
To remove me from the book
Blood intertwined
Art, virality mistook
I’ll realign my spine and hide inside the bassline
Anything I can do to feel unalive

unalive (acoustic)

all up in my head.

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lyrics:

[intro]
I bet you like that tryna tell me who I am again
And when I fight back you say I'm all up in my head
I'm not an asset 'cause all we ever do is play pretend
Yeah I just want what I don't have yet means that justify the ends

[verse 1]
You got me lost but now I found it
I'm breaking off ain't no way around it
Flex for flexing no really can't live without it?
Yelling extra extra I'll make them read all about it
Young man shot dead in the streets
Like it's a crime to try and get his family something to eat
And then they trivialize it every night of the week
Whatever shit it fucking takes to get some eyes on a screen
Headlines don't matter to me
Shit I already know
We'd all rather slash our throats before letting this one go

[pre-chorus]
It's so unnatural to be (composed of power and greed)
Just fucking let me be me (just fucking leave me be)

[chorus 1]
I bet you like that tryna tell me who I am again
And when I fight back you say I'm all up in my head
I'm not an asset 'cause all we ever do is play pretend
Yeah I just want what I don't have yet means that justify the ends

[verse 2]
They always told me what it matters to be
Somebody with natural potential the smartest fish in the sea
I find it really fucking funny that without no degree
It's like I'm useless; non-essential
Less deserving of peace
So fuck it I don't want it
Got a switchblade in my pocket
Rather die by being honest
Than to live like how they want us to
Shit feels so hypnotic
Only worth what's in your wallet
Oh you didn't go to college?
Yeah have fun being impoverished dude

[chorus 2]
I bet you like that tryna tell me who I am again
And when I fight back you say I'm all up in my head
I'm not an asset 'cause all we ever do is play pretend
Yeah I just want what I don't have yet means that justify the ends
Oh

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