emotion_engine - evening star

OMW!! [p. zvanz]

prod. tracyxo x joshbae

see me blowing rainbows
i dont care bout you hoes
im on my ten toes
ran around this dome
(if we're talking bout it,)

i dont give no shit about a ciggarette pack
i dont care about frozen time
uh huh?
i dont care about golden why?'s
uh huh
this shit bothers me
i dont wanna deal with the shit in my head
i just wanna smoke white runtz till im dead
thoughts come up from the bottom of my mind
aye, i gotta climb back up, i gotta wake up
i dont wanna be late!
i dont know what to say :(
i dont wanna be anyone i try and replicate
5:00 am, waste of time, oh my god..
6:00 am, and im tired as fuck

it still wont wake me up
thc in my gut
faded or nothing bruh
this preroll is all for us
we're living like we're still dumb
who am i kidding?
no one does it better than you.
no one will bother me anymore
dont lie
dont try
dont cry to me anymore
i painted the walls exactly like i wanted to
the stripes i made were pink and blue for you
will you be okay..?

(you were only a momment away)

dont, even bother
coming back.
im sorry,
but im not.
I'M TIRED OF THIS COLD WAR!
I'M TRYNA HELP MYSELF AGAIN!
I'M TRYNA BE ANYONE

up,
i gotta wake up ')
DONT WANNA BE LATE
I DONT WANNA BE ANYONE I TRY TO REPLICATE
FIVE AM WASTE OF TIME OH MY GOD
SIX AM AND IM TIRED AS FUCK
AND DONT WANNA WAKE UP.
ah...
ah...
can you run that by me once again :(?
ah..
ah
i dont know, how else i will-
(find some comfort in my home again)
THIS ROCKING CHAIR DONT FEEL THE SAME
THE PORTRAIT FELL AND SOMETHINGS CHANGED

the portrait fell, & something changed

No, I shouldn′t think about it
Yeah it's fucking up my brain
I′m not missing you, I just fucking miss the pain
That you brought me every day
Now nothing is the same
I cannot forget all the games that you played

And with those dark lies
Came all the dark times
You don't fucking get it, you were fucked up all the time
I've been up for days
It′s like I′m working overtime
Nothing feels okay not even when you're all mine

I don′t wanna think about you
I don't wanna think
I don′t even like you

No, I shouldn't think about it
Yeah it′s fucking up my brain
I'm not missing you, I just fucking miss the pain
That you brought me every day
Now nothing is the same
I cannot forget all the games that you played

And with those dark lies
Came all the dark times
You don't fucking get it, you were fucked up all the time
I′ve been up for days
It′s like I'm working overtime
Nothing feels okay not even when you′re all mine

nothing feels okay (ciche&jarn)

Death Wish prod switch + 5head

cloudOloud (prod. jean parker)

produced by deadends and melon

baby come n find me
right in the fields
tfinking about her
witha cup of tee
hope youll find me
before us dissapear

baby yeah thats fair enouf
she said she canttt love me nowwww
im wandering i canttt move on (im a warrior)
you must be my querencia
im watchin over you from afar
no i donet wanna hurt you so much : (
i dont even know who you are
tho you became essential
to me

querencia

i love this song alot

coverart by : kawaiitomatoe
twitter:kawaiitomatoe
IG:geometric

Over Shield (prod. The Ushanka Boy)

LAND OF SURVIVAL (is killing me) (youji)

[Intro]
I need you to understand, I’ve grown to stand alone now,
Though the air cuts sharper, I’m free from your ghost’s embrace.
You never heard my heart, that’s what I confess to shadows,
You were my fleeting muse, I was your hidden flame, but still,
You never saw my raw truth, you’d only hold me in chaos,
When your mind drifted into the night.
Yet you gave what you could, that’s what I tell the silence,
I was your fading echo, you were my restless tide.

[Verse]
I’m tangled in the self I shaped to match your fleeting gaze,
A soul that learned to bear the dance of your push and pull.
A heart that didn’t break on the long road back to me,
A mind that stayed alive through the wounds you left behind.
I thought I was chasing you, but all along,
It was you striking the spark to end us,
And I was the one drifting in the undertow.

[Pre-Chorus]
I gave all I had, that’s what I whisper to my reflection,
I fell for the dream we were bound by something true.

[Chorus]
What heals your soul might tear through mine,
What bloomed at dawn might fade by night.

[Post-Chorus]
Do you want to break me?
Do you want to break me?
No one wounds me deeper.
Do you want to hold me?
Do you want to hold me?
No one wounds me deeper.

[Bridge]
You swept in like a breeze, burned out like a spark,
You pulled me in deep, then left your mark.
Salt still clings to my weathered skin,
But I won’t drown here — I’m ready to begin.

Your name’s in the foam when the tide rolls in,
Your ghost in the wind, where the cliffs grow thin.
I hear you whisper through crashing waves,
But I’ve cut these chains — I’m not your slave.

You swept in like a breeze, burned out like a flame,
I trace your memory, I curse your name.
Your coastal dust still clings like sin,
But the tide pulls clean — I’m ready to begin.

[Outro]
No one can shield me from these echoes in my mind,
Nothing left to lose, yet I’d have given all I had.
To stand beside you and face your storms,
I carry my own scars now.
This crown doesn’t come with a shield, just a different fire,
I still feel you in the quiet coastal haze,
I hear your voice when I’m alone with the tide.
The ghosts in my dreams call my name, whispering, “Let me fade.”
This is for you, your chaos, your golden days,
Your heavy shadows, what do you fear?
The same wounds we share — show me your strength.
You speak of your pain like mine doesn’t exist.
I’ve learned to walk beside it, and though it’s done now,
Your echo will always haunt me (haunt me, haunt me, haunt me).

Where Tides Break

Beyond the Stars is a 20-track odyssey that explodes with raw rebellion and cosmic soul.
Split into two distinct halves — Side A: Fire and Grit, and Side B: Dream and Infinity — the album tears through the noise of the world before ascending into something eternal.

Side A is all heat — electric guitars, thunderous drums, and truth on fire. It speaks to political chaos, cultural decay, youth defiance, and the cost of living in a system built to consume. These tracks punch like classic rock and funk gods—echoes of Hendrix, Prince, AC/DC, Janis Joplin, and Bowie clash with modern urgency. The message is clear: burn through the lies or be burned by them.

Side B leaves the wreckage behind and takes flight. It drifts into the stars with cinematic beauty, emotional depth, and surreal introspection. This is where identity melts, memories echo, and love haunts the void. You’ll hear dream-pop, synth-soul, and space-age ballads touched byThe fire becomes starlight.

This album is a rebellion, a breakdown, and a rebirth.
A cry from Earth. A prayer to the cosmos.
A mirror. A myth. A message.

_Echoes of the Unknown_

duckingsean@gmail.com
(includes tracks as that weird kid)

LAND OF SURVIVAL (is killing me) (youji)

RED ALL OVER