melancholy

Music I find that I think is good vV

produced by me w/ additional melodies from @1spoof
mixed & mastered by me

released under Loveshock @loveshockrecords

instagram: instagram.com/avit69
youtube: youtube.com/c/avit69
website: www.avit.wtf

lyrics:
all i wished for is all gone
lines of sight, they’ve been redrawn
wires in my body firing out without u here…
my insecurities
they’re taking shape in me
i know that i can’t do it
but i don’t know

how much can i take
before i finally break
is there still will in me
that i don’t know

existent
inside me
my nerves feel so numb to me
and i can’t accept it
when my heart’s locked up all the way
sickening to see that my body is falling apart
but maybe you’ll just save me again

i keep expecting you 
to be my savior
but it was never true
i feel so fucking used
the truth’s that i’m no good
dependent all on you
to keep me living on
and make it to the other side 
it feels so empty without you
to numb it all
and take away
what i have left
so i can separate myself from everyone
i wish i didn’t need u
to keep me alive
all the vomit and the anguish 
isn’t it all so pitiful?
painted words with all your poison
it’s just so fucking pitiful

Lines of Death

my savior

stream

my savior (Prod. AViT & Spoof)

acapellas used:
loansharks
everybody's dead
girls and boys
bozo bozo bozo
del mar county fair

this will surely put an end to my abuse of underscores acapellas

lyrics:

pour a little water in the bottle

dilute me just a little bit 

i’m tired of being a weight on your chest

i’m sorry if the details are too intimate

resolving my issues

(resolving my issues)

dissolve and i’ll miss you

(dissolve and i’ll miss you)

i’m tired of thinking

(i’m tired of thinking)

give my headache a rest

(give my headache a rest)


i meant to tell you yesterday

that something felt off

and now i’m here and you’re trying

to find what you forgot


i bit the bait right in front of my face

i reached too hard and got put in my place

a calling card is what i need

i’ve fallen off and i’m only eighteen

and you call my name

nothing feels the same

was it always hard to breathe

and i’m stuck like i’m in a dream 


i meant to tell you yesterday

that something felt off

and now i’m here and you’re trying

to find what you forgot

to find what you forgot

to find what you forgot

geocache*

lyrics
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i've been on my toes
cause you never know
where your time will go
if you'll ever fold
cause the cards inside your hand
disconnected from your soul
i've been moving slow
hoping that the rain still contributes to my growth
i can feel the glow
sitting in my chest like a bomb about to blow
lightwork
i ain't pay the bill in weeks
i've been writing down these verses on my sheets
getting cozy on this god damn beat
cause i know you mother fuckers gonna sleep
not the way you prolly think  
off a sedative setting in while you blink
and the words that you've been saying i'm spitting out in the sink
tryna down it with some water now everything lookin pink
like a vessel in your eye i'm poppin off inside the ink

lack of zinc got you mother fuckers confused
cloudy vision consumed
mix it with the henny that's a dumb move
come thru we can talk about it sometime
working on this album till the sunrise
i've been on my shit
checklist when it come time
on another project checkin outta my mind
i don't need to think cause i only do it sometimes
time will tell my story if i ever get these lines right
write until my wrist hurts
damn this screen is so bright
fill another script full of words not the drug type
john carpenter how my flicks flamin my pipe
imma set the scene really quick
lemme paint it out how i like
i fight through a constant battle with depression
self mutilation, aggression, the wreckage of my compression
the pressure been comin' in this music is my obsession
i'll do this shit everyday until i reach my ascension
for real

used to mop the floor now i'm flooring through the hills
it's a crazy fucking world when you live through what you feel
i won't ever take a break cause the music's how i heal
i ain't ever had my doubts that's how you know that it's real
that's how you know that it's real
that's some lightwork
stocked up like a night clerk
one day people gonna know my name through these cyphers
i could be the king it depends on who dies first

lightwork (prod. chxse bank)

lyrics
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make no mistakes hear what i say
i hate myself oh shit okay
i get fucked up like every day
a common theme that i display
it's not okay it's not alright
if i could i would take my life
i'm too afraid so scared to die
they say feelings fade knowing i just might

might disappear by the morning
soaring higher than i was while recording
i'm warning you to stay away cause i'm boring
fuck i'm a mess face down in the flooring
worth another shot taking shots till i'm snoring
in my dreams i've been wide awake just exploring
a distant memory of better days i'm ignoring
if i keep fucking up then imma lead you all to mourning

make no mistakes hear what i say
i hate myself oh shit okay
i get fucked up like every day
a common theme that i display
it's not okay it's not alright
if i could i would take my life
i'm too afraid so scared to die
they say feelings fade knowing i just might

might fuck around with these toxins
i'm locked in a box with these puppets that i'm not with
obnoxious how they've been tryna limit all my options
hit em with the blade then i warp like i'm noctis
stop this all this fucking gossip got me nauseous
fuck the repetition i've been whippin new concoctions
and just because i'm reinventing they gon say i'm pompous
wait until the album drop cause that shit is colossus
lost his touch cause everything he made was flawless
creatively he's broke again like gromit to your wallace 
it's hard to stay awake & just create in midst of all this  
regardless i still hope you like the shit i drop in august

make no mistakes hear what i say
i hate myself oh shit okay
i get fucked up like every day
a common theme that i display
it's not okay it's not alright
if i could i would take my life
i'm too afraid so scared to die
they say feelings fade knowing i just might

mistakes (prod. peril x mekai b)

lyrics
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trippin over every thought
this ain't ever whatchu want
i swear that this house is haunted
it's been like this since the start
all good things must fall apart  
i swear that this house is haunted

trapped in between these halls
asbestos inside the walls
it's getting harder to breathe
and lately i'm in the dark
unaware of where to start
i'm falling hard with the breeze
so tell me the truth are we both really losing our minds
in this state of delusion it's easy to lose track of time
and the hands on this clock haven't spun even close to align
-ing but
they'll come around (x4)

'til then i'm
trippin over every thought
this ain't ever whatchu want
i swear that this house is haunted 
it's been like this since the start
all good things must fall apart  
i swear that this house is haunted

am i really here?
am i not?
is there anywhere that i ought to be
i ain't tryna stay here with these oddities
and honestly it's getting kinda hard to breathe
and hard to speak when barred with teeth
my tongue sittin in my mouth but it's hard to speak
i fall asleep with every fragment haunting me
my dreams turn to nightmares where they're calling me
like hey hi hello it's me how you doing
i'm a ghost to this place amidst of these ruins 
trippin' over every thought
this ain't ever whatchu want
i swear that this house is fucking haunted

trippin over every thought
this ain't ever whatchu want
i swear that this house is haunted 
it's been like this since the start
all good things must fall apart  
i swear that this house is haunted

haunted (prod. young taylor)

@risk02 @hudsonlee feat. some sound design from @meechmusik

unuary 3st_20230103

Popeyes

I Miss Your Warm Hands

When The Stars Go Blue

Thomas Howard - Guitar, bass, backing vocals, drums
Samuel Winemiller - Guitar, bass
Josh Augustin - Vocals/lyrics, synth

geocache*

mxrtyn