i hope ur doing okay man, pls continue to make music !!!

i love your signature transition.. the click then the flow

a relatable title. i can’t get over how good this is, and how you continue to do it again and again. i hope you find what you’re looking for before you go.

i love you so much (your music aswell), i hope you know that there are thousands if not millions people that feel the same way about you and your works

i love your music a lot, i have it on sometimes when i sleep, often throughout the day while i work or talk to people. i tell quite a few about your work! i wonder about your process sometimes.  but what you make means a lot to me. i've struggled for my entire life with what seems to be schizophrenia & bipolar disorder. anything that pacifies that part of my head i value a ton. so thanks! <3

I walk a lonely road
I don’t know if I chose it or if I came to it
But I’m often alone

People are hard
I want to be a friend but I don’t know how to stop being a stranger
So it’s better if I just don’t try
It’s just easier to be alone

And yet
I hate being alone 
I wish I could have a friend to be with
And I do
But he’s not always around
And while it’s easier to be alone
It hurts so much more

The more that I grow 
The more that I come to know
Yeah, it’s hard to be someone
And it hurts to be somebody 

That was part of the chorus of a song by half alive
I wish I had more people, even 1 more person, to talk about it with
Someone that I can just hang out with

MHIE

hold on

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released by @dreamscapeyt

days go by

widx. - ray of light (slowed + reverb)

as long as you love it.

as long as you love it. (+ trapeia)

free download: https://tidecruz.bandcamp.com/album/nothing-is-real-part-xxi
so sorry for the delay. ive spent the last 7 months writing this album, in between all the ambient singles/albums. i hope for any listeners of the "nothing is real" albums, it is worth the wait. on a very personal note, these albums are the only thing that brings me self worth. i am deeply impacted and thankful some of my ambient songs have connected with you all, in particular "i was only temporary". however, despite their impact on social media, i personally do not feel any accomplishment when writing ambient. as many long time listeners of the "nothing is real" project have mentioned, the simple ambient songs are in essence, just an outro of a "nothing is real" song. i too share this sentiment. i think i am capable of making a lot more emotionally impactful music, not just for others, but as means of helping myself. i struggle with feeling adequate, and because of my events in my life it has become of my personality to want to prove to myself, before anyone else, that i can do something great, even if there is nobody around to see it. even for years and years before the viral song "i was only temporary", these "nothing is real" albums we're written and released one after another with little to no support, or viewership. i hope that, in my efforts to prove to myself that i can make something truly one-of-a-kind, and original, that it will inspire people to not copy others, and find their own sound. i think alot of people, with a platform have a similar message about wanting to "make the world a better place". i think this is a good message of course, i just would like for anyone reading this to know, that my message is a bit more specific. with the  "nothing is real" series, i want to share that, in this world today, i think there are so many fake things, people, friends, etc. i do not want to inspire people to copy what i do, or anyone else. i want to release these albums and hopefully make people say "wow, this is so much effort, and it does not sound like anything i have ever heard! maybe i should not try to keep up with trends, or other people, or let them make me feel inadequacy any longer. this music inspires me to do my own thing, and master it, and make something unique and original that can tell my own personal story". i think individualism is being lost today, in a world that prioritizes followers, and followings. i want to leave behind something that will inspire others to look within themselves, and find approval in their own ideas, instead of constantly looking to imitate what already exists. i think the next most wonderful and beautiful thing that will help a lot of people, is lying in wait inside one of you, and to find it, i hope whatever i have done may help people become introspective enough to dig it up, and share with all of us. anyways, thanks for listening and reading all this. <3 - mhie

nothing is real, part XXI

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play this when i can’t sleep

from one, many

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Stream "memories143"
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Released by @dreamscapeee

memories143

this song was written during treatment in a particularly bad time. right now things are worse, but this was different. whenever i get new lesions in my brain, they attempt to close them using a powerful steroid called "prednisone". no, not like steroids body builders use, these target cuts in my brain that form and essentially singe them closed. after 30+ lesions i stopped counting them and stopped asking. i don't even want to know how trashed my brain is at this point. but anyways, they give me a very high dose of this. usually 1250mg. all i can really say is, it feels like you just drank 10 cups and coffee and a couple redbulls in one sitting. it feels like your blood is made of battery acid. its pretty much impossible to sleep, and i have to take these dosages for several days. sometimes for 25 days straight, at 25 pills a day gradually reducing the dosage by 1 pill a day. anyways. in these times, my insomnia becomes much worse. i already cannot sleep, but during these treatments sleep is out of the question. ill go a bit insane from sleep deprivation. in these times im looking so desperately for a sense of calm. a sense of peace or serenity. all i could really do is try to make a calm or beautiful sounding song to give myself something. not something id already made, but just exactly what i needed to hear at that time, and i guess this was that song. i never released this one, but things have been especially bad lately again, and i heard this track again and realized it helps me just as much now as it did then. maybe its time to share it, and maybe someone out there will feel the peace i do, when listening <3 big love to you all. thank you for reading, and listening .

nothing is real, part XVI

album

prednisone song

easier, is not always better.

thanks for listening<3 i hope you'll check out more of my music like this song.
this song + all my ambient tracks on my playlist here
soundcloud: soundcloud.com/tidecruz/sets/my-head-is-ambient
spotify version: open.spotify.com/playlist/4IB4U1ieSUcEor3LQkOAIy

its just easier to be alone

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thanks for listening<3 i hope you'll check out more of my music like this song.
this song + all my ambient tracks on my playlist here
soundcloud: soundcloud.com/tidecruz/sets/my-head-is-ambient
spotify version: open.spotify.com/playlist/4IB4U1ieSUcEor3LQkOAIy

who will save us

below the links is a long write up about this song. thanks for listening<3 i hope you'll check out more of my music like this song.
this song + all my ambient tracks on my playlist here
soundcloud: soundcloud.com/tidecruz/sets/my-head-is-ambient
spotify version: open.spotify.com/playlist/4IB4U1ieSUcEor3LQkOAIy
about this song: i’ve felt that ambient has been very stale for a long time now. i never wanted to start making ambient music, but it felt like the only chance to get out there. my heart will always be in my “nothing is real” albums, and i can’t thank enough those of you that have begun to listen to them. i’m glad that sort of, simplifying my music - to ambient - ended up being how i came to know you all with “i was only temporary”, and was able to meet you all, but i think it’s time to expand this genre for myself, for my sanity! when i make simple ambient songs for me it feels like im shackling myself to a bunch of rules and restrictions. while i understand that simple music is often best for a lot of people, and i very much appreciate the way these simple calm songs can help others and myself, ive been trying to think of a way to bring just some of the complexities or experimental nature of “nothing is real” over. ambient used to just be sort of a small component of nothing is real, like a base layer, and often at the end of a 5 or 7, or sometimes even 9 minute long nothing is real song, i would try to sort of attach an extra ambient piece of music to the end of the song. not always ambient, just whatever felt right. 
i really liked doing acoustic versions of a song built right in to the song itself, so i think its time to bring this NIR idea to my ambient. i dont see the point in releasing 2 separate songs. to me just like many many times through the 21 “nothing is real” albums, i say.. “we’re already here listening to the song, just put the acoustic version in this song too!!l i’m excited to explore this concept in my ambient now too, and not just the NIR series, and i hope you guys will find it as refreshing as it is for me. it sort of helps me feel better about making simple music that a lot of you enjoy, when personally my heart will always be with making those really complex nir songs !! anyways if you read this far, thanks so much. and if you have listened to any of the NIR albums, i wish i could shake your hand and tell you how much it means to me.

i (don't) deserve forgiveness

when i'm a ghost
i'll follow you everywhere
when you need me the most
i'll already be there

when u need me the most

LOVE - Tibetan Relaxing Music (27)

Tout commence dans l'Eau-Mémoire, source vivante au pied de Karsak’a, le rocher et la source. Dans la Grotte des Échos, les voix anciennes se répondent, jusqu’à l’accord discret d’Hepicart. Alors s’ouvre l’océan intérieur, marée calme menant à la Bibliothèque fractale, où chaque fragment porte le tout. Plus haut, les nappes d’air nous relient, et Rosika — Mémoire douce apaise le rythme. Puis surgit (O)vni (N)ew (U)niverse, apparition d’un ailleurs déjà présent. Enfin, les Rivières-cosmos reprennent leur cours, reliant la terre et le ciel, laissant circuler la mémoire.

Eau-Mémoire

‎‎creator of the "nothing is real" album series. (2018-present)
hello. my brain is killing me from a disease called multiple sclerosis. i am making as much music as i can before inevitability i wake up one day unable to function.  i wouldn't wish this on anybody. thanks for listening.
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its just easier to be alone

my head is empty

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