thoughtform collective - February 2021

produced by DRK: https://soundcloud.com/deearrkay
ft. and mixed by eternity: https://soundcloud.com/killeternity
art: https://www.instagram.com/awkwardspacecat/

sentiment (ft. eturnity) (prod. drk)

I made this song for my daughter <3 to show her how much i love her
Prod. IOF

(Lyrics)
You are the best gift for me
The best thing I could ever ask for
You give my life a new meaning 
How could I ever want more 
I wanna be the one you run up to
I wanna be the one you look up to
I wanna do everything for you
I wanna be everything for you

Cause You saved me from myself 
It couldn’t be anybody else 
You saved me from myself
It couldn’t be anybody else 
One look at your face I knew that
I was never, never gonna go back
I’m gonna be who you need me to be
A father that loves you for eternity 

Never make you doubt your self worth
I’ll try protect from the worlds hurt 
I’ll do everything that I can 
I’ll do everything to be a man 
Cause you opened up my eyes
And now Ive realized
That’s there’s so much more to love
You’re everything I could ever want 
Cause you opened up my eyes 
And now I’ve realized
That theres a reason for my life 
And you’re the reason why

Mixed by Yago Beats

Saved me from myself (prod. IOF)

First single off the EP, "Liminality: Volume II" out February 26th

"I'm trying to let them know, that in this whole world, there's at least one person who cares about them"

reminiscers in a parking lot / unconditional love

Oblivion is the first single off of my upcoming project Obake Pt 1
It is the first piece of many in this album, I hope you enjoy

LYRICS: (SOUNDCLOUD HAS A STUPID CHARACTER LIMIT SO I HAD TO LEAVE THE CHORUS OUT)
down in the sewer with rats
get the attention they wanted attack
what in their eyes doesnt equal a match
lower life forms taking hits on the mat
that’s how they seem em
not worthy breathing
genuine people are busting they ass
to be thrown under the bus or swept under the rug by the predators looking for cash
libido is driving the raps
the water is shallow they still gonna crash
the bigger they are is the harder they fall so lurking in shadows is where ill be at
so what’s the deal with that
and i don’t know what a follow mean
when it’s looked at as a profit margin and not a human being

tell me what youre running from behind that big façade
a masquerade of liars think that they’ve already won
but the universe is changing constant motion leaves no one
immortal from the passage of time get up start to run

all i wanna see is the motion of a dream
predicting the trajectory of shots to make a scene
all good attention what you mean? think that but honestly
id rather be no one than have a public perception that isn’t me
leave me alone when i want you to
perceive a ghost when i talk to you
an automatic response when i shut down but that’s all i do
okay to feel uncomfortable no progress made when you’re complacent
maybe it’s time to face it maybe you’re not ready to race yet
and i never wanted to be seen as an enemy people don’t know me don’t give me a chance are they phony
for not liking me but they’re excitedly jumping onto the train that is igniting me
making a wave with my homies collectively
showing u up not even trying it’s flawlessly
work with autonomy battling herds of the sheep with no shepherd and honestly
it’s weighing down when emotion is audible
hard to decipher im saying applaud a full effort i think it’s commendable to work even if youre feeling expendable
guess imma send a full message to those who will hear this
kind of a passage of bastardized music
that’s feeding off of a self induced tension
got many problems i haven’t yet mentioned
but you never could top me and honestly probably won’t even grasp me conceptually
even right next to me you’ll be impressed by me
look at me close hold the talent internally
and im not saying im perfect im flawed from my head to my toes and that’s not even all
that’s is wrong but when i hop on a song
don’t doubt for a second i won’t fucking kill it
there’s rainy weather forever the garden will leave me forlorn im just getting started
ill peak from the curtain 33 times if i can get one glimpse of the sunshine
im not done yet
ill do this as long as i need to
till im tied to a tourniquet everyone takin bets this is a goal that i’ll see through
i came up with a vision intentions intelligible
wrote all my words and im making em legible
don’t think that im pitiful pill bottle full of oval shaped chalky blue and white chemicals
ive been sentimental bout music a little bit
some is outdated but i don’t regret it
cause without the beginning my music would never be what it is now and im thankful i did it
two years ago i made my start
to embark on a journey how i make my art
and you could never me compare to anyone else
wanna help other people while im helping myself
im a monster lyrical posture straight up not sure if this’ll ever make a pay stub
face up never gonna look down this town home to me but if i could i would leave it right now
if it led to something bigger than this everything until now been a swing and a miss
ive had victories my centerpiece is my originality tripping it u ever think that ill miss
cause im on this my guilty conscience filthy stop this before i get nauseous
i feel sick when things don’t work out
but imma never give up that’s what all of this this is really about

oblivion [prod. chxse bank]

i wish i

New single "Just some dumb kids" 
a new style for me!! drop a like and comment <3
(prod. yungspolier) i keep the tagged beat in to show them more love<3

Stream on Spotify!

Just Some Dumb Kids (prod. Yungspoiler)

Produced by Lavender_Txwn (@user-757072975) & Horosha (@horoshamusic)
Guitars by Jolst (@jolst)
Mixed & mastered by Horosha
Featuring Kanashi (@kanashisadface)
Art by svnam (@svnam)

Listen on Spotify!

Spotlight w/ Kanashi (Prod. Lavender_Txwn & Horosha)

Produced by Lavender_Txwn (@user-757072975)
Mixed & mastered by Horosha (@horoshamusic)
Featuring svnam (@svnam)
Art by svnam

Guys Like You w/ svnam (Prod. Lavender_Txwn)

A song for premature goodbyes. 

Second single off the EP "Liminality: Volume II" out 2/26

Liminality: Volume II

Swan Song

Slam then Door is the second single off of my upcoming project Obake Pt 1

produced by @scottysplash

LYRICS:
everybody talkin like they think that i’m mad
tip toeing across the room they donning a mask
these seemingly meaningful conversations don’t last
in the fast lane past pain killing shit i level up my own brain
sacred when i talk cause i’m taking my own time
listen when i speak to understand how i’m confined
i don’t give a shit bout the plays it’s a past time
hobby to mentality directing my own life

is it such a sin to have a life that i live
satisfactory in nature while i live on the wind
live on the breeze go through leaves on the trees
what u know about me just the music and scene

lost what my name meant (result of the pain)
don’t know where i am (think that i’ve gone insane)
but i’m on top of my shit bumping hits in my crib
got no ice on my wrist but i’m as cold as it gets
watch the door slam
apologizing for the forced hand
these days all the cards look the same
so i’m playing this game i go so much to gain
melmige the name i’ll take that to my grave

i could never talk shit be honest
all my energy is spent on me cause i’m on this
put out another track gain some traction
lose it same week and i’m right back to grinding
u wound never know what it is like to me be
so keep the judgement to urself and just watch what i achieve
fuckin tired of this trash feel it’s all that i see
feel and breathe this become therapy intertwined in melodies

feel it weighing down heavy when i am alone
friends hit me up but i’m not on my phone
two orange bottles with zoloft to cope
think i fell in love with the numbing tho
been in decline since i left my home
the price of freedom kills the soul
i’m independent but at what cost
why can’t i help but feel so fucking lost
every song u hear is just the way i deal with shit
indulgent in the pain so i turn my troubles to music
if u don’t like it dont listen play someone else instead
all this shit for me to deal with my broken head

slam the door [prod. scotty splash]

"Liminality; noun anthropology; the state of transition between one stage and the next, especially between major stages in one’s life or during a rite of passage"

All songs recorded, mixed, and mastered by Horosha

The Insomnia Inn (coffee and cigarettes)

It's dangerous to go alone: take this

additional vocals by Pheonix "Honey Nugs" Decker

All songs recorded, mixed, and mastered by Horosha

awakening

the sorrow of potential lost

the midnight path

New York City represent, represent-sent


All songs recorded, mixed, and mastered by Horosha

the boroughs

produced by: thersx (https://soundcloud.com/thersx)
mixed by me
art: https://www.instagram.com/awkwardspacecat/

{HOOK}
I just do my
ghost, walk, no, talk
Heart, throb, time, bomb
ghost, walk, no, talk
Un, done, can't stop
Disappearing up into the nether
Pain is searing to make it feel better
ghost, walk, no, talk
Heart, throb, time, bomb

{VERSE}
Everything falling apart
Severing all of my art
Embedding itself in my heart
Sediment setting in park
Selling a shell of a spark
Quelling a yell with a tarp

I can't, even, find a, meaning
Lost, soul, well has, deepened
Why they, creeping, cliff has, steepened
Like my, tea, take a, knee

Why the fuck are they fleeing, man I don’t see a reason
I don’t see a higher being, ain't nobody peeking
Through the clouds, I have found nothing I can believe in
I am bound, by the crown, now I must get to bleeding

I don’t wanna do this all on my own
I am dropping I am slumped in my throne
Absence of commas I cannot condone
Do I exist so they can feel at home

{HOOK}
I just do my
ghost, walk, no, talk
Heart, throb, time, bomb
ghost, walk, no, talk
Un, done, can't stop
Disappearing up into the nether
Pain is searing to make it feel better
ghost, walk, no, talk
Heart, throb, time, bomb

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