p. Alaska Sargent
w. Alaska Sargent
gtr. cnri (@skybr34kr)
samples a portion of "SENTI // MENTAL" composed by blissom (@blissom)

OVER MY DEAD BODY

JOKER & HARLEY QUINN

"i have all the problems i need right here !"

(featuring @bhproducer & @singin-in-the-rain)

written and produced by self discovery, bh & stormkloud
mixed and mastered by self discovery

// lyrics

[bh]
i'm feeling like i'm spinning right back uh
i'm sorry if i'm losing my track but
i'm escaping all these places
i am mentally trapped in my head and it's killing me
everybody knows where i'm at uh
oversharing, that's my bad
i hope that i don't fall behind the race
i'm going at my pace i'm going at my pace

there's a place that's not too far from here
it's been chewing at my gums
it's been ironing my brain out
now i'm missing half my folds
there's a better place i wanna be
on the list that's on my phone
send a letter back to you when i get home

[self discovery]
put me out
in those same old states
it's been too long
i'll spend one more day
to cut my teeth on just what's familiar to me
carve my jaw on unassuming
trials and tribulations
could be mild if i were stationary
minding the gaps like stepping stones
cause why should i have to go the extra mile

[stormkloud]
how do i fix myself and
how do i call for help
i'm scared
all familiar but i feel it
i know this has to quit
so how do i pump the brakes
yeah we could just sit and wait
right here
so i wonder if there's time for me
to stop and realize
it's not really something i can change
and i'm sick of wasting all my range
when new places get old
and old faces i told
to watch out for greatness
oh, how bold !
i think i'm better off
sticking to what i know

[self discovery]
there's a place that's not too far from here
it's been chewing at my gums
it's been ironing my brain out
now i'm missing half my folds
there's a better place i wanna be
on the list that's on my phone
send a letter back to you when i get home
but i'm scared i'll be the last one left
to share my story
i'll bite my tongue
it's for the lore
should i be wary
of whom i've shared my side
prepared to be the last one left
in purgatory
i'll hold my tongue
it's for my story
it's fair to say that
guilt has been my guide !

put me out
in those same old states
it's been too long
i'll spend one more day
to cut my teeth on just what's familiar to me
carve my jaw on unassuming
trials and tribulations
could be mild if i were stationary
minding the gaps like stepping stones
cause why should i have to go the extra mile

spawnpoint ! (feat. bh & StormKloud)

*on a good day.

written, produced, mixed & mastered by self discovery

// lyrics

am i late
to catch the high tide
i'm afraid that i just missed it
the sea's so inclined to seize peace of mind for the day
it's a crying shame you've never been
yeah, i'm okay
still had a full course on my plate
action was needed
i'll stare at the clock
while my mind keeps a log of the day
and dreams a place i've never lived

you try to hide behind my latency
while i woke up too late to see
that i'd be doing better by the fall
i'll cry a river, you're across the sea
you swear you've heard enough of me
for once i couldn't care that it's my fault
anymore

well give me a break !
it's not the first mistake i've made with you
i'll gesture towards the trauma
but don't expect me to write my stories of you
what can i say ?
it's far from the first time i've "berated you"
when you stirred up the drama
the sorry you sent
to my messages
it never came through

you try to hide behind my latency
while i woke up too late to see
that i'd be doing better by the fall
i'll cry a river, you're across the sea
you swear you've heard enough of me
for once i couldn't care that it's my fault
you try to hide behind my latency
while i woke up too late to see
that i'd be doing better by the fall
i'll cry a river, you're across the sea
you swear you've heard enough of me
for once i couldn't care that it's my fault

you're sending messages across the room
i'm sending messages across the sea
i swear its nothing in particular
but the atlantic's just too large for me
i'm sending letters off to someone new
you're leaving messages to get to me
don't think it's anything specifically
but the pacific's far too wide for me

you try to hide behind my latency
while i woke up too late to see
that i'd be doing better by the fall
i'll cry a river, you're across the sea
you swear you've heard enough of me
for once i couldn't care that it's my fault
i took the train of my hypotheses
thought maybe you won't bother me
you did, i wasn't scared to tell you off
you took a hike to get alone with me
now you'll never get along with me
and i don't give a shit that it's my fault
anymore

anymore

stream !

6.7mb/s* !

i watch you wander the country with a fist full of stars
building your towers of honey and breaking them apart
and darling you won't regret it if you give me a piece of your heart
cause i know you won't admit it but you're painting me over your scars

sitting in the light as it dawns, you're blossoming all the flowers
lay and watch the night as it falls, i lost count of all the hours
oh the world is a tape player, write me a song
and i'll sing it to you

we watch the planes disappear and the planets embark
making a wish on a chemtrail, on saturn or mars
and darling they're crossed again, but i'm the man who made everything hard
our magnetic confluence is nothing more than a wish on a star

i could be a spark in your eyes, the space where i fly is endless
there i'm just an old satellite, searching for my repentance
oh i've been flying forever and ain't found no god
but he's speaking through you

don't look down

sleeping by the lake on the shore, i got my sheets on the floor
spiral down, cursed to explore what i just couldn't ignore
yea you've got some shit you won't show, i've got a bit of my own
i hate the way you broke down the door, as if i wasn't alone

and something bout the way that you touch my shoulder makes my blood cold
i wouldn't have admitted i hate myself until we got close

late night, bad dream
what a fuss, whats it mean
i'm in every scene, don't wanna talk about it
call me, every day
spit it out, run away
i can't replace what you've been lost without yeah
i'm a paper stevia packet
you're cocaine wrapped in plastic
who wants another line?
don't you think that it was so tragic
remembering the things that we laughed at
or did you wanna cry?

something bout the way that you hold my gaze is like a knife fight
like every single word is a firework caught in a bush fire
something bout the way that you touch my shoulder makes it alright
lower my defense and you stab my back like you're a vampire

vampire

If the sun won't rise up again
Who gets the last call pushed up at the end
Once more you're crying tears of regret
Why is it so hard for you to rely on your friends
Cause underneath it all
You know it's hard to grow
But you should hang around
It's tempting just to go
And I'm so sorry you built all that resent
For myself
But it's okay
Cause at the end of the day
We'll meet the end
Again and again
What could've happened if you weren't just a man
Waste all your time yet
Still I wish you well

insta

to you

pinkpantheress ft. rema - another life (disphing flip)

the clock is on a new face every night
i wake up with the same things on my mind
i stay here but i don't quite know why
i haven't felt alive in a long time

and i guess it's all to show
what matters to me
cause people come and go
but i never will leave

i wonder if the future's pretty nice
i only have the past cause it's undenied
the present is a passing streetlight
fading out into the inkwell of the night

and i guess it's all to show
what matters to me
cause people come and go
but i never will leave

song about jimmie

boardwalk on the beach
it carries the ashes i shouldn't forget, or the name of a lover
and down in the creek
the children are baptized off of a dare or a push from a brother

when the cold rushed in, the old rushed out
and there's nothing left to talk about
save all the sorries for when i'm gone
cause the tide keeps moving
the tide keeps carrying on

oh it's such a shame
the grey hurricane it rips up the town and the power goes down
and all of the names
they tend to escape, floating off to the sea, getting lost in the clouds

when the cold rushed in, the old rushed out
and there's nothing left to talk about
save all the sorries for when i'm gone
cause the tide keeps moving
the tide keeps carrying me on

after the storm
they build it again with the same wood beams, oh the beach must be bored
i wish they'd restore it
so it would last, but i guess we don't learn from the past anymore

when the cold rushed in, the old rushed out
and there's nothing left to talk about
save all the sorries for when i'm gone
cause the tide keeps moving
the tide keeps carrying me on

boardwalk

thank u jedwill

s/o https://soundcloud.com/jedwill1999 https://soundcloud.com/brakence https://soundcloud.com/loginstrash

original: https://soundcloud.com/jedwill1999/athena

art: https://soundcloud.com/sumantsagar

enjoy!

jedwill, brakence & login - athena (doug suh flip)

produced, mixed, and mastered by grandfather forest


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