imposter syndrome

prod and vocals by me

track .01/.03
on all plats 1/25, presave here:
distrokid.com/hyperfollow/yonklolz/vvv

lyrics:
i built everything for you
i built
i built all of this for you
i can tell every moments way shorter than the last
i can tell you everything when i get the chance

you know me better than anyone else
and i dont trust myself
around myself
oh my god, im in hell
ill never make it out
just keep your head down and
dont make a move
just keep the window closed so
i wont fall through
i dont know what to do
by myself im still looking for views
keep me alive with tubes
only way youll remember what i do

mmm, theres nothing left

vorticist

fading into obscurity
prod and vocals by me

track .02/.03 
on all plats 1/25, presave here:
https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/yonklolz/vvv

lyrics:

tell me what happened
i seen you sulking in the corner
in my room at the party
tell me what had happened
tired of people saying that they feel bad and they're sorry
cause im just full of sadness
its a whole another year of this shit
and i just cant handle it

rather keep my voice down
do you even like remember me?
probably not
dont bother answering cause you forgot

i never show up
cause i never glow up
if i ever blow up
cut out any impossibility
tired of rolling up my sleeve
scratches turn my forearms purple
the winds so strong my hair is blowing over
every interaction i jump a hurdle
my bones are so soft i could break at any moment
if i die please tell my mom that i died sober
sit alone cause i know that no one coming over

tell me what happ-

you can find me
you define me where i go
you divide me
need the vibe to be
all good
tired of not being seen
if you hear me its in your dreams
know its not worth the time

vivarium

prod and vocals by me.

track .03/.03
on all plats 1/25, presave here:
distrokid.com/hyperfollow/yonklolz/vvv

lyrics:

fuck the push and fuck the pressure
or ill just go insane
i make no difference in this shit
like ive been shooting blanks
if you hear my voice its luck
playing a dangerous game
not a single article written in my name

the house was completely empty

i know youd be better without me
i know youll still always doubt me
you dont know a thing about me
you wouldnt reach out if i drowning 

you see me sinking to the bottom
im not afraid of the ground from all the way up top

vertigo

I FEEL LIKE GOD (yonklolz)

dey aint see dis one coming

ft. https://soundcloud.com/1sloan

prod me

NUTS W/ 1SLOAN

production, vocals, and cover art by yonklolz.

single 1 of 3 from "HOUSE TOUR"

"Thank You For Forgetting Me" released on all platforms october 30th, stream here:

https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/yonklolz/thank-you-for-forgetting-me

lyrics:

don't
don't desert me
in your memory, memory, memory, memory
in your memory
always
in the back of your mind
feel the wood, feel the wood, feel the wood, feel the wood
under your feet
don't
hide me away
feel the shame, feel the shame, feel the shame, feel the shame
and walk away
you had to do it
you had to put it all behind
you have to show them where you draw the line

still feel your lips on my cheek, i didn't want it
throw in the bin all the sheets covered in makeup,
need to wake up
im being used
lights in my eye, feeling the breeze
everything's hazy, i cannot see
you tell me you love me
you tell me im the reason you're trying still
do you know how that makes me feel
use me at the end of your spiel
claim me cause nobody else will
while i'm just standing still

don't 
don't distort me
in your memory, memory, memory, memory
in your memory
don't
don't let yourself forget

[so, i'd like to start off my presentation with a rhetorical question of some sort. and that question is, what would you do if you found yourself in the scenario of, um, a home invasion?]

[k, look at me and smile! say something!]

[but, thank you very much]

HOUSE TOUR

Thank You For Forgetting Me

Stream

production, vocals, and cover art by yonklolz.

single 2 of 3 from "HOUSE TOUR"

"Mediator" released on all platforms december 4th, stream here:
https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/yonklolz/mediator

lyrics:

[i am here to make you feel better everything will be ok stay strong what can i do to help be safe are you ok how are you doing today are you doing anything later do you want to hang out sometime are you lonely how do you feel about the world right now what do you think of your friends do they support you what about your family do you need anything i am free later if you want to talk are things going ok how can i resolve this do you want to chat what are you feeling right now i don’t think they meant to say that about you i understand how you are feeling and i resonate with you i promise everything will be ok you don’t have to worry i will handle it all]

and then i was a year older
and then it became two
and then another five went by
i wouldn’t be a kid
i wouldn’t be a teen
so I spent it on on the screen
reading all my happy birthday pings
from people that never met me
oh no, i’m waiting for the day to be all over again
counted up all i can
breathing in all the oxygen
but i still try to be comforted

here in my house, the walls are shorter
than i remember them, i’m sure
you’re helping yourself
to me, to more
a mediator, i’m here for warmth 

and then i was a year older
you were counting up the days
you couldn’t wait till i was 18
stalking me like prey
it wouldn’t be the first time
i’d be left all alone
you figured out everything about me
and tried to make me yours
oh no, i’m waiting for the day to be all over again
counted up all i can
breathing in all the oxygen
but i still try to be comforted

i wish someone would talk to me
the way that i speak to friends in need
you’re helping yourself
to more, to me
a mediator, i live to see
here in my house, the walls are shorter
than i remember them, i’m sure
you’re helping yourself
to me, to more
a mediator, i’m here for warmth

[i am here to make you feel better]

Mediator

production, vocals, and cover art by yonklolz.

single 3/3 from "HOUSE TOUR"

"Jabberwockey / Demo I (What You Can)" released on all platforms december 26, stream here: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/yonklolz/jabberwockydemo-i-what-you-can

lyrics:

[i am thankful for my laptop, it's now easier to do schoolwork. i am thankful for my ableton live 9 suite music software, it can make awesome electronic music with it. i am thankful for my camera, it captures every fun moment]

i am comfortable in my own skin
i heard you're comfortable in your own skin
im so proud of you

beware of the jabberwocky, be weary

[the jaws that bite, the claws that catch!
beware the jub-]

someday, 
ill think about metal in the floor
concrete buried over
a casket
one day,
i thought about setting ashore
so i stood out the house
and i looked at the ground 
and pretended that the grass was the waves
whispering, chattering, 
calling my name
and seeing your face in the corner of my room

drink slowly
chew with your mouth open wide
watch the crane extend its arm
it used to mean more to me

wash the innocence away
talk thinking about yester
day and the day before it
pray after prey in the morning
keep the door shut, keep the windows locked
and don't go out at dark

[he took his vorpal sword in hand;
      long time the manxome foe he sought—
so rested he by the tumtum tree
      and stood awhile in thought.

and, as in uffish thought he stood,
      the jabberwock, with eyes of flame,
came whiffling through the tulgey wood,
      and burbled as it came]

he hears your breath
he's done line after line after line, he's sitting and he says
"you're so divine, you try your hardest and you look best when you can"
he'll speak the words to lure you in because he knows that he
can

[and you're dealing with someone outside your house, patrolling around, trying to find a way in]

[um...so, today we're gonna show you the google search bar and the google URL bar. so, let's go in safari and...start page...why does that always happen to me? whatever, so]

Jabberwockey / Demo I (What You Can)

vocals and production by yonklolz.

"Cornerspeak" released on april 22, 2025. stream on all platforms here: distrokid.com/hyperfollow/yonklolz/cornerspeak

lyrics:
that's just the way it is
it's not like you can do it different
a perfect 90°
in every room you're in
well, maybe they're paper thin
it's not like it's much of a difference
but still a 90°
in every room you're in

the notes, the words,
i read them again
my fate, my friend,
the one in the end
they speak to me
through stones in the sand
i know my weight,
i cannot pretend
my fate was read
i dreamt it in bed
i heard my name,
but nothing was said
i looked straight up
90°
and finally noticed the dullness of things

oh, and the feeling is so bad
oh, and i can't get it off me

Cornerspeak

21/self-prod
https://soundcloud.com/00clique
https://soundcloud.com/dialt0ne
https://soundcloud.com/starsfallen
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