Lyrics

All of these emotions
I don't know if I can cope with
Why the fuck I even wrote this?
Why the fuck I even post this?

I'm not what I thought that I was anymore
I thought I was ready but now I'm not sure
I don't wanna hurt you again like before
I think we'd better as friends but I don't even know

If I'll find love like yours, should I keep this inside?
All of this time swear I tried

To be what you need
But that isn't mine
I think I should leave
But my thoughts are not right

I think I should be left alone for some time
I don't love myself, how I could I love you right?
Do you even love me or do you love the thought
Of what I just could be? I know now that I'm not

What you think I am
Look at the start
I just couldn't say no
Now just look where we are

*auditory agony*

spotify.

wtfiewt. | Produced by tennis player

Lyrics

Lost inside my stupid fucking head again
Honestly I think that I'd be better off on meds again
You don't wanna know where the fuck my head's been
I don't really like how the fuck my head spins

Thinking bout shit that don't matter like the past
When my heart was broken it was shattered like a glass
Now I'm picking up the pieces, sometimes I get cut
That's what's really happening with me when I be fucking up

So please don't judge too quick, I'm too sick
Tryna find love is pulling teeth & I'm toothless
It's time that I start living life for me, I'm sick of "you" shit
Now why did I like ever giving time to you to lose it?

You don't understand but I'll try to make you
Grab a fucking brick and tie it tight around your fucking ankle
Jump over the bridge and pray to god and tell him fucking save you
Yeah that's the feeling that I get when I start fucking trippin'

Now this the feeling that I get when I can write it out
Words in flow like water ain't no thinking I just type it out
I cannot explain bliss, that's not what my thing is
So don't you tell me "make a happy song" bitch I'm shameless

I like talking bout death, bitch I'm talented at this shit
Fuck a message to the youth bitch I'm happy I'm a misfit
Bitch I'm glad I'm not like stupid fucks
When I'm sad the only time I'm good enough

Life's a game, play your cards
I play mine by living hard
Endless light in total dark
I'm a wildfire

Started by a spark, all I needed was desire
Every time I died, music was my sole reviver
Only time you told the truth was when you told me you're a liar
That pain was all I needed though, that shit left me inspired

You can keep on hurting me
I'll just keep on making these
Songs about the dread I feel
When lay in these burdened sheets

wildfire. | Produced by sorrow bringer

Lyrics

Doc said these will make you better
I don't think I'm getting better
Fuck these pills, my fucking head hurts
I wake up with fucking shivers

Have thoughts bout pulling triggers
I can't get them out my mental
I've got problems that are mental
I don't feel love, not even a little

Wake up, I'm fucking over it
Need to let it out but I keep fucking holding it
Wanna scream and shout into this mic I'm holding
It'll hear me out better than any other person

Don't know how I got here, I don't think that I deserve it
God ain't really out here tryna show me what's my purpose
Sittin' at this screen, still tryna find out if it's worth it
Know that nobody is but still wish I was perfect

I told the doc that I was depressed, he told me back that I was anxious
He pulled a bottle out his vest and he told me that I should take this
I took 'em for a couple months but I was numbed out
I rather feel everything than feel like that my heart out

You wern't there for me, I would do anything for you
You ain't talk to me, I would never just ignore you
I just needed you, you made me feel like I bore you
They won't find a body when the police looking for you

Doc said these will make you better
I don't think I'm getting better
Fuck these pills, my fucking head hurts
I wake up with fucking shivers

Have thoughts bout pulling triggers
I can't get them out my mental
I've got problems that are mental
I don't feel love, not even a little

shiver. | Produced by septfree

Lyrics

dear me,
love,
you

Lost in thought, I'm lost a lot
But if you ask I'll say I'm not
I never cared for fucking help
Cause no one really fucking cares

I'm not excused, I do it too
Cause what the fuck we supposed to do
When all we learned at every turn
Was people just like using you?

I know the feeling that you get when you just wanna scream
But you don't cause you don't want the ones around you to believe
That what you need is mental help when that's not what you fucking need
What you need is fucking love but all you have is fucking drugs

I don't wanna talk so I just sing behind a fucking screen
Yeah we both speak English but you can't distinguish what I mean
There's a barrier thats heavier than Earth that's in between
You and me and it just fucking hurts that you ain't hearing me

If not for music, I would not be where I am today
I'm still not where I wanna be but where I was I'm far away
I met this girl, I'm thankful she stuck by my side along the way
This line right here don't fit the song, it's just to say I love you babe

Now can y'all stop sayin' that I only talk about the bad?
I can talk about the good but that's not where my talent's at
I turn broken pieces into art for broken people
So they know that there's some good inside when all they feel is evil

detmer, garrett

dearmeloveyou. | Produced by miercoles

Produced by tennis player

Lyrics

Truth is I'm a liar
I can't go to heaven my soul already on fire
This is shit, I can't even get a grip
I been walking on a cliff and I think that I'm bouta slip

Like woah, I can't hold on
No more I'm so done
Go just like everyone else
We went through the same thing but you ain't feel what I felt

You don't know the cold in my bones
You don't know the ghost in my home
You don't feel the hate in my veins
You don't know my story, we ain't even on the same page

I just wanna feel alive
I don't wanna feel like this, I'm dead inside
Maybe in another life
I won't need to think about another life

Maybe you won't leave me for another guy
Maybe you won't tell my ass another lie
Maybe I won't give a bitch another try
Maybe I won't give a shit and you'll just die

Bird brain, head cage, I'ma let it fly
I don't think about the pain tonight
I can't get away from the pain inside
All I feel is hate, I just wanna say goodbye

I can't heal with all the pain I deal with
I don't wanna feel it no more, I wanna kill it
Death to what's in me, demons I know many
But one's always closer than the others, like a brother

Truth is I'm a liar
I can't go to heaven my soul already on fire
This is shit, I can't even get a grip
I been walking on a cliff and I think that I'm bouta slip

Like woah, I can't hold on
No more I'm so done
Go just like everyone else
We went through the same thing but you ain't feel what I felt

You don't know the cold in my bones
You don't know the ghost in my home
You don't feel the hate in my veins
You don't know my story, we ain't even on the same page

I just wanna...
I don't wanna feel like this, I'm....
Maybe in a...
I won't need to think about a...

anotherlife.

Prod. MONO SEMBLE

Lyrics~

Chillin in the dark 
Where my demons fuckin like to play
Tryna heal my heart 
It’s been pierced by a jagged blade 
Rip that shit apart 
Got me feelin some typa way
I don’t feel a spark 
Fuckin numb from pain I hide away 

Demons steady ragin
I been fuckin patient
Bottled up my hatred 
With what I was made d
You a fuckin lame bitch
Pussy boy you ain’t shit 
Hit ‘em with the stainless
Put ‘em on the pavement 

When the Bass hits 
Imma make it quick 
Fuckin painless 
Dangerous
Heard em talkin shit 
Had to fade em 
Lane switch 
Cut em up 
I ain’t fuckin waitin 
Drained em
Thunder struck
Now it’s Precipitatin

Like rain
Hit you more than once 
When that clip bangs 
Switch blade
How I’m havin fun 
When you play games 
Mistakes 
I won’t let you make 
It caused my pain 
I hate 
Every one who’s fake 
I hope they die away

By the way 
If you switch up like the night n day
Imma wake 
Every demon up that hides away 
All the pain 
That I bottle up with my burning hate
Like my blade
My words cut you up inside your brain

People hear my music 
N think im a bit insane but 
You haven’t been through shit
You pussies don’t know true pain 
Yea I fuckin knew it
All ya stories fuckin fake
Bitch you lookin stupid 
I think it’s time you walk away

Honestly 
I don’t give a fuck if you’re fond of me 
Pondering 
In my fuckin orb, for where I wanna be 
I Probably 
Otta wake up the fuckin god in me 
Wondering 
In this fuckin realm, you ain’t stopping me

I’ve been so damn patient 
I’m so sick of waitin 
For my fuckin fate bitch 
I can’t fuckin stay this 
Isn’t how I’ll make it 
So I gotta take this 
Bar and fuckin raise it
To the top, where I’m aimin’

Lay em out 
You a toy in my fuckin playin grounds 
Spray em down
If they actin tough wanna play around?
Painted out
With their fuckin blood “you won’t make it now”
Think about 
How you should’ve just took a safer route


Fucked around 
And I made that bitch fuckin find out
Imma drown 
Them in my pain, with the lights out
Like how
I did with my blade, burning right now
Find out
Why my bottled hate, I put in my sound

Pondering

Lyrics

I got a bottle of pills and a mind full of bad shit
Imagining shit, I hope I don't take action
Fuck my past, 'cause I still ain't past it
If I get in my car, I might crash it

Living lies that we were told were true
Used to talk, now I'm ignoring you
Fucking stuck and don't know what to do
Except for make a song and hope it pushes through

Working for a day that I'm not like this
I don't like to talk, that's why I write shit
Talent from the dark, I ain't on no bright shit
I'm on some deadboy, post death type shit

I'm just like you
I just wanna live life just like you
You say "I wanna be just like you" 
But I promise I'm nothing to look up to

I'm lifeless, stupid, broke, and I'm sad
Love like cupid, I never had
Won't get through this, I never have
Chance for some new shit, I think I'll pass

I know I hurt you, I'm sorry for that
You might get stuck if you go in my head
That's why I try to not let no one in
I don't need more pain from losing a friend

Antidepressants all over my bed
Don't know if I wanna take 'em again
I think I wanna feel the pain instead
If I can't feel that, then I'm honestly dead

cupid. | Produced by HXRXKILLER

Lyrics

I've realized that this world is truly Hell and all the devils that we're scared to face are here and just as real
In my eyes the universe put Earth as jail, we destroy and we consume, we know but we don't even care
Sometimes I look up and just sit and stare, then I start to wonder if a God was ever really there
Maybe we are just what we really need, we're going through the pages one by one but we don't even read

Sometimes I hate to make this deep shit but then what's the point in living life if I don't understand? To make cash, buy shit and be compared? I'm sorry but I'm sure my purpose doesn't lie in being there
I don't even really wanna do more, I just wanna learn how to live, laugh, and feel more
But I been taking shortcuts, smoking 3 or 4 blunts, taking tabs, and using different pills more

I'm pretty sure that music is my purpose, I sat down then got up and didn't realize that I wrote this
It isn't really hard for me to make a song
I just find the right beat, close my eyes and sing along
It honestly feels that fucking easy, the hard part is thinkin' bout how more people can hear me
There goes my human need to feed more
cause I've got some numbers but I still feel like I need more

95% of people I meet are fake as fuck and bullshit just because it can exist to be
It's not that they're bad or they're living wrong, I just know there's people out there that exist in more
I think we all could but what most see is all of the material they give us but we don't need
The layers fall deeper than that, it gets darker than black, I wish that you could understand

veil. | Produced by Encore

Produced by Miler

Lyrics

Pain inside, I'm not alright, I'd rather die than to be alive
Every time I see the light, I get thrown back to darker side
What's wrong with this mind of mine? Heaven's gone, I'll never find
I want love but never mind, cause it always leaves me less than fine

I'm never getting better, since I lost her can't forget her
Let my thoughts out on my twitter, then delete 'em when I'm not as bitter
She don't care, I know that, if she did wouldn't of wrote that
Or maybe I'm just so fucked that I fuck everything I have up

On the edge, please don't lie
I might fucking go psycho
Voice in my head, God oh my
Telling me things that I don't like no

Try to ignore what I think I'll do
But one day I might just be through
Either on me or all on you
I think I need help, don't what to do

If you think I'm just making songs for the fun
Come and meet me, I'll show you what I'm on
Don't believe me, I'ma show you that you wrong
Then you'll just be another part of my song

To the ones that wanna be friends
Don't try cause It always just ends
To the girls that wanna try and love me
I'm telling you now don't trust me

Gave my heart to one girl
She made me feel fucking stupid
Told everyone she was my world
Ran to her love, she fucking juked it

But I will always have love for her
She the one only that helped me through it
Girl you got me lovesick
Now I'm all alone just fucking puking

lovesick.

✦ W/ @yourlocalzero + @thebelfryluna
✦ Prod. @thebelfryluna
✦ Cover art by me
✦ Mastered by Sebastian Metzner at LittleMediaStudios Berlin

OFFICIAL LYRIC VIDEO

"Pale Blue" w/ Local Zero & The Belfry Luna

Art By Muhammed Çelebi

Lyric Video: https://youtu.be/ELQ9G351ESQ

Lyrics

Smoke in my lungs suffocating my thoughts
I can't think fucking straight, I get so fucking lost
I'm not okay, like bitch what you thought?
I see death as a phase and I wanna evolve

Leave me the fuck alone, don't say that you care cause I know you don't
I might just break my phone, I don't wanna talk about nothing no more
I might fucking fold on myself, I need help bitch
I don't like the soul I was dealt, I might sell it

Helpless how I see myself in my eyes
Melting, I'm so hot
Is this what hell is? I might unveil it
Watch me get reckless

I don't think you wanna see how fucked up and dark I get
Okay I just wanna be deceased, don't care how I get there
I just might do it myself, I'm so selfish
Where do I go with all the pain I need help with?

I don't know, I might fucking go
To a loaded gun, tell my brain to blow
And if that ain't it, I'm headed to a bridge
To drown myself and my thoughts in a dark abyss

I don't care about my life
All I wanna do is die
I don't wanna see the light
Unless it's God to say goodbye

To the worst soul that he ever made
Never I'm not more so that I'll be okay
This body is foreclosed, I'm not here to stay
Head gone look like morse code when I let it spray

Pondering

Explicit

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