i dont need no one (bonus)

ty 4 listening

Lyrics
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You don’t know me at all
Wait til you witness the fall
I’ve got these scars on my arms
From where you tore me apart

Just wanna get in the car
And drive as far as I can
I’m just a shell of a man
I’m just a corpse tryna stand

Kill the pain
But it’s hard with these hands of mine
I shake too much when I grip that knife
I don’t know how the fuck im supposed to live my life
I don’t mind but I don’t mind

You could tell me that this lasts forever but I
Wouldn’t lie you shouldn’t lie

You could tell me that it’s now or never but I
I’m Trapped inside, I’m trapped inside 

Say I’m okay but I’m sick of it baby
I miss the times when your voice didn’t break me
I think I’m sick of my own hesitation
Constantly changing, I fucking hate me
Hoping this dagger will save me
Dripping this blood off my wrist
I feel like shit
I got a stain on my fit
Finding a vein and I’m hitting a crit

You don’t know me at all
Wait til you witness the fall
I’ve got these scars on my arms
From where you tore me apart

Just wanna get in the car
And drive as far as I can
I’m just a shell of a man
I’m just a corpse tryna stand

Kill the pain
But it’s hard with these hands of mine
I shake too much when I grip that knife
I don’t know how the fuck im supposed to live my life
I don’t mind but I don’t mind

trapped (godonline)

useless and lost

“Coral Reef” is the emotional low point of BlueScarf’s debut album “Weightless In-Between”. It represents a struggle between daydreams and reality, teetering on the edge of life and death.
As the narrator drifts through the sea, his body comes to rest at the coral reef. He feels weak, so the reef tries to lull him into death with its hypnotic choir. He is tired. Ashamed of his life. Slowly, he begins to give in.
Producer, singer, songwriter: BlueScarf (Kiss Bálint Béla).

Weightless In-Between

Coral Reef

I used to not want to wake up and i would hurt my self till I fell asleep waking up to blood. Thanks for listening ps coffee helps a lot or just hot drinks:)

Save me from this hell

Когда слова не помогают, остаются только кулаки и стены.

self harm well done

might upload on spotify unsure yet

(prod. romanticism)

Ask her if she loves me, thats what ill ask her
the blood in the sink, is getting darker
and why, oh why cant i make the pain go away
i stay up all night until it fucking turns day

and i know that its all my fucking fault
i can never do things right, im the one  at fault
i didnt want it to be this way
but now its my mental i gotta pay, pay

until it turns day

Well I spent some more time on it, kinda sux bc had made it sound better but one plugin was a demo which when rendering there was audio silences , but  it's been a while since I've come back to work on a track,  now days usually just make and upoad same night a few yeats since i've taken my time, subspace was last one i put time into. tbh, kind lost my way as well as  hope and now back on dope and starting over in a way, like b4 when I used to think could only produce while high., 

i rly  like bull sub machine that i used on it tonight, got the whole bundle of theirs for 2 week demo, and no audio silences for the demo unlike I.M Pusher, i had it sounding rly nice i think but had to delete pusher and try to get it sounding the same..

anyways i like the plugins from Safari Pedals, it's cool they;re all named after different animals

PROGRAMMED TO SELF DESTRUCT (wip )

producer
https://www.youtube.com/@prod9nine9
https://www.youtube.com/@ProdMaestroWons
me
linktr.ee/lasrevinu

fight club (prod. by 9nine9 x maestrowons)

Darla's Hot Dad (Feat. Squidward)

not finished for obvious reasons

slitting my wrist 
I can't take all this shit
got blood on my diamonds
they glisten
I never fit in 
and you don't seem to get it
thanks for taking the time just to listen
means more to me than you could ever imagine

I'm working with X3in now
I'm working with gusuck
I'm working with GHOST GIRL 
I'm working with zephyr

it's not out of pocket
you should expect this
that I'd be someone
shine out from the darkness

how'd we get so far apart
you were my moon and my stars
hanging on to something sharp
bleeding but I've gone too far
now I'm crying rivers of tears
wondering why you aren't here

slitting my wrist 
I can't take all this shit
got blood on my diamonds
they glisten
I never fit in 
and you don't seem to get it
thanks for taking the time just to listen
means more to me than you could ever imagine

I'm working with X3in now
I'm working with gusuck
I'm working with GHOST GIRL 
I'm working with zephyr

it's not out of pocket
you should expect this
that I'd be someone
shine out from the darkness

didn't I get your attention
not from this dimension
my life meant nothing

held in suspension
the clock that keeps ticking
watch time try to stop me

just go on without me

just go on without me 

they all tried to buy me

they'll learn when I die

Y2K

got metal on metal 
I'm some kind of devil
I think I fucking hate myself

got bass for your treble
my life in the DAW
but know I'd never be someone else 

yeah

Rivers of Tears prod. Gusuck (WIP)

latest upload: 13 oct 2025
file: flora cash - Laura, you made me want to jump off a bridge that night (studio bounce 6 (13 oct 2025) - with drums now
logic project: 18 april 2025 - confessions of a sinner

lyrics:

i’m possessed by conviction
aesthetic things 
are my religion 

i drink beer
to have my visions

of holy ghosts
and holy women
 find paradise
in meaning

find hell
in idle scheming 

lord 
only knows
how i’ll be undone 
but time 
is sure to be behind it

Laura
you made me want to
jump off a bridge that night
but i didn’t do it  but i  didn’t  do it

our
Force has many faces
i don’t care for
they look like bugs
in basements

holy rhymes with
amputations
and i know 
i’m back again to you

Laura, you made me want to jump off a bridge that night (unreleased)

dark heartbreak song to fight off the influence from the dark prince

lovescars (Prod. Instinct)

Circus Freak

I promised to take my mum out, but my suicidality has gotten so worse, I've been using maladaptive methods to cope with it, hoping I can fight through it till the weekend.This is written cuz my therapist told me that if I have strong urge to k*ll myself, to try to write something, anything, for 15min. It did help, but not for long.

Script:

Gave two cuts to my right wrist today,
Surface level, not even reaching the muscle tissue,
I’m so incompetent in self-harming, 
had to feel some sense of serotonin viewing those that did it.
Seeing the blood was a sign of success.

Back then when we were kids, 
2am was the scariest hour ever but 
Now it's the most comforting hour.

i know how draining it can be, 
but sometimes i just love the feeling of being the only one awake in my house 
while everyone else is asleep. 
just me and my earbuds, 
alone in my room. perhaps it's the solitude, 
the one moment where i can truly exist, 
untouched and unbothered by anyone else. 
a moment in the dark, the lovely night, 
no blaring lights or loud conversations.

I concurred to this statement,
“Suicidal individuals experiencing even a minor rejection or disappointment,
Is a catastrophic blow to their self-esteem and psychic integrity,
undercutting their ability to cope”

You expect me to say, “I want to go home, I want to see my family”,
Instead, what you hear is,
“I want to go to a very high building and throw myself off on a concrete carpark,
Knowing that my mum is watching as I hit the ground.”

You told me to be kind, that kindness brings kindness in return
Shed a tear, no one to tell, I asked you not to lie, so you spun me a pipe dream
By the time I had the chance to move forward, my future was already cut off 

“You’re just not talented” I’m sure I heard that line before.
Maybe that would explain why I am unable to stay on a job after the first day.
You said I'm missing something that everyone has, and I am starting to believe it

At this stage, as until almost the final day of the attempt,
My feelings were ambivalent: 
I want to die and I desperately want to be rescued.
So, even after buying a stack of paracetamol.
I continued to make plans with my friends. 

You shouldn't think too much, 
shorthand for “Feel too much”

Running towards the incoming lane, 
I’m sorry to the one I crashed into.

You told me to be patient, some people need time to catch on
I don’t want to argue and disagree over the phone.
I want to avoid these particular trains of thought

Albert Camus, in his book The Myth of Sisyphus,
Argued that siucide is essentially a confession that life is not worth living. 

“Boyfriend broke up with me, what should I do? Abuse substance”
“Why do you have to be so fucked up”,
“You know if you die, the world won’t end”
“Im beyond help at this point”
“You are not serious enough if you are only crossing the road, and not the highway”

60 centimeter waist,
40 kilogram weight,
Completely flat tummy,
Small calves,
Prominent ribs,
Prominent spine,
Arms I can wrap my hand around,
BMI 10
Death.

Distorted thinking,
Refusal to acknowledge dangers attached,
Escalation of obsessive and rural behaviours,
Increasing secretiveness.
I know all the right things to say, and I’ll say what they need to hear, and they’ll let me go,
I’m self-aware, I know that it’s sick and dangerous, but I’m also scared to recover, because my illness makes me feel safe.
That’s why I still put up with it.


みんなが持ってる“何か”が、僕には足りないって、 君が言った言葉——今は、それを信じ始めてる。 You said I'm missing something that everyone has,  and I am starting to believe it

I'm in class 
while u sleep
Stand in lines just like sheep
Hope you wake up sometime soon
I'll be gone before noon

Don't forget me when you stay
Pray to god you'll some play 
Get the fuck right out my face 
I'll come back another day

I get high in my room 
don't know what you want to do
Hope you don't ask for money 
because I'm skint, you've got plenty

oo, oo, oo, ooo, 
oo, oo, oo, ooo, 
oo, oo, oo, ooo, 
ooo, oo, oo, ooo, 


The Kratom burned inside my heart 
Did too much now I restart

I'm in class 
while u sleep
Stand in lines just like sheep
Hope you wake up sometime soon
I'll be gone before noon

Don't forget me when you stay
Pray to god you'll some play 
Get the fuck right out my face 
I'll come back another day

suicide pact (w/ Delilah)

https://soundcloud.com/dvmb_cvnt

🔊🔊🔊🔊Techno-Painslvt here - let's use my body as a kickdrum and make some thuds, sounds & patterns with it  🥁🥁🥁

Quasi-hermit/ hates sunlight so rly underground 👊

Dreams of Blood Raves, build it and they shall bleed b4 coming

I'm into emotional masochism as well so even with music I like to try to make techno then hate it and myself when I compare...it's so much fun! 

Bookings: Do you need a subslave masochist for your rave? Do u want to keep me chained up in your studio? If yes contact management (that's me) for further info 😁😈😊😘

If I told you I was listening to you while my blood ran down my body would you find that the best compliment ever? Cos I was. And it is, right?! 🩸🩸😘

just a kinky nocturnal techno hermitgurl

(Plz follow artists in my list , not me, they good i suck)

#Emotrap #HyperPop #GermanRap
I make songs about my mind doin' tricks on me

Kiss Bálint Béla, also known as BlueScarf is a Hungarian writer, independent singer-songwriter, producer, filmmaker & creative individual from Bratislava, Slovakia. BlueScarf started making music in his high school years in an attempt to combat his fears and face the inevitable end of childhood. With his genre-bending style and honest, transparent voice he creates about the metaphorical, as well as the painfully raw and real.

BlueScarf’s debut album, “Weightless In-Between”, is a metaphorical coming-of-age story – an introspective voyage across the sea toward a deserted island, where the narrator confronts his deepest fears and must find the strength to overcome them to survive.

His debut single, “Suffocating”, takes its listeners to a place of quiet despair and sheer panic, mashing soft, melancholic piano with agressive drums and grungy electric guitars in the midst of a thunderstorm.

The follow-up, “Goldfish” is a radical departure from the tone set by its predecessor. It sounds fun, upbeat, but beyond its innocence there lies unexpressed fear and indecision.

“Lonely Island of Mine”, the last single before his narrative album is about second chances. Trial and error. Embracing mistakes and being patient with ourselves. It is gritty, real, but uplifting at the same time, merging elements of rap and rock with heavy screams.

Silk Road Posse
discord - h4rtrotten
i hope my bro gets better

┗ 27
┗ Songwriter
┗ Producer
► Open to Collab
┓Diagnosed depression, Anxiety disorder, Passive SI, hope you be kind to me.

this is the place for those who care to go deeper

a split perspective...
raw versatility to kill em all!

catch me kreepin' out the BLVXK SWVMP

HiKiKOMORi: the portara fusion of amormori and FVXKdaniel
aka SUICIDETrunks, lil too nice

💀🪵

finding a worthy hill to die on

deadwood collective : https://soundcloud.com/deadwoodcollective

Deadwood discord server : https://discord.gg/deadwood

email is wraithwilldie@gmail.com

you look ugly when you hate

shoutout to Ukraine

prod. Gusuck

New tracks tagged #self harm