track 4 of Self Titled Album
@carlby
prod. metlast x 5head <3

lyrics:

stuck here for a minute tryna figure shit out
looking at the edge and i dont know how
im gonna get thru all this shit
idk how to deal

cuz my mind is hell
yeah im a little bit unwell
stuck inside this cell
all i do is repell
they all say that i need some help
but they cant even figure their own shit out....
woah oh...

(carlby)
they cant even figure their own shit out
there's a hell in my head
like im peele ima get out

got a lot of problems from the trauma
maybe i was born sick
maybe this is karma

like paying for the sins of my father
but i dont wanna die a martyr
with every hit i take
i grow stronger 
with every passing day
i wear out my stay a little while longer

they cant even figure their own shit out
now they wanna tell me how to fix myself
im stuck in my mind and im tryna get out

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my mind is hell (feat. Carlby)

Produced by @horoshavibes
Additional guitars by @sainttomorrow

LYRICS
Still fit into my varsity jacket
Class of 68’
But I don’t fit in in this place
Two kids on their bikes
Yell as they pass by
Hey man get the hell out of our way
I guess that some things never change

Always felt out of place but I’m
Outstretched
Hands across state lines
Can’t seem to recognize
My glory days
Until they pass me by

And when I’m weak
It’s you I wanna lean on
Remembering all the times I did you wrong
Thought you were right for me
Thought you were family
You were the only one 
To understand me
And now you’re gone

So it seems
That I’ll never get to tell you how much
The time we spent
Really meant to me

Faded memories
Brushed across these streets like fallen leaves
So silver screen
Like some cliché played out movie scene

I'm still standing on your front lawn

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Class of '68 (Prod. Horosha)

Produced by @horoshavibes
Additional guitars by @sainttomorrow

LYRICS
Catch me
Standing on your front lawn
Your daddy's got his shotgun
He's yelling how you're too young
He's telling me to move on
What does he know about love anyway
Clearly not a lot
Because he couldn't keep your mom happy
That's why she left
He was too focused on his job and not enough on his kids
Now fucking up our lives is how he gets his kicks

That summer you stole my heart
Cigarettes in your back yard
Getting drunk under the stars
Smash a bottle in the park
So young and restless
Like we got a death wish
First girl I had sex with
Always leaves me breathless

Now we’re running from the law
Towards a hospital bed
Forever doing what we want
Fearing no consequence
'Cause when you’re young and in love
It's hard to give a fuck ‘bout anything
Especially what he thinks

I was standing in your back yard
You were climbing out your window 
We were gonna run away far 
And leave all of this behind 
But what did we know about life anyways
Clearly not a lot

We were only 17
Don't know what lies ahead 
I was moving away
You said you'd rather be dead than alone
Left here alone

Front Lawn (Prod. Horosha & Saint Tomorrow)

Featuring @kaiyko
Produced by @horoshavibes & @splashgvng

LYRICS
I know I fucked up real bad and I can't win you back now
I look straight ahead but I don't see a way out of this
Turns out the vow that we made
Didn't mean anything to you anyway

Now everything just seems meaningless to me
I meant it when I said 'til death so let me rest in peace
I know I fucked up
Blame it on my bad luck
There no more bad blood
It's only love

So when you look back do you do so with tenderness
Or am I just another memory that you repress

(Kaiyko)
I wait for you to come around to say
The things I've already heard before
So tell me what's new
Got a broken heart and nothin left to lose
I know 
You're doin okay
But I am always
Thinkin' of ways to
Get right back to you
But it's too late too late
Gotta get back home to our places
Not sure if I can make it
But I will tell you I would take it all for you
If we could take it all back too
Even if it's all even if it's all for you

I Meant It When I Said ‘Til Death, so Let Me Rest in Peace w/ Kaiyko (Prod. Horosha & splashgvng)

Featuring @lilskeleskrrt
Produced by @metlast
Engineering, additional vocals by @horoshavibes

LYRICS
Still the same scared kid that I was way back then
Know I'd give anything to change how it happened
Still bleeding from the wounds of my past and
Pursuing happiness
But I can't have that

Take another hit to my pride and my passion
Loss after loss like a chain reaction
When everything goes wrong
I need a way out
I can not be trusted to be kind to myself

The drugs don't make it better
They just keep me distracted
From the life I'm supposed to live
And out the one that I'm trapped in
When everything goes wrong
I tend to break down
I can not be trusted to be kind to myself

(skele)
And love I promise that I mean well
All those things I did were fucking my health 
I've never been good at helping out myself
It's getting bad
I prolly need help
I never meant for you to run away 
I just wanted you to feel a bit of my pain 
And when everything goes wrong I hope you'll be here 
Need someone to fix all my fears

When Everything Goes Wrong w/ skele (Prod. metlast)

Produced by @deadyami & @horoshavibes

LYRICS
Probably never make it
But I still try
When the grass seems greener on the other side
That's a big lie
Just like when they told me I'd get better with time

Still down bad despite what I said then
Can't relax outside of my deathbed
When I say I'm fine
That's a big lie
Just like I'll never leave your side
I guess I lacked the foresight
I turned my back
You attacked and gouged out both my eyes
Now it's no wonder why I was so blind

Probably burn out fast at this rate
Don't know how much more of this
I can take
It's all too much for me to face

(Horosha)
I feel the hours slipping by and they're only speeding up
I looked away for one second
Oh my god
It's been a month
But there's still so much I wanna do in this life so
I can't give up no
I won't give up no

Foresight (Prod. DEAD YAMI & Horosha)

This song is a reimagining of "Not Good Enough for Truth in Cliché" by Escape the Fate.

Featuring @sideviewdriveca
Produced by @dercept1
Engineering, additional vocals by @horoshavibes

LYRICS
Sitting in this room playing Russian roulette
Finger on the trigger to my dear Juliet
Out through the window see her back drop silhouette
This blood on my hands is something I cannot forget

So for now
Take this down a notch
Crash my car through your window
How does it feel when tears freeze
When you cry
The blood in your veins is twenty below

(Sideview Drive)
Can't forget the way you
Used to look at me
Now I'm keeping secrets on the tip of my tongue
You know I'm fighting back the things I wanna say to you
But if I try too hard I might fuck it all up
Cut the words out of my mouth
But don't say I didn't warn you

I can not feel
What you've done to me

My Dear Juliet w/ Sideview Drive (Prod. dercept)

Featuring @sewerperson
Produced by @horoshavibes & @jolst
Art by Katie Imbro

LYRICS
You made a promise to me
Never thought that you’d be the one to do me so wrong
It’s over now
I’m still learning how to move on
I guess that this is progression
I thought about you no more than a second time tonight
If I could rewind
I’d rescind it all
And just go back to you
Like I always do
Not caring for the fall
So if you care for me at all
Then cut me off

‘Cause I'm no good for you
You’re no good for me
We’re so out of sync
There’s no harmony
So if you care for me at all
Then cut me off
Caught between a rock and a hard place
Don’t wanna be alone
But I really can’t stay no
Do you wanna do this the hard way
When it comes to you
I can’t say no

(sewerperson)
I bet you're so damn happy I have gone away
Still I wish we could feel what we had yesterday
Baby at this checkpoint I still feel the same
Call me if you give up on him for this pain supplied
I know you still hate me I just hope you're safe tonight
I remember everything we let go in that candlelight 
Even if we’re not together you're still a friend of mine
Sorry I can’t control what feelings I been dealt in life
Break me and tear me up how you prefer
I pray when I die I’m not locked into lucifer
I know everything is fine right now but the future's still unsure
Teach me how to rid my self of all her hurt

Cut Me Off w/ sewerperson (Prod. Horosha & Jolst)

www.carlbymusic.com
Production, mixing, mastering & additional vocals by @horoshavibes
Additional guitars by @jolst

LYRICS
Call me if you need a friend
Or someone with whom to smoke cigarettes
I’ve got the time and an ear to lend
I’m always here if you need to vent
On your worst days
When you’re down bad
When the world makes you feel so small and irrelevant
I’ll be there for you
It may not be a lot
But it’s all that I can do

I’ll let you borrow my jacket
And my full attention
You know you can have it
The world is yours so just reach out and grab it
I hope you never feel that your dreams are invalid

‘Cause that's what friends are for
It may not be a lot
Oh I wish I could do more
For you
Just know I’m giving all I got in spite of what I’m going through so

Friends & Cigarettes (Prod. Horosha & Jolst)

ния, bir kyz - horosha (GDKV Remix)

Carlby is an alternative pop artist from the Midwest. Working alongside producer, @horoshavibes, his music is a blend of pop, emo rock and hip-hop.

Contact - carlbymusic.com/contact

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