You do the build so well.  Great job on this.

how'd I miss this one? one of your best Jan, IMO;  the gentle touch on piano & vocals with a big driving beat works so well here --still a child, yes

The Waiting Remaster 2023

Music & Lyrics: Jan Schonander

THE ENDLESS ROAD

As if I would stay on the sidelines
As if the whole world was passing by
Would I could I ever be myself
Would I could I be understood
I knew so much and wanted you to know
I judged, hurt, left people behind
So many moments, days and nights all ahead
So many sunrises and missed possibilities
The days moved so slowly
The nIghts seemed eternal
All I saw was an endless road
All I could see was an endless road

Suddenly on a loud and crowded highway
All the others moving in the fast lane
Would I ever could I catch up
Would I ever could I ever
Everything to learn more and more unknown 
Mistakes made that can’t be undone
Turns missed and roads not taken
Faster by the moment orange cones in my way
Every day ending in a rush
Every night passing in a flash
Show me the way
There must be a way 
Show me the way off this endless road

A pain or two I expect nothing less
Nothing’s changed I’m still a child
Would I could I live my lessons learned
Will it all go to waste
Was it all for nothing
I wish I saw an endless road
I wish I saw an endless road
I wish I could see
I  wish I could see an endless road

The Endless Road

A dark synth trap / instrumental hiphop soundtrack.
Available for download at Bandcamp https://scratchkelly.bandcamp.com/track/mind-junk

Les Animaux

Mind Junk

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Cross the Brocéliande forest before sunset!! keep your faithful steed in step, and above all... do not let yourself be attracted by the voices of the knights of the round table, of the fairies Morgane and Viviane... but the spirit of Merlin the enchanter will watch over you, keep the path in mind and wait for the chime to ring, you will have defeated the spells.......

BROCELIANDE FOREST  (Ode to Brittany)

Welcome To Nightmare

GHOST IN THE WOODS

High Speed Train

Mysterious gloom of the New World desert fascinates....but pales in comparison to the horror of the Old World....

Gothic Desert Blues

I   - Escapade improvisée : 0:00 - 1:28
II  - Ballade transersale :     1:28 - 2:48
III - Marche dissonnante :   2:48 - 4:48

Piano Fragments - Rêveries dans l'Univers des Possibles

Space rock prog. This track, "Safe Space", is a collaborative effort conceived and developed by David. k. A. Spencer and cgmaness. 
David Spencer @ on.soundcloud.com/akXnp
cgmaness @ on.soundcloud.com/P8e3u 
Original music (Guitar, bass, flute) cgmaness.  (Guitar, bass synths drums, percussion & co arrangement, production) D. k. A Spencer

Safe Space. (collab) cgmaness

(Free WAV Download available here under '••• More'; and eventually, as part of 'Last Call')

Greetings my SC friends. It’s been a strange few months, and I am excited to be back. But I have a feeling it’s not going to look like it did… at least for the near future. I’m having a hard time organizing my thoughts lately. And while the musical energy is flowing better than ever, my ability to write satisfying liner notes is feeling a little clogged (this will be my 6th attempt at this write-up). 

As much as I regret it, the write-ups may need to stay on hold for a while longer. But first, I wanted to share what happened (in the form of a write-up. Lol). 

For starters, it’s important to mention I’ve been an alcoholic since I was 15 (a 40 year relationship). And although I genuinely loved what a nice beer buzz did for my noisy mind, I also knew what toxic alcoholism looked like (from many examples in my extended family). So I knew I had my work cut out for me, if I wanted to overcome my genetic dependancy. 

Granted, I also have a ‘responsibility’ vein that runs deep. I did my best to prioritize my family and responsibilities first (‘don’t drink til 5:00. Don’t drink if ya have to drive’ kinda stuff), and I considered myself a ‘functioning alcoholic’. Truthfully, I was never ashamed of my drinking. As a teenager, the ability to not give a shit that I found in a beer buzz honestly saved my life. And it allowed me to unplug from the noise for many decades after that.

But I wanted to do better than that, so I started making changes quite a while ago. Here’s a brief summary of how that unfolded:

1. Back in 2006 I concluded my negative headspace was the root of the problem (perspective is huge); so I altered my daily routines, knowing it would take years to undo the lifetime of programming that caused that thinking in the first place. I started consuming info that was positive and hopeful and loving (and avoided negative info like my life depended on it… which it did). And I did that intensively for the next 15 years.

2. But by January of 2023, I realized the beer buzz no longer quieted the noise and ugliness happening in the world (it all went too chaotic too fast). So if the crutch wasn't helpful, it needed to go. That’s when I tried Tai Chi (to give my mind something else to focus on). And it worked brilliantly.

3. Over the next 6 months, thanks to the calmer headspace created by Tai Chi, I cut my drinking tremendously (and for perspective, we’re talking 9-18 Natties daily… down to 3-6 Natties daily). The surprise outcome… the fog in my mind was clearing for the first time, and I was not prepared for sober adult Justin (man is my brain chattery when left to it’s own devices). So at the beginning of August 2023, I decided to take my Social Media break. That was more timely than I could have imagined, because…

4. On August 26th I was given the gift of Pancreatitis (the disease that lets you know ‘Wow, Dude. You drink way too much’). I went to the Emergency room with terrible intestinal pain, and I ended up in the hospital for 5 days. Long story short, I left the hospital sober, and have been that way ever since. And I’m genuinely happy about that… because thankfully, I did a great job preparing for that day.

So in a nutshell... I am back. But the writings may have to wait a while longer (at least until I figure out how my new clearer headspace works). Interestingly, I managed to produce almost an entire album of new music over my break, so I'll put those new songs up on SC over the coming weeks. 

And since I’m just a few songs short of completion, I’ll be releasing a very personal album (symbolizing my adventures with sobriety) very soon. It’s called ‘What Color Is Your Paradox?’, and I hope to have it on Bandcamp in February.

In the meantime, I’m happy to be back. And I look forward to seeing what all of you have been up to over the last few months. :)

 Big hugs from your blatantly open-book friend.
-Justin

Paradox?

Last Call

Thanks for visiting. This is a retro eclectic music mix with a strong keyboard base.  Looming influences from among others Iggy Pop, David Bowie, Lou Reed & Jon Lord. The songs are mostly about the human condition.

I am always looking for a guitar player that wants to collaborate. Would be fun to find a real drummer also.

A Gat is a cat in Catalan - it all makes sense if you’re me.

To all of you likers and reposters that don't listen - what's the point?

The Endless Road

TheGat(s)

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