deserve better

BLACK OUT* w/ l0stb0y + p. grayskies

Produced by Raspo.
Lyrics~

I can’t lie 
sometimes i might 
Get lost in my mind
It’s so dark, where’s the light 
I’ve gotta heart but it hides 
Behind walls I’ve built inside
I just wanna do right
Cuz every wrong brings fright

I’ve been gone outta sight
Im enough, I’ve realized
So I’m spending more time
Getting my shit in line
It’s ok, yeah I’m fine
I’ll figure out this fucking life
So my best I’ll try
To get through another night

I’m still finding myself
Got my mind in a cell
I stopped crying for help 
In this fuckin iced hell
Like fuck it oh well
These thoughts I can’t tell
Cuz no one can handle it 
Cept my damn self

Feel like I’m stranded in 
Oceans, no land in it
Stuck fuckin paddlin
Endlessly battlin
Depths where I haven’t been 
Don’t know what’s happenin
Demons might drag me in 
Deeper, I’ll manage it

Seems I can’t sleep
I’m afraid of my dreams 
Everything that I’ve seen 
Keeps on fucking with me
You won’t believe
Oh the ways I would bleed
Was the pain they can’t see
I just want to be free

From all my problems
Im fucked up from trauma 
I don’t know what caused It
Shit maybe it’s karma 
Can’t talk to my momma
Or dad, they don’t wanna
I’m out, fuck the drama
I’ll be where I’m wanted

No one cared to fuckin ask and 
No one cared to understand and 
No one cared to have my back
No one cared for who I am

I can’t lie 
sometimes i might 
Get lost in my mind
It’s so dark, where’s the light 
I’ve gotta heart but it hides 
Behind walls I’ve built inside
I just wanna do right
Cuz every wrong brings fright

I’ve been gone outta sight
Im enough, I’ve realized
So I’m spending more time
Getting my shit in line
It’s ok, yeah I’m fine
I’ll figure out this fucking life
So my best I’ll try
To get through another night

Why do I feel numb? 
Where did this come from?
What have I become
I think I’m a demon

overflow

disbelief (prod. tiedforsilver)

produced by nate2timez, boyfifty, & lxst boy

-lyrics-

in my backyard, under summer night stars
you would dance in the breeze while i played by guitar
you would sing Noah Kahan and then we'd laugh in the dark
oh take me back

I know i wasted your time
but trust me when i say that I'm doing just fine
sure, i lose some sleep but thats alright
your handprints are in conrete in the garden next to mine

so i apologize for all the nights
I left you empty, i hope you get me
I'm turning time to see your eyes
looking up at the sky then they meet mine

take what u want from me
uh, theres nothing left of me
flashback to a past life
you baking me cookies ur mommas own recipe
thought we were so close now you're so gone
and that's my fault i know
thought maybe we could talk it out maybe work it out
I choked

break me down like the mulch you stand on
walk me over with your purple vans on
the ones i got signed by ur favorite band, uh
maybe im livin in my own delusion
maybe youre thinking its convoluted
maybe ur thinking im just a nuisence
ripping my life out the ground, uprooted

I know i wasted your time
but trust me when i say that I'm doing just fine
sure, i lose some sleep but thats alright
your handprints are in conrete in the garden next to mine

so i apologize for all the nights
I left you empty, i hope you get me
I'm turning time to see your eyes
looking up at the sky then they meet mine

the garden

Track 5 From Feltz's Mixtape "Sad Boy Vibes: Vol 2" released in May 2025

5. Desire

Color Blind

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Moon [Prod. KNKR]

lyrics:

i didn’t love you like i said i did
i hated all the dumb shit that you did
and if you saw me now you’d laugh a bit
let’s sugarcoat it and say i always did x2


i like the way you yelled at me
you always ruined my melodies
i warned you before you fell for me
but you said you really wanted me

i broke ur heart
and you broke my code
i hid my pain
and i let it go
do you think about me
anymore 
like i was the best 
that you’ve ever known

sugarcoat it & say i always did (PROD.Kubsy)

prod. @YK prod.
🖤Jamie Kills🖤
@jamiekills
☠️https://www.instagram.com/jamiekillsmusic/
🖤pyrrhic🖤
@dearpyrrhic
☠️www.instagram.com/dearpyrrhic/
lyrics:
What for? what for? what for?
Yeah, your dumb laws don't work no more
Just push that bitch into the bath
take another drag and never look back
Sorry I was sleeping caught me fucking snoring
Change the fucking topic you're so fucking boring
Why won't you leave?
Just let me be
You make me want to scream

What for? what for? what for?
Yeah, your dumb laws don't work no more
Just push that bitch into the bath
Take another drag and never look back

You hate me Cuz’ I’m all gas and no brakes
You say you want to help but all you give is headaches
Now you sit there tremble like an earthquake
Cuz’ I’m making moves and when i move I make the ground shake

Madame with her cat up I’m eating that up
Gat up getting madder you getting capped up
Smacked up get me cracked up you better back up
Cuz' I'm about to act up

What for? what for? what for?
Yeah, your dumb laws don't work no more
Just push that bitch into the bath
Take another drag and never look back
Sorry I was sleeping caught me fucking snoring
Change the fucking topic you're so fucking boring
Why won't you leave?
Just let me be
You make me want to scream

What for? You been breaking up my heart
You want me now Cuz' the way I push the start
I can see you taking drags in the dark
You want to play I'mma smoke you like a dart

New keys and a brand-new whip
Said she want to die, She a goth bitch
Ripped jeans with an all-black fit
And I swear I'mma leave her if she keeps throwing fits

Cuz' the pills ain’t working I need something new
Yeah, the gas ain't strong no more done with needing you

What for? what for? what for?
Yeah, your dumb laws don't work no more
Just push that bitch into the bath
Take another drag and never look back
Sorry I was sleeping caught me fucking snoring
Change the fucking topic you're so fucking boring
Why won't you leave?
Just let me be
You make me want to scream

What For? (feat. Jamiekills)

come a lil closer lemme curse u out
finna blow out my lungs just to put u down
comin from a hurt place see the bottle i down
baby it aint u i was just hurt n found

ion mean to come at u w all this smack
but most times baby i just cant hold back
pushin things off the edge
the only thing img good at
try to tear down my walls
youll tear ur heart out instead (X2)

send me down to the fiery hell
i can happily say i deserve
i earned my spot to rot in peace
dont fuck w what i earned
dont come into my life just to wipe my cries
im contagious girl ill break u right
ion needa taste u in the bottle too
just end me before i end u

come a lil closer lemme curse u out
finna blow out my lungs just to put u down
comin from a hurt place see the bottle i down
baby it aint u i was just hurt n found

ion mean to come at u w all this smack
but most times baby i just cant hold back
pushin things off the edge
the only thing img good at
try to tear down my walls
youll tear ur heart out instead (X2)

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