all over the place

missed you today.

cover and prod. by @astralxz 

STUCK IN THE END ONCE AGAIN
BLESSED BY THE SINS AND I CAN'T SAY NO MORE
DEMONS THEY LURKIN WITH SHOVELS
THEY CHIRPIN THEY WONDER
IM SMIRKIN IN YOUR FUCKIN YARD

SON OF THE STARS
BUT I FEEL NO REGARD 
LOOK AT ME CRAZY
I SAY WHAT I WANT
TRUST IN THE TERROR
I WON'T LEAVE NO ERROR
NO TRACE OR DECLARE-R
I JUST WANT YOU GONE

STILL I MISS IT, 
HYROGLIPHICS ON MY WALL
PAINTIN ALL THESE PICTURES
KEEPIN BITCHES OFF THE WALL

I WANNA DIE 
I WANNA BALL
I WANNA CRY
I WANNA FALL

DESTINED FOR THE GRAVE
WHAT CAN I SAY
IM A JUNKIE
IM INSANE

PLEASE FUCKIN LEAVE ME ALONE
CRY ON THE PHONE FOR AN HOUR OR SO
LETTERS THEY'RE WRITTEN
EXTENTIAL EXCISSION
DERANGED BY A MANIC DESCISSION
IM HAUNTED WITH ILLNESS
I CONJUR THE SICKNESS
DERANGED LUNATIC BUT I WISHED IT

MORE COKE IN MY SYSTEM YOU MISSED IT
DESPISE HOW YOU DID IT
LYIN AND SHIT ON A MISSION
FOR NOTHING BUT SICKNESS

I DIDN'T , UNDERSTAND
WHATS THE PLAN 
WHERE'D WE LAND

FEEL THE BETRAYAL
BUT FUCK IF YOU SAY SO
SADISTIC AND RAGEFUL
I FEEL FUCKIN HATEFUL 
LIDBEDLURK OR KRATOS
MORE DOPE IN MY SYSTEM
SHIT CAN'T FEEL HALO

DUCKIN ONCE MORE
CRY ON THE FLOOR
BUCKIN FOR MORE
KEEPIN ME WANTIN IT, 
DEATHS AT YOUR DOOR
 
FUCK 
I CAN'T EVEN REASON
HORROR    
STILL STAY MY SEASON

THE REASON AINT NOTHIN COMPARED TO THE DEATH AND DESPAIR
WITH A FULL METAL HEATHE N
I SWEAR MAN I SWEAR 
 
LOOKIN AROUND, I CAN'T TELL WHAT I SEE
MIDDLE OF DAY, STILL PHASING IT SEEMS
CAN'T HOLD REMORSE
OF COURSE IM THE GHOST
INSIDIOUS HOST,   
DEVIL UNDERNEATH THE CLOAK



PERSPECTIVE IS A PARADISE

SUICIDE SEASON II (W/ ASTRAL)

loosing my sanity

i didnt mean to cut that deep

let me rape you bitch

i dont need no one (bonus)

ty 4 listening

Lyrics
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You don’t know me at all
Wait til you witness the fall
I’ve got these scars on my arms
From where you tore me apart

Just wanna get in the car
And drive as far as I can
I’m just a shell of a man
I’m just a corpse tryna stand

Kill the pain
But it’s hard with these hands of mine
I shake too much when I grip that knife
I don’t know how the fuck im supposed to live my life
I don’t mind but I don’t mind

You could tell me that this lasts forever but I
Wouldn’t lie you shouldn’t lie

You could tell me that it’s now or never but I
I’m Trapped inside, I’m trapped inside 

Say I’m okay but I’m sick of it baby
I miss the times when your voice didn’t break me
I think I’m sick of my own hesitation
Constantly changing, I fucking hate me
Hoping this dagger will save me
Dripping this blood off my wrist
I feel like shit
I got a stain on my fit
Finding a vein and I’m hitting a crit

You don’t know me at all
Wait til you witness the fall
I’ve got these scars on my arms
From where you tore me apart

Just wanna get in the car
And drive as far as I can
I’m just a shell of a man
I’m just a corpse tryna stand

Kill the pain
But it’s hard with these hands of mine
I shake too much when I grip that knife
I don’t know how the fuck im supposed to live my life
I don’t mind but I don’t mind

trapped (prod. godonline)

useless and lost

“Coral Reef” is the emotional low point of BlueScarf’s debut album “Weightless In-Between”. It represents a struggle between daydreams and reality, teetering on the edge of life and death.
As the narrator drifts through the sea, his body comes to rest at the coral reef. He feels weak, so the reef tries to lull him into death with its hypnotic choir. He is tired. Ashamed of his life. Slowly, he begins to give in.
Producer, singer, songwriter: BlueScarf (Kiss Bálint Béla).

Weightless In-Between

Coral Reef

I used to not want to wake up and i would hurt my self till I fell asleep waking up to blood. Thanks for listening ps coffee helps a lot or just hot drinks:)

Save me from this hell

Когда слова не помогают, остаются только кулаки и стены.

self harm well done

might upload on spotify unsure yet

(prod. romanticism)

Ask her if she loves me, thats what ill ask her
the blood in the sink, is getting darker
and why, oh why cant i make the pain go away
i stay up all night until it fucking turns day

and i know that its all my fucking fault
i can never do things right, im the one  at fault
i didnt want it to be this way
but now its my mental i gotta pay, pay

until it turns day

Well I spent some more time on it, kinda sux bc had made it sound better but one plugin was a demo which when rendering there was audio silences , but  it's been a while since I've come back to work on a track,  now days usually just make and upoad same night a few yeats since i've taken my time, subspace was last one i put time into. tbh, kind lost my way as well as  hope and now back on dope and starting over in a way, like b4 when I used to think could only produce while high., 

i rly  like bull sub machine that i used on it tonight, got the whole bundle of theirs for 2 week demo, and no audio silences for the demo unlike I.M Pusher, i had it sounding rly nice i think but had to delete pusher and try to get it sounding the same..

anyways i like the plugins from Safari Pedals, it's cool they;re all named after different animals

PROGRAMMED TO SELF DESTRUCT (wip )

producer
https://www.youtube.com/@prod9nine9
https://www.youtube.com/@ProdMaestroWons
me
linktr.ee/lasrevinu

fight club (prod. by 9nine9 x maestrowons)

Love Song for a SEXY HOT BBC HAVING Firefighter (Feat. Squidward)

https://soundcloud.com/dvmb_cvnt

🔊🔊🔊🔊Techno-Painslvt here - let's use my body as a kickdrum and make some thuds, sounds & patterns with it  🥁🥁🥁

Quasi-hermit/ hates sunlight so rly underground 👊

Dreams of organizing Blood Raves

I'm into emotional masochism as well so even with music I like to try to make techno then hate it and myself when I compare...it's so much fun! 

Bookings: Do you need a subslave masochist for your rave? Do u want to keep me chained up in your studio? If yes contact management (that's me) for further info 😁😈😊😘

If I told you I was listening to you while my blood ran down my body would you find that the best compliment ever? Cos I was. And it is, right?! 🩸🩸😘

just a kinky nocturnal techno hermitgurl

(Plz follow artists in my list , not me, they good i suck)

#Emotrap #HyperPop #GermanRap
I make songs about my mind doin' tricks on me

Kiss Bálint Béla, also known as BlueScarf is a Hungarian writer, independent singer-songwriter, producer, filmmaker & creative individual from Bratislava, Slovakia. BlueScarf started making music in his high school years in an attempt to combat his fears and face the inevitable end of childhood. With his genre-bending style and honest, transparent voice he creates about the metaphorical, as well as the painfully raw and real.

BlueScarf’s debut album, “Weightless In-Between”, is a metaphorical coming-of-age story – an introspective voyage across the sea toward a deserted island, where the narrator confronts his deepest fears and must find the strength to overcome them to survive.

His debut single, “Suffocating”, takes its listeners to a place of quiet despair and sheer panic, mashing soft, melancholic piano with agressive drums and grungy electric guitars in the midst of a thunderstorm.

The follow-up, “Goldfish” is a radical departure from the tone set by its predecessor. It sounds fun, upbeat, but beyond its innocence there lies unexpressed fear and indecision.

“Lonely Island of Mine”, the last single before his narrative album is about second chances. Trial and error. Embracing mistakes and being patient with ourselves. It is gritty, real, but uplifting at the same time, merging elements of rap and rock with heavy screams.

Silk Road Posse
disc - warne_d
i hope my bro gets better

DELIVERANCE spins a symphony of rhythms, connecting hearts and souls with each vibrant note—a testament to my eclectic spirit and magnetic presence behind the decks.
A soulful blend of South African, Dutch, French, and Spanish heritage, weaving emotional intuitiveness and deep empathy into my music. 

Journey with me to feel the pulse of electronic music through HOUSE and HARDCORE beats, amidst the festival highs of DRUM and BASS 🤘🏼 

 
Perth DJ/Musician/Artist open platform 🙌 
58/198bpm

💀🪵

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doubt will kill me
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deadwood collective : https://soundcloud.com/deadwoodcollective

Deadwood discord server : https://discord.gg/deadwood

Personal discord is wraithwilldie

email is wraithwilldie@gmail.com

New tracks tagged #self harm