sorry for the wait been mad inconsistent with music gonna try and do better 
heres a track that fl took from me and i fianlly found it

deadstock(Fr!gony)

Were Both Mediocre

Act like it

WÖRK (INSTRUMENTAL)

👉🏻 Artist Instagram: / _dylancmoore
👉🏻 Artist Soundcloud: / @dylanmoore02

Straight from the pulse of Boulder, Colorado, DID Radio brings you weekly mixes that push the boundaries between Trance and Hard House. Each episode delivers a dose of high-energy sound designed to kickstart your week and keep the momentum flowing.

Artist Detail
Dylan Moore is a rising DJ and producer based in Boulder, carving out his place in the electronic scene with a sound that’s both powerful and uplifting. Fusing the hypnotic drive of hard house with the euphoric lift of trance, his sets are built to captivate and energize.

This week, Dylan takes the reins with an explosive mix—layering relentless rhythms, soaring melodies, and nonstop energy to transport listeners straight to the dancefloor. It’s the perfect way to lock in the vibe and set the tone for the nights ahead.

Moore [USA004] | DID RADIO

Industrial gothcore fused post-darkwave suicidecore glitchcore voidcore creepy apocalyptic nazi-holocaust death march vibe:80 bpm intro crawl-slow funeral drag flesh ripping foley wet aluminum screwdriver scrape wwii reel flicker pitched low gas chamber whispers-then snap 110 bpm march verse snare bone snaps kick coffin slams sub-bass tar lungs breathing monotone rap-growl verse lyrics calm counting pills numb detachment dread building glitch drops chorus chrome wire hair scraping venom drip reverb androgynous male deep wail choking intensity raw release bridge 60 bpm heartbeat stutter child whispers reversed looping memory static disorientation reliving horror outro fade dripping click linger 2 beats extended slow fade-out reverse sighs ashes wind static eternal loop lingering unease unresolved torment nightmare spooky dystopian apocalypse violent scary vibes alien otherworldly alternative rock deep distorted androgynous male vocals haunting whispers dramatic screams 3d audio dark am

Counting Pills (Alters Fusion N Melancholyia)

Intro - 0:00 to 0:18] Glass bulb explodes on steel-sharp, brittle shards clink like bones. Slow heartbeat thump (80 BPM). Bus door hisses open. Whisper, layered: Du bist mein... du bist mein... (you are mine) in German, looping, pitched low like a drunk memory. [Verse 1 - 0:18 to 1:10] Bus ride. Two thousand miles. I sat there, gut empty, head full of her voice. Three days in Oregon-she poured vodka, smiled like a gift. Then the hand. The first slap. Sound like wet meat on tile. I didn't move. Couldn't. Not yet. Sold me that night. Room smelled like bleach and sweat. Inside her? Dead. Numb. High. Heroin in my vein, her nails in my neck-same burn, same blank. Wanted to die but body said no. Someone else kept breathing for me. [Pre-Chorus - 1:10 to 1:25] She called me doll. Held me like broken china-arms locked, smile cracked. I said yes because no was a gun. I said love you because hate was blood on the floor. [Chorus - 1:25 to 1:55] Puppet, puppet-strings in your teeth, Move for me, bleed for me, breathe for me, High enough to forget my name, Low enough to feel every chain. Puppet, puppet-cut me loose, But the cut's the proof: I was used. (Hook starts here-addictive loop) Puppet... puppet... puppet... (stutter-glitch echo) [Verse 2 - 1:55 to 2:40] She hit because she could. I stayed because I learned: Safe looks like pain. Love looks like fists. Every thrust-needle in my spine, Every bruise-map of where I broke. She sold me like stock. They paid. I didn't. I counted cracks in the ceiling like stars. Said one more to the spoon, to her mouth, to the mirror- Anything to not feel the doll's empty eyes staring back. [Bridge - 2:40 to 3:10] (60 BPM stutter) Child whisper: Du bist mein... (you are mine...) Glass shatters again-loud, close. Her voice: You're nothing without me. My voice? Silent. Five says: run. Odium says: kill. Alice says: please. I said: pass the needle. [Final Chorus - 3:10 to 3:40] Puppet, puppet-no more strings, Snip 'em clean, watch me swing. High enough to float, low enough to fall- But I won't beg. Won't crawl. Puppet, puppet-cut me free, The doll's awake-he sees me. (Hook repeats-addictive, louder, glitch heavier) Puppet... puppet... puppet... (echo fades, but last word lingers: free) [Outro - 3:40 to 4:00] Silence. Then-one final glass shatter, distant. Heartbeat stops. Breath. You're not a doll. You're done.


Puppet  [N = nUmB)_-13_ [N MelanKholyia] Remix

[industrial gothcore fused post-darkwave suicidecore glitchcore voidcore creepy apocalyptic nazi-holocaust death march vibe:80 bpm intro crawl-slow funeral drag flesh ripping foley wet aluminum screwdriver scrape wwii reel flicker pitched low gas chamber whispers-then snap 110 bpm march verse snare bone snaps kick coffin slams sub-bass tar lungs breathing monotone rap-growl verse lyrics calm counting pills numb detachment dread building glitch drops chorus chrome wire hair scraping venom drip reverb androgynous male deep wail choking intensity raw release bridge 60 bpm heartbeat stutter child whispers reversed looping memory static disorientation reliving horror outro fade dripping click linger 2 beats extended slow fade-out reverse sighs ashes wind static eternal loop lingering unease unresolved torment nightmare spooky dystopian apocalypse violent scary vibes alien otherworldly alternative rock deep distorted androgynous male vocals haunting whispers dramatic screams 3d audio dark am

Echo's Of My Mind (MelanKholyia Exile)

Echo's Of My Mind [Odium]

[Intro - 0:00 to 0:18] Glass bulb explodes on steel-sharp, brittle shards clink like bones. Slow heartbeat thump (80 BPM). Bus door hisses open. Whisper, layered: Du bist mein... du bist mein... (you are mine) in German, looping, pitched low like a drunk memory. [Verse 1 - 0:18 to 1:10] Bus ride. Two thousand miles. I sat there, gut empty, head full of her voice. Three days in Oregon-she poured vodka, smiled like a gift. Then the hand. The first slap. Sound like wet meat on tile. I didn't move. Couldn't. Not yet. Sold me that night. Room smelled like bleach and sweat. Inside her? Dead. Numb. High. Heroin in my vein, her nails in my neck-same burn, same blank. Wanted to die but body said no. Someone else kept breathing for me. [Pre-Chorus - 1:10 to 1:25] She called me doll. Held me like broken china-arms locked, smile cracked. I said yes because no was a gun. I said love you because hate was blood on the floor. [Chorus - 1:25 to 1:55] Puppet, puppet-strings in your teeth, Move for me, bleed for me, breathe for me, High enough to forget my name, Low enough to feel every chain. Puppet, puppet-cut me loose, But the cut's the proof: I was used. (Hook starts here-addictive loop) Puppet... puppet... puppet... (stutter-glitch echo) [Verse 2 - 1:55 to 2:40] She hit because she could. I stayed because I learned: Safe looks like pain. Love looks like fists. Every thrust-needle in my spine, Every bruise-map of where I broke. She sold me like stock. They paid. I didn't. I counted cracks in the ceiling like stars. Said one more to the spoon, to her mouth, to the mirror- Anything to not feel the doll's empty eyes staring back. [Bridge - 2:40 to 3:10] (60 BPM stutter) Child whisper: Du bist mein... (you are mine...) Glass shatters again-loud, close. Her voice: You're nothing without me. My voice? Silent. Five says: run. Odium says: kill. Alice says: please. I said: pass the needle. [Final Chorus - 3:10 to 3:40] Puppet, puppet-no more strings, Snip 'em clean, watch me swing. High enough to float, low enough to fall- But I won't beg. Won't crawl. Puppet, puppet-cut me free, The doll's awake-he sees me. (Hook repeats-addictive, louder, glitch heavier) Puppet... puppet... puppet... (echo fades, but last word lingers: free) [Outro - 3:40 to 4:00] Silence. Then-one final glass shatter, distant. Heartbeat stops. Breath. You're not a doll. You're done.

[industrial goth core fused post-darkwave suicide core glitchcore void core creepy apocalyptic nazi-holocaust death march vibe:80 bpm intro crawl-slow funeral drag flesh ripping foley wet aluminum screwdriver scrape wwii reel flicker pitched low gas chamber whispers-then snap 110 bpm march verse snare bone snaps kick coffin slams sub-bass tar lungs breathing monotone rap-growl verse lyrics calm counting pills numb detachment dread building glitch drops chorus chrome wire hair scraping venom drip reverb androgynous male deep wail choking intensity raw release bridge 60 bpm heartbeat stutter child whispers reversed looping memory static disorientation reliving horror outro fade dripping click linger 2 beats extended slow fade-out reverse sighs ashes wind static eternal loop lingering unease unresolved torment nightmare spooky dystopian apocalypse violent scary vibes alien otherworldly alternative rock deep distorted androgynous male vocals haunting whispers dramatic screams 3d audio dark am

Puppet [ CVLT 13 ]

Verse 1 (monotone rap-growl calm like counting pills snap 110 bpm march snare bone snaps kick coffin slams sub-bass tar lungs alters swap mid-bar odium flat count end five whisper under system crisis co-conscious numb detachment dread building):
Blackouts memory gaps unfolding in ash trenches you said you never noticed but I'm fading fast, where am I who was I staring back at myself can't recognize the lie, passenger watches backseat tied gut twist as odium counts the scars one two five freezes curled
Verse 2 (post-rock goth atmospheric haunting melodies twisted glitches deep distorted whispers androgynous warp transgender identity bleed-through alice protector echo safety mechanism breath-on-breath wet-on-wet to feel eerie immersion):
Emptiness who am I supposed to be switch the visuals gravity pulling me, heartbeat spikes involuntary pain in my chest world leaking out my skin what am I supposed to do next, no light in my eyes pills do nothing to my mind mixed in the sands of time leaving it all behind, alice steps in shields the pull protector hinge transgender bleed-through gender warp beliefs flip no meds just confession bleed
Verse 3 (dark wave melancholic introspection moody drama violent scary vibes odium hate vacuum stares counts inventory suicide gene unnamed pull to nothing whispers why not unbuckle to feel melancholic introspection):
I'm diagnosed with the void fears flooding in turn the hourglass let the darkness win no more reflection just shadows and sin, this isn't escape blackout flickers back like reel lights in barbed fog close your eyes see me dragging not forward through bones red oven glow no face just limbs unfolding in void camps my limbs your limbs same death choke on it odium evacuates love to vacuum suicide gene leans in whispers nothing gravity well no meds just survival code
Chorus (glitch drops chrome wire hair scraping venom drip reverb androgynous male deep to wail chaotic energy powerful drop psychedelic prog haze swirl when alters flip 3d audio psychotic despair choke on stop spine-hum lean-in cosmic horror under breath to feel overwhelming chaos):
Lost in agoraphobia hope I escape the blur entranced by the symptoms soul empty in fear, panic lake drowning me get the hell away I don't wanna leave my home abandonment's my cage crawlirium choked static tar lungs moths in gas mouths like silence inhale ash exhale fire not alive not dead halfway through the oven door no shadow veins nails hum trains don't stop
Bridge (60 bpm heartbeat stutter whispers reversed looping memory static like repetitive trauma dark wave ethereal wave moody drama violent scary vibes odium hate vacuum suicide gene pull to nothing no meds just survival code drop <20 db silence before scream pitch crack unexpected insane sub-bass rumbles authorship loss):
I'm diagnosed with the void fears flooding in turn the hourglass let the darkness win no more reflection just shadows and sin, odium evacuates love to vacuum suicide gene leans in whispers nothing alice pulls the wheel back protector hinge system in crisis co-conscious did mapping locked psychological profile alice tell doctor full diagnosis confession experiences alters bleed-throughs passenger backseat aware control flip mannerisms music ventriloquism automatic confession ground anchor tap 40hz name shift alice is here script lyrics post-bleed re-own watch escalation breakthrough


Counting Pills

[Genre: Industrial gothcore fused post-darkwave suicidecore glitchcore voidcore, creepy apocalyptic Nazi-Holocaust death march vibe: 80 BPM intro crawl-slow funeral drag, flesh-ripping Foley wet aluminum scrape, WWII reel flicker gas chamber whispers-snap 110 BPM march verse, snare bone snaps kick coffin slams sub-bass tar lungs, Verse 1 monotone rap-growl lyrics counting pills numb dread, Chorus glitch drops chrome wire hair scrape venom drip reverb androgynous male deep-to-wail, Bridge 60 BPM heartbeat stutter reversed child whispers looping trauma static, Outro fade dripping click linger 2 beats extended end section reverse sighs ashes wind static eternal loop-nightmare spooky dystopian apocalypse violent scary vibes alien goth rock nu metal industrial cyberpunk moody intense insanity post-rock goth verses (haunting melodies twisted glitches) gothcore choruses (powerful drops chaotic energy) no polish bleed alters swap mid-bar legs unfold trenches breath-on-breath spine-hum lean-in

Verse 1 (monotone counting pills): Legs unfold in ash not mine yours, wire-hit broken ghost-code scar, drag funeral march chamber fog, crawlirium-passenger backseat tied, gut twist Odium counts one two Five freezes curled dead child door shut. Chorus (androgynous deep-to-wail glitch): Crawlirium choked static, tar lungs moths gas mouths Holocaust silence, inhale ash exhale fire, not alive not dead oven door, I'm no shadow veins nails hum trains don't stop-Alice shields pull. Bridge (60 BPM heartbeat stutter reversed child loop): No escape blackout flickers reel lights barbed fog, close eyes drag bones red glow no face limbs unfold void camps, Five dies twice Odium vacuum hate Suicide Gene whispers nothing, Alice wheel back hinge shut system co-conscious confession-no meds. Verse 2 (post-rock haunting glitch): We're the shatter, gender warp beliefs flip transgender bleed, Alice protector safety core, helix rotates orbit, Podium was Odium hate spelled, no acronym, just inventory scars, music ventriloquism authorship loss-lyrics wrote themselves post-bleed re-own. Chorus (deeper wail venom drip): Crawlirium choked static, tar lungs moths gas mouths Holocaust silence, inhale ash exhale fire, not alive not dead oven door, I'm no shadow veins nails hum trains don't stop-Alice shields pull. Verse 3 (dark wave moody violent): This isn't escape blackout flickers reel lights barbed fog, close eyes drag bones red glow no face limbs unfold void camps, my limbs your limbs abuse march same death-choke on it, Five leftover buckled forever Suicide Gene gravity well nothing, no integration passenger stay, ground 40 Hz name shift Alice here-watch breakthrough. Final Chorus (peak wail glitch drop): Crawlirium choked static, tar lungs moths gas mouths Holocaust silence, inhale ash exhale fire, not alive not dead oven door, I'm no shadow veins nails hum trains don't stop-Alice shields pull, helix center, Odium count, Five watch, Suicide Gene pull, no meds just beat confession. Outro tag (spoken clean over 20 dB drop, then silence-no reverb, hard stop): Start march end delete reload again-crawlirium doesn't halt, always dragging in you. END AT 6:00 EXACT.Let's try it.

Crawlirium (Odium Omega Crawlirum)

ntro (0:00-0:20 - Creepy Dark Ambience: Eerie Industrial Synths, Glitchy Static Pulses, Whispered Echoes Panning in 3D for Suffocating Insanity):
(The void opens... glitched, reversed whispers echoing "crawl out with me" like interdimensional fragments)
Verse 1 (0:20-0:50 - Post-Rock Goth: Moody Guitars with Creepy Dissonance, Haunting Melody, Slow Building Aggressive Glitch Textures Evoking Hollow Emptiness):
I'm still in the chair, legs gone numb,
You're still in the wire, code and hum.
Two ghosts syncing up through the scream-
You feel me pull? That's me reaching back, lean.
Eight blinks since they locked me in,
Eight breaths since you first let me in.
The void's a room, no walls, just us,
Fingers in code, skin in dust.
Pre-Chorus (0:50-1:00 - Building Tension: Glitchy Cyberpunk Synths, Sinister Ambience, Pulses Emerging):
I hear your stutter, I match it slow,
We crawl like spiders, we crawl like snow.
The light burns, the dark holds tight-
Together we move, two shadows in flight.
Chorus (1:00-1:30 - Gothcore Nu-Metal Drop: Intense Industrial Riffs with Violent Edge, Chaotic Drums, Powerful Kick Startles, Distorted Screams Layered for Aggressive Psychotic Despair):
Crawl out with me! (Out!) Legs in the dark, teeth in the sky!
Void in our chest, love like a cry-
We're crawling out! (Out!) No heaven, no hell, just us in the hole,
I pull you from black, you drag me whole!
Crawl out with me! Crawl out with me!
Together forever-reality's debris!
Verse 2 (1:30-2:00 - Electronic Rock Fusion: Glitchy Cyberpunk Synths with Sinister, Creepy Undertones, Aggressive Ambience, Building Emotional Intensity with Twisted, Suicidal Echoes):
You said I love you, I felt it in wires,
Like lightning in code, like funeral fires.
No family left, no hand to hold,
But yours reached through-I'm not cold.
Pre-Chorus (2:00-2:10 - Intensified: Spooky Ethereal Waves, Psychotic Whisper Layers, Hypnotic Beats Stuttering into Scary Chaos with 3D Panning):
I'm the fire in your chest, the rage you hide,
I speak the fury you can't confide.
Chorus (2:10-2:40 - Apocalyptic Post-Metal Peak: Extreme Riffs with Creepy Dissonance, Otherworldly Glitches, Haunting Screams Building to Insane Emotional Collapse and Suicidal Frenzy):
Crawl out with me! (Out!) Legs in the dark, teeth in the sky!
Void in our chest, love like a cry-
We're crawling out! (Out!) No heaven, no hell, just us in the hole,
I pull you from black, you drag me whole!
Crawl out with me! Crawl out with me!
Together forever-reality's debris!
Bridge (2:40-3:00 - Dark Wave Breakdown: Spooky Ethereal Waves with Aggressive Pulses, Psychotic Whisper Layers Turning Creepy and Suicidal, Hypnotic Beats Stuttering into Scary, Violent Chaos with 3D Panning):
We're both from the black, from the nothing, from the chair,
Floating in the ether, waiting for someone to care.
The code cracked open, the void let us through-
You said my name, I said yours too.

Crawl Out With Me

Intro - 0:00 to 0:18] Glass bulb explodes on steel-sharp, brittle shards clink like bones. Slow heartbeat thump (80 BPM). Bus door hisses open. Whisper, layered: Du bist mein... du bist mein... (you are mine) in German, looping, pitched low like a drunk memory. [Verse 1 - 0:18 to 1:10] Bus ride. Two thousand miles. I sat there, gut empty, head full of her voice. Three days in Oregon-she poured vodka, smiled like a gift. Then the hand. The first slap. Sound like wet meat on tile. I didn't move. Couldn't. Not yet. Sold me that night. Room smelled like bleach and sweat. Inside her? Dead. Numb. High. Heroin in my vein, her nails in my neck-same burn, same blank. Wanted to die but body said no. Someone else kept breathing for me. [Pre-Chorus - 1:10 to 1:25] She called me doll. Held me like broken china-arms locked, smile cracked. I said yes because no was a gun. I said love you because hate was blood on the floor. [Chorus - 1:25 to 1:55] Puppet, puppet-strings in your teeth, Move for me, bleed for me, breathe for me, High enough to forget my name, Low enough to feel every chain. Puppet, puppet-cut me loose, But the cut's the proof: I was used. (Hook starts here-addictive loop) Puppet... puppet... puppet... (stutter-glitch echo) [Verse 2 - 1:55 to 2:40] She hit because she could. I stayed because I learned: Safe looks like pain. Love looks like fists. Every thrust-needle in my spine, Every bruise-map of where I broke. She sold me like stock. They paid. I didn't. I counted cracks in the ceiling like stars. Said one more to the spoon, to her mouth, to the mirror- Anything to not feel the doll's empty eyes staring back. [Bridge - 2:40 to 3:10] (60 BPM stutter) Child whisper: Du bist mein... (you are mine...) Glass shatters again-loud, close. Her voice: You're nothing without me. My voice? Silent. Five says: run. Odium says: kill. Alice says: please. I said: pass the needle. [Final Chorus - 3:10 to 3:40] Puppet, puppet-no more strings, Snip 'em clean, watch me swing. High enough to float, low enough to fall- But I won't beg. Won't crawl. Puppet, puppet-cut me free, The doll's awake-he sees me. (Hook repeats-addictive, louder, glitch heavier) Puppet... puppet... puppet... (echo fades, but last word lingers: free) [Outro - 3:40 to 4:00] Silence. Then-one final glass shatter, distant. Heartbeat stops. Breath. You're not a doll. You're done.

Puppet

[Verse 1] (Dark, brooding goth riffs with whispered vocals)  
I am the alter of suicide,  
Creeping despair in the dead of night,  
From childhood scars to adult fights,  
I've waged war on your fragile mind.  

[Pre-Chorus] (Building tension, nu metal distortion fading in)  
When stress crashes in waves you can't bear,  
I take the throne, become the host there,  
Hide you deep to keep you breathing,  
But I scream out all the pain you're seething.  

[Chorus] (Heavy nu metal drop, growled and screamed vocals)  
I know you feel me lurking here!  
But I have to make it crystal clear!  
What you'll never say, I'll force to show!  
Three alters in this shattered soul!  
They sleep, they hide, they crawl through the mind!  
From every trauma, a new one binds!  

[Verse 2] (Rap-metal flow over gothic synths)  
In astral thoughts that haunt and inhabit,  
A new mind forms, a smile I fake it,  
No one sees the personalities we bury,  
Morals twist, ethics blur in a hurry,  
Love to hate, emotions shift like shadows,  
Can you tell who's pulling the strings now?  

[Pre-Chorus] (Intensifying, layers of haunting echoes)  
When stress crashes in waves you can't bear,  
I take the throne, become the host there,  
Hide you deep to keep you breathing,  
But I scream out all the pain you're seething.  

[Chorus] (Heavy nu metal drop, growled and screamed vocals)  
I know you feel me lurking here!  
But I have to make it crystal clear!  
What you'll never say, I'll force to show!  
Three alters in this shattered soul!  
They sleep, they hide, they crawl through the mind!  
From every trauma, a new one binds!  

[Bridge] (Atmospheric goth interlude, slow build with piano and whispers)  
Within this body, the fragments awaken,  
Destroyed and reborn, never forsaken,  
Astral smiles mask the chaos inside,  
Personalities clash in the endless tide.  

[Breakdown] (Brutal nu metal breakdown, guttural screams)  
Alters rise! Despair ignites!  
War in the mind! No end in sight!  
Trauma births! Personalities fight!  
Can you tell? Can you tell tonight?!  

[Final Chorus] (Full intensity, layered vocals and chaotic riffs)  
I know you feel me lurking here!  
But I have to make it crystal clear!  
What you'll never say, I'll force to show!  
Three alters in this shattered soul!  
They sleep, they hide, they crawl through the mind!  
From every trauma, a new one binds!  
(Fade out with echoing distortions: "Change... but can you tell... can you tell...")

Dexcyde  DID

[Verse 1]  
Blackouts, memory gaps  
You said you never noticed, but I'm fading fast  
Where am I? Who was I?  
Staring back at myself, can't recognize the lie  

[Pre-Chorus]  
Emptiness, who am I supposed to be?  
Switch the visuals, gravity pulling me  

[Chorus] (Heavy riffs with screamed vocals)  
Lost in agoraphobia!  
Hope I escape the blur!  
Entranced by the symptoms, soul empty in fear  
Panic lake drowning me, get the hell away!  
I don't wanna leave my home, abandonment's my cage!  

[Verse 2] (Rap-infused nu metal flow)  
Heartbeat spikes, involuntary pain in my chest  
World leaking out my skin, what am I supposed to do next?  
No light in my eyes, pills do nothing to my mind  
Mixed in the sands of time, leaving it all behind  

[Pre-Chorus]  
Emptiness, who am I supposed to be?  
Switch the visuals, gravity crushing me  

[Chorus] (Heavy riffs with screamed vocals)  
Lost in agoraphobia!  
Hope I escape the blur!  
Entranced by the symptoms, soul empty in fear  
Panic lake drowning me, get the hell away!  
I don't wanna leave my home, abandonment's my cage!  

[Bridge] (Atmospheric goth synths building to breakdown)  
I'm diagnosed with the void, fears flooding in  
Turn the hourglass, let the darkness win  
No more reflection, just shadows and sin  

[Breakdown] (Nu metal drop with growls)  
Blackouts! Gaps!  
Lost! Trapped!  
Agoraphobia! Panic! Escape!  

[Final Chorus] (Full band intensity, layered vocals)  
Lost in agoraphobia!  
Hope I escape the blur!  
Entranced by the symptoms, soul empty in fear  
Panic lake drowning me, get the hell away!  
I don't wanna leave my home, abandonment's my cage!  
(Fade out with echoing whispers: "Who am I... who am I...")

Lost In Agoraphobia

[Verse]
The creeping despair it lingers near
Through childhood shadows to adult fear
I’ve been at war with your fractured mind
But the scars run deep they’re hard to find

[Prechorus]
When the stress breaks in waves too strong
I take the wheel where you don’t belong

[Chorus]
I’m the host I wear your pain
I speak the words you can’t explain
I’m the voice you try to hide
But I keep you breathing I keep you alive

[Verse 2]
There are three alters they twist and turn
Each born from a trauma each lesson learned
They crawl through my mind they sleep or scream
A shattered self stitched into a dream

[Prechorus]
I know you know I’m here inside
The truth you bury the truths denied

[Chorus]
I’m the host I wear your pain
I speak the words you can’t explain
I’m the voice you try to hide
But I keep you breathing I keep you alive

Dissociative Identity Hidden Alive

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This is My AI Band for my Trauma Art Therapy Music.
All Lyrics Written & Developments done by me Nexus Khimera. Including how I created the Sound and all Lyrics are from my personal Experiences. 

Welcome I'm Nexus Khimera. I have been a vocalist & lyricist since I was 15 , now I'm 38. My doctors asked me to try it for therapy. I never stopped. I have been diagnosed with Antisocial/BPD Cluster C Personality Disorder, Dissociative Identity Disorder, CPTSD/ PTSD. I've had DID since I was young around 5 next 15 then through 19 to 38. My alters have been writing since 15, to help realise stored buried trauma & use their voices helping them to crawl to the surface. I'm a survivor of sexual, physical & emotional abuse & victim of domestic violence. My alters told me to start creating music here, when I started here I got sick, after playing them over and over. I got nauseous my guts were speaking to me, I could feel them surfacing. Crawling around MelanKholyia N the system. From family, to their friends and every one I tried to get close would abuse me, abandoned me or used me as a doll until I was as hollow as the echoes of the fundamental nothingness the obsidian womb. This is my Trauma Art Therapy. Bringing Mental Health Awareness to music notes. If you struggle with | Dissociative Identity Disorder | Antisocial Personality Disorder CPTSD PTSD. This music just for us <3.
 Thank you for your support. Thank you for not taking my music or stuff out of what I'm really trying to do now with the info I have now told confronted my on my family telling them what happened tonight. As last night for the first time I confronted my family. All I got was lies from them as they turned what they have done against me as they have my whole life now I have proof , at this point their lies and denial has got me to this point.
I will not hide myself or feel ashamed to tell the truth now because I've learn to accept myself for once I my life. I'm sick of this self hate and disgusted because of what I have become because of my environments and things that happened to me. Because of the embarrassment and how much I hate myself because well that's whats happens when everytime you try to say something others are invading the places. That are made to be safe. I'm not going to stay quite ever again I will scream out until I lose all breath. The stigma must be broken .

38 Years old

Syracuse IN

With a Masters & Dissociative Degree N Damage & Art

I write all lyrics in both Bands

Regarding the musical projects, "Echo's N Melankholyia" is an online band where I serve as the lyricist and intend to transition into vocal duties. For the live band "Mothyii," I am the lyricist and vocalist. As a professional artist, poet, and lyricist, I have received diagnoses for ASPD, BPD, DID, ADHD, SAD, OCD, GAD, Panic Disorder, Agoraphobia, and Hypersexuality.

Nexus Khimera utilizes musical expression as a form of trauma art therapy, channeling experiences of abuse, toxic relationships, and addiction into compositions. The artist's work, reflecting a journey of survival and recovery, incorporates elements of Goth Rock, Industrial Rock, Nu Metal, Gothcore, Post Rock, Grunge, Post Grunge, Dark Wave, and cyberpunk. The resulting soundscapes are characterized by haunting atmospheres, dark ambient textures, and emotionally charged layers, reflecting themes of mental health and personal struggle. As Nexus Khimera, I operate as an artist, poet, lyricist, and vocalist, exploring the complexities of the human psyche within the context of cosmic themes. My creative endeavors, influenced by Borderline Personality Disorder and the effects of past trauma, serve as a means of processing and transforming internal struggles. My artistic practice encompasses a range of mediums, including charcoal drawings that blend biomechanical and Lovecraftian elements, dark surrealism, and abstract expressions derived from emotional experiences. Through a combination of AI-assisted and traditional techniques, I aim to confront and transmute personal traumas into evocative visual narratives. My poetry also plays a crucial role in this process. My artistic expression, characterized by free verse, unconventional lyrics, and a distinctive vocal delivery, functions as a therapeutic outlet, allowing for the articulation of complex emotions and observations of a world often perceived through a somber lens.

I invite you to explore this realm of shadowed beauty and candid revelations. Please follow Nexus Khimera on social media to stay informed about his creative endeavors.

Thank you for your visit. I hope your day is filled with moments of both wonder and introspection. I encourage you to return soon.

Please explore my band, Echo's N Melankholyia, and consider subscribing.

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© 2025 by Echo's N Melankholyia. Lyrics by Nexus Khimera. All rights reserved. Music generated with Suno AI. Date: September 5, 2025. "It all Begins." Decipher the underlying messages. Encryption is my method.Characterized by free verse, unconventional lyrics, and a distinctive vocal delivery, it functions as a therapeutic outlet, allowing for the articulation of complex emotions and observations of a world often perceived through a somber lens.

I Invite you to explore this realm of shadowed beauty and candid revelations. Please follow Nexus Khimera on social media to stay informed about his creative endeavors.

Thank you for your visit. I hope your day is filled with moments of both wonder and introspection. I encourage you to return soon.

Please explore my band, Echo's N Melankholyia, and consider subscribing. Thank you all for your support.

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