Guess who's back after almost a month of nearly giving up on school every single day?
Yep, that's me.
Apparently I wrote a song using the theme for the week, so you better make a wish right now :)

Artwork: @ nyctophiliacmb

Lyrics: 

You don't know but I'm tired,
I've been up all night reading between the lines
so leave your message after the tone.
It's the way we're wired,
I can feel what you hide going down through my spine
before you even pick up the phone.

This time I'm wasting on you won't do any good.
But you'll fall apart at the dawn
(cause I know that you'll miss me when I'm gone).

I'm attached, I'm attached, I'm attached
to every word you speak, flow through me like a creek.
(miss me when I'm gone)
And pretty much, pretty much, pretty much
I've done the same to you, I'm stuck to you like glue.
So I know that you'll miss me when I'm gone.

Wish that I could see it lighter
but it takes over me when I pull of your strings
(cause I can't watch you go).
So I made myself a fighter,
and I fight against the sight of your eyes when I breathe
tho I'd be damned if I let it go.

This time we're wasting on us cause we love to make a fuss,
but you don't know how to lose
(cause I know that you'll miss me when I'm gone)

I'm attached, I'm attached, I'm attached
to every word you speak, flow through me like a creek.
(miss me when I'm gone)
And pretty much, pretty much, pretty much
I've done the same to you, I'm stuck to you like glue.
So I know that you'll miss me when I'm gone.

And the touch of our hands is more than I can stand.
You hold me like quicksand.

(Oh, oh)
I can feel the thunderstorm vibing on the floor.
(Oh, oh)
You switch off the lights when you knock on the door.
This time I wasted on you, oh how I wish I'd knew better.
This time I know I'm screwed, I'm stuck to you like glue.

Glue

"Ship To The Shore" (#419, 201122)

Got no gin blanket's gone
Wind so cold water's calm
Prayed for grace don't know how
Threw the compass off the bow

Made up my mind ship to the shore
Ran out of time do that anymore
Throw it all out deadbolt the door
Ain't too proud that's for sure

Anchor's up tide is low
What's my plan hell if I know
Raise that flag load that lead
Burn that oil sun to set

Made up my mind ship to the shore
Ran out of time do that anymore
Throw it all out deadbolt the door
Ain't too proud that's for sure

Cast my face hard and mean
Break the chain nice and clean
Drop this freight light the fuse
No more runnin' nothing to prove

Week 48b - Ship To The Shore (201122)

on another episode of writing songs about TV shows...
I had the initial idea for this song about three weeks ago. I finally sat down and wrote it two weeks ago. And I finished recording it TODAY. FINALLY.

Lyrics:

You'd be surprised 'bout how heavy is the suitcase I brought
despite leaving behind 10 ton of hurt for a long shot.
A chameleon hiding out for its life, took your hand and you took mine.
We were just doing fine but I can't help to be myself back.

'Till I remember I left my ID back home,
I guess that I don't need it to say goodbye in your car.
Throw my arms to the wind, the soundtrack is your laugh
and I'm afraid I won't breathe it in enough.

Don't mind me, I'm just hoping my lungs will be cleaner
after one last night in Cartagena.

A baby deer learning how to walk in high heels,
I never knew what's like to start with the easiest thing.
Would you collect all the times I said no cause I was scared,
and light them into fireworks, hold me close and turn them into yes?

Oh mon amour, I left my ID back home,
I guess that I don't need it to say goodbye in your car.
Throw my arms to the wind, the soundtrack is your laugh
and if I look at your eyes, I can breathe it in enough.

Don't mind me, I'm just hoping my lungs will be cleaner
after one last night in Cartagena.

And just like in the movies you say
I've been here all along.
And I would stay with you here
until my days are gone.

'Till I remember I left my past back home,
and it's faster than me, so though it hurts I have to go.
"Don't you forget about me" you sound like paradise
cause for the first time I wanna say it back.

Don't mind me, I'm just hoping my lungs will be cleaner
after one last night in Cartagena.
(Throw my arms to the wind, the soundtrack is your laugh
and I look at your eyes to breathe it in enough)

last night in Cartagena

This is half of a story.  Perhaps I will return to this idea later.

Collide (On the Other Side)

Well you know I saw it coming
Should have never crossed the tracks
But when I’m feeling good
It’s kind of hard to turn back

Well you know I spilled the coffee
On my only crisp white shirt 
But my tank top sure is sexy
Though my sneakers have seen some dirt

Oh I know we will collide
Cause I don’t belong — on the other side

Well you know he had the money
Had a gold watch and black tie
His jokes were stiff but funny
Hard to look him in the eye

Oh I know we will collide
Cause I don’t belong — on the other side

Collide (On The Other Side) - 11:26:20, 10.21 PM

HOPE COMES 
Fiona Morris & Niki Shepherd 2020
VERSE 1
WAIT NOW HOPE COMES
ON THIS NIGHT CHRIST IS BORN
A LIGHT SHINES IN THE DARKNESS
A NEW DAY DAWNS FOREVERMORE
VERSE 2
HEAVENS HOST REJOICE IN AWE
AS THE KING LEAVES HIS THRONE
ENTERS IN THE BRIGHT MORNING STAR
MERCY FALLS ON OUR EARTHLY HOME

CHORUS
(SINGING)
HALLELUJAH
HALLELUJAH
HALLELUJAH

VERSE 3
LIFT YOUR HEARTS WE WAIT NO MORE  
HE IS HERE THE PROMISED ONE
EMMANUEL FOR ETERNITY
GRACE FOR US IN HIS PERFECT SON 

CHORUS

BRIDGE
JOY OF NATIONS
MIGHTY SAVIOUR
PRECIOUS TREASURE

KING OF HEAVEN
OUR REDEEMER
REIGNS FOREVER

OUR PROVIDER 
GOES BEFORE US
RICH IN MERCY

OUR MESSIAH
CHILD OF PROMISE
PRINCE OF GLORY

VERSE 4
OH WHAT JOY WILL RESOUND
WHEN THAT FINAL CALL GOES OUT
SEE HIM COMING ON THE CLOUDS
LAMB OF GOD IN GLORY NOW

HOPE COMES FI.NIKI - 27:11:20, 12.44 pm

Copyright Erin Wolf 2020

*Dedicated to the valiant crew of Adrik's Folly and the good people of Saltmarsh*

gather ye for a whale of a tale
of the crew on Adrik's Folly
sailing east to west with the gale
a ragtag bunch fun and jolly

oh all aboard
come aboard
let's sail on Adrik's Folly

a squirrely crew bound by chance
some of them filled with squally
from mines, the wood, even the manse
they're not yer average molly

adeline the rogue is quick as tacks
share as they come, by golly
damien is fierce with the ax
as he cooks loblolly

oh all aboard
come aboard
let's sail on Adrik's Folly

fisher, the captain, steady and true
he'll turn to a holocephali
yori the bard will sing songs for you
for some gold, a pint, and tamale

dalamar the elf, an odd sort of bloke
always watching and melancholy
adrik the dwarf, not the sea-bearing folk
come from the mines all in colly

oh all aboard
come aboard
let's sail on Adrik's Folly

dungeon master, wise as can be
tries to lead this wayward trolley
with puns and tricks and the rocky sea
he show that he can volley

with saltmarsh near to help and protect
with help from Adrik's Folly
no finer crew could we collect 
to stand and fight the hogmolly

oh all aboard 
come aboard
let's sail on Adrik's Folly

Adrik's Folly

Ship to the shore --

NIKKI DEAN

AMSTERDAM

Copyright Erin Wolf 2020

*Week 49 SAW Prompt: Near or Far*

there once was a queen
lovely as she could be
and she loved her king
more than life itself deeply

then one day the king
in a storm took what he
wanted, breaking the queen
then fled in the night cowardly

lock her heart in a cage of steel
so she might not ever feel

the queen dried her tears and rose
as the bitter east wind began to blow
she steadied herself and compose
to carry on despite her woe

suitors came from near or far
all trying to win her heart
but none of them could heal the scar
one by one, they would part

lock her heart in a cage of steel
so she might not ever feel

and she won't fall again
no she won't love again

and she won't fall again
no she won't love again

there once was a queen

The Heartless Queen

This is the song I don't hear in the background
This is the pressure that's building inside
This is my weakness, my  fear of rejection
The tension that keeps me awake in the night

Can you hear it?
Can you feel it?

This is the shadow I'm casting out blindly
This is the part I don't want you to see
Here is the darkness I smuggle inside me
the part that I've been hiding even from me

Can you hear it?
Can you feel it?

This is the conflict that's breaking the pattern
This is that chaos that starts to emerge
This is the change that is trying to happen
The call to a greater more beautiful world

Can you hear it?
Can you feel it?

Can You Hear It

Copyright Erin Wolf 2020
Recorded at All Saints Episcopal Church, Appleton, WI

Week 51 prompt: Favorite one. Be forewarned that it's a one-way ticket to Sapville on this one. #sorrynotsorry

i think you’ve always known
that you’re my favorite one
the way your smile lights up a room
oh, i’m undone

for years i’d been alone
with this pain i’ve known
and then your love made me swoon
made my heartbeat strong

i don’t know
how to show
what i feel
all this fire
heart on the wire
it is real

will you stay
if i say
the truth i know
my favorite one
we’ve only begun
begun to grow

here we are again
just like we've always been
will you sing me some pretty tune
reminding me of when

we had to hide away
take cover from the day
yet somehow despite the gloom
you made it more okay

i don’t know
how to show
what i feel
all this fire
heart on the wire
it is real

will you stay
if i say
the truth i know
my favorite one
we’ve only begun
begun to grow

i think you’ve always known
that you’re my favorite one
the way your smile lights up a room
oh, i’m undone

Favorite One

26. the girl with bad karma.
My first EP "the demos" is out now! https://open.spotify.com/album/5HW6gAvQ3LcAqM16ynT1yx?si=EwKDGTw6TQmxxmFxjCrqcQ

(This Silence Is So) Loud:
https://open.spotify.com/track/2dZMZ9pWzo1bmAosxO5WWa?si=mCZc_-GhSJaC8VkQ8jeURA

Like a Kid: https://open.spotify.com/track/3P9DWi9yh66lLQKUoOZgD8?si=HqxH3FICRZuGbyGu6_ijUw

Shaped Like You feat @lossketches :
https://open.spotify.com/track/5ypE55qUIeLFh1ZYX7AbE9?si=TGMWJpTrQmWOF_ppLXF_lQ

Currently writing a song every week on www.songaweek.org

Glue

Paula Varela