my playlist

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@afternoon

cameras on me like it's tmz 📸💥
wit the hard kicks on, DnB d(o_e)b
ima blow im sum tnt...
shuttin shit down likea emp⚡

smokin full grown man its strong ass weed o_0
got me on the ground where tha insects be !!!
f̷̢̨̛̞̦̻͈̤̫̩̳̺̺̲̤̩̹̯͖̫̮̞͕̥̗̝̯̳͈̳̪̤̻͔̺͚̘͖̮̺̭̬̹̙̙̱͓̻̮̺͎͇̩̀̌̉̀͗͂̄̂̂̒̂̈̄͗̏̿̉̑͂͛͛́̂̑͆̈́͋͆͗̃̄̀͑̌͘̕͜͠͝ứ̵̢̧̦̠̰̠͙̥̜̘̰̫̮̫̗̺͚̰́̏͆̓̌̄̓͑̈́̅́̏͛̋̕͠͝ć̶̨̧̡̧̨̩͇͓̥͍̰͚̱̘̻̪̝͓̼̳̗̯̗̭̺̤̦̥̺̥̯̳̻͍͎̭̱̩̞͇̪͖͍̱̤͚͕̺̪̟͚̊͆̓̓̓͘͜ͅͅc̷̢̧̡͈̝̲̠͕̦̖͚͉͉͇̱̦͙̰̯̯͇͉̰͇̘̬̏̒́̈́̄̀̀̀̂̈́́̽͒́̈́͒̊̍͒̿͂̓̄̈́͆̓͋̒̃̉͌̊͂̾́̃̽͘̚̚͜͜͠͠͝e̸̢̛̛͍̳͍͕͓̺͍͉̤͙̺̐̍͛̀̅͒͂̅̅͌̒̈́̈́̀͒̉͆͑̅̓͑̏̋́̽̾̌̽̾̒̓̐̏͊͛̋̐͗͐̋͐̓̊̕͘̕̚͝͝͝͝ͅd̴̢̛͙̬͙͒̑̂̒̏͂͒̔̆̾̆͊́͌͗͆͊̍̂̿̊͑̀̀͑̓̑͑̑̎͗̀̈́̏̌̒̂͗̄̄̍̍̉̅̈́̉͗̈́͑͌̉͛͆̓̚̕͝ ̵̧̲̖̼͎̤̳̲̠̰̣̮̟̳̭̖͕̘̫͖͖͓͈̞̫̠̦͖̝̳̖̖̮͖̩̣̰̪͎͈̀̾̾̿̕͜ͅừ̴̙̟̭̰̔͝ͅp̵̨̢̡̨̧̨̢̢̛̛̺̟̻̺̖̜͙̫̦͙͖̥̭̞̗͓̖̤̰̮͔̬͙͖̦̺̻̏̎̅̎̏͊͗̔͑̽͑͒͒͐͒̈́͜͜ off the dmt
28 gramz and it's all 4 me :3 <3

and itz alllll 4 me !!!!!!! ඞඞඞඞ

👃👃👃👃👃👃 I CAN SMELL THE PACK...
it smell exactly like that shit @ the sunoco gas :0
i think its getting bad ://
think i stumbled on a whip with a digital dash :((((
shit is making me sad..

praAAAAda 👟cloudbust
tryna leave i gotta get my shoes up out th house 1st :L
if money made u happy ill be smilin til my mouth hurt -->😄
spent a leg on sumn now itz holdin up my trousers,,👖 wowzers :p

BLOODMONEYLUNA - all4meeee w afternoon

Original description:

@prodbytoshi
@prodkaito

when u dont feel like finishing the dnd campaign ur writing so u turn it into hyperpop instead......

im a nymph in the forest where the trees talk
im with jack and im climbing up the beanstalk
darkvision i can see u wit the lights off
im a lifedrinker baby im a warlock

high dex, sly flourish, hit 'em long range
emeralds on my neck they think i'm working with the enclave
drain your hp if you look at me the wrong way
brand new robe if u rly wanna stargaze
i'm off the pack i'm bouta plane shift
u can't see me like illusion i got prestidigitation
new grimoire, see your future in the pages
practice divination with the clerics and the mages

i see my vision coming and it doesn't look good

BLOODMONEYLUNA - lif3drink3r {toshi+kaito}

Original description:

art by https://www.instagr.am/avesaloe

money coming out the tesseract
had me grinning like a cheshire cat, feel crazy
she told me i can never lack
so i gotta keep a lever ac, no safety
 
and i don't rly get attached like that
why i'm geeking when u hit me back then, baby?
got sad so i spent a rack
spend a couple then i get it back, that's daily
 
i dont care about if u save me
i put a couple dirty bands on my teeth
turn around and drop 30 bands on my baby
#NBD!!!!
 
it's crazy
prada slip-ons, i'm lazy
ferragamo my waist
smell that dior in my fragrance yaaa
 
i don't care about this party
it's basic as fuck
i had too much bacardi
i'm wasted as fuck
 
i'd wait for u forever
i'm patient as fuck
put my heart in the shredder
i hate you so much >.<
 
pockets gained weight
margiela replicas but they ain't fake
stuck in the same place
i'm the boss, u gon need a save state
 
pockets gained weight
margiela replicas but they ain't fake
stuck in the same place
i'm the boss, u gon need a save state
 
money coming out the tesseract
had me grinning like a cheshire cat, feel crazy
she told me i can never lack
so i gotta keep a lever ac, no safety
 
and i don't rly get attached like that
why i'm geeking when u hit me back then, baby?
got sad so i spent a rack
spend a couple then i get it back, that's daily

BLOODMONEYLUNA - tesseract >.<

the thought of you leaving is sucking the life out of me

i left my heart in sheboygan

This is a song I wrote about how, in love, and I think for humanity, things must be "more than us'

1. Glorious

i'm actually happy for the first time in a long time

^.^

this is a song i wrote about overcoming my mental illness. while i'm nowhere near the end of the journey that it has been, i have learned a lot along the way and improved myself tremendously in the process. the first half of the song represents my state of mind a year ago and before, and the second represents the loving, open-minded, and even somewhat positive (occasionally) person i've become since.

thank you all.

special thanks to chloe, halli, john, jesse, joey (both of you), my mom, my grandparents, my brothers, the rest of my family, my counselors, and everyone who enjoys my music

lyrics:
i'm gonna kill myself one day, i'm sure
i'll be gone and you'll be there still
i've been standing at the edge for far too long; it's time that i jump
or pull me down 'cause either way i'll be gone
and i'm so sorry for the things that i have said
i know it hurts to have to follow
but i've been standing at the bottom of a bottle
with bones made out of glass since i could walk
and i'm still sorry for what i've done

i'm gonna live to tell the tale, i think
i've stared into the mirror for an hour, i don't hate myself no more
and i am sorry for the words that have offended you
and caused an ounce of terror in your stomach
i swear, i swear i'm always getting better
never worse, if only that were true, if only that were true
i can see it in your eyes, it's like a diamond in disguise
it's like a pilot lost his eyes and now he's truly flying blind

flying blind

Produced, mixed, engineered, recorded, drums, and guitar all done by atlas (my very best friend in the whole world). 

lyrics, vocals, ukulele by me.

bird on the side of the road

this is an album about the fears and tremors that come with love, and the crisis of not knowing your own identity as yours.

enjoy.

fog & obscure

download

apathy

atlas - okay

seasonal depression is kicking my ass, so here's some music
cover photo taken by corey "deko" gilbert

lyrics:
just know i'm sorry for it all 
i know it must be hard to hear 
i'm glad you left before the fall 
'cause i won't make it past this year 

just know i love you like a rose 
would love the thorns upon its stem 
no matter how they might have dug into my skin 
no matter how things might have ended 
i will wish for you each night, i'll wish your touch was mine again

winter

download <3

just know i love you like a rose

plea-s

when it all falls apart like a house made of cards
i will shuffle this deck 'til i fall asleep
gentle touch, brittle bones, when we talk on the phone
i exist for you, you have all of me

i'm a small speck of dust, an inanimite husk
of my former self, they are vanishing
there's a ghost in my room and it wears the perfume
that you used to wear; it's like you're next to me

but nothing's ever real enough (x2)

you're a voice in my head, at the foot of my bed
like a poltergeist, drifting hauntingly
and my mind is a void, for the broken, destroyed
little parts of me, an infinity

this ache in my head makes me quake in my bed
i fixate on it, i can't fall asleep
with this whine in my ears when the silence appears
it is deafining, it is everything

but nothing's ever real enough (x2)

real enough

produced by @mt_fujitive

lyrics:

life has got me feeling discombobulated, in place of common phrases
all i say are awkward statements in every conversation
often sitting cautious, pacing, dropping frames in talks with strangers
making observations, in that awful cadence
i've been rather quiet since a sophomore
every time my voice comes out my mouth, it sounds like nails on a chalkboard
saving pieces shattered as my age increases faster
i can make my thesis matter if i learn to fuckin' talk more

but that's just an inkling, small talk is always shrinking
and this ship will always sink until we fill in all the gaps
i've made some dumb decisions and evaded inhibitions
digging graves for my ambitions just to make it on the map
which seems ironic at present, given my title
periodically stepping through this recital
i've practiced a thousand times, messaging with my idols
and definitely sounding like a dumbass when i try tho

i treat a soundcloud page like a diary
and push away all the people who inspire me--sorry
so afraid of the person i should try to be
and it seems, by now, they should kinda be sorry

flowers ep

discombobulated (prod. mt. fujitive)

cover photo taken by mads

chain smoke the hunger away
only eating one meal a day
on a good day, but the good days
will never come

i got so used to loss
that is sort of became part of me
i lose myself in my head
i lose my patience in the agony

i lost my youth in the fallout
of somebody else

who took advantage of trust
and left me hating myself

it's always there in my dreams
i put myself through your hell

why did you do those things to me?

sit down on the side of my bed
and contemplate the endless nothing sat inside of my head
it's such a slow burn, but the candle
is always lit

i got so used to fear
it learned to manifest in me
i fear the ending of it all
i fear your reckless apathy

i fear that everything's boring
and nothing will help

it's like it's all in a cycle
my dwindling health

i feel the breath of the reaper
on the side of my neck

why do i still get out of bed?

apathy

tea

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