OFFICIAL MUSIC VIDEO OUT NOW : https://youtu.be/DahzdJqZtuo

"KINETOSIS"

produced by @the0000
mixed and master by @the0000
vocals mixed and master by @zyrom
art by @the0000

LYRICS:

As the time passes
I hope you feel free

And if you kept me in your thoughts 
Forget about me

I've acted so cold to your feelings 
Wondered about what the deal is
On your whole skin u were peeling 
And till this day I'm still healing

Uh
I think I fell back
Died from the impact
Everything cracked
The world I live in now is abstract 
Cause I lost track

I let myself jump in the sea of doubts
I let myself drown in my own thoughts
I let myself sink in too deep in the abyss
Can someone tell me if I really exist?
The more I think about us
The deeper I sink in my guilt
The blood on my hands will never be clean
I really should have dismissed all of your feelings x2

OUT EVERYWHERE

KINETOSIS [music video in desc.]

its my 18th birthday today. 
made this in 5 hours after getting out of the icu a week ago

produced by me
guitar solo by me
recorded/mixed/mastered by me

lyrics:

Oh
What have I done?
Where do I go?
Bullet in lung?
Oh way too young
What have I done?
Didn’t wanna run
Now it’s all gone
Isn’t life wonderful?
(Isn’t life wonderful!?)

And I hate to fall to the war with self,
Man control yo self
Always looking for something to be wrong even when there’s no goddamn problem at all 
“Oh keep pushing through brother, you might as well deal with the pain, you’ll just get stronger anyway, It’s gonna be okay”
Well sure, then fuck this game me and countless others playing, 
Well, why don’t you stitch me up crochet?
And I have all these scars to say things like how I got em, 
“How the fuck did you breathe?” 
Oh bro, I didn't bother
Breathing was venting and I never just let myself be fucking fostered
That’s why I struggled with the fucking mental doctor
Too stubborn for therapy and 
I’ve been the same weight for four years with a fear to eat, not supply. 
Weigh 125 (LBS)
And I might take some amphetamines just to give me a better reason to say that I need help, ugh

Oh
What have I done?
Where do I go?
Bullet in lung?
Oh, way too young
What have I done?
Didn’t wanna run
Now it’s all gone
Isn’t life wonderful?

“911, what’s your emergency?”
Agh, agh,
“Oh I feel like I’m gonna fucking hurt myself!”
“Calm down sir it’s gonna be okay,”
It’s gonna be okay!?
No it’s fucking not
Cops take me to the fucking ICU
Now I rot on top of a fucking hospital bed
While you just fucking living not knowing what I’ve almost done
And you wont know

You wont ever know
But why’d I make it this far to throw away all I sewed?
“Oh he was packed with talent”
Oh, but you don't get it though 
Being good at something comes with a malice-filled price 
You either give and you get and/or you give and you're met with the in-equal shares of bets you cant even make with yourself,
Cant wait to say fuck it and just off myself
Don't want attention but this a fucking cry for help

Oh
What have I done?
Where do I go? 
Bullet in lung?
Oh way too young
What have I done?
Didn’t wanna run
Now it’s all gone
Isn’t life wonderful?
(What have I done?)

ISNT LIFE WONDERFUL?!?
WHAT HAVE I DONE?
WHERE DO I GO?
I DON’T KNOW
WHAT HAVE I DONE?
HELP!
ISN’T-ISN’T LIFE-ISN’T LIFE WONDERFUL?!?

ICU, i see you

ICU, I See You

“BURY MY WINGS“

Produced by Theo.
LYRICS:

It's been so long 
Now I see clarity in kerosene

I wish sometimes I could’ve OD on amphetamines

You were my first love, my daily shot of dopamine
The most caring and loving person I’ve ever seen

After all this time
I'm still not worthy of you

You're like a fucking curse
That just sticks to my body like glue

I ruined my health for you, so get out of my fucking head 
I know its not your fault its mine, I still regret what I've said

(Stacking bottles stacking bottles)

As I hope your doing well
I hope u found your purpose
I hope your brother grew well

(Pilling stubs in the ashtray)

I hope you found love again
Don't worry about how I'm doing
I'm slowly burning in hell

Teared my skin
Buried my fears
Been different since
Bearing no wings x4

(Stacking bottles stacking bottles)

As I hope your doing well
I hope u found your purpose
I hope your brother grew well

(Pilling stubs in the ashtray)

I hope you found love again
Don't worry about how I'm doing
I'm slowly burning in hell

OUT NOW EVERYWHERE

BURY MY WINGS

“OUR SEWN SMILE“

with @merely 's beautiful acapella <3 : https://soundcloud.com/merely/the-killing-sun-acapella?si=0f7207afb4504a11863fcee373e7c0f8&utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing

Produced by Theo.
LYRICS:

Silence surrounds me 
Sitting in pitch black
I tried to scream
But I am not getting no feedback

Into the void I hang on a swing
Apologizing for everything

Chaos inside of me
My heart’s about to crack
Stuck in a dream
I know there is no coming back

Cannot remember a single thing
I can’t feel my face, but it’s burning 

Peace of mind
Reset mankind
Nothing behind
It was outlined

Do you remember about us?
It's been a while

Can you see it on our faces? 
Our sewn smile?

I can’t feel my heartbeat anymore I know it's hopeless
All these drugs and pills just make it sound like it was worthless
I wish I could have hugged you more, instead of acting heartless
Now everything I know will disappear into nothingness

I’ve always wanted for more
My heart is feeling so sore
I can’t stop closing the door
Let's close our eyes and then fall x2

Peace of mind
Reset mankind
Nothing behind
It was outlined x2

Do you remember about us being happy together?
I cannot shake this feeling of regret, my body shiver

Do you remember about this feeling, it's been a while?
Can you see it on my face?
My sewn smile?

OUR SEWN SMILE

“WILT“

Produced by Theo.
LYRICS:

All my life I’ve been wondering if I was a bummer
I've been stacking so much pain and hatred, it makes me shudder
Always giving all I have to please, but at the end they never stay
They take all my love and burn it away, they burn it away

Ripping every bit of my own skin 
To burn it with kerosene
Just to repent for all my sins

Shattered my soul to protect everything I've built 
Everything I've tried to grow is starting to wilt

I lost the count of all times
I've ever dissociated
Pulling apart my skin from yesterday
To tough up the next one

WILT

“ETERNAL DREAD“

Produced by Theo.
LYRICS:

Go, go
While the waves overflow
Go, go
While the waves overflow
Go, go
While the waves overflow

I've been empty since
I landed on the abyss

Locked 
Helpless
I've been stuck
By the eclipse

Suffering is a bliss
Wishing the fog would dismiss
She’s not here, she doesn’t exist
I've been in love with the mist

It's been so long since I’ve been able to stand by myself
Insecurities have been rising out of me since I was twelve
They only thought to burn my hand when I was crying for help
I know the pain took away your strength 
Took away your health
Took away your breath

ETERNAL DREAD

“MURMUR“

Produced by Theo.
LYRICS:

I've been on the edge of life
Stuck at rock bottom
Nothingness into my eyes
Watching the chaos blossom

Trynna find a spark to trigger
Rotting smell, and it just lingers
Threw away all of my liquor
So I don't make myself sicker

Body heavier to drag
I start to reach my limit
Slowly becoming amnesiac

Pale face looking vivid
Decomposing is a habit
Stressing, looking like a maniac

Sinking underwater again
Going under pressure again
Nothing will never be the same
Running on fire
You're the one I blame x2

I once wished that I could write more, and happier songs
They just hide it, but I know that I can still see their thorns 

And the poison has been sinking deeper into my flesh
I have deprived myself from happiness until excess

Deep inside my heart I can sense a feeling of distress
Accumulating these inner feels I cannot express

She's been eating at my heart and flesh because of the stress
The more I possess all I need the more she request

Let the ship drown
I deserve to go down
Cover the sound
Until my body lies on the ground x2

MURMUR

“SUNKEN“

Produced by Theo.
LYRICS:

Kneeling
Beheaded
Blood evaporates into the air

Crawling
Dreaded
I pull the skin and I tear x2

My lungs are tainted with black oil
my body is bathed in petrol
Disappearing into my slump
I am breaking in a lump
My brain gets crushed 

And I'm Stacking all the gun shells
Drenched with my blood cells
Engulfed as my body disappears

My blood transformed into an ocean
My mask is not showing no emotion

Escaping as fast as I can, I tripped
Present is past, my legs get ripped 
Stuck in the sludge, the dark gets flicked 
I'm dragged through the earth, my body split

My limbs detach themselves away
Got no emotions to convey
Sliding down into the rift
They observed me when I drowned

Sliding down into the rift
They observed me when I drowned x2

Kneeling
Beheaded
Blood evaporates into the air

Crawling
Dreaded
I pull the skin and I tear x4

SUNKEN

“ACRID“

Produced by Theo.
LYRICS:

The oxygen that we both breath is not the same
Mine is rancid, full of dust and sulfur
I can see the future
Where you don’t remember my name

My vision just turned black
There is so much that I lack
Nothing else to fill the cracks
Even in my paragraphs 
Just to fill in all the gaps
I just stay behind the glass
At the end i'll be the last

Acrid is the air that I breathe
Right now, life don’t got no appeal
It falls apart like nothing is real
My heart is hardened like its steel x2

ACRID

“VANISHING ELYSIUM“

Produced by Theo & ZYROM.

VANISHING ELYSIUM [co-prod. zyrom]

prod. @killoceans 💜💜💜

LYRICS:

They tried to bring me the light
But still I get lost in my mind
No matter how hard I try
Hell finds a way back to life

Waking the dead just to hear
I'm lost, don't know what I should fear
But I'll just keep fighting the tears
Darling it's gone on for years

And she's the angel
Singing in my head
I'll watch the stars fall
If she was here warming my bed

Break me, tear every sin right out of my flesh
I'll work on escaping the prison I've built inside of my head
Oh break me, tear every sin right out of my flesh
I'll work on escaping the prison I've built inside of my head

My head

i'm still trying

i'm still trying (prod. kill oceans)

"OUR UNENDING MOURN" with deadrazy •|• out now everywhere.

https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/theoanddeadrazy/our-unending-mourn

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⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⢀⣀⣀⡀⠀⢠⣤⣤⡤⣀⣀⣄⣀⣀⣄⣀⣀⡀⣀⣀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀