your lyricism is on point this is really great stuff keep making music you will go somewhere with it

i laid in bed looking at my ceiling listening to this, i am now floating

svnam - are you happy? (irby)

svnam - twenty something - nothing, nowhere. cover (caves)

this time, i fall apart and they just watch me in the meantime
steady falling like the leaves
bitch i mean i'm
finding peace inside the dirt
and you know that i'm the worst
fucking put me in a hearse
  
little boy in his sad arc, but my sad shit never die
this is my time, and you batshit if you think i'm letting you ride
you know lately i'm going crazy, i think i'm losing my mind
but i feel amazing, just wake and bake and then go writing for the night
switch my flow like a lot
big bro, i won't ever flop
cause i'm making this shit for me
and i'm grateful what i got
spliff stuffed in the jansport
my hands torn from a lot
but this shit just what i'm meant for 
and i'll give it all that i got

this time, i fall apart and they just watch me in the meantime
steady falling like the leaves
bitch i mean i'm
finding peace inside the dirt
and you know that i'm the worst
fucking put me in a hearse

say that i'm a prick, already know i did you wrong
but you a pessimistic little fucking bitch, that's on my mom
and yeah i mean everything that i put about you in this song
truthfully, i'm on my knees just to see you where you belong

hearse (outthepound)

meet me in michigan..

i never learned to be sad
i learn on my own
i never learned to leave home
i learned to go on
and now my chest just burns
and i cannot learn
im uncomfortable
and nothing will change that
im just tryna be healthy
but i cannot learn
from anything that i see
anything will change in a matter of seconds
your whole life will go away if you let it
and your damn brain will fucking hurt if you let it
oh..
meet me in michigan..
its all over summer
its all over my heart
all over winter
and every month we already lost

i never learned to be sad
i learn on my own
i never learned to leave home
i learned to go on
and now my chest just burns
and i cannot learn
im uncomfortable
and nothing will change that
im just tryna be healthy
but i cannot learn
from anything that i see
anything will change in a matter of seconds
your whole life will go away if you let it
and your damn brain will fucking hurt if you let it
oh..
meet me in michigan..
its all over summer
its all over my heart
all over winter
and every month we already lost

michigan (splashgvng)

hopefully you want me more than me
i swear i cannot take all i see
the human race, is such a disease
although ur pretty, whats it mean to me

separate
meaningless, conversation's, wait
the cold air is piercing, everything
im freezing from head to my toes

i wanted to give you a call
and tell you if ill make it home tonight
i dont know if im gonna be alright!
i got too deep in my thoughts
now i feel like giving up

cutting my wrists till they fall, off, oh 

separate
meaningless, conversations, wait
the cold air is piercing, everything
im freezing from head to my toes 

i dont know if ill make it home!
no meds here to keep me calm
i, think im loosing my sanity
the cold air is killing me

and if i asked you why did it
youd give me a stupid, answer, whats this
im breathing, slowly
you cant control, me, is all she says

but dont, worry
ill be gone by the morning

gone by morning (prod. santana)

Lost inside the changes 
When all we had was waiting 
Turn it off, like it doesn’t stop 
Never said a lot when we used to talk about that
I said you could have it all 
I’d still wait for you to call

And through your hands I traced out 
The way back home I need now 
I fell asleep in your spare room 
On the floor when the night starts to come through
Said it’s real cause I feel like I need to
Feel like someone you need cause I need you 

Don’t say it’s clear, don’t say it’s easy 
Cause you got all the moments 
And you know that
We could go back 
Cause you got all the moments 
When you take me home
You could take control 
You could take me 
Cause you got all the moments
Did you know that
We could go back 

Untouched, I fell into your silence 
Unsure I’m ever meant to find it 
(Lost in the dead leaves I’m sure)
Our time despite where now my mind is 
My fault I ever tried to hide it 

Don’t say it’s clear, don’t say it’s easy 
Cause you got all the moments 
And you know that
We could go back 
Cause you got all the moments 
When you take me home
You could take control 
You could take me 
Cause you got all the moments
Did you know that
We could go back

July

this song is entirely non profit and purely for venting purposes.
nilöwh: @nilowhbeats

cycle thru my memories and burn all the bad ones
ill just let you go cause i really dont have nothin for you
smoke blows thru you
cause youre not here
youre a ghost
and i fear that ill go away too soon
before my time comes and my body goes numb and i cry out my lungs
and soon enough ill breathe dirt and worms
were all just numbers, some better some worse
i starve till my bones pop out of my shirt
if i want some gain from you ill extort it
i really dont have no importance
people come and go, my bleeding hearts on life support
feelings come and go and i know youve been dead before
2018 when my bones snapped apart and i took all them pills just to get a restart
they wanted to help it they wanted to stop it but honestly i dont know what they was stopping
i cried in her bed and said "momma, please stop it"
that was the end and beginning of all that i know now
i revolve life around pain when it slows down now

dirt and worms (nilöwh)

prod skellington - https://www.youtube.com/@skellingtonforever/featured

wish you were here when i'm down
only got memories now
stuck with the past cus the past didn't last
now i just cry all year round
missing you through the seasons
summertime with the warm, bright evenings
do what i can to erase all the pain
but end up just feeling the same
it’s been a while since we called, i miss your voice
i pick the paint off of the wall cus what’s the point
i hate the concept of time 
wishing for void
swallow me whole please i’m so sick of this noise

hoping to delete my mind
too many thoughts from when you were mine
our timelines no longer cross each others
these cold nights i just play your covers

everydays a nightmare
scary faces, scary thoughts
used to hold me very tightly
used to calm my racing pulse 
but now you've become a stranger when you used to be my home
i lost my home that night, now you're the parasite that stole my sight

you stole my sight (skellington)

prod raspo 
mixed/master by me

Lyrics:

generational trauma
personification of drama
must be easy to say 
“i got it all from my momma”
i’m not a perfect person 
i still take more than i oughta
but you’re not perfect either 
you paint more hate than you gotta 

and i’m sorry that i left you
wasn’t there when i needed to protect you 
when i found out shoulda texted you
cause i knew exactly what it meant for you
that if i stick it out and i try hard
then you might see what’s in my heart
but i see now i wasn’t fair to you
babe i swear that all i did was care for you 

i guess i could find someone to hold me down
oh but i don’t think it’s fair if i’m not gonna be around 
cause my time on this earth is a little more limited than you think it is
and if i showed you inside of me
i wonder what your gut reaction to the trash would be
would you ask what happened to me 
would you stare in a state of shock as you backed away from me

oh see i been in this place before
where i never thought i’d need a hate ward
so when i broke down while i answered 
and then you spread through me like cancer
i sat back in my chair and wondered if i really said it with candor 

i know heart patients don’t hurt like this 
so i just wanna be certain 
you can’t see it from my side now
it’s like you’ve drawn all the curtains 
you want home yea you won’t find it here
i’m done wit all this hurtin

_trauma_ (raspo)

prod. 1tcyxo & wasterr
@safeatlast

[kill breanna:]
theres not enough beat 4 me
cus i got 2 much hate in me
this shit aint what i had in mind..
im changing my mind like every, every, night
u can see my eyes, so dont ask me how im doing
i think i wanna vomit
i know im dumb, i promise

i cant stand 2 wait on me no more
i feel like my eyes hit the flooor
good try, but i still know whats deep inside of my mind
good bye! to all the fake cunts in my friendss list
i see the fuckn walls spinnin
hold up, i did not finish
i said "fuck my demise", no i am not finished
nah i dont fuck w thermal countries fuck yo fins, bitch
yes im wired up, off that mud and them pills, bitch
reliable asf, im always high, im never low
im happy when not home, buy that shit by the o
fuck. everybody. that i known, i guess
i guess i shoulda waited, but i did it feelin lifeless
yEEEAaahAHAHahAHAHHhooooOOooOOOo

[lil divine:]
feelin lifeless
got no fuckin heartbeat
i gotchu in my sights bitch 

ye i pull up wit a knife quick
stick it in ur corneas 
and leave u fuckin eyeless

i see the fuckn floors spinnin
maybe i should stop sippin

they screamin out divine
this my life and i did it

i fucked up yea i admit it
let me speak for just a minute
i dont ask a lot from you
just let me have my time wit it 

got no time aint no wristwatch  
i got no time for a pit stop
im comin up letcho bitch watch
u aint on my team u got kicked off

no gucci and no saint laurent
rock teen hearts til the day i drop
bitch ima go like pokemon
ima run this shit til the day im gone 

[kill breanna:]
theres not enough beat for me
cus i got too much hate in me
this shit aint what i had in mind
im changing my mind like every, every, night
u can see my eyes, so dont ask me how im doing
i think i wanna vomit
ulooksodumbipromise

[lil divine:]
i dont know what you see in me
its the same shit like every week
this shit aint what i had in mind
im killing myself like every fucking night

you switched up your love
and it sucks,
and it hurts 

[kill breanna:]
fuck grownin up, stay a kid
fuck growin up, this is shit
i fucked around, and raced that shit a bit
fuck a speed limit, bitch im lit
FUCK a bitch who dont believe in shit!
FUCK a bitch who dont try for shit!
nah i dont fuck w thermal countries fuck yo fins, bitch
yes im wired up, off that mud and them pills
reliable as fuck, im always high, im never low!
im dazed, meo!
please leave me alone!
i guess i should've waited, but i did it feeling lifeless.

ulooksodumbipromise w/ lil divine

ulooksodumbipromise w/ safeatlast

prod. numb - https://www.youtube.com/@_numb

out on all platforms -
https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/notcursed/pretty-girls

wish i didn't feel a thing 
i don't want this at all
pick myself apart
i wont catch me when i fall
dangerous cycle
keep crying at walls
i cant look at myself
cus i'll end it all

don't you look at me
wish i could change myself
pretty girls look in the mirror and they hate themselves
i cry at her
cus she don't know herself
i look in the mirror just to break myself

detrimental to my mental health
i cant find the strength to rebuild myself
i'm done pretending
i'm overwhelmed
for this long, how have i dealt

wish i didn't look like this
i cry at the thought
'beauty is pain'
i guess that's true after all
painful cycle
but it's my fault
i can't look at myself
cus i'll end it all

don't you look at me
wish i could change myself
pretty girls look in the mirror and they hate themselves
i cry at her
cus she don't know herself
i look in the mirror just to break myself

you stole my sight (skellington)

notcursed

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