after a long while, the first song of 2014 emerges.
special thanks to dialogue from "Rebecca" (1940) and some nice crickets.

I Can't Tell You What To Do

If I could hold the colour in my hand
I would be home, home again
and if I could break the bulb in your brain
then you would be a pure soul again
and if it isn’t worth it, then so be it.

Hold your head up high and walk on
no one knows the world you’ve touched
park the car behind the lot 
and love will come and greet you son
don’t look back or hearts of stone 
come crashing down come crashing down
arch your back son, float on by
high comes the flood and marks the end

Hold your head up high and walk on
no one knows that you’ve been touched

Cereal Killer

Stay A Little Longer

'Dismal' is the second single from Amartya Ghosh's second EP - 'What Does This Button Do?'

Performed By - 
Amartya Ghosh (Vocals, Guitar)
Ishaan Gandhi (Drums)
Ritwik De (Guitar, Keyboards)
Subhadra Kamath (Bass)
Rohit Gupta (Trumpet)

Recorded and Produced at Ghar Ka Studios, New Delhi

Lyrics

The hollow ‘round your eyes have gotten deeper
restless sleeper
Did you lose your love 
or did love lose you
use you
abuse you
And brittle things like life
just softly crumble down like wafer
A hundred years of bottled fears have gripped you
ripped you through and through.

Oh, sun!
Have you drowned
or have you just begun?
Sea is wide
My limbs are tired.
Take me home now.
Let me drown


Down
 Down
  Down


The road you took kept getting steeper 
steeper
You fell deeper
Visions that you saw kept getting bleaker
 fainter 
  weaker
Fire in your heart has disappeared in 
smoke and vapour
Poison gulped
has charred you
burnt you from within.

Cold wind.
Should I breathe out
Or should I breathe in
Loosen ties
I close my eyes
Fly unnoticed like the dust
in the wind.

Dismal.

What Does This Button Do?

Dismal

Lullaby

Lullaby (Demo)

do you feel suffocation at its peak,
Imaginary hands strangling all your weakness,
There is discomfort in this house
The kind your body wants to get out of

You know
The darkness is blinding
The chaos unfolds
You don’t feel like minding your business,
Cause this is
Far more interesting.
I don’t blame you now.
Now.

There is a place,
Abandoned like space
The silence it hangs,
From the noise that’s displaced 
Apart.
Apart.

Does not make a sound,
You don’t even shout
It’s clawing you down
This fear of missing out.

fomo

It's not complete yet.

Lyrics:

You called me up
in the dead of the night

You made some plans
I said okay, that’s fine

I’ll see you there
with my chest feeling tight

Awkward eyes
not feeling alright

You saw me there
Losing my way
Not a word
Was said through the day

You said it’s fine
I feel the same

Don’t look away
You’ll get through the Haze


Weird is good
and so is champagne

So take this glass
and let’s sing in the rain

We’ll stay away
from people and pain

I know it’s strange
but it’s not insane

You called me up
in the dead of the night

made some plans
I said okay, that’s fine

I’ll see you there
with my arms open wide 

Awkward eyes
But feeling alright

Weird is good but so is Champagne

Can't Help Falling In Love - Elvis Presely Cover

tie your laces
before you go down to play 
look around you carefully,
before you push people away.
and (bon iver) has been playing repeatedly in my head today,
i saw a face, it reminded me of your gaze,
light headed and fazed, 
smoking a cigarette


the nature of this is ambiguous, 
i don’t know what to say when your hands are so distant.
prepare to leave, prepare to stay, 
there’s so much i have to say to you, 
but i’m confused, 
you’re going to leave anyway

and my body is hurting with all the locked up punctuation in it,
full stops attached to this.
and i am unworthy of sounds of Clozee and remixed redos are out of my league,


as are you.

Lullaby (Demo)

Tanmaya Bhatnagar