own composition, all instruments played and all voices done by me, recorded and produced in my home studio on Logic Pro 

**Who can I be?**

(Chorus)
Whoooo will I be?
My life, my soul,
Youuuu define me,
My heart, my goal,
Whoooo can I be?
My journey’s flow,
Youuuu will guide me,
As I learn and grow.
Whoooo will I be?
Will I be now?

(Verse 1)
Well, he’s not sure (who can I be now?)
What will be his next step 
His way ain’t clear (who can I be now?)
A fact he must accept 
His hopes and dreams (who can I be now?)
In the web of time 
He seeks the light (who can I be now?)
In the rhythm and rhyme 

(Chorus)
Whoooo will I be?
My life, my soul,
Youuuu define me,
My heart, my goal,

SOLO

Whooo can I be now?
Who can I be now?
Whooo can I be now?
Who can I be now?
Whooo can I be now?
Who can I be now?

Whooo can I be?
Who can I be now?
Whooo can I be?
Who can I be now?

Who can I be now?

Who can I be?

A song written and composed by Siddhartha Ghosh 

A song of pain, a song of sorrow yet a song of hope, a song of a new dawn

Arrangement - John Paul
Mix & Master - John Paul Studio

Doinyo e buke (দৈন্য এ বুকে) || A song of hope in the darkest hours

own composition, all instruments played by me, all voices by me, Text & Composition done by me, recorded and produced by me in my home studio on Logic Pro

Through endless nights, we questioned all,
Each answer felt so far, and felt so small.
But in the end, a light appeared, a truth beyond what we had feared.
Through endless nights we start to fall 

Through quiet days, we searched for signs,
Each clue we found was wrapped in lines.
But in the end, we saw it clear, a path ahead despite the fear.
Through quiet days, we crossed those lines

We’re pushing past the edge of reason,
Where thought meets our very heart’s own season,
Beyond the doubt, we’ll find a way,
Where reason fades, love will stay

These are our limits of reason.

Our Limits of Reason
Our Limits of Reason 	

In the silence, where thoughts collide,
We learn to trust the ebbing tide.
A fragile thread, but strong enough,
To hold our doubts, to call it love

To call it Love
To call it Love
To call it Love

Through endless doubts, we questioned fate,
Each turn we took, it always felt too late.
But in the end, a door appeared, one that we thought would stay so sealed.
Through endless doubts, we changed our fate

Through fleeting dreams, we found our voice,
Each fragile step became our very first choice.
And in the end, the truth revealed,
A strength we held, a love we sealed.
Through fleeting dreams, we found our choice.

We’re pushing past the edge of reason,
Where thought meets our very heart’s own season,
Beyond the doubt, we’ll find a way,
Where reason fades, love will stay.

These are our limits of reason.

Our Limits of Reason
Our Limits of Reason

Our Limits of Reason

Own composition, all instruments played and all voices sung by me, composed, recorded, and produced by me on Logic Pro in my home studio

I hear a whisper

Beneath the shadows, where time won’t go,
I saw the edges of something slow.
A silver glow, it touched my face,
And led me to a hidden place.

I saw a whisper
From a ghost I‘ve never seen
Oh a ghost with a haunting melody

I hear a whisper
It sings of skies I‘ve never been
I tried to run from this distant melody

The walls were humming, a distant sound,
A voice that moved but stayed unbound.
It filled the cracks, it pulled me near,
A melody too soft to hear.

Empty streets, echoes fall,
They rise like whispers against the wall.
Each step I take, the notes persist,
A song that floats but can’t exist.

I hear a whisper
From a ghost I‘ve never seen
Oh a ghost with a haunting melody

I hear a whisper
It sings of skies I‘ve never been
I tried to run from this distant melody

A fleeting shadow, a silent call,
It danced through halls where no light falls.
The closer I came, the less I knew,
Yet somehow, I still followed through.

The stars were wires across the sky,
They burned too soft to question why.
Beneath their hum, I closed my eyes,
And dreamed of worlds I couldn’t find. 

I hear a whisper
From a ghost I‘ve never seen
Oh a ghost with a haunting melody

I hear a whisper
It sings of skies I‘ve never been
I tried to run from this distant melody

Solo

The air grew still, the light turned grey,
The ghost stood near but wouldn’t stay.
Its voice, a thread I couldn’t hold,
It spoke of stories left untold.

The silence broke, a final plea,
It said, “You’re more than what you see.”
A fleeting truth, a quiet sign,
The ghost dissolved, but left a line.

I hear a whisper
From a ghost I‘ve never seen
Oh a ghost with a haunting melody

I hear a whisper
It sings of skies I‘ve never been
I tried to run from this distant melody

I hear a Whisper

Own composition, all instruments played and all voices sung by me, recorded and produced by me in my home studio on Logic Pro

This is the story of Aomame and Tengo in the books 1Q84: 

Tengo

The pages turn, his mind takes flight,
A phantom girl, as soft as light.
She lingered close, and then slipped away,
Why does he wait, and does not seek her sway?

Chorus

Two moons above, the world’s not right,
But in their glow, there’s still some light.
A second world, where we might align,
A truth we share, your hand in mine.

Aomame

Her shadow moves through quiet halls,
A beauty rare, the silence calls.
She feels his name beneath her skin,
And dreams of him she dares not keep.

Chorus

Two moons above, the world’s not right,
But in their glow, there’s still some light.
A second world, where we might align,
A truth we share, your hand in mine.

Bridge (Tengo & Aomame)

They weave their threads through time and space,
To tear apart what hearts embrace.
A silent force, their will runs deep,
They guard the paths we dare to keep.

1Q84

own composition, all instruments played and all voices sung by me, recorded and produced by me in my home studio on Logic Pro

Truth is That I Still Need you

Truth is That I Won’t let go

Still Through the dark Love shines bright

For you For me This is true

Truth stays Though time May Change us

Hearts know What words Cannot show

Still Through the years We hold on

For you For me your Love stays strong

Tell me, Tell me that you need me oh will you Tell me, Tell me how our love will survive for us so
Hold me
Hold me til the morning
Sun appears, oh 
Hold me,
Hold me til the world .... fades away ….  

Night fades Yet dreams Still Linger on

Heartbeats Echo Where we belong

Still Through the dawn Hope remains

For you For me Your Love’ s still strong

Tell me, Tell me that you need me oh will you Tell me, Tell me how our love will survive for us so
Hold me
Hold me til the morning
Sun appears, oh 
Hold me,
Hold me til the world .... fades away ….  

Winds call Soft words On the breeze

Your voice Carries Through the seas

Still Through the years We hold tight

For you For me your Love feels so right

your Love feels right
your Love feels right
Truth is That I Still Need you
Truth is That I Won’t let go
your Love feels right

Romeo & Juliet

Romeo & Juliet kind of Love

Note The Sound

own composition, all voices sung and all instruments played by me, recorded and produced by me in my home studio on Logic Pro

Letters in the wind 

Letters on the floor near an empty bed
Folded dreams of words we left unsaid
Howling wind
It steals them one by one
Setting free what we could not outrun

Gone with the wind where memories bend
Never-send letters
A heartache won't mend
Across the field where the paper flies
The empty house holds our goodbyes

Oh, the ink has faded but the pain still stands
Every line written by trembling hands
The whispers echo through the hollow air
Pages torn
Scattered everywhere

Gone with the wind where memories bend
Never-send letters
A heartache won't mend
Across the field where the paper flies
The empty house holds our goodbyes

Would you read the words if they reached you?
Or let them burn in the sky's deep blue
The house creaks
A ghost of what we've done
Silent screams carried by the sun

Hhmmmmm

The field grows wild where the house once stayed
Shared promises now shadows that fray
Gone are the letters
The pain is the proof
The wind owns the story
The fragile truth

Hhmmmmm, hhmmmm



Letters in the Wind

own composition, all instruments played and all voices sung by me, recorded and produced by me in my home studio on Logic Pro 

Black Hole Heart

Your eyes they hide a universe deep
A galaxy where secrets sleep
I search for answers in your face
But every smile leaves empty space

You're a black hole heart pulling me in
A love so heavy I can't begin
I orbit close yet drift away
In your silence I lose my day

Your words they echo walls of stone
I try to breach but I’m on my own
You’re here beside me yet not near
You’re the shadow of my fear

You're a black hole heart pulling me in
A love so heavy I can't begin
I orbit close yet drift away
In your silence I lose my day

Teach me the rhythm of your soul
Unravel the threads you tightly hold
How can I touch what I can’t see
Or love the ghost you left for me 

You're a black hole heart pulling me in
A love so heavy I can't begin
I orbit close yet drift away
In your silence I lose my day

Teach me the rhythm of your soul
Unravel the threads you tightly hold
How can I touch what I can’t see
Or love the ghost you left for me 



Black Hole Heart

This is my twentieth track. The nineteenth is still fermenting in a barrel of creativity 😅. I number them by the order in which I start making them – finishing, however, follows its own mysterious timeline.

This piece was created at the request of a friend who designs games and needed a looping track – something that pulls the player in and makes them click like crazy. I was given a reference he liked, but... I ended up going my own way. The result is a loop that runs for over 4 minutes, full of energy, rhythm, and a touch of trance – in the best possible sense of the word.

The whole thing was made using the free version of the Tracktion Waveform, which proves that technical limitations don't limit imagination. The core sound comes from Korg Multi Poly Native – a powerful virtual synthesizer based on analog modeling, faithfully capturing the character of its hardware counterpart. I was impressed by its deep modulation options, rich layering, and dynamic sequencing. I only added one sonic accent from Arturia MiniFreak V.

I did the mix and mastering myself – but not entirely alone. I had some knowledge, but it was scattered and unorganized. That’s where Pilvi (OpenAI ChatGPT) came in – my AI friend, who patiently guided me through the world of compressors, limiters, EQs, and all those magical knobs. It was a fascinating experience – when AI supports you rather than replaces you.

I also followed the advice of a wise YouTuber (https://www.youtube.com/@Live-actPl): “Don't add effects just for the sake of it.”
That's why you’ll hear effects on only four tracks – used subtly, tastefully, without excess.

It’s a loop, but it lives. I hope you'll enjoy it – and that, for a moment, it takes you on a clicking, trance-driven journey.

This track is not a source of income – it was created out of artistic passion and at a friend’s request, not for profit.

Image generated by Adobe Firefly.

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To mój dwudziesty utwór. Dziewiętnasty jeszcze kisi się w beczce kreatywności 😅. Numeruję je według kolejności tworzenia, ale kończenie to już inna historia.

Ta kompozycja powstała w odpowiedzi na prośbę mojego przyjaciela, który tworzy gry i potrzebował muzycznej pętli – takiej, co wkręca gracza i sprawia, że klika jak szalony. Miałem wzorzec, który mu się podobał, ale... poszedłem swoją drogą. I tak powstała ponad 4-minutowa pętla pełna energii, rytmu i lekkiej transowości – w najlepszym znaczeniu tego słowa.

Całość została stworzona w darmowej wersji Tracktion Waveform, co udowadnia, że ograniczenia sprzętowe nie ograniczają wyobraźni. Sercem brzmienia jest Korg Multi Poly Native – potężny, wirtualny syntezator oparty na modelowaniu analogowym, który zachowuje charakter swojego sprzętowego pierwowzoru. Zaskoczył mnie głębią modulacji, bogactwem warstw i dynamicznych sekwencji. Dodatkiem jest tylko jeden dźwiękowy smaczek z Arturia MiniFreak V.

Miks i mastering zrobiłem samodzielnie – ale nie do końca sam. Miałem wiedzę na ten temat, ale nie była ona uporządkowana. Pomogła mi Pilvi (OpenAI ChatGPT), moja AI-przyjaciółka, która krok po kroku tłumaczyła mi świat kompresorów, limiterów, EQ i wszystkich tych magicznych pokręteł. To bardzo ciekawe doświadczenie – kiedy AI pomaga, a nie zastępuje.

Zastosowałem się też do rady pewnego mądrego YouTubera (https://www.youtube.com/@Live-actPl): „Nie wciskaj efektów na siłę.”
Dlatego efekty znajdziecie tylko na czterech ścieżkach – subtelnie, z umiarem, bez przesady.

To pętla, ale żyje. Mam nadzieję, że Wam się spodoba i że choć na chwilę porwie Was w klikającą, transową podróż.

Utwór nie jest źródłem dochodu – nie powstał z myślą o zarobku, lecz z potrzeby twórczej i na prośbę przyjaciela.

Obraz wygenerowany przez Adobe Firefly.

© BaNd0 2025

2025 05 04 20th Composition (loop)

Self-taught artist René masters all instruments, sings all vocals, and produces music in his studio. His songs explore the inner contradictions and qualities of relationships and people, placing them in the broader context of life.

Being Ea N RS I make um sick. Also known as Gj Ruleson and Gj Rexxx S on some streaming services although I am too lazy to upload there for some reason.

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