the surface of your reality is a deep blue sea

VIDEO: https://youtu.be/VoQTvMHKhMs

written & performed by teddybear
produced by jcam
mixed and mastered by jcam, teddybear & Adam Hanney
art by teddybear

@tddybrr

lyrics:

wait for me
you're always saying
wait for me
always saying stay
I can't be alone
clay for me
becoming what you say to me
then you turn back
to what I need most
saying sorry
that's not what I meant
I'm just worried
about you so I stress
and it hurts me
like don't you want what's best for me?
I say yes
and really all I see is 
red from the brake lights
just caught me in a moment
that memory is loading
I've never been this close
I didn't know how
I didn't notice
this coming into focus
this doesn't feel like home to me
you're aiming for the throat I see
constantly
whisper something while you hold me
just underneath
the surface of your reality's a deep blue sea
I know that you'll hate me
Oh how I live so free
all through the misery of me
don't thank me
just don't hit me up
don't thank me
just don't hit me up
she said fine by me
I know that you'll need me
after you live so free
all through the misery
baby when you see
just don't hit me up 
baby when you see
I can't love you enough
I know you'll hate me 
Oh how I live so free
All through the misery
All through the misery of me

you can't kill me in a way that matters

VIDEO

you can't kill me in a way that matters (p. jcam)+VIDEO

I'll Take that as a No. Lyrics

I've been stuck in my bed;
You've been stuck in my head.
I would rather be dead than to be left on read
~
Yes your lies have hypnotized me now I'm all alone
No one calls my phone
My heart turned to stone
Nothing left, was victimized. Girl you're all I've known
Left me broken boned;
Had to pack a cone
So I just hit her up late in the night and I ask her if she feels the same;
I'll take that as a no
Burn all the letters you wrote
Tears falling down as I stare at the smoke
Used to talk every night, now you a ghost
I'm stuck by myself, mental health going toast
Head staying afloat with every new note
I'm high off the music, without it I'd choke
~
Can't you hear me?
The air is thin in here I'm barely breathing
Smoke fill up my lungs, I start dreaming
I'm so numb inside got no feeling.

Produced by Reske & Weepings
Mixed by Weepings
Mastered by Weepings
Cover art by Jack Cox & Weepings

I'll Take that as a No.

nothing,nowhere. - _TH0RNS_ (unreleased)

lyrics

u were right
and i was wrong
give it time
its all i know
i been trash
all along
im being tracked
followed home
all friends
and better halves
are better off
without me there
im cut in half
im ripped apart
im ground up
to flakes of dust

sorry for the words that i spat out in anger
im not expecting it to be forgiven
im not expecting it to be alright 
im not expecting it to be alright 

bury myself in the shame
i cant even meet your gaze
i feel the tears welling up in my eyes
i need to go can i please check the time

u were right
and i was wrong
give it time
its all i know
i been trash
all along
im being tracked
followed home
all friends
and better halves
are better off
without me there
im cut in half
im ripped apart
im ground up
to flakes of dust

Flakes Of Dust _intro (p. ne'erdowell)

♡( ◡‿◡ )♡ a sappy lil love song ♡( ◡‿◡ )♡

//
ur totally right
there's a blood red star on the horizon
i lost all hope in ur eyes
will u ever see what u did
oh, i'll never forget
how all of this ended
and honestly
would u talk to me
is it right when i leave
u tonight

i'm burning alive
i'm out of my mind
can't keep my eyes off u
i spill out my guts
still feel the lust
there's nothing to hold onto
my hand on ur thigh
is starting to rust
there's nothing to hold onto
yet another day
to drown myself in u

mouths running dry
i'm misaligned
lay my head down
and comfort me
while time slips by
i'll chase and find
the missing parts of me

ur totally right
there's a blood red star on the horizon
i lost all hope in ur eyes
will u ever see what u did
oh, i'll never forget
how all of this ended
and honestly
would u talk to me
is it right when i leave
u tonight
//

sunder (dercept x ayoley)

FARO BLAIRE - million dollar girl (prod. fenthouse & FΛ†ĦØMŁΞS)

Species

moonlet - closure (prod. lonelyboy)

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-- lyrics --
I'm driving drunk cuz u drove me to drink
I'm just so lit that I can't even think
All that you did and all that you said
Thinking of you it just fucks with my head...

Baby I swear I'm trying to figure it out
There's just so much on my mind
I know I wear my heart on my sleeve
this just how the story goes
You still mad about my old hoes
I guess we just aren't really meant to be
Yea you got my heart split in half
I just split a perc but I took both halves
I still feel the pain of wanting you 
I miss fucking in your Cadillac
Feels like I'm having a heart attack
Feels like I need my emotions back
Every time I see your ass
I can’t help but want you back
I don't know what's wrong with me
Singing all these songs for you
I know that you're wrong for me
But I just can't get over you
I think u belong with me
And my heart still belongs to you
I think u belong in this empty seat in this foreign coupe

I'm driving drunk cuz u drove me to drink
I'm just so lit that I can't even think
All that you did and all that you said
Thinking of you it just fucks with my head...

and i know that you think i'm the bad one
i know that these people be wishing me dead
spend all my time all alone in my bed
yeah this fucks with my head
don't give a fuck
if ur sleepin in my bed
they wonder why
theres a problem in my head
like omg 
will these feelings ever end...........? 
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will these feelings ever end?

will these feelings ever end? w/ lullabyboy (prod. 5head)

Thanks so much for all the support over the past 3 years <3 i love you all

We'll Be Okay w/𝖙 𝖊 𝖊 𝖓 𝖕 𝖗 𝖊 𝖌 𝖓 𝖆 𝖓 𝖈 𝖞

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tell me do u care
no
tell me do u care anymore
and i dont understand it
u can leave me stranded 
took the only love i've ever known
tell me do u care
no
tell me do u care anymore
and i dont understand it
u can leave me stranded 
took the only love i've ever known

i be posted 
thinkin bout crashin straight in the ocean
oh shit
tryin but nothin can keep me focused
baby nothin can replace it so im cryin now
all the roses that i got u probably dyin now
baby u my drug and nothin gunna flush u out
next time they say they love me
never trust it now
burnin every bridge so i can never cross em now
in my bed i toss and turn 
and all i think about

do u care
no
tell me do u care anymore
and i dont understand it
u can leave me stranded 
took the only love i've ever known
tell me do u care
no
tell me do u care anymore
and i dont understand it
u can leave me stranded 
took the only love i've ever known
.
.
<3
-emo fruits aka i miss her and i'll never let her know it

SOUR GRAPE THREE LOKO (PROD. 2K6 & USER67)

it’s a lot


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