tissues (autrioly)

produced by lxst boy & venus

-lyrics-

i used to be scared of the dark
now it’s girls who break my heart
under november stars
i was falling apart
i don’t know if you knew
but i put my all into you
i know you’re drunk at you place
you can’t stand to see my face
i got songs in my brain 
you got meds to keep you sane
i can’t find
a single reason to stay

maybe i overreacted when you wrecked my car
i shut down automatic when it involves my heart
i don’t like the guessing games give it to me straight 
ohh
maybe i’m immature can’t handle all the big things
i’m done, mistake after mistake

i used to be scared of the dark
now it’s girls who break my heart
under november stars
i was falling apart
i don’t know if you knew
but i put my all into you
i know you’re drunk at you place
you can’t stand to see my face
i got songs in my brain 
you got meds to keep you sane
i can’t find
a single reason to stay

ohhh
ohhh
ohhh
ohhh

maybe i’m immature can’t handle all the big things
i’m done, mistake after mistake

i used to be scared of the dark
now it’s girls who break my heart
under november stars
i was falling apart
i don’t know if you knew
but i put my all into you
i know you’re drunk at you place
you can’t stand to see my face
i got songs in my brain 
you got meds to keep you sane
i can’t find
a single reason to stay

ohhh
ohhh
ohhh
ohhh

scared of the dark (lxst boy x venus)

og: https://soundcloud.com/ilovejomie/lost-my-voice-prod-skinny
produced by lxst boy x skinny atlas

jomie & skinny atlas - lost my voice (lxst boy remix)

produced by Jacob Vallen & Lxst Boy

-lyrics-
on these warm September nights
fireflies dance in your eyes
we can take out time
I don't wanna grow up, we got the rest of our lives
time stood still when you kissed my cheek
when I close my eyes I see us in dreams
try to soak up this moment and make it last
when we're old and grey, hope we look back on

past lives, we were seventeen
I'll write songs for you and me
stay here, we can make-believe
stand strong, baby we're evergreen

please stay
take it day by day
and I don't wanna know a life without you
tell me what's it gonna take?
please stay

Neverland don't seem so far away
when I'm by your side, I know I'll be okay
I know you know
soon we'll find us a home
hold tight, we're almost there
I'll hold your hand and push back your hair
look me in the eye when you say that you want this 
forever and ever and ever and ever and ever

past lives, we were seventeen
I'll write songs for you and me
stay here, we can make-believe
stand strong, baby we're evergreen

please stay
take it day by day
and I don't wanna know a life without you
tell me what's it gonna take?
please stay

past lives, we were seventeen
I'll write songs for you and me
stay here, we can make-believe
stand strong, baby we're evergreen

please stay
take it day by day
and I don't wanna know a life without you
tell me what's it gonna take?
please stay

Seventeen Evergreen

Live For Today ft. Lxst Boy (Prod. johnnyfriend)

b u t   i ’l l   g l a d l y   t a k e   y o u r   p a i n ...
produced by cxrter & bino beats
📸: dreamsi

lyrics:
(Lxst Boy)
take me back
i don’t wanna do this
when we fight 
it’s leaving bruises on my heart and on my soul
i don’t ever want you to know
the effect you have, i’m lost when you’re away
but i’ll gladly take your pain 

stop, talk for a minute 
planning out my future 
babygirl are you in it?
with all due respect, not gonna let you finish
what you boutta say cause i know how it ends
i would do anything to keep you by my side
i love you the same as i did that first night 
took me by the hand and you looked into my eyes 
said it’s what you wanted, it’s just you and i
so…

take me back
i don’t wanna do this
when we fight 
it’s leaving bruises on my heart and on my soul
i don’t ever want you to know
the effect you have, i’m lost when you’re away
but i’ll gladly take your pain

(A Distant Voice)
i’d rather go a hundred rounds with rocky
then see you with a guy that’s not me
toss me in a box, i’ll wash up on some beach
i can’t believe my eyes
not a ghost, but it sure haunts me
she’s living with problems too big for her world
not taking it steady, not taking her time
she’s taking her issues and saying they’re mine
screaming at me, then just pushed me aside
took me a while but I get it now
wish you would stay but you’re headed out
i’m feeling the cold, was our love a joke?
if looks could kill, you went for the throat
but I’m wishing you the best life
hearts break, you move on, you’ll be fine
though I’ll never find another like you
and although it might hurt me
i’d hold your burdens on my shoulders
if you asked me to
cause I’ll never find another like you

(Lxst Boy)
take me back
i don’t wanna do this
when we fight 
it’s leaving bruises on my heart and on my soul
i don’t ever want you to know
the effect you have, i’m lost when you’re away
but i’ll gladly take your pain

take your pain w/ Lxst Boy & A Distant Voice (prod. cxrter x bino beats)

Lyrics

(Autrioly)
Tell me
I don't want nothing at all
If I have you I won't
Complain

(Dysphoric)
Yeah~
Lord why am I feeling so lost 
I never pray know it’s too late for me even if I did convert to the cross
But it’s getting so bad in this battle it’s gotten me back to believing a god
Slowly it feels like the enemy’s me and myself I don’t recognize myself at all
Its not even me when I speak in my thoughts

Swore that I’d never become who I am but I’m 
Guessing that's life gotta deal with your hand
And I know that I’m young and I know got plans
Why the fuck does right now feel so close to the end
Man this shit got me thinking like think about chance
Meaningless actions that tangle your thread
No you can’t just sit back it won’t change for the best
Tell me how this shit matter it its all determined 

I don’t wanna talk I won’t answer my phone 
DND on a text
Man I just need a sec
And I’ll figure it out on my own 
I need me some rest
These lyrics instead
They keeping me up till the morn'
I don’t wanna fight
But I’m tired, deprived of my sleep
And I feel in my bones
That I’m lower than lower than lower than low

I don’t wanna talk I won’t answer my phone 
DND on a text
Man I just need a sec
And I’ll figure it out on my own 
I need me some rest
These lyrics instead
They keeping me up till the morn'
I don’t wanna fight
But I’m tired, deprived of my sleep
And I feel in my bones
That I’m lower than lower than lower than low

(Lxst Boy)
(Duh(x19))
(Yeah(x4))
I ain’t feel the same as I used to
Taking up habits never thought I’d do
Now I’m on the run from the old me old me
Enemies used to be homies holy
Pain is the reason I believe in god 
Cause if nobody listening I’d rather die
I don’t think I’ll ever get to tie the knot
I’m not talking nooses (who cares if I’m not)
Take me away in a blaze of glory
I got a new girl but will she stay for the morning
Take me in outside it’s pouring 
Hope it rains that album had tore me
If only they knew what it’s about wow
She was my world till I found out
Behind my back she was a whole other person 
No motivation I finish in verses

(Dysphoric)
I don’t wanna talk I won’t answer my phone 
DND on a text
Man I just need a sec
And I’ll figure it out on my own 
I need me some rest
These lyrics instead
They keeping me up till the morn'
I don’t wanna fight
But I’m tired, deprived of my sleep
And I feel in my bones
That I’m lower than lower than lower than low

Lower Than Low w/Lxst Boy (prod. autrioly)

DIVINE EXPERIMENTS

---lyrics---

Wholeheartedly, fuck you I’m over it
Swear that I been trying, but you lying doing other shit
Got another guy on the side
So who am I to get between your petty toxic relations
(Fuck)
I don’t need another girl to take my heart away
Cause I need pay from the feelings that not developed in the brain
What a shame, I’m so lost
Not the same, what’s the cost
You the one to blame so just stop
(Yeah)
Wholeheartedly, fuck you I’m over it
Yeah I’m over it
Swear that I’m over it
Please leave me alone
I’ll call cops
Stop calling my phone
Like just stop

Wholeheartedly, fuck you I’m over it
Looking inside of my mind (now)
You was taking my time (wow)
Now I got a little light of mine
Gotta let it go and shine
Gotta yell it that I’m fine
Yeah I’m fine
Yeah I’m over it
Swear that I’m over it
Please leave me alone
I’ll call cops
Stop calling my phone
Like just stop

IM OVER IT (prod. autrioly)

DIVINE EXPERIMENTS

---lyrics---

I had an image inside of my head
But you ripped it shreds
Said you wish I was dead yeah
Meaning, can’t feel my heart beating
I’m meeting the one who put us on this earth yeah
Treason, so damn to your reason
For giving me pain and all of this hurt yeah
Feening, but I’m still believing
That we can just go and you’ll give me my shirt yeah

Darling know that I’m done
Warning the war isn’t won
Fighting? What you fighting for?
Fire burns in my lungs
Tired giving it up
Crying? What I’m crying for?

I got a hole in my chest but I’m trying my best just to go and live and survive
I got a knife in my back but the story don’t track so I think this the end of my time
The end of my time and the end of the book
The start of a life whereas mine as you took
And my body shook at the thought of it
I should’ve gotten it
Sit down relax and record yeah

I get so nervous the times that I think about
Thinking, I’m thinking I’m blind
I get so tired just talking, so tired just walking
Sit down, relax and unwind
But I’m at a point in my life where it’s grind or give up
Leaving out calories I’m on a cut
Hating the way that I don’t feel enough
Pen with a note fully covered in blood

Darling know that I’m done
Warning the war isn’t won
Fighting? What you fighting for?
Fire burns in my lungs
Tired giving it up
Crying? What I’m crying for?
Darling know that I’m done
Warning the war isn’t won
Fighting? What you fighting for?
Fire burns in my lungs
Tired giving it up
Crying? What I’m crying for?

BLIND (prod. autrioly)

Check out ilyaidxn: https://soundcloud.com/user-441910863

[caramel]
im melting
i don't do shit that they tell me
help me 
i jus wanna feel anything
kill me
baby these drugs got me melting
love me
wrapped in my arms like cellophane
crying cuz im missing u i put all my love in u
im dyin from the thought of you like
i put all my trust in u

i fade away
im a spirit babe
 i'll take the pain
wasted brain
i don't fear it babe 
i'll waste away

[ilyaidxn]
(waste away pour a cup and fade away 
oxycontin break away do the things i swear i hate)
i cant hate it if i help it i just numb it up
 im a pro inside my head but always fuck it up
i got thraxx i been lost always throwin up 
i dont care about the past ignore the patterns oh 
i dont love a thing about myself
 but i stand tall mentally a kid thats 
trapped inside that fucking home
(i got thraxx i been lost always throwin up
i dont care about the past ignore the patterns oh 
i dont love a thing about myself
but i stand tall 
mentally a kid thats trapped inside that fucking home)
pull it back i break it up you fall apart im on my own
i hate the sun i hate the light i hate it all inside my home
ill find a way still feel dismay the stars are warming up my bones
until the cold until the snow i swear ill always feel alone

Melting ft. ilyaidxn (cxrter x lxst boy)

Just trying to make music I like... from a bedroom

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