(prod. lostangel.)

this is another witch's tale

life has me by
a fucking chokehold
losing my shit and
no one even knows
cause i keep to myself
i'll struggle with this alone

i dont need your opinions  
i dont need your help
ill just take it
day by day
guess ill figure it out
when i see 
the eviction notice
at the door

tattoos are the 
only way i cope
so i dont collapse
into a relapse
but no amount of tattoos 
can make me forget
all the hurt i been through
all the hurt i been through

3 point 5 grams 
thats all it takes
ill smoke another joint
and it'll be okay
i dont trust alcohol anymore
because the taste of it 
lets reality set in
the taste of it
lets reality set in

life has me by
a fucking chokehold
im losing my shit and
no one even knows
cause i keep to myself
but i dont need your help

no one even knows (lostangel.)

"On the next INSIGHT Bible chat show, Dudley Anderson continues chatting with Ryan Anderson about the condition of the heart. Scripture says, the heart of man – the deep inner part of our character, personality and spirit being – is deceitful above all things. As with gold, our hearts need to be purified. As fire removes the dross from fine Gold, so the heat of God’s word and Holy Spirit purifies our hearts from the corruption of deceit. Ryan shares some of his testimony of his personal purification process."

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IN#17 INSIGHT with Ryan Anderson - The Condition of the Heart Prt2

Written by: Kurumi Violet 
Produced by: Chill Sebs
Mixed & Mastered by: AkiraDoves
Artwork from: https://pin.it/3QaXlvAji
Artwork Edited by: Kurumi Violet 

Lyrics:
[Intro]
Still being mocked & misunderstood 
Still just making my music 

[Chorus]
Changed my identity twice since then
Learning to be positive even though I never win
Learned to fend for myself 
Because if I didn't it'd be hell

[Verse]
Gone through a lot the past 2 years
& I'm still trying to make it all clear
They listen but they act like they don't hear
But this Halloween I feel some clarity 
I'm still anti social but confidence
Makes me dare who I want to be

[Chorus]
Changed my identity twice since then
Learning to be positive even though I never win
Learned to fend for myself 
Because if I didn't it'd be hell

Halloween Pt 3 (Prod. Chill Sebs)

(prod. natebatez)

witch's tale.

i'm not used to the quiet nights

i still flinch when the thunder hides
even the silence gets too loud
guess i got addicted to the sound

i swear
i'm getting better 
but the ghost still hum
yeah the ghost still hum
somedays i bloom
other days i break
guess healing comes in waves

when you found me 
i was halfway
through the fire 
and you held my hand
till i realize it wasn't a dream
you pulled me out when 
i forgot my name 

now when the storm 
starts to whisper 
i just smile 
i'm not the same 
as i was back then 

if peace is a stranger
i'm learning their face 
if life's a circle 
i found my place 

i'm not used to the quiet nights
i still flinch when the thunder hides
even the silence gets too loud 

guess i got addicted to the sound.

quiet nights (natebeatz)

(prod. natebeatz)

witch's tale.

you don't know what its like
to lose your glow before the dawn
to be a child in body
but feel your soul 
move on

i stitched my soul 
with melodies turned pain into art
but the mirror kept asking
"will you ever be the same"

you took my story 
but i took control
you don't know what its like
to lose it all and still rise

my innocence is gone
but i found my light inside
they tried to write my story
but i changed every line

what they took from me that night
I'm taking back this time
every tear i buried deep
became roots in my heart

they broke me down to nothing
but i built myself divine
i built myself divine.

taking back what's mine (natebeatz)

(prod. natebeatz)

witch's tale

the world moves fast
but i move alone 
i walk through fire 
i didn't light

learn to speak in 
whispers not in cries
every smile is borrowed 
every touch felt unknown
i stitched my soul 
with broken threads

i rose from the shadows 
of that time 
everything that was 
stolen is now all mine 
my reflection felt like someone else
i was too young to know the world 
but it showed me it's teeth anyway

i've found my voice 
reclaimed my life 
i carry my past
but it doesn't define 
i found my light 
this soul is mine 

(woah)
(woah)
(yuh)
life's not easy
when your sensitive
tired of this shit
its so repetitive 
why do i have to be so vulnerable 
so gullible

i know you wanna 
leave it all behind 
watch me rise 
we gon' be alright 
don't leave your life behind 

it's worth living for these moments
worth living for these moments
worth living for these moments
said it's worth living for these moments

this soul is all mine

this soul is mine (natebeatz)

(prod. natebeatz)

this is another witch's tale

im sorry
im sorry,
i love you like its war
sorry i push just to need you more
its not you,
its the noise in my brain

im trying to love you through the pain
i wake up and you're still here
but sometimes that feels to near

you touch my hand i pull away
then beg you not leave that day
i dont even know who's loving you today
 my reflection keeps changing names
one minute your my safe place
the next your the storm

i say im leaving just to see 
if you'll chase me
i know its not easy
loving someone who turns on a dime
but when you say my name softly
the chaos quiets for awhile
i know its not your fault i break like this
you're fighting my shadow
when all you wanted was light

you see the calm inside my hurricane
you stayed when i was hard to hold
i live with my hearts its got your face
you're my calm in this crowded place
you say its okay when i go numb
but i see the hurt ive done
i dont mean to twist your words
its just how my brain learns

im sorry i pull,
im sorry i cling,
sorry i turn small things into everything
but when i see you sleeping beside me
i start to believe i'm worth keeping

and i'm still learning 
one day at a time 
to love you softly 

not just with my mind

half of me hates you, all of me needs you (natebeatz)

(prod. koilake)

this is another witch's tale.

ive been making vows in silence
to the parts of me i lost
promising the broken pieces 
that i hold on through the cost

im learning how to love myself
like i deserve a place to stay
and every step i take feels like
im choosing me in a new way
the past tried to claim me
but im not owned by that pain
i slipped a ring on my healing
now i carry my own name
im engaged to my healing
(my healing)

to the growth i use to fear
to the softness im discovering
in the mirror year by year
im engaged to my healing
to the person i almost lost
and ill never them stranded
no matter what it cost
this love is slow but honest
this time i choose myself

im engaged to my healing
to a life that finally felt like help

engaged to my healing (koilake)

(prod. lonecrow)

witch's tale.

i use to sleep with heartbreaks
stitched into my skin

every room felt temporary
every move felt like the end
but then i found a quiet
i never knew existed
a place where I'm not hurting

a love i never pictured
i look at where I'm standing
and where i could have been
and it hits me like a sunrise

I'm still here.
I'm still here.

i never thought I'd get here
to this version of my life
where the storms don't shake me
and i don't wanna say
goodbye

i never thought I'd get here
with a ring and a steady heart
with a future that feels gentle
and a person that never falls apart

i never thought I'd get here
but damn, I'm glad i did
(I'm glad i did)

never thought i'd get here (lonecrow)

you're listening to another witch's tail.

call me a witch vampire
i can manifest your love 
(your love)
or i can sink my teeth 
into your skin (your skin)
but no you're not running away
(you're not running away)
you're not escaping
i got you in a trans
(you're mine)

ima get your name tatted on my neck
(witch's tail)
yeah i promise that
just let me sink my teeth 
into your skin
i call em my love bites
(little love bites)

the harder i bite
 the more love i give
so dont be afraid 
when you wake up my too
my love bites

my love bites
(little love bites)
my little love bites

i just wanna show you love
i dont have any other way
to show my love to you
so i sink my teeth 
into your skin
little love bites

i just wanna show you my love.

little love bites (prod. lostangel.)

I am a genderfluid artists who is 23 I  make music about my life whether it be literally about it or I use a fictional story to express my reality with metaphors and messages 

New Music Video out 
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My former names include @kurama_sd , @kurama-sad , @reapers-shadow, & @reapers-remnants

My alt account is @kurumi-violet aka Violet Kurumi Alt It will be used for music I don't think is good enough for my main account but I think some people will still enjoy 

This account Will have endless amounts of styles Alt rock, Shoegaze, Dark hyper pop, Emo rap, Lo-Fi, Acoustic, Ambient, DNB & Much more 

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Dudley Anderson was born and raised in Johannesburg, South Africa. After graduating from Bible College in 1990, God opened the way for Dudley to branch out into Christian radio. As a musician and worship leader he developed a heart for Christian music, which became the main thrust of his radio work in South Africa. 

 In 1996 God called Dudley and his family to the United Kingdom where he now works as a radio programme producer and presenter. Dudley also writes a FREE weekly e-mail devotional called, GodTracker, available at surereality.net

Dudley Anderson is married to Karen-Leigh and has two adult children, Kerryn and Ryan.

E-mail Dudley at dudley@surereality.net

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