demos<3

wrote this about seasonal depression

Lyrics:

Another winter cold washes over me
Now I’m dead on my feet.
Then the seasons change and I walk away.
Like it never even affected me.

Got a lump stuck in my throat
I think I have to get removed 
Before I choke 
On my own tears. Where is this fear

Coming from? I just want to be spun until I’m wrung out of all of the mess that I have made.

Another winter cold washes over me
Now I’m dead on my feet.
Then the seasons change and I walk away.
Like it never even affected me.

I fool myself every time you stick around
I feel like I’m gonna drown
In my sorrow and grief, so I’ll just stay until your presence stops the sting.

Hmmmm, mmm, mm, mm x4

winter cold-demo

a little song about my cat, annie 

Lyrics:

I’ve got a movie on and you’re sleeping next me
The water is boiling and I’m making tea
But you can’t drink any.
Guess I’ll save the rest when I wake easily.

Oh I’m content with my little friend
Got a pocket full of sunshine where you’ve always been.
I’ve made so many mistakes 
But being next to you isn’t one of them.
Being next to you isn’t one of them

Don’t cry when I leave.
I’ll be back in the evening.
We can watch a movie when I get home 
Or maybe play out in the snow.

Oh I’m content with my little friend
Got a pocket full of sunshine where you’ve always been.
I’ve made so many mistakes 
But being next to you isn’t one of them.
Being next to you isn’t one of them

little, little friend x3
Yeah, being next to you is what I’m loving.

little friend-demo

wrote this about Patroclus’s death in his point of view.
inspired by the book “The Song of Achilles” by Madeline Miller.

Lyrics:

Apollo, your wish is my command.
I know that I’m better off dead,
But this prophecy that has to be fulfilled.
Oh, it’s going to be me who takes the pill.

Gotta swallow down my greed.
I know what leaving him will do to me.
Oh, I see the waves below.
Are you going to see me go?
Make me choke.

Oh

Apollo, your wish is my command.
Throw me off this edge
Onto the rocks below.
It’s a fitting end for the sins I’ve sowed.

I’ve got to sacrifice everything 
So everything plays out how it should.
Stay the same. No I can’t do that for
My love is

Growing colder as the war goes on.
Can’t help but feel caught up in
Too many emotions.
Will he weep when I’m gone then?

They’ll wonder what went through my mind
When I fulfilled the prophecy instead
Of staying.
They couldn’t make me.

Apollo, your wish is my command.
I’m as good as dead.

patroclus’s fall-demo

Just a small snippet I wrote because I felt loved :)

Lyrics:

My little moon
I don’t know what to do
So I’ll turn to you
Point me in the right direction 
To follow through
With everything I swore I’d do
Oh, my little moon
What would I do without you?

little moon(raw recording with reverb)

a song I wrote about a friend that I once knew.

Lyrics:

V1: 
I cry in your studio apartment
That’s somewhere by the sea.
I like to think that you still 
Love me.

I let it out and let it go.

Ch:
Oh, I may be broken
And I may be mean
But you’ll always be the first one to see.
Je suis libre (lee-bruh)
I am free.

V2: 
You seem far away from me
But I know it’s just my anxiety.
My fear of abandonment grows stronger each day
That you push me away.

I’m losing and winning

Ch:
Oh, I may be broken
And I may be mean
But you’ll always be the first one to see.
Je suis libre (lee-bruh)
I am free
Instrumental x1
Oooooo x3

(whisper) mon amour, your light shines brighter than the moon I see. 
Before you broke me.
Mmmm
I wish you could see me now.
And I wish you were here
With me.

my love-demo

I write songs about my cats and other stories throughout my life.
(he/they)

Spotify: regulus on venus

Apple Music: regulus on venus

winter cold-demo

deathbed(regulus on venus)