POLAR DEPT. (members only)

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https://open.spotify.com/album/3fyLWUutYoynK15Nvcmy3j?si=V1VhnLRCRLePm3aOeioe3Q&dl_branch=1

beat prod Vespa (river + bea)
vocal engineering and shit master by me
https://soundcloud.com/r1vyr
https://soundcloud.com/woe-is-bea

fake fans (bea x river)

drawbridge

Know I gave a thousand reasons not to like me
I got something wrong with me demons excite me
All this hatred in my heart it burns inside me
Imma fuck myself up she gon stare politely 

I’ve been takin all these drugs cause they entice me
I’ve been left out in the cold daily nightly
When I wake up in the night I know I see things 
Please don’t tell me that you know just how I’m feeling

I know that’s it’s not true 
If you saw what I see you’d believe it too 

When I’m asleep inside my dreams 
All of the demons are what i see
Hateful remarks they telling me
Rise from their grasp with lsd

It's so cold in the snow
Why did you have to go
When I needed you most
When I needed you most
You left me in the past now 
I won't ever forget it
 I will never forget it

Demons excite me

Demons Excite me w/ Thrakkz (prod. SPRNG)

And I hope you know your lies I can see through

Look at you now
Take it one day at a time just to be you

I’ve been waiting all this time just to see you
And I hope you know your lies I can see through
Take it one day at a time just to be you
I just don’t wanna believe you

I’ve been searching 
You’ve been lurking 
Somewhere in the background 
Though I’m hurting
It’s for certain
I won’t take you back now

When I said to you I’ll let you down
You didn’t believe me look at you now

I’ve been waiting all this time just to see you
And I hope you know your lies I can see through
Take it one day at a time just to be you
I just don’t wanna believe you
Kinda like it when you cry and you bleed too
CauseI live another life you can’t see too
Take it one day at a time take it all away

I refuse to believe it was me tellin you to stay with me tonight 
You pictured you and me by the sea dont wan see you till I’m treated right

And I know you just don’t see it
But you’re dead to me
I really just don’t wanna believe it what you said to me
now

I’ve been waiting all this time just to see you
And I hope you know your lies I can see through
Take it one day at a time just to be you
I just don’t wanna believe you
Kinda like it when you cry and you bleed too
Cause I live another life you can’t see too
Take it one day at a time take it all away
Cry and bleed.

Cry & Bleed (prod. IMMORTAL)

leave me alone pt2 feat.kidbenzo prod.puhf

Prod. MrKvmira

(Lyrics)
I know you hate me and that’s alright 
I can’t make you love me in the moonlight
Don’t put my ashes in an urn
Just sit there and watch me burn

Every night you find a way to make me feel like ima die 
I’ve been living in my brain I can see from thee inside
I’ve been walking in the rain disregarding all the lies
If you thought I was insane would you walk out of my li-

I see corpses in the night
Is it normal? Torment through the night
I feel horrible mourning with a knife
With the bones and the blood that surrounds me
Honestly I feel like you’ll never learn
I’ve been around for a while and I know you’re hurt 
Don’t put my ashes in an urn 
Just sit there and watch me burn

Every night you find a way to make me feel like ima die 
I’ve been living in my brain I can see from thee inside
I’ve been walking in the rain disregarding all the lies
If you thought I was insane would you walk out of my life

I see corpses in the night
Is it normal? Torment through the night
I feel horrible mourning with a knife
With the bones and the blood that surrounds me
Honestly I feel like you’ll never learn

Is It Normal To Be Afraid?

if sm1 is out there

4G (shattered)

dropped outta school. (prod.rollie)

Mastered by 𝓝𝓔'𝓔𝓡𝓓𝓞𝓦𝓔𝓛𝓛 @iamaneerdowell

(Lyric Visualizer)
https://youtu.be/YQAlLwVdYiw

(Lyrics)
Fucked up, gonna fuck it up again
Where's the cup, somebody pour another drink

I been trying to forget, every memory that we had
No I don't wanna go back, leave it how it is like that
Feel the weight upon my chest, wondering when will this end
I feel like I'm fucking dead, put the lead into my head

Thought you were an angel, I guess I was wrong
Cause you don't have a halo, and now I see the truth that's gone right by
I see all the lies you hold, I see all the times you sold me out
I see all the lies you told, I see all the time that passed by

I felt blinded by all the lies that you told me
And I know better not gon' hold you
And I know better not gon' get fooled 
And I know better not gon' get used

Fuck that, I know I'm not a tool for you, but I was a fool for you 
Maybe I got used to you being around

I been trying to forget, every memory that we had
No I don't wanna go back, leave it how it is like that
Feel the weight upon my chest, wondering when will this end
I feel like I'm fucking dead, put the lead into my head

Poison in my veins but the pain wont go away
You tell me I need to change, I'm a mess I know, okay
Wake up the next day then forget about yesterday
Everything remains the same, it don't matter anyway

Listen to @icarus_lurks 🖤

Dead Til Dawn ft. IcarusLurks [timeless]

Recorded 2020

LYRICS

[Verse]
Dust blows hard on this cracked red ground
Sun burns hotter can't cool it down
Every step feels like dragging lead

[Prechorus]
Ain't no mercy in the southern edge
Ain't no mercy no place to pledge

[Chorus]
Southern edge it's a cruel embrace
Takes your heart leaves an empty space
Southern edge yeah it cuts like steel
Makes you wonder what's fake what's real

[Verse 2]
Rivers dry where the whispers die
Sky turns black like it's asking why
Roots grow deep but they never heal

[Prechorus]
Ain't no shelter on the southern edge
Ain't no shelter just a razor's edge

[Chorus]
Southern edge it's a cruel embrace
Takes your heart leaves an empty space
Southern edge yeah it cuts like steel
Makes you wonder what's fake what's real

Southern Edge

about living in two worlds - the crushing weight of reality and the liberating escape of imagination.

The hours consume, they grind me to dust
A life built on anger, depression, disgust
Day after day, the weight of my skin
Is the shape of failure, my ugly twin

I dream that I’m flying, a phoenix of flame
I breathe in the colors, they know me by name
I live in the Out Side, my home for the night 
The dream is my real life and all else is lies

Im the puppet they laugh at, torment, and tease
The world doesn’t care, it delights in disease 
Rage is my blood, a hatred within 
I’d rather be dead than forced to fit in

I dream that I’m flying, a phoenix of flame
I breathe in the colors, they know me by name
I live in the Out Side, my home for the night 
The dream is my real life and all else is lies

I raise my hand, cast a finger in blame,
Yet three are turned back, cursing my name.

Look at me flying, a blue phoenix in flames
rose from the  ashes and carries no name
I live in the Out Side, I created this place
Its just for me, this is my space

I am the unwanted, forsaken, alone
Don't want your pity, I stand on my own
Rejected, defiant, maligned by design
The unwanted are many, and their strength is mine

Out Side

Out | Side

To You

Polar Dept. | Days Ruined

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