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ohhh i'll run but my legs giving out
yes i beat the cancer it came out my mouth
don't tell me my health going down
i'll figure it out i'll figure it out
don't ask me what the doctors found
they're probably lying i know it's not mound
inside of my body i'd feel it by now
i don’t feel anything 
blood coming out with the mucus 
on my face it must’ve been the food that i ate
boy life is something you can’t replace
is what they say i’ll test my fate
machines telling lies upon my grave
how could i be dying when i feel great
i’ll stay true to yesterday
it’s been that way how could it change

i'd feel it by now

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say please  
before you take me 
somewhere i don't want to go 
i would rather slit my throat
don't tell me i'm crazy 
that will just make me
get blow up angry 
i'll smash my phone 
i want to keep my door shut 
i'm so done with this arrangement
i feel like i've been worn out 
for like 20 years
i never came downstairs 
i got red in the pigment of my eyes 
now i have false goodbyes

somewhere i don't want to go

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nothing bitch i'm fucking nothing
how can i be something right now 
judgement yeah i'm full of judgement
everything is flooding towards me
fell apart in like two weeks 
she screaming screw me 
my fundamentals i burnt them all down
i think something was brewing
i acted clueless 
things that i can't shake 
can't let it go ouch 
i think thoughts out loud 
i don't mean to say 
try to trigger me 
in all your little ways
trapped in this building 
planning my escape
only reason i'm here 
stuck in my brain
oh i don't know where i'm going
and oh making something and show it but 
oh no i forgot to charge my phone
now for months i'm gon be low
ain't that funny how it goes
shit it's 10am and i still haven't woke up
and i just quit my pills so i think i might throw up
you can tell that i'm in pain but you still say i look dumb
it kept on going on and i blew like a damn gun

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@1ginn

scrap but wanna get more shit out so

i know it's hard 
to find it within yourself
if i had some time off
i'd help you see ur worth baby
i struggle saying god 
i always think i betrayed him
i cannot sleep at night 
see this girls bulging eyes
i can't sleep 
i can't sleep
said i can't sleep
honestly it's you and me 
probably i'm into deep
i'm into deep
worry that i'm the same sheep
am i better not really
i'll calm down and smoke this tree
never easy never-

i can't sleep

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oh i think i lost my lunch
start to hate what ive become
i grew sick of me
i grew sick of this too
sitting in my room
hoping you would hate me
before i hate you
when i needed help nobody came through
i did that too
and i loved you so much it felt like sun
if i needed help you would jump the gun
i don’t deserve that at all
thought if i ran i would make you fall
hey it hurts hate my words
i wish i could spit up
all my thoughts and my fears
they rest in my stomach
building up everyday
no release out of place
no relief nothing changes
but i’d hold on
to you i couldn’t lose
the voice that i woke up to
but i can’t hold on at all
i need to throw up
our love was stuck with super glue
got sick and didn’t have the room
i cant fight all my battles
i’ll let myself puke

puke

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i'll spend months sober
believe lies again
they talk like it's not over
i'll tell you my friend
i'll never see you smile for me again
and that's my fault so i won't complain
it is what it is
i'll deal with that shit
i'll pack my bags up
i'll say we don't mix
and i'll blame it on ya
my body was tired
fear made me a liar

love u mimi

fear made me a liar

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my face hurt like hell
and my jaw is swollen
i'm struggling to write
and i hate my motives
can anybody help me now
i don't know how to use my mouth
i'm not like them not at all
i aim real high but i tend to fall
keep on falling down
i can barley move my lips
i think about doing this
over and over again
i can't seem to get a grip
oh they faking and shit
always get stuck on a bitch
you never talking to me
when you need something check in
where my head at
swear imma do it again
and i recollect it i
feel i'm stuck in a pit
i know they don't care
why i'm coming back ? again
my will to live is running out
the more i give
i'm tired of the outcome
i lived through it
i gave what i had
and i ain't mean shit to them
find it funny that's the way things are
you be running
while i'm walking wrong i noticed
copy everything you're so bizarre
you be running
while i'm walking wrong i noticed


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running from my thoughts and my habits
think that i’m abt to drown not a baptist
no i’m not good at acting
i’m barley good at laughing
yeah i’m running from the girl in the corner
see me see u it’s torture
you ask me what i mourn for
it all got blurred out
i need some tape for my tongue
and a knife for my eyes
i can’t trust my lungs
sure as hell not my mind
oh i lie
all the time all the time
i’m not helping anybody
doing something i don’t want to do
what the fuck i want to prove to you
i keep making promises
when i can barley bring myself to move
wonder why i’m being used
sat there in the driveway
i spilled my damn brain
making up a lie so i could love myself
i was hoping that it’d all change
but it didn’t
i’m all there there really is here to blame

so i could love myself

8/27/24 
i been singing love songs 
please do not sing along 
you don't know me like that
if you put a bitch on 
imma still listen long
if the track going hard
i'm at a loss cause 
i lost my purpose 
in all of this shit 
you think i'm worthless 
don't think you're wrong 
that's something i'll admit 
still got your songs on my playlist
mutually hated 
i can't find one thing that we agree on
i don't care if the song is special 
to me or to you 
or your friends
it's not clear to me 
try not to scroll through 
some bullshit that'll make me unhappy




i'll admit

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@1ginn
 @danaelco

three days from saturday
this is more than i can manage
i got blood inside my bandage
from all the times i tried so hard
bitch oh my god
i crashed my car
woke up so early to hit a rock
i did the right or so i thought
i thought i had this i did not
i’m so sorry that i disappointed you
i don’t mean to be a bother
know things hurt but i hurt too
and there’s no room for my shit
don’t care about that you care about this
and when i talk you want me to quit
say jack about smoke till i breathe in
i don't want to restart 
go somewhere else 
why they always gotta give me hell
i haven't even smoked in a month 
and now i gotta deal with this shit
how i'm supposed to deal with this shit
how i'm supposed to deal with your shit 
how i'm supposed to get the bands quick
girly suck it up like nesquik

breathe in

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spare some change if your 
from that way over there 
where people don't go
so when you need some help 
with your directions i'll help 
you cross this broken road 
sometimes we tend to just get lost 
and it's real hard to find way home
you're not going to know 
why your friends throw stones 
if you spare some change 
i'll start throwing in hope 
imma slide in the moment 
i put the nature on my life 
for me you could coincide
bring breath to me 
fill me up with smoke 
i swore i'd let it go 
i haven't lord i know 
it's rotten to the bone
i'm someone that you scold
i swore i'd let it go 
i haven't lord i know 
it's rotten to the bone
i'm someone that you scold
where's someone to yell at?
who will hear what i need 
it's best to leave alone 
what makes it all heavy
where's someone to yell at?
who will hear what i need 
it's best to leave alone 
what makes it all heavy

spare some change

this got kinda buried mb 

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don't say some basic shit
you do it all the time and it don't make sense
i'm tired of waiting for you
i'm tired of watching what i say
it's a game a game to you i don't want to play
find it funny that you're always gone
why you always gone

missed calls too late
it gives me such a headache
i'm frustrated with this
first fall catch up
i fell right on my ass before
i've grown to know the feeling it has

i'm not the same person i was before 
my friends are moving on
i still wish i didn't have to 
flash back to back in our bedrooms 
watching cartoons after school
your mom had pissed you off
so you crashed out on my futon
i don't think it's right like that
said you could run way faster 
my shoes didn't have the same groove
i don't wanna fight about that
if she really really loved you
she wouldn't of kissed my lips 
i don't think it's right like that
said you could run way faster 
my shoes didn't have the same groove
i don't wanna fight about that
if she really really loved you
she wouldn't of kissed my lips 

i had a hard time thinking about it 
don't bring me around 
your schedule crowded 
i know everybody goes through shit
when i do you don't listen in 
bring it all back quick 
i seen the lies and i questioned your motives 
i could be dying wouldn't care if you noticed 
i was a book and my pages were open 
you were just closed as it gets 
and i'm tired of people saying 
they got love for when they don't 
what's the worth in lies 
all it's going to do is waste our time
and i'm tired of people saying 
they got love for when they don't 
what's the worth in lies 
all it's going to do is waste our time

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