i didnt mean to cut that deep

let me rape you bitch

i dont need no one (bonus)

ty 4 listening

Lyrics
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You don’t know me at all
Wait til you witness the fall
I’ve got these scars on my arms
From where you tore me apart

Just wanna get in the car
And drive as far as I can
I’m just a shell of a man
I’m just a corpse tryna stand

Kill the pain
But it’s hard with these hands of mine
I shake too much when I grip that knife
I don’t know how the fuck im supposed to live my life
I don’t mind but I don’t mind

You could tell me that this lasts forever but I
Wouldn’t lie you shouldn’t lie

You could tell me that it’s now or never but I
I’m Trapped inside, I’m trapped inside 

Say I’m okay but I’m sick of it baby
I miss the times when your voice didn’t break me
I think I’m sick of my own hesitation
Constantly changing, I fucking hate me
Hoping this dagger will save me
Dripping this blood off my wrist
I feel like shit
I got a stain on my fit
Finding a vein and I’m hitting a crit

You don’t know me at all
Wait til you witness the fall
I’ve got these scars on my arms
From where you tore me apart

Just wanna get in the car
And drive as far as I can
I’m just a shell of a man
I’m just a corpse tryna stand

Kill the pain
But it’s hard with these hands of mine
I shake too much when I grip that knife
I don’t know how the fuck im supposed to live my life
I don’t mind but I don’t mind

trapped (prod. godonline)

Episode Nine of this impactful podcast delves into the harrowing realities of dissociation, self-harm, and the pervasive issues of victim blaming and shaming that often follow traumatic experiences, particularly in the context of sexual assault within the military. Hosted by the courageous author Honey Badger, this episode features her poignant poetry, which serves as a powerful medium to raise awareness and foster understanding about the emotional turmoil faced by survivors. Through her evocative verses, Honey Badger not only shares her personal journey of being victimized by a third-class petty officer in the US Navy but also aims to educate listeners who may struggle to comprehend the profound effects of such trauma. This episode is essential for anyone seeking to understand the complexities of emotional abuse, the stigma surrounding survivors, and the urgent need for compassion and support in the aftermath of such experiences. Join us in listening to this vital conversation that seeks to illuminate the darkness and empower those who have been silenced.

Episode Nine: Dissociation, Victim Blaming/Shaming, Self Harm

useless and lost

“Coral Reef” is the emotional low point of BlueScarf’s debut album “Weightless In-Between”. It represents a struggle between daydreams and reality, teetering on the edge of life and death.
As the narrator drifts through the sea, his body comes to rest at the coral reef. He feels weak, so the reef tries to lull him into death with its hypnotic choir. He is tired. Ashamed of his life. Slowly, he begins to give in.
Producer, singer, songwriter: BlueScarf (Kiss Bálint Béla).

Weightless In-Between

Coral Reef

I used to not want to wake up and i would hurt my self till I fell asleep waking up to blood. Thanks for listening ps coffee helps a lot or just hot drinks:)

Save me from this hell

Когда слова не помогают, остаются только кулаки и стены.

self harm well done

ABYZOWU - FUCKING MY WRISTS (⁠´⁠°̥̥̥⁠ω⁠°̥̥̥⁠｀⁠) (prod.doublefour)

Kiss Bálint Béla, also known as BlueScarf is a Hungarian writer, independent singer-songwriter, producer, filmmaker & creative individual from Bratislava, Slovakia. BlueScarf started making music in his high school years in an attempt to combat his fears and face the inevitable end of childhood. With his genre-bending style and honest, transparent voice he creates about the metaphorical, as well as the painfully raw and real.

BlueScarf’s debut album, “Weightless In-Between”, is a metaphorical coming-of-age story – an introspective voyage across the sea toward a deserted island, where the narrator confronts his deepest fears and must find the strength to overcome them to survive.

His debut single, “Suffocating”, takes its listeners to a place of quiet despair and sheer panic, mashing soft, melancholic piano with agressive drums and grungy electric guitars in the midst of a thunderstorm.

The follow-up, “Goldfish” is a radical departure from the tone set by its predecessor. It sounds fun, upbeat, but beyond its innocence there lies unexpressed fear and indecision.

“Lonely Island of Mine”, the last single before his narrative album is about second chances. Trial and error. Embracing mistakes and being patient with ourselves. It is gritty, real, but uplifting at the same time, merging elements of rap and rock with heavy screams.

Julie Jules Smoot, a Navy Veteran whose journey of healing has been profoundly shaped by the therapeutic powers of sound, poetry, and guided meditation. As a dedicated Sound Alchemist, Julie has harnessed her experiences to create a rich tapestry of auditory experiences that resonate deeply with listeners seeking solace and tranquility. Her latest album, "Inhale Peace, Exhale Anxiety," serves as a beacon of hope, inviting individuals to embark on a journey of self-discovery and emotional release. With her extensive portfolio, which includes 13 published books and over 1,300 videos, Julie has established herself as a multifaceted creator, committed to promoting mental well-being through the arts.

Available on 30 platforms, Julie's music transcends traditional boundaries, offering a unique blend of soothing sounds and poetic narratives designed to foster inner peace and resilience. Each track in "Inhale Peace, Exhale Anxiety" is meticulously crafted to guide listeners through a meditative experience, encouraging them to let go of stress and embrace a state of calm. Julie's work not only reflects her personal healing journey but also serves as a powerful tool for others navigating their own challenges. By integrating her military background with her passion for sound therapy, Julie Jewels Smoot has created a sanctuary of healing that resonates with a diverse audience, making her contributions invaluable in the realm of mental health and wellness.

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