i remember listening to this all the time😞

vibes 3! <3

dog beach - atlas

Destination Maybe

olive jacket, magenta hair
pale skin with a piercing stare
you see through my eyes to my brain
swallowed whole by an empty void
wondered if i'd be destroyed
but somehow you saved me from it

speak in tongues through a speakerphone
never see what i need to know
i always just do at the end
question morals and need support
swapping spit in a pillow fort
i'm drunk on a sunday again

i'm fading out
but i'll open up
at least i would
but i'm frozen shut
god damn

white lies on the telephone
might cry if i make it home
but something tells me that i won't
water bottle of alcohol
on my teacher's desk in a middle school
we all must find our escapes

broken clasp on a cookie jar
empty cabinets, looking hard
for something to eat in this place
going hungry or maybe starving
myself because i hate who i am
oh, i do, oh yes, i do

i'm fading out
but i'll open up
at least i would
but i'm frozen shut
god damn

i'm fading out
but i'll open up
at least i would
but i'm frozen shut
god damn

frozen shut

an ode to addiction (among other things)

artwork was shot by mae <3 tysm

we keep drifting through these weekends
i keep wondering what's keeping
me away from ever speaking
properly in conversations

i can't swallow medication
you keep forgetting to take it
wonder how my name keeps ending
up in stranger's mouths

in all these conversations

nothing like anonymous comments
to make you feel like everything's fading out
i'm not waiting, i'm not waiting
for the sadness to go
too much time on my hands, yes
it's obvious that i am blessed
but something tells me i can't rest
until i find something good to do

i can't keep staying up all night
i can't keep waiting for daylight
i can't keep watching the sunrise
i can't keep hoping that something will rescue me

i can't keep staying up all night
i can't keep waiting for daylight
i can't keep watching the sunrise
i've gotta fix this shit now

been losing my friends and severing ties
we walked to the ending and said our goodbyes
but somehow, no matter the passage of time
they always fucking talk about me

conversations

Ｖ．ＡＳＴＲＡＬＳ　（ＦＥＡＴ．　ＣＨＡＳ　Ｍ）

ＦＯＬＬＯＷ　ＣＨＡＳ　Ｍ

ＡＳＴＲＡＬＳ （ＦＥＡＴ． ＣＨＡＳ Ｍ）

i miss u

yea

LYRICS:
maybe it's the question, maybe it's the answer
i don't know the reason now
and maybe it's your eyelids, maybe it's the moonlight
but something beautiful sticks out

and i'm in my bedroom, watching through the window
stare at the sunlight, wonder where the time is going
you're in the bathroom
crying with your shirt undone
now we're on the freeway, speeding past a cop car
stole your mom's van, and took it for a test drive
and you're sat in the backseat
looking at your best friend's hair

i wanna be more than a cheat day in your diet plan
you can be the lungs, baby, i can be the diaphragm
just breathe, just breathe, and you'll be fine
just breathe, just breathe, it happens all the time

CHEAT DAY

ＢＵＴ　ＴＨＥＮ　ＷＥ　ＣＡＭＥ　ＡＢＯＵＴ　＆　ＴＨＥ　ＳＫＹ　
ＲＡＩＮＥＤ　ＤＲＯＰＳ　ＯＦ　ＣＬＡＲＩＴＹ

//あなたは私の日差しです//
//あなたは私の月です//

i was gonna wait & release this when we hit 200k total plays, but i felt like you guys deserved something for reaching 2k followers. thank you so much for every single ounce of support. i don't know what i'd do without you guys. also a huge thanks to my love for influencing a vast majority of my writing & always pushing me to do better & keep going no matter what. i love you more than this music could ever express.

https://genius.com/guardin-clarity-lyrics

ＣＬＡＲＩＴＹ

ＹＯＵ　ＫＮＯＷ　ＴＨＡＴ　ＹＯＵ　ＭＥＡＮ　ＴＨＥ　
ＤＡＭＮ　ＷＯＲＬＤ　ＴＯ　ＭＥ

//私たちは奇妙です//

thank you guys so fucking much for the endless amount of support
we're reachin' milestones i never thought were possible
it's only uphill from here
i love you ♡

https://genius.com/guardin-guardin-x-yung-van-lets-just-keep-walking-lyrics

cover art by chunniboy
be sure to give him lots of love
https://goo.gl/asxd7w

ＦＯＬＬＯＷ　ＹＵＮＧ　ＶＡＮ

guardin x yung van - let's just keep walking

yep. still miss u.

lyrics:
the beauty that i once saw in the world
must've transferred itself into you
'cause i feel your precense at every moment
your voice in whatever i do

and i'm tired of trying and laying awake
wishing death would come take me at last
to think i exist is a fable to me
i'm unable visit the past

so i'll rot
in this grave

and soon you will find someone better than me
with a beautiful smile and a daily routine
and they'll take from your heart what i placed when you left
and they'll toss it aside like stale cigarettes

AND YOU'LL BURN ME ALIVE AND INHALE MY INSIDES
AND I'LL TURN INTO SMOKE AND I'LL FLOAT IN YOUR EYES
AND YOU'LL CRY LIKE WE BOTH DID EVERY NIGHT
AND I'LL FINALLY KNOW WHAT IT FUCKING FEELS LIKE

to be free...
to be free

to be free

ＡＬＬ　Ｉ　ＴＨＩＮＫ　ＡＢＯＵＴ　ＩＳ　ＹＯＵ

//あなたは私のサンシャインです//

ＬＹＲＩＣＳ
https://genius.com/guardin-evergreen-lyrics

waking up every day & seeing how much love you guys give me is truly amazing. i never thought i would be able to reach this point. knowing i'm helping you guys through your problems all while you're helping me out through mine is such a blessing. we're in this together & i promise i won't let you down. i love you.

lyrics

evergreen

split betwixt patrick and i !

download: 
https://themostbeautifulimages.bandcamp.com/album/split-with-tea

https://teatea.bandcamp.com/album/split-with-the-most-beautiful-images-created-to-be-destroyed

is that so hard - tea

Atlas-My Body Is A Hell

Ｉ　ＪＵＳＴ　ＷＡＮＮＡ　ＣＲＡＷＬ　ＦＡＲ　ＡＷＡＹ
ＦＲＯＭ　ＷＨＥＲＥ　ＴＨＥ　ＭＯＮＳＴＥＲＳ　ＬＩＶＥ

//私の声が聞こえますか//

i'm gonna take a short week and a half break from everything to sort my mental health issues out and focus on myself. i'm sorry. i hope you guys understand. i love you

i don't wanna feel like this

when it all falls apart like a house made of cards
i will shuffle this deck 'til i fall asleep
gentle touch, brittle bones, when we talk on the phone
i exist for you, you have all of me

i'm a small speck of dust, an inanimite husk
of my former self, they are vanishing
there's a ghost in my room and it wears the perfume
that you used to wear; it's like you're next to me

but nothing's ever real enough (x2)

you're a voice in my head, at the foot of my bed
like a poltergeist, drifting hauntingly
and my mind is a void, for the broken, destroyed
little parts of me, an infinity

this ache in my head makes me quake in my bed
i fixate on it, i can't fall asleep
with this whine in my ears when the silence appears
it is deafining, it is everything

but nothing's ever real enough (x2)

real enough

when it's raining in the morning 
and you smell the petrichor from your bed 
know that i'm with you, there in some way 
like a fly on the wall in your head 

when the bad thoughts and the nightmares 
keep us afraid of the things in our minds 
know that it's alright, life keeps moving 
just don't let it leave you behind 
when you're exhausted and you're lonely 
and the sadness begins to appear 
know that somewhere, there are people 
who love the idea that you're here 

and when the sky dims, turning pitch black 
and the clock reads 3 a.m. 
hit me by phone call or text, calm or panicky mess 
and we'll go out for milkshakes again

cover taken by https://twitter.com/Queen_of__Hades

to be free

tea

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