prod. joshwa
writing, mixing, mastering, absolute pogchamp: me

lyrics
sorry I can’t b pretty like ur crush
need someone in your life to fill up your lust
i’m jus the one you need for a quick fuck
depend on me when you wanna feel loved

chase me out my bed and tell me to come back
use me to fill the holes in your heart you lack
tell me ur a fiend but I can see right thru
keep me in ur life when he falls thru

hate all ur friends and i kno that now
every dumb decision that you make when they’re around
sorry I can’t be ur love
i’m jus a convenient one and done

I fall apart in your arms
but you don’t ring my love alarm

love alarm (joshwa)

manic thoughts 
@prodbyjoshwa

lyrics:
say things changed, know it has been a minute
but u act the same, there aint been no difference
i dunno if i got it left in me 
all the happy endings that i’ll never see

i know im the type to jump to conclusions
but u dont know how to deal with all the mood shifts
i got all my problems
idk any ways to solve it

come too close to comfort for me
i know that im wasting all my time
lie about my feelings say im fine
paranoia always wondering if i got time
i know you tried to change my mind
still feel im wasting all my time
lie about my feelings say im fine
paranoia always wondering if i got time

u cant wait til it comes down
u cant wait til it comes right back down

paranoid feeling empty hoping that it works
people say im blessed but im feeling cursed
always scared feeling things turn out the worst
people think its a joke, gets on my nerves

and i had a shitty couple of months
people say i gotta try to keep it up right now
i dont know if i have the energy
i know u know it feels like

paranoia (joshwa)

everything by me @1spooz
cuz "throwing in the towel" is too long lol

woah
i just rly wanna give up
ppl never know when its too much
it's never been that fun
i lost my head
whats it like to be dead?
i cut off all my friends
they never knew me to begin with

old friend of mine
ive been up all night
and im rly feelin hurt
got her face in the dirt
i could never know for sure
trippin up on words
but hey it could be worse!
(la la la)
burning up in my sweater
tryna hide my face in my sleeve when she answers
what about after?
i panicked when i met her
wonder if i like her
i wanna be her ever after

i just wanna go to sleep
words are cutting rly deep
ur in every fucking dream i have lately
ive seen this place before
its not dark at night
what the fuck is going on

the towel song

[OUT ON ALL PLATS] - linktr.ee/pdktp

(prod. michael rose x max flynn)

LYRICS:

*intro*
she wanna tell me a story about her life,
how she was kicked around, 
yeah, born with strife,
she asked for help yeah,
she wanna a savior,
I might show some sympathy,
but, for later

*chorus*
dead or alive,
I'm struggling to make a compromise,
you won't see me choose between,
dead or alive,
cause I'm just here for the ride,
doesn't matter if I try,
doesn't matter if I die,

losin my grip,
why can't you just come back to me dead or a-,
d-dead or alive,
muscle spasms in my face,
bloody hands, 
I leave no trace,
always getting blamed, 
no case,
dead or alive,

*verse*
what's on your mind,
what is it this time,
oh Coraline,
oh, got my skin crawlin,
vault, yeah, I'm falln,
bitch, why you stallin,

cause I'm turnin,
so red,
when I'm in your presence,
feel I'm hittin dead ends,
cause I'm not,
just gonna stop and rot,

don't know where I'll go,
bad energy,
but it's hard to show,
and I get it,
That's an idea,
I should just dead it,
just bring him!

*chorus*
dead or alive,
I'm struggling to make a compromise,
you won't see me choose between,
dead or alive,
cause I'm just here for the ride,
doesn't matter if I try,
doesn't matter if I die,

losin my grip,
why can't you just come back to me dead or a-,
d-dead or alive,
muscle spasms in my face,
bloody hands, 
I leave no trace,
always getting blamed, 
no case,
dead or alive,

dead or alive

[ W/ @29cengi @ssaranghae ]
[ Final mix/master by me ]
ty @ssaranghae for mixing my vocals 
Prod @siemspark

Lyrics:

[ @perllune ]
ok life been goin down but im tryna stay up
i been sleepin in my bed
yet im tryna blow up
i deleted all my socials
yea im tired of the scene
i deleted all my socials
cause its all negativety

and im tryna stay up cause i dont want to down
but i lost all my friends so their is now way around
and with all this negativety
cant even make a sound
and with all this negativety
feel like im gonna drown

[ @29cengi ]
ooh i've been going through emotions
think i'd feel better if i go drink this potion
for the longest time i've been seeking some attention
felt so alone back then

but i feel better now when i go and hear the sound
of your voice coming from your mouth
my heart is pounding out loud
you got me thinkin' now why i went and wasted time
when i could've lived like this (like this)

[ @perllune ]
ok life been goin down but im tryna stay up
i been sleepin in my bed
yet im tryna blow up
i deleted all my socials
yea im tired of the scene
i deleted all my socials
cause its all negativety

[ @ssaranghae ]
[?]
i got nothin to prove to you (you)
take all of my friends, atleast i got myself
(atleast i got myself) x3

Emotions w/ cengi & saranghae [siemspark + prod.gateway + sn.aywhat]

prod me ofc

i get caught up in the past tense all the time
and i, get stuck in a web of lies
i, dont have any tears thats left to cry
and i, wish the best for me myself and i

tired of hoping for love i got selfish
bad luck messes me up like all of the time
i get tired of crying tired of fighting
im still dumb enough to try

i dont wanna be stuck and left helpless
tired of falling victim being careless
i thought what we had was so divine
but you never cared, you crossed the line

love is a dangerous feeling we all know the thrill of it
but the consequences of actions come and kill me

fake friends fake bitches tryna get ahold of me
i can see right thru the smoke and mirrors, get ahead of me
i just wish for some peace in my life for once
always swallowed my pride, never had my fun

and im thinking
is there another way to help it
think i lost it
only one thing left and it’s obvious

forever, and always

lyrics:
B-B-Back up I know you just want attention
Tryna get through to me cause' you think you know my best friends
Guess what I don't look in your direction
Why are you always tryna' use my kindness as leverage

But bitch I'm up now 
You better watch where you step
Two racks on the kicks my bank account is unaffected
Wait for the tone you can leave me a message
I won't pick up I've got better things I'm attending

I know you've been talking out the wrong side of your mouth
Tryna' spread these rumors like all around town
But I promise it won't work
You can't find a soul who believes your words

Better watch your tone better change it
Cuz' I'm really this close with my patience
I learned when you win people shape-shift
We were never close I don't know why you claim it

that we were friends u know i can not pretend
that i even loved u in the slightest way
i can not think ab what im supposed to say
what im supposed to do
shit is on replay
everything to lose
dont wanna see ur face
u were never what u said
put a bullet thru my head
thru my head
everything i said
it was alll fantansy all fucked up in my head
i wish u were into me but ill move on instead

B-B-Back up I know you just want attention
Tryna get through to me cause' you think you know my best friends
Guess what I don't look in your direction
Why are you always tryna' use my kindness as leverage

But bitch I'm up now 
You better watch where you step
Two racks on the kicks my bank account is unaffected
Wait for the tone you can leave me a message
I won't pick up I've got better things I'm attending

(prod joshwa)

Direction w/ YDKM (joshwa)

new age
prod. tsuyunoshi

im tired of trying to figure me out
it comes around, tired of feelings things are useless for now
pent up aggression, from the lack of self expression
and a speck of love is heaven to me

running in circles to think for urself
and im panicking to keep u compelled
i could waste my time tryna think of lies
actions have their karma, and im digging out my prize

why cant you speak for yourself
you’re always begging for help
ur issues make u fall like a house of cards
i never speak for myself
i’m always begging for help
my issues make me fall like a house of cards

lately it’s so overwhelming
eyes been bleeding, tearing up
feeling held back, my hands been cuffed
in a rut, i’ve just been stuck

ran out of fallbacks and escape plans
my pride slips away from my frail hands

house of cards

Get over u

Get over u (drma & mcx)

*OUT ON ALL PLATFORMS*

Produced by me
with @pdktp

(Lyrics)
Ashtrid:
You can start a fight
im glad to hear
im so done
had it up to here
You can start a fight
im glad to hear
im so done
had it up to here
im too busy living in fear
i cant even break out of here
yeah you play pretend
i knew it till the end

pdktp:
This some bullshit that I can't imagine,
They all knew that I was the main attraction,
Tryna come back, run back, always on my mind,
and I dash and dine, I don't even fucking-

Bat an Eye,
Yeah, I crash and die,
Yeah, play pretend,
Yeah, yeah you and I,
and I get it,
it's hard yeah always hittin dead ends,
terrible credit yeah can't even spend it,

o-o-o oh play pretend,
p-p-p play pretend,
o-o-o oh play pretend,

Ashtrid:
You can start a fight
im glad to hear
im so done
had it up to here
You can start a fight
im glad to hear
im so done
had it up to here
im too busy living in fear
i cant even break out of here
yeah you play pretend
i knew it till the end

Play Pretend

Play Pretend w/ pdktp

farewell! (joshwa)(og draft)

9/26/22. 9/28/22.
make music true to yourself
Thank you, and goodbye

dm on discord for collab
pd#1000
@fallnvaultcollective
@halfahearthouse

They/Them
I am NOT a weeb
discord: ashtrid#0836
Email: slethmusic@gmail.com

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